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mhmm. there's FINALLY a holiday tmr. its high time they sld haf. heee going out wiv my exclassmates tmr. sooo happiiieeeeeeeee. =) prolly watching xmen2 budden like there'll be kwite a few ov us, and i dunno if there'll be seats.. ahh well. i'll be there at wad. 1030? haha madness. =D man im so happie. den afta that i'll prollly go swimmin. kinda fun. ooo i just realise tlt's in the same club as me.. =.= haha. mmm i carn stand it when there isnt aircon in school. cuz like theres no ventilation and i carn breathe properly.. but den again it cld be cuz ive got asthma and stuff. haish.
i reaaaaali want the evanescence cd, (not evenescence =.= please.), but their best songs are innit. ok "my immortal" just rules. budden like yarh... the betta songs arent innit. sigh. and when u download the other songs, they're all interrupted. well most at least. dammit. and i doubt my mum allows me to buy the cd.. nvm larh. stardee hard. do well for one test, and she'll buy it for me. haha. yeap. mother's day comin. odac's selling flowers. gonna buy a bouquet for her. mhmm. okok i think i'd betta go.. ciaozies..
[sometimes in life u feel the fight is over, and it seems as tho e writings on the wall. superstar u finally made it, but once ur picture becums tainted, thats wad they call, rise and fall]
yeah.. just changed my skin! yiiippeeee hahhahaa. i like it!!
ahh mmmm... had music todae.. kwite farn larh.. and tmr's lessons are okaaaaay. carn wait for labour day! =P tryin' ta get the parts for the beegees tribute *nsync did... damn nice. maybe can busk wiv it. i dun gettit.. why do all my entries end wiv "this is" =.=?? well urm kate, it aint easy to keep to one timing. esp wiv bust pple like me and jas and u.. haha. yeap. anyway my main purpose of writing todae ish that i carn stand it!!! jimmy kok ish sooooo sexxyyy!!!! =.==.==.==.= HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA oh gawd.... help....
haish.. my plan to like gif nick da presie in his locker failed. *sobssss* hmmm this morning, my neck was still painful.. so like went to school a bit later. bleagh. den gotta do speech and dra speech all by muhself.. =.= mm yeah. HAISH. haish. im so bored nowadays. and there're so many tests, and i can jux die man.. die..
HAPPPIIIEEEE BDDAAAYYYY NNIIICCCCHOOOOLLAASSSS TANNNNNN!!! HAHA. ahh well. best wishes foreva. cheers kiddo.
" stars shining brite above you. night breezes seem to whisper 'i love you'. birds singing in the sycamore tree, dream a lil dream ov me. say nitey nite and kiss me. just hold me tite and tell me you miss me. while i'm alone as blue as can be. dream a lil dream ov me. stars fading but i linger on, dear. still craving your kiss. im longing to linger to dawn dear. just saying this...."
" im so tired to being here. Suppressed by all ov my childish fears. If u haf to leave. i wish that you would just leave. cuz ur presence still lingers here, and it wont leave me alone. these wounds wont seem to heal, this pain is just too real, there's just so much that time cannot erase. if you cried i'd wipe away all of ur tears, if u'd scream i'll fite away all of your fears, and i held your hand thru all of these years, and u still haf all of me."
"are u aware of wad u make me feel, baby, feels like im invisible to you, like im not too real. didnt you feel me lock my arms ard you, why'd you turn away, heres wad i haf to sae. i was left to cry there waiting outside there grinnin wiv a lost stare, heres wad ive decided. WHy should i care? cause you wunt there wen iwas scared, i was so alone."
this ish abt just exactly how i feel now. with my neck rubbing things in, i feel worse. =.=
lets see.. thats abt wad i feel right now.
okok now i hafta blog le.. havent blogged for a million years.. mmm... kays yestaday was kwite atrocious. see at night, i went to my grandmum's place for dinner. den my cuzin was spose to cum. well i was upstairs playin wiv the cat when i heard a BINGBANGBONG. and i was like.. whadda hellllll. and even the cat ran off. so i caught up wiv it and went downstairs.. whoa i suddenly heard my grandmum crying.. den my cuzins were all there.. i was kinda confused. budden realised that my cuzin banged into the glass panel, and to tell u the truth, ive bumped into it so many timesss..den cuz i figured it must been kwite a hard hit since the sound was so loud. i tell ya man. the glass looks like nothing.. it aint easy to tell. so yeah my cuzin started to haf a nose bleed. den my grandmum.... are u okay are u okay are u okay? are u giddy are u giddy are u giddY? hahaha my cuzin was SO annoyed... haish poor guy man. den i came home, did sum work, and went to bed.
im zai loh. whilst sleeping, i dunno how but i like sprained my neck. it cldnt even move an inch and i was so afraid i fractured my bone. i was like.. =.= =.= =.= HELP! gosh den my bro came in, i told him wad happened and he said its a sprain. well now i can walk abt but wiv my head tilt to one side. why? cuz my neck ish damn damn damn damn painful. but last nite my shoulders were painful too.. so now its a lil betta. man can die. and ive got dance later. i dunno how to teach them...with my head liddat. =.= sheeeesh. and when i try to make it straight. cannot man.. i carn even like exert a lil force dere. damn.... haish okay larh. betta go put my head to rest now.... praying that i'll be able to make it for dance. god bless ME. =P
Currently my favorite song.- a must download.
I've been looking in the mirror for so long.
That I've come to believe my souls on the other side.
Oh the little pieces falling, shatter.
Shards of me,
To sharp to put back together.
To small to matter,
But big enough to cut me into so many little pieces.
If I try to touch her,
And I bleed,
I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe no more.
Take a breath and I try to draw from my spirits well.
Yet again you refuse to drink like a stubborn child.
Lie to me,
Convince me that I've been sick forever.
And all of this,
Will make sense when I get better.
I know the difference,
Between myself and my reflection.
I just can't help but to wonder,
Which of us do you love.
So I bleed,
I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe now...
Bleed,
I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe,
I breathe-
I breathe no more.
====Evanescence-Breathe no more=====
wheee having com stardees now. the friggin peeamass teach aint here. maternal leave. HA. friggin. shes damn irritating i must say. and my relief chinese teacher ish veh irritating too. sigh. and this relief teacha ish veh boring. but at least he dussen scold and nag at us. im searching for like musiqe for our "video clip". doing on.. mmm... teenage years i think. so cheezy. jus like uhhh lightyears. HAHA. anyhow. im adding the sounds in... and i can like pick ani one i want!! lala.. okok betta scoot. ciaoz.
yeeehhaaaa.. finished muh pics... for now.. budden i dunno why e scroll bar ish so far away from the pic.. =.= dus anione noe howta solve it??
mm todae in school... kwite sian larh. yates, my english teacher, was being kwite n annoying person. well hes an old mean english man. yep. science common test like on thursday. sld be alrite larh. jux that kwite freaked out by the math file collections. cuz as usual i jux dun do my assignments, classwork n stuff.. and i carn find them aniwae. and that reminds me i still haf like sum chinese stuff to complete. -.- nasty. hmm. didnt even haf blardee recess. went to com lab and like printed out my stuff.. i oso dunno why i took like so damn long. in the end i was late for class.. ahh well.
im on silent war wiv my mum now. i mean i do talk to her when she asks me stuff. but im not starting ani conversation cuz im me. and when i talk, i talk the way i want. i dun usually watch my tone. and mums are old fashion. she dussen get wad i sae and think everything i say ish phrased veh rudely. i mean, i carn and i dun wanna change the way i talk cuz its realli just me. reflects alot abt me. and like uhhhhhhhh carn stand those pple who act sweet and talk like a sposed angel. SOOO SOFT AH. sorrie carn hear u gurl. ahh well. betta shoot to get muh pics up! later!
lalala.. easter todae. i woke up at... lemme see... 830. the time service starts. =| haha. uhhh yarh den dunno wad hapened larh, got into a quarrel wiv muh mum. ahh well. in church.... was talking to su during service.. she was kwite farnie man. =P short suan-ish but funny. ahh well. i saw ahem todae. haha in a white tank! kate: bushy bushy! haha. aniwae. den went out wiv kate for lunch. at mag cafe. a bit sian cuz there wasnt much to eat.. yep shit i gotta go...blog again later.
ok now for da actual blogging. gosh todae was a super boring day. had tuition for 4 and a half hours. imean cuz my cuzin's teaching me.. she can jux exteeeeeennnnddd as long as she wants.. zhen de shi. mm den came home and stoned.. barely had dinner cuz mum went out for dinner wiv her colleagues.. and they had fresh fresh fresh fresh seafood. i cldnt go cuz ive so much work ta do. sigh but still carn finish it.. hafta read that stupid thick book. not planning to. ahh well. still hafta get the review for task one... okay betta get going. worn out. peace out.
yeap finally got a new skin.. uhh i dunno why mabel's link ish underlined.. kinda odd but i didnt do anithing to it.. =P haha. aniwae.. leave yer msgs on the guestbook kay? remember remember. haha cuz i like this skin kwite a bit and the tag board jux looks ugly.. =) kays... cheers.
bleah. im finaly blogging. i mean im so damn tired these days to even write a whole paragraph abt my day. ahh well. i must say... stupid sars man. i mean it took me such a long time to get my mortal a pressie for her bday. den im not allowed out to get ling's and nick's pressies. kwite irritating. hope i can sneak out tmr... ahh well. went for easter convention in the morning. kwite good larh. i mean the sermon was kwite interesting. da preacher was funny. =P aniwae. i saw him again. =D haha well he looked good larh. but didnt sae hi or smthg. jux did our stuff. hrmm kate was rather funny... she used everyone's fone jux to msg me and ask me like where i am. cuz the convention hall ish veh beeg. mmm yeah had kwite a nice day todae. watched prince of egypt. and i thot i was kwite good. hehe. slow man. i mean they've played it so mani times on telly budden like first time i'm watching it. ahh well. so glad there's like public hol todae. den we haf 3 days of weekends.. the ideal week. =D haish rg kinda sucks now. i walk ard. it prolly isnt like my imagination cuz well my frens were the one who told me. when i walk pass sum sec 3s.. or more like a particular grp of them. they'll all turn and look at me.. like im some criminal. according to muh senior. yeah to them i AM sorta a criminal. kinda strange cuz they all like tlt.. and im like har? okaaaaaay. n cuz hes kwite a gd fren of mine. den they like veh ughghhhhhh kinda thang. ahh well. i mean een zan joan sit gotta noe abt ty and stuff.. ian too. ahh well. too bad they dunt noe her. =P hehe. kkayz gotta go now. ciaoz...
happy birthday to you happy birthday to you happy birthday to linglinnnnnggggggggggggggggggggggg happy birthday to you! cheers!
i saw him today. we did the usual chat-up we always do. things were normal. i tried to avoid him, but i cldn't. i jux cldnt. i was clueless and still am now. demurely as i cld i sat ard him.. trying to divert my attention to my surroundings but at the corner of my eye, without my consience, i observed his every move and action. we laffed at the same joke, so similar and friendly. but do i even exist in his world? maybe i do. but definitely not as much as he means to me. effortlessly he stood up and walked away. i thot that would be e last time i saw him. that is, last time todae. i prayed for the sight of him again, just that one gleam or hi to me will make me dance around the room with delight. reach for the sky and climb every mountain regardless of its height. den when our stuff were ova. no conversation between us, jux the desperate yearn to return home. there i saw him. walk further and further away from me. without turning back. not a word of goodbye. nor anithing close to that. there he walked. closer to the darkness with each step he takes. i felt useless then, not knowing wad to do. no. not that. not hafing anithing to do. i cldn't reach for him and asked him to stay, with me on the rooftop, singing of songs and laffing at silly jokes. jux enjoying the sound of our voices. no. i could not do so. i just stood there, helpless, staring at his shadow till he disappeared into the darkness. this aint no quote rom sumwhere. it's jux wad i felt todae. n how i wanna express.. im not feeling very normal todae. ahh well.
ooooOOOooo i tell ya man, sharon lyke gaf me this webby. going to da abercrombie(n fitch) online shop.. i want the damn skirt and tank and loads of tank and sporty-spag thangs. ahhhhh. i wantttttttttt there's this lyk skirt. no it's a skort. skirt-shorts thang. i mux sae it ISH kwite short. lyke realli lyk short. but it's so damn niceeee. den there's this sports top that looks lyke it. damn damn nicceee.... go to the shop, den girls, den athletic, den look for the pearl racer thang. ahhhh the one wiv majority peenk ish so damn nice. the renata one too, jux maybe it's a lil skimp. but its nicceeeeee. e skirt ish. the kristen terry skort. the majority peenk one too... ahh they've lyke having wad. spring sale now and my mum's prolly gonna buy it for meeeee!!!!! oh kate lykes the exact same thing, the exact same color. hahhahahahaz. bez frens i spose. the meagan tank ish damn nice too. ahh well.
so, i had rehearsals todae. they went kwite well i mux sae. budden. see jason ish the "devil cum satan" person in the musical. and he looked basically lyk sum vampire todae wiv the scary makeup. i mean. the lil kids were lyke scared. no exaggeration. seriously. and i even i barely dared to look up at him (look up cuz he's damn tall larh). zhen de shi scary. and he's clad in black. thru out. kaoz. ahh well. den did a lil hiphop dance, the pple realli carn seem to catch up. o__O guess i'd betta make it a lil easier.
my fren was jux boasting to me abt uhhhh she getting new bf. and lyke loads of pple i noe, do so too. i mean wad, e gurl's 14? 15? unless u telling me u wanna marry the guy. or gurl. why break sum1's heart. i mean in a breakup, one party ish bound to get hurt. so why bother? i mean i guess sum pple are jux crazi ova the guys or smthg. but if they were to think abt it. i hope they noe its stupid. or else it's jux daft. ugh. -disgusted-
you get me high` 12:18 AM
okay as usual i shall write for yestaday. cuz i was so tired, didnt bother comin online. uhhh yarh ok at noon, met in church. met uh mik, oreo, kate, jas, me, elliot, yiling, hannah. i think that's all. oh yarh and pastor graham. went to ntuc nearby ta lyke buy fruits. we bought so many damn things until the bill amounted up to 92 bucks kay. i mean. that much worth of... fruits?! ritee... yarh den i bot lyke peaches for muhself since i havent eaten them in kwite awhile. den went back ta church afta buying lunch, washed the grapes and strawberries. blah blah blah. den slack. slack until 4, den i had worship prac. wah stress man. lyk sum songs are alrite, but there's one song. aiyo so damn hard. can jux die. i played till the blood all rushed to muh fingers. i was playing the piano btw. den fingers lyke wanna crack le. sigh. cuz basically wiv the git, bass git, drums, and kate singing. i carn hear muhself at all. esp when the sound cums from behind. so im lyke smashing the keys jux so it's loud enuff. lala. den we had dance prac. even betta. stupid kimberly. she's wad? uh p2? and she's sooo ddaammmnnnnnnn irrriitttaaatttinnngggg. i mean i noe i dun lyk kids. other than janelle, budden that gurl's jux veh irritating. basically bimbotic bitch. she's got the look of it too. ahhhhhhhaaaaaaahhaaa den jas was satan. hahhahahahaah expressionless kay! super farnie. den we all were laffing so loud. he was lyk. o___O hrmph! kinda thang. wahaahahaha. den my hairband dropped off while rehearsing. lalalala. uh yarh okay i shall go on to todae.
hrmm went for service at 830. dang man. was spose to leave afta worship cuz uh we had ta do the fruits. they said stay for service. its a blessing i didnt fall asleep man. i actualli got thru the whole sermon. good good. haha but i mux say i sld go more often. its definitely betta than yz in the sense that lyk uh there's a msg. yz, we're all youths, mozly slack larh. ahaha. haish aniwae. yeah i had to play todae. i didnt screw up the super hard song. but the easy song. aghauh;au ua;uhvi;auh utuhg;uvgth;augtjgtlu. yarh. haish. ok den had the weirdest violin lesson of all time. but im not gonna takl abt it. haish. okok i think i'd betta get going. tired as usual. haf full dress rehearsal tml. zhen de shi.... haish.
i jux read chunyee's blog. gawd. i mean im sorrie i didnt meana lyk piss him off. or matter-or-factly drift apart. far from it. i mean he was a good fren. jux not terribly close. not as close as he imagined it to be. i feel bad. i do. but i carn help it cuz i had to correct him. i cldnt jux lyke let him haf the wrong idea, and the drifting apart, well i gues yeah it happened afta time flew. but i dunno. im not making the move to talk. but maybe he can? i did the other time we "quarreled" and guess wad? he didnt reply. i dun wanna do it this time. i think its basically up to him. im kwite a social animal im easy to get pass. knowing me's prolly the easiest thing to do, not to mention patching up broken pieces. i think it'll be easy. cuz it dussen concern the heart. yup. sigh i dunno larh. life jux sux.
[every time the wind blows, i see a new direction, a new path dat i should follow. the right path.but should i?]
ahhh uh being me. i didnt blog yestaday. as usual. ahh well. yeah sho wassup u guys. chillin' ard i see. i hope we dun haf school next week. im not prepared to go to sch. not a bit. i dun lyk it. i prefer staying at home. chillin'. jux as i said. sigh. i hate it man. hafing ta do the weirdest stuff in school. okay not weird. maybe jux weird to me. and not pleasant. while at home i can realli chill. and finish my work at my own pace. and i can lyk not wear my super hot sch uni. haish sho todae i went to the dental. whoa lyk ive gotta to thru interview b4 even stepping into the clinic. al the sars qns. reali funny. and yeah when i finally got in. put on muh retainers since i haf my braces out le. shesh. it feels worse than braces. lucky for me. these stuff can be taken out, and i doubt i'll wear it often aniwae. so gross. hrmm i jux found out the pics i took in wales, june last year btw, ish still in muh mum's com. i can get her to send it to me and i can upload it!!! weehhheee!! hehe. haish tml ive gotta b in church. lemme see, from 12-9. jialat see bo. zhen de shi. haish. i gotta go buy all the coconuts and stuff. pineapple, apple pear banana. den i've got worship prac den dance. AHH SHOOT ME LARH. *BANG* haish ok betta run. ciaoz.
ahh todae. early morn, got scolded by my mum for hafing dance prac so damn early. and i sposedly "didnt tell her". wadeva larh. den kate and i JAMMED in da music room for kwite awhile. lazed kwite a bit too. and aniwae. yarh we finished the dance, YAY but sumhow didnt take much effort. hrmm yeah. den came home. played sims. lallallaa. i lyk fekll asleep, den played sum retarded games. called tlt up, sang him a song, den the phone went dead. and stuff stuff. den uh dinner at granny's place. den lalalalala. came home, watched bachelor. OOooooOOOoooo the christi gurl's sho hot........................... BLEAH. not. aniwae. den sat online thru out. dunno why i dun haf much to sae todae. i'll blog tmr.
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