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haha todae was so fun! elaboration:
furst we went to Juying. hehe... damn strange. like we had to wait the the g.o for soooo long. aniwae the edwin chan guy's nice. den we walked past like when we were walking wiv him to our "destinated" classroom. he met like two students from that class.. and he explained like wad... the whole thing we're gonna do. wha lao. den they whisper whisper whisper.. right infront of our faces... we were like.. *brrr* den on our way up.. like this class, the guys started whilstling at us.... like the type when u see chio bu? welll i laffed it off.. (cuz im kwite sure the 6Lers are liddat too), wah lao.... budden const was conplaining like shit.. HAHA. den mr chan was like... =.= thats their natural reaction kinda thing. den went up to the class... hahahha.. eh the guys there are super flirt kay. i mean. yarh he stupidly intro-ed all of us.. den like the guys wanted to noe our ccas and stuff.. while the gurls were so quiet. eeyer.. haha. den like tel no. we were like rollllinnggg our eyes..had fun larh.
barker. whoa man. ok we were late cuz we were late for juying cuz we got lost and everything else was late too. ok wadeva that meant. saw lingling.. den told us we gotta go g.o to like exchange our ezlink cards for visitors pass.. =.= den cldnt buy stuff loh. okok on the way to like the office, there was suddenly this guy running behind us trying to tell us stuff.. only when he caught up with us, did we noe that he was our... uh.. "tour guide"! haha. hes like yeah prettie nice. deputy head pref. guai shit. haha. well den afta all the admin stuff. we were all situated at the canteen. =.= right. yeh den we got the guy to do the survey furst larh! strangely.. he asked me to read out the qns to him den i write.. den later i found out.. cuz he carn spell properly!! haha whoops. he spelled "sense" as "sence" HAHA. okok. den he called friends ova n stuff...den later from the other side ov the canteen, spotted ty and his jing gang. i was like arrrrhh!! must get them!! so ran to catch up. haha damn fricking dao can. like they only took action when i went like "hey!!" hehe. yeha then filled up the stuff(theyre damn thick in the head). hehe. ian like CANCELED the whole qn three damn messily. kao. hahahaa. yeah den after that.. more pple came blah blah blah. den we met like this grp of guys. haha damn cute. they're prettie nice. den const had to like get a guy to help her take a vid on how to use the machinese and everything, since the head RAN off home, n they all pointed to this pref. his name was.. uhhh.. oh yarh.. christopher.. more like chris larh. anything. damn farnie. den we needed him to do it one more time. den his group of friends came up to him while he was doing the vid and went like "YAN DAO!!!" and stuff.. den chris said... i hate my life... WAHAHAHHA.. okok thats like just damn hilarious at that point in time. WHEN the vid was recording summore. wah lao den they took like wad.. half n hour to finish the surveys? nono. survey-cum-essay man. haha. like one guy wrote in the last qn.. wad uhhhh oh this isnt a gd system cuz that way the wadeva becums more high tech and its like defying the word in Revelations and stuff. i mean i guess its nice that u noe pple still apply that to our dirty world now. but innit a tad too unappropriate? hahhaha. essay essay. mhmm.. den like i saw jon poh and stuff. kwite cheezy.. den.. i saw HIM!!! AUEHLAUHC ELUIAHEAUI!!!!!! like AHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND I GOT 3 PIX OF HIM!!!!!!!!!!!! HEHEHEHEHE!! okok man thats just bad. well he was soo cute can. budden the rest all thot he looked gay. =.= i agree larh. budden still cute! haha. budden he was like sooooo strange and cold when i was talking to him. haha anyway. damn didnt getta see druce and ryan. was luking out for them tho. den like we went to the staff room afta collating all the surveys.. not collating. counting. we got 68 surveys done in barker!! woohhhooo!!!! zai zai. oh yarh there was this batch of guys that were just plain annoying. like i stooped down to go ask them to help us.. and they talked to us like gangsters.. hrmf! i mean im not sumone very good to... *re3* and all. but cldnt blow up larh. argh. gross shit. yarh den on the way to de staff room. dere was this GIANT posta with amos' GIANT face there.. we were like...^^?!?! hahaa. damn farnie. aniwae much that ryan says sim's kwite a bastard.. i thot he was kwite nice larh. haha. he sent us all the way to the busstop. wheeeee. yup gotta go back there in july again. and gonna annoy the same bunch of pple again.. HAHA. CANDICE! u missed out on sooo much funn!!!!!!!
den like weiyi joined us for lunch at sushi tei. damn fun larh.haha. ham ure such a twit.. =P uh that one was boring. den weiyi left. i was stranded in town for blardee hell two hours kay!! cuz my mum said she'll be reaching in 20 minutes... den bring me shopping.. so i wait.. and wait... AND wait.. until two hours later THEN she came. well tested the kelly clarkson cd... damn stressful man.. like loads of screaming and stuff.. *hair stands*. yeah den mum like had to gif in to me larh.. so brought me to marche for cake... den realise i wanted to haf dinner there too. ahha den had sausage and mashed potato. man like i mean it was SOO fillling i didnt finish the potato. haish. aniwae. den like bot sInS choc. it was gooood. =) hahhaha yeah. den we went to taka... did i buy anithing there? ehh no.. but almost. den went to op... i carn believe i actually bot board shorts. i mean. i hate wearing them. they're so ugly! and common! and the whole damn world wears board shorts! but like really liked one of them. so bot larh. den i passed by the dog that edwina got for her bday!! AHHH SOOOO CUTE! so i bot a blue one. called it.. macblue. haha so cartoon! and my gawd its huge!!!!! sooo cuttee!! AHHH!! -screams- and lalala.. basically had kwite an experience todae.. hahahha wunder if we'll to go back to barker in july, will it be the same? mmmm.
songs fer da day!
Thankful-Kelly Clarkson
You know my soul
You know everything about me there's to know
You know my heart
How to make me stop and how to make me go
You should know i love everything about you,
Dont you know
Chorus:
That i'm thankful for the blessin
and the lessons that ive learned with you by my side
That im thankful
For love that you keep bringing in my life (in my life)
(thankful, so thankful)
You know my thoughts
Before I open up my mouth and try to speak
You know my dreams,
Must be listenin when im talkin in my sleep
I hope you know i love havin you around me'
Don't you kno
Chorus 2:
Thank im thankful for the blessin
and the lessons that ive learned with you by my side
That im thankful for the love that you keep bringing in my life (in my life)
Dont you know that im thankful for the moments
When im down you just try to make me smile (make me smile)
Thankful for all the joy that you've been bringing in to my life
For the lessons that ive learned
For the trouble ive known
For the heartache and pain thrown in my way
and i didnt think that i could go on
But you made me feel strong
With you i am never alone
(thankful, so thankful)
Chorus 2
(thankful, so thankful. thankful, thankful)
Anytime-Kelly Clarkson
Anytime you feel like you just can’t hold on
Just hold on to my love and I’ll help you be strong
But you’re so afraid to lose, and I can’t reach your heart
I can’t face this world that’s keeping us apart
When I can be the one to show you
Everything you missed before
Just hold on now, cause I can be the one to give you more
Yes you know
Anytime you need love baby I’m on your side
Just let me be the one I can make it alright
Anytime you need love baby you're in my heart
I can make it alright
I look into your eyes, and I feel it coming through
And I can’t help but want you more than I want to
So baby take all of your fears, and cast them all on me
All I ever wanted is just to make you see
That I could be the one to give you
All that you’ve been searching for
Just hold on to my love, and baby let me give you more
You know
Anytime you need love baby I’m on your side
Just let me be the one I can make it alright
Anytime you need love baby you're in my heart
I can make it alright
And now there’s no way out
And I can’t help the way I feel
Cuz baby you’re the fire and I’ll be waiting right here
You know my love is real
Anytime you need love baby I’m on your side
Just let me be the one I can make it alright
Anytime you need love baby you're in my heart
I can make it alright
wel i thot she sang these two songs REALLY well.. n the song ish nice too.
freak. i typed so much and it got erased.. sigh. i'll just do my songs.
Playing my game-Lene Marlin
Won’t open my mouth
You know what I’ll say
It hurts me that it's gotta be this way
I can no longer hide
God knows I’ve tried
I held on as long as I could
If I could change it I would
This is the way I am
And this is what I do
Chorus:
I cry my tears
But they're not for you
Playing a game
I know you've done too
I shouldn't have waited
But still it is all the same
'Cause you know
I’m just playing my game
Close your ears if you don't like
The sound of my voice
You’re acting like I
Like I had a choice
But to leave you behind
Well, I’ve made up my mind
Chorus
Don’t hold me with your eyes
The light in them I cannot see
No need to blind me
There’s this darkness where I walk
You thought you had your future
All figured out
I cry...
FLown Away-Lene Marlin
I’ve flown too high on borrowed wings
Beyond the clouds and where the angels sings
In a sky containing
No one but me
Up there's all-empty
And down there's the sea
No one here but me
There’s nothing but light
That comes into sight, oh
There’s something up here that makes me wince
And I still got the feelings that I’ve felt ever since
I got to this place
Arrived at last
In front there's the future
Right back there's the past
Everything’s moving so fast
There’s nothing but light
That comes into sight, oh
The present like I’ve never seen it before
Is this the right place to stay?
Please, my wings
Fly me away
The present like I’ve never seen it before
Is this the right place to stay?
Please, my wings
Fly me away
Please my wings
Fly me away
Please, my wings
Fly me away
lovely songs. =)
wah lao. stupid chan vee bun man. every single time i call him, he's never at his desk. den had to use the last resort to like email him two days b4 we wanna visit. damn larh. den lingling takes a minute to contact him. hrmf! damn. haish
aniwae, i stayed at home todae cuz i threw up in the morning. doc says ive got stomach flu, tho i dun think so. ive had it b4 and i noe it dussen feel liddat.. im just.. a lil sick larh. a liil only. =) ive got two days of MC but i'm gonna go back to skool tmr. cuz aesthetics and stuff. den ive got choir. =S hope i dun sing sing sing den feel like throwing up.. thats disgusting man. haha. bleagh. hope i dun miss too much work.
went to grandmum's house for dinner. saw kok again... with his long hair. hahhahahaha. damn arglie lehhh. sheesh. i shall help him cut his hair. haha. more of a tragedy.
that reminds me. if im spose to go to barker on friday, i carn get beejay to help me with e surveys cuz hes done at 830.. EIGHT THIRTY LEH! sheesh. nvm. i dun haf skool. hehe. haish i think i'l betta get going. wanna end of worlds apart by JOC. budden like going into that website veh mah fan. =) sorriez. yeah ciaozzzzz.
[if that ficking person dussen reply by tmr... im screwed!! =((((]
bleagh eeeee yucks! i carn take the slightest bit of chilli but for dinner todae was chilli and super damn spicy pepper crab!! ee ee eee!!
den barely ate anything.. just stuffed myself with LOADS of ice and all. grosssss. yucckssss... my whole mouth, internal and external, was literally on fire. damn.
hahaha yuan ar.. ure just crapping in muh gb leh... =PpP aniwae dussen matter.
had really funny time during lunch todae. zai man. hamsie like threw up her water on constie. damn zai. cuz i was like on the verge of insanity and like i started singing this really cheezy hokkien song that i learnt... uhh i think while my mum was singing it. den ham happened to drink water. thank gawd i was sitting next to her and const sat opposite, so she got the water instead. =) hahahaha. sadist. wah lao den rgs gurls haf this habit of putting pple's bags on the floor cuz they wanna sit together. my foot larh. FOOT AR! i mean usually its the seniors, so i try ta shut my mouth. but todae it was like sec 2 geppers. kao and i cldnt find my bag? got soooo damn pissed. fuck. went ard literally kicking their bags in attempt to find mine. sheesh man. i mean ham said they showed much displeasure.. but my fault izzit? whose fault izzit!?
freak.
.:. pix added.
having com stardees. damn, heard mdm lim's back. my foot larh. sucks sucks sucks. shes so annoying. unless.. roy tan was pulling our leg? hrmm haha cuz i dunt see her anywhere. bleagh. roy tan's going on off.... kwite sad larh. cuz hes nice man. =PpP anyway should i add in pix with muh kiddy pics? cuz i think i was veh cute when i was lil. but now like crap. HAHA. yeap. see how larh. hafta add in the pix in wales furst. more imp. dammit. gotta like write a autobiography on myself?! kao... den mustwrite abt my childhood? =(((( heehee.
yarh xiaohui started teaching. she loox strange loh! as in shes spose to be chio, well at least i found her chio. now she just loox strange. ^^ hehehe.. nvm
yay!!! han2 han2 ge3 ge2 ish comin back todae! my cuzin.. =]]]]] dammit. just spilled water on my table. hahaha. anyway back to wad im saying. yeah gonna haf dinner(crab) with him todae.. heeeeee... havent seen him for a year. but it seems like he just left.. last month? =) veh happie.
haish uh anyway. my song fer the day. hehe i dunno how long this can last...
He- Jars of Clay
Don't try to reach me, I'm already dead
The pain when it grips me, for things that I've done
Well I try to make you proud, but for crying out loud
Just give me a chance to hide away
Exhaustion takes over, will this someday be over?
Chorus:
Fearful tears are running down
The pain you've laid don't speak a sound
Don't take my heart away from me
And they think I fell down
Daddy, don't you love me?
Then why do you hit me?
And Momma don't you love me
Then why do you hurt me?
Well I try to make you proud, but for crying out loud
Just give me a chance to hide away
Exhaustion takes over, will this someday be over?
[Chorus]
A teardrop falls from up in the heavens
Drowning the sorrow of angels on high
For the least of the helpless, the hopeless, the loveless
My Jesus, His children, He holds in His eyes
[listening to] "people change" -rockapella
[feeling] moooooddy
bleagh. havent been in a veh good mood nowadays.. people are changing... and i still carn believe ruben won. haish. im becuming more ignorant to things happening around me... or have they just becum more complex? i was watching "chemistry" on thursday. rui en (rachel in the show) seems so similar to me.. he. maybe its just me.. but yeah she dus remind me of me. we both haf prettie strong attitude. but rui en's prettie. im not.. so i guess thats the difference. sigh. anywae i fink this ish a prettie valuable song(wad im listening to):
Didn't hear a tone, are you, hello
I never hear a tone, I guess you know
I can't remember what I called to say
I thought you might be home on Saturday
I really can't believe it's been a year
It took a little time without you here
I'm guessing you survived alone somehow
It's good that I can joke about it now
I still avoid the park at Christopher
Never wanna feel the way we were
Unless I'm in a hurry for that train
And that's the only newsstand open late
People change everyday
Change like you
I got all the time in the world
People cry all the time
Cry like me
We got all the time in the world
It's been so long that no one even asks
And everybody's walkin' on the grass
Grass that took a while to reappear
I'd forgotten green without you here
Christmas came and went upon this bench
Tryin' to justify what made no sense
Now the ivy's overrun the tears
But it could never hide what happened here
People change everyday
Change like you
I got all the time in the world
People cry all the time
Cry like me
We got all the time in the world
Fillin' in the conversation by myself
Fillin' in the reason why you leave me leavin', leavin'
Thinkin' back, the hope we had was more than mine
The hope we had was more than mine
I know it makes sense to you
Just make it make sense to me
Maybe I'm alive beneath the snow
Maybe you're too petrified to know
I can't believe that you would tell me lies
How could I have missed that in those eyes
Maybe if I only heard your voice
I would understand you had no choice
And though I'm glad it's clear for you to see
I wish that you could make it make sense to me
People cry all the time
Cry like me
I got all the time in the world
yeap. bleagh. betta stop blogging nonsence.. ltr.
hahahha... i just read yuan's note.. eh boy, bullshit larh. =PpP hahhahaa. yeap yeap. watching ami. i carn believe ruben's gonna win kay!! and i carn believe so many pple told me b4 hand!! ="(!!!!! sigh sigh. i mean yeah i like him and all. but if u ask me to pick between those two, clay has much betta vocals.. but i like locke actualli.. she suits the title bez. cuz like she's got this really drunk voice that ish damn damn nice. =) mhmm.. den clarkson came back to sing... man. she totally deserves the title.. shes damn good man. and justin guarini.. HAHAHA bad hair bad hair.. haha yeap. todae's episodes were too draggy, a bit sian.. =| sighhhz. pooorrr clay!!! sob sob... i fink he rox man..
anyway. todae's auditioning thang was kwite a blast.. dammit i had to do the whole dance myself. MYSELF kay. and since ive got such a habit to look down. i got giddy kwite a few times.. but apparently it wasnt shown. =))) haish.. i wunder whether the judges thot it was good.. tho like my seniors were like going mad cuz they cldnt believe i choreo-ed it? sighhzz.. hope so hope so!! *crosses fingers* damn nervous b4 i did it man.. like quivering while i was sitting on the floor.. bleaghhh...
i carn stand it man.. everyone's changing.. like when i wanna say to sum1, they go "yah".. my fault ar? carn say hi!? damit. while sum pple are geting nicer.. which ish good i guess.. but it just cheezes me off.. oh yarh.. yuan darleenk ar... u get "jealous" damn easily leh.. tsk.. den next tyme when u get another gf, wunt i be e one who gets jealous? haha no larh jkjk. bleagh. i've got chinese spellin and wadeva u call it larh.. mo xie.. =.= bleagh. u noe, i carn stand and look down on those pple who fink too highly of themselves. wad... think u're smart enuff to transfer from barker to independent? i mean that isnt e only one, jus that i'l use this as eg. our dear friend, who ive decided not to hate for the time being, finks he's so damn smart. honestly, i think barker suits him best.. like totally! posers and well.. not independent pple larh.. the indp ones are the prettie genius type, and poser too.. wannabes lar.. or despos.. runs in the whole ac family. sighz.
yeap anyway gotta run... cya in a few!
ah dammit. the hcl test was so shit man. haha yeap yeap. but nvm larh. not gonna do well for my midyears. gotta buck up next sem! yeap. i fink i wunt do too badly for my engilsh.. cuz yates ish pretty lenient.. thing ish.. WHERE ISH HE?!??! hasnt came for class for 2 lessons le. siao. yeap. so sadd!!! ms ding's leaving tmr!! as in last lesson wiv us!! AHHH!!! nvm lar.. i guess i dunno her that well. at least i noe the next teach that's replacing her for two weeks. ah yeah. ive known xiaohui for a prettie long time. like just aqquaintance kinda thang larh. mi cuzin's bessie.. haha. ok uh todae, after school, went out wiv yang ham const weiyi. had lunch at far east. long john. and i just read ling's blog.. she was there too!! but didnt see her... =( yeap anyway. den after that, went to bits and pieces to buy a pressie for ms ding. den const had to go. and ham took such a long time tryna choose her earring. i just look at one and buy. haha but im kwite broke now cuz like didnt haf much cash anyway. den yarh. we decided to take neos. budden like first we thot. oh since we're all so broke, mite as well take the four bucks one.. budden only can fit two faces in, so i took wiv weiyi. den like we realised weiyi was prettie loaded! =PpP so yarh we took da 7 bucks one.. damn farnie cuz the machine thing was all in jap.. and we were like.. ^^ i mean yang and i are like french pple man.. haha. we dun learn jap. den rattle rattle rattle. we oso just play along. haha den we like wrote stuff on the neos.. damn farnie larh. haish den they were late for badminton and tennis.. while i just stoned in the foyer till the cheerleading was done, so cara, yijing, guiyi, cow and i can prac the dance for arts fest.. den i went to check the board.. OUR VETTING ISH TMR!!! can die can die.. so decided. i'll just dance alone den teach them when we haf more time.. i think conolly and yapper are the judges leh! sheesh. yapper thinks hes so musical lalala.. anything larh anything.. i think he SPOSEDLY had a minor in music? haha my foot ar. if he did, harumi can carry out a tune man! haha. anyway. im soo pissed!!!!! friggin hadley cheerleaders. ok this was how it went.. i was spose to choreo the cheerleading dance since it was hiphop and i learn it... so okay larh. budden they said it was TOO HARD.. too hard kay! i modified it le, still too hard.. but u noe, nvm.. it's alright. and so i didnt perform... 1) my steps were too hard 2)i didnt exactly wanna perform 3) they didnt agree to let me join cuz i joined too late...... thing ish... if they used my steps, why carn i dance to it? haha nvm that ish alright. cuz i'd rather spend time on my other stuff.. busy enuf..but i specifically told them that u carn use my moves.. if u do, well u gotta use all, cannot snip here snip there.. copyright.. cuz it aint even MY dance.. it's pat's dance.. so yarh! need permission! its only right. HOWEVA... todae when i was watching the cheerleading preview.. DAMMIT! they used my steps! sum of them! i mean AT LEAST TELL ME!!! man im fuming. i was so damn aggitated.. i didnt wanna wreck up an issue, cuz i'll be blamed since im not even in the dance. and the thing ish bernice ish prettie nice to me.. why like start i dunno.. blaming her when she only wanted to do the dance.. so sheesh, i left it.. yarh den had dance with the gurls.. kao.. they're damn late kay.. hawha. den used e dance studio cuz the foyer was too packed.. 3 houses. hahaha den the music itself was too fast... anyway. taught them 3 routines.. kwite fast learners i must admit.. i lyk the way yijing dances.. cuz she's sharp enuff.. tho shes a cheerleader.. i mean cheerleaders are always so... soft and weak and like their wrists are nv locked and so feely faleh. i carn believe i just saed that.. haha mm okaaay. den went to grandmum's house to eat again.. bla bla bla... i bot a whole lotta tidbits cuz i havent eaten them in wads called a million years. mhmm. oh yarh!! i went to thadteo's web? HAHAHAH he calls himself an abc? i sorta noe his bro.. and i dun think he ish one.. gawd. i mean even ty's only a quart mixed if im not wrong..den how can that wreck be abc? siao! i wa like laffing abt it thru my whole hcl test.. hahahha. so spaz.
mmm had a prettie original day in school. ppl cheered the whole thang up...(right ham?) haha yeap. uhhh lalala.. no one in class failed for history, which was prettie goot larh. cuz i didnt stardee. and it was sourcebased. and i amazingly didnt fail. =) yeap yeap. haha den during ACE. i thot i switched off my fone.. but i guess i usualy dun, so mebbe i didnt.. ok that didnt make sense. nvm. so i put my fone on the table without lyke noticing that it aint off. then.... my fone vibrated on the table! my gosh. luckily ding was having stuff to do outside, so e class was prettie noisy. kwite hard to hear.. haha almost died man. and since it was against the table. the vibration was extremely loud. ahh well. den during ppl. cuz we've gotta go visit schools next friday, when there's school closure. wad... barker crescent juying plmgss. it'll be so awkward if like 4 gurls in the midst of a million guys? man. i carn imagine how bad it'll go. den like chung said we should email the dm.. since the principal asked us to liase with him. and like arrange a meeting with him. we all hope we can get a guide so that it'll seem official and stuff.. =P aniwae. ham and i were tryna scan thru the guys we noe there and find a suitable one for const.. it ended up with... lets see... ian, peter vaz, ben wee, jian. hahaha.. its the height, excluding ian.. he'll proly provide shelter from the sun for const. HAHA. yeap we should just stop cracking. chung added that we shouldnt giggle giggle giggle. im pretty sure we wunt. but im not sure abt constance! and if she were to giggle.. her WHOLE face'll turn red and its kinda funny.. hahaha.. den we'll all crack up and seem like freaks. haha.. hope bj gets ta decide who to guide us? =PpP den if when we go to pl or smthg... all the *ahem* butches will start falling for ham and cand. damn farnie. cuz const and i look more.... gu niang.. as i wld say. while ham and cand.... *shakes head in disappointment* haha yeappp. oh yarh and shiyuan ar... wo ai ni dou lai bu ji le, ni chi she me chu ar. =PpP u noe whadda mean ya.
aiyah stupid nicholas tan. its so hard to get him out for a meal. friggin busy freak man. haha too bad.. hes such a darleenk of mine.. HOW TO get ANGrY!? yeap uhh meeting up wiv the gurls that are in the dance for arts fest.. rg gurls!! must cum support!! haha.. im still deciding if i should use the dance with the stick.. nono pole i mean.. like Liberty X. or like the hankerchief dance that pat thot me looonggl ooonggg time ago. or just stick to the normal typa funk. im just afraid that like it'll be so cliche and normal. =PpP aiyah who cares.. i'll ask them tmr. wunder where my fbts went ta.. i guess i'll hafta wear school shorts? eeeee. haha. see how larh.
anyway ive got a cheena test tmr.. must go mug more. ciaozzies!
[take the shackles off my feet so i can dance
im gonna praise ya, yeah im gonna praise ya
you broke the chains so i can lift my hands
im gonna praise ya, yeah im gonna praise ya]
[Lord i noe, u wanna see
if i can hold on thru these trials
but i needcha to lift the load
cuz i cant take it no more]
.:. pics added
ermm i changed the server of my pix, and added kwite a few in.... havent got the time to transfer the pix from tripod to pbase yet tho.. =) check it out! mhmm.
you get me high` 11:04 PM
oh yyar! i carn believe my friend impersonated me, dissing thad in lianne ngoi's blog! i mean, i havent exactly muttered his name for wad..? 2 years? and he told ty to tell me to stop backstabbing him. im not THAT free man. kao. den he added me on msn. think he so cool ar. hrmf! who wants ta be bothered about him. hrmf! poser.
weeeepeee.. haha. kaykays. uhhh i love this weekend man! sooo damnnn happie!
start with yestaday. mmm went swimmin wiv kate. =))) yup. i was like a lil mad cuz kept laffing n laffing n laffing. den she was like sunbathing. =.= we werent at the beach, kate! haha. swimming pool's meant to be swam in! okok nvm that didnt make any sense. yarh so after that, we were playing with a training lines... those uhhh dunno wad larh.. small floats stuck on to a string? as a lane and support? yarh play until super siao. cuz we were stepping on one, tryna move to the other end of the pool(olympic size) and at the same time supporting with one hand. den kept losing balance and falling off reaaallllyy awkwardly. =PpP haha kate, u're still muh best mate man! mhmm.. den like afta a shower, we went out to the tidbits vending mac. hahaahah we both wanted the same thing... and the drinks vendin mac.. wantted the same thing too! that's wad i call similar man! hehe. den my mum, kate, me, aunty cat, and ernie, went to haf dinner. =) quite gros larh.. cuz we had to cook sticks of raw food in boiling soup? i dunno. i didnt like it.. but the rest did.. ^^. yeah den sent kate home.
ok todae. uhh went with kate to Church of Our Saviour.. haha man! im frm a presby church. this one ish super charismatic... damn power.. damn damn power.. ok maybe it's just cuz im not used to it.. and i was damn tired. =PpP dozed off... haha super rude kay. yarh den my fone no batt.. haha. cldnt get my mum, and vice versa. mhmm yeah. den haf yz. kate was on da piano and en xiang was leading. kwite funny cuz he nv knew when to cum in.. den like.. wanna switch song den switch song, dun wanna, den dun. made kate kinds huffled up. =P at least hes betta than joyce. man. i wunt talk about her. yeap. den went for grandmum's bday lunch. super cheezy.. cuz muh granddad and i carn really eat indonesian stuff properly.. and my grandmum loves it.. so they decided to eat there, while my granddad and i went to the chinese restaurant nearby... it was at cuppage house dere. so was rice table. budden like the satay there was sooooo good! dammit! haha. yeap den i wanted to go visit muh pple in jitterbugz.. dat blardee dance studio ish damn zai.. i think rob's zai. his jazz moves are very funkeh! as in. hiphop-eh! haha. mmm. all muh pple were dere. jess, adis, grace, and even the poser shit lionel was there! hahahha.. man. during class, see him like act cool and stuff.... well i guess he's pretteh cool, and the hard thing ish that he's rather down to earth.. not exactly arrogant. yarh. budden wah lao.. pose until i wanna kill him le.. he was standing sorta next to me... and like tried to make it seem as tho he was making the sound of the percussion by sticking his "microphone" (more commonly known as his hand) right up to his mouth... den like turn the table with the other hand. shoot man. poser until can die. haha. but hes nice larh. den grace, as usual, so stone.. SOOO STONE AR KOH! WAKE UP! anyway. todae's dance was really nice, but like kwite hard larh. mhmm. i'll use it for arts fest. all thanks to rob's choreo, will i haf e courage to choreo dances. hehheh. ok larh. im really happy todae.. well i guess it's cuz i gotta dance and haf fun. and like roll around the floor, part of the routine. cheemalogy. =) yeaappp... dAnCiNg*RoX!!!
those cowards.. are just loserfied chickens dat are just too scared that mama will hear about how rude their child ish and scold them. awwwww how sad. i thot u're spose to be 14?
anyway. school todae was pretty much the same. talked kwite a bit to my mortal. shit larh. now my gb ish just full of rubbish. and crap. but it just shows u noe. like when stuff liddat happens. who are the true friends and who arent. 6Lers will always remain zai friends.. and my bezzies like kate, yuan, jess, lalala... will always be real. not LIVING IN SUM DREAMLAND MADE FOR COWARDS... anyway.. back to my topic. school. mmm yarh larh... assembly was kwite uncalled for.. cuz it was sooo boring. my gosh..the stupid speaker, was so damn short.. e only thing i liked about him was that he had a very nice voice.. dunno why oso.. =) mhmm. yeah den i was watching buckle cheerleading afta school. i must say their dance ish kwite nice. suwee's kwite sumthing. but she's under pat.. (understandable =) ) tho i think rob's betta.. but im more used to pat's style. oh yeah that reminds me... so cool... im choreographing.. no me and guiyi... a dance for arts fest.. me, guiyi, jing, cow and cara... coooooooll man. =) was choreographing it in my head during the health talk.. well yar i was asleep.. budden dreaming ov the dance larh. =PpP mhmm. aiyah.. too bad ive got damn nice seniors.. well at least those i can get along wiv. cuz like they're there encouraging me..
well well read my gb.. as usual pple who dun leave their names. look kay. i told u pple ive got problems. i said i wunt eva say it out. but cuz u pple dun UNDERSTAND me.. so i just wanna gif u an idea of wad the hell im going thru. and yeah that ish exactly how i feel. man im just spelling stuff out now. no im not tryna milk sympathy from others.. u noe, its far from it. it just shows how much u can interpret stuff. maybe im sorrie if i didnt see that my clique cared for me.. cuz stuff were staring in my face that they didnt. but i didnt see it then. now, maybe not much, but with pple around me telling me that they do, now maybe i noe it. but pple like u shouldnt come interfere with our probs. let only mine. why should i gain sympathy from unfeeling pple? oh yarh and more so cowards? wad makes u so sure this "SYMPATHY" i mite be tryna get, will get me any good. think about it and u mite wanna recoonsider wad u just said. gawd.
why do i complain so much.. in public.. only after ive gone thru so much of this shit. maybe cuz im sick of just putting all my complains to myself? and they've just pushed the limits?
immature brats.
lets see wad we did todae. well. went out wiv jesso to shop for her cuzin's wedding thang. kwite fun. i was damn late. so the poor gurl had ta wait outside thirty7 degrees for pretty long. =PpP sorrie. ok i had icecream for my so-called "lunch". jess ate long john's. hehe. urm then we went ta zara!! =) hahha. like yarh introed her to buy this skirt.. she did in the end.... but like we took all the clothes we liked and just brought them to the fitting room. den cum out one by one wearing different stuff.. =P hehh... damn fun man.. but the pple there al haf attitude problems. sigh. cldnt find bella. anyway wanted to get this 3quarts that were SOOOO nice. =P budden reserved it first till my mum sees it and agrees it's nice. hehe. mmm den we went ta orange julius to get icecream(again) and sprite. yep. damn farnie. this guy, david, was working there... he was so geeky and stuff... but nice larh... den whoa he was tryna show off he could topple the blizzard around.. hahhahahaha den jess and i went "thank you" suppeeerrrr schweetly.. hahhaa. righto jesso! den yarh we made our way to cine.. played table hockey...no its not called air hockey.. =) haha yeap.. den the machine got screwed, so we decided to be idiots and play ddr... damn jialat. cuz well jess and i dance...i guess u can call us dancerz? heh. yeah. and its a fact tht dancerz carn do ddr.. cuz its not coordinated properly. damn strange man. was hopping around the machine. den when we looked back..this whole crowd ov pple.. damn paiseh.. he.. damn loosherfied. mhmm.. den went ta heeren, jess bought the dcp shirt. damn nice man... haha my jie shao. =)=) i want a shirt that loox sumthing liddat too.. hehe... jess we'll buy those sum day yeah!! deal deal!! wah den RUSHED back home cuz i needed ta go grandmum's house ta eat. =P
kays u noe, im gonna deal with this class thing once and for all. i just read kates blog. yeah i do agree with her.. but wad she said ish that if they EVA do apologise.. i'll forgif. but u noe, none of them think its like their fault or smthg. and yea yuan u're right. they arent sincere. they noe i still care abt my clique, esp, im sure. but they've reached too far. no frenship isnt like straw or smthg. but friendship involving friends who arent sincere WILL turn out like straws. kate and my friendship has last so long and i doubt it'll eva stop being so strong. and people who are true and not so judgemental will make a friendship continue. not people who backstab. ham. im not stating names. sumhow, i trust u arent one of them. so who's left. look, i tried to make an effort to ask why the person bitched abt me... ok maybe not her... but spread ard the whole class.. wad happened? she rolled her eyes at me. zai innit? im not pissed.. but ive given up. given up trying to kiss and makeup as wad guiyi puts it as. i AM awkward sitting with 201 cuz like firstly my impr of it has worsened. and how would i noe if the person sitting next to me hates me? haish. maybe im not good at keeping low profile. much dat i want to. my friends outside class? are really nice? like guiyi.. cow.. jing all this pple.. so nice. sigh.. wish my classmates were liddat.
mmm YAY!!!! i got 26 for my math!!! such an achievement!!! =PpPpP. heh. xing2'll be so happie. bleagh. now i sorta carn wait for our new form to cum.. xiao hui knows me pretty well.. =) at least she wunt believe stupid rumours going 'round. not that im saying i want gen ding to go.. just that like i know n like xiaohui.. =P so strange if i'll hafta call her.. uh......ms lin? haahhaa. im not talk about my classmates cuz its just a waste of time... at least i noe my vchair dussen hate me? =P. i used to be pretty good friends wiv eyeballs and stuff.. budden like i think i spent too much time wiv lingling during recess that i lost touch.. bleagh. mmm finally vesak day... prolly going out with jess tmr... =) shiok. den we can go ask pple to "GET A ROOM"!! haha... kay anyway. uhhh. todae, first block was lit. kwite funny actualli. cuz i didnt haf much sleep last nite, was stardeeing for my geog. den was so damn tired.. so i like fell asleep in lit class.. like almost the whole lesson? lucky trudy soh let me sleep.. didnt bother me.. den when it came to geog lesson... STILL sleepy. lao eh... i fell asleep halfway... =PpP. den like wrote so much crap on the paper whilst being half asleep... kwite funny... when i woke up.. almost started cracking. kk betta go.. later.
u noe? ive decided.... why waste my tears on pple who arent worth it? i cried during pe todae... unfortunately kenneth tan saw me while he was walkin towards the hall.. wah lao.. talk to me for one hour.. but i guess im feelin betta. and that was why he was late for class. tho he didnt bother explaining why he was... gd gd.. =) well i guess with everything im going thru... no not just the classmates... as he said.. im getting stronger.. and not everyone has a misfortune to learn from and to get braver and stuff.. lala.. besides.. why bother about these pple who are so superficial and immature? mhmm.. ive got friends who are so nice... thanks xue n glo.muacks-..i havent talked to them much since p6, other than the gatherings, and they're always always there for me.. that's what friends are called.... for this case... good good friends... so u noe. if they wanna judge... leave them to be. cuz im not at fault. u can say it ISH my fault.. but i noe myself and the rest who arent so prejudice and one sided noe too. so u can try as hard as u want but it wunt bring me down. i feel its a blessin in disguise.. testing my faith and making me strongerr. why should i let all this bring me down and upset me? im a pretty cheery person. why should this change everything. they dun haf a hold ov me in any way. if my "clique" feels that im still in the wrong. dun talk to me then. cuz this time, i wunt break muh promise as to start the conversation and stuff... u mite say i dun treasure this frenship.. dun wanna save it... of course i do. but if ive to start everything again. it'll be so easy for me to doubt them once more. so this risk, im not gonna take. =) ive spent these few days brooding ova this incident. but den again. i noe ive always got sum1 to back me up. de one i trust with all my heart.. our saviour basically. so i'm just taking this as a test to make me a betta person.
ahhhhhhh i hopppeeeeee im going out wiv nick on thursday. i really reallly havent seen him for such a looonnnggg time.. =PpP. haha den he owes me neoprint! =) yeappp.. next tyme when im unhappy.. just think ov... him, kate, eu, zhenghao, max and ty.. i'll feel betta.. =PpP cuz these pple are so nice and they make me smile.. =) haha well com stardees was prettie cool cuz roy tan took the seat.. hehe. much that yarh hes KiNDa sissified but hes like really veh nice.. always smiles at me, either greets me when i greet him, or like ask me if im doin' fine and i understand stuff.. haha.. betta than that stupid pms mdm lim... dammit.. hope she never cums back from maternal leave man.mhmm. den had ace. haha ms ding showed us the pix that she took when she went to the maldives.. I WANNA GOOO!!!! gosh.. i'll definitely try to go during the june hols. its like paradise dammit. the sea and the sky ar.. are like WHOAA kinda thing.. budden its not exactly veh fun to just go with ur parents.. must go wiv friends,... =P den can like do the tribal dances together.... hehe.ahh well. ive got a geog test tmr. damn. =P and my chinese file ish with my cuzin so she can like teach me stuff by knowin the syllabus. how?!? cannot breeng it tmr.. damn damn damn ... ahh well. im still kinda appreciative ov k tan cuz he "sacrificed" his time teaching my class to sit there and talk to me.. well i didnt wanna talk to him at first but he MADE me tell him... so i HAD to tell him the whole situation.. i included wad was going on at home too. cuz i figured he'll understand.. i didnt specify names tho.. haish..i guess the war in my class will be ova as long as i shuddup and keep all my insults to only friends i can trust outside school. mhmm.. since they're all so judgemental.... kays i'd betta go... ciaoz.....
Daddy, where are ya......
I woke up this morning with a smile on my face
& Nobody's gonna bring me down today
Been feeling like nothings been going my way lately
So I decided right here and now that my outlooks gotta change
That's why I'm gonna
Say goodbye to all the tears I've cried
For everytime somebody hurt my pride
Feeling like they won't let me live life
& Take the time to look at what is mine
I see every lesson completely
I thank God for what I got from above
I believe they can take anything from me
But they can't succeed in taking my inner peace
They can say all they wanna say about me
But I'm gonna carry on
Keep on singing my song
I never wanna dwell on my pain again
There's no use in reliving how I hurt back then
Remembering all of the hell I felt when I was running out of faith
Every step I vowed to take was towards a better day
Cos I'm about to
Say goodbye to every single lie
& All the fears I've held too long inside
Everytime I felt I could try
All the negativity I had inside
For too long I've been struggling. I couldn't go on
But now I've found I'm feeling strong and moving on
I believe they can take anything from me
But they can't succeed in taking my inner peace
They can say all they wanna say about me
But I'm gonna carry on
I'm gonna keep on singing my song
Whoa, & everytime I tried to be what they wanted from me
It never came naturally
So I ended up in misery, wasn't able to see
All the good around me
They wasted so much energy on what they thought of me
Simply just remembering to breathe
I'm human, I ain't able to please
Everyone at the same time, so now I find
My peace of mind living one day at a time
I'm human and I answer to one god
It comes down to one love
Until I get to heave above
I've made the decision
Never to give up
Til the I day I die no matter what
I'm gonna carry on & keep on singing my song.....
(They can't take anything from me)
I believe that they can do what they wanna.
Say what they wanna say
(They can say what they wanna)
But I'm gonna keep on
(Keep on )
I believe it
That they can take from me
But they can't take my inner peace
Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,
Say what you wanan say, but I'm gonna sing my song
i should change my attitude? ive been trying so hard to adapt with my class... now look wad happens... they make up rumours about me that are seriously crap. shouldnt THEY change their attitude? why must it b me? why must it always be me? they think ov me that way... cuz wad? i go for dance? and it seems like clubbing? hello? wad did i do? i havent been talkin much to my other classmates just so i wunt offend them.. in the end wad happens? my closer friends in class are the one who starts the rumours. why dun u pple just think about how i'll feel?? my gosh. if anybody eva says that they're not surprised that i'll go shoplifting or like uh be the next rg gurl to haf sex wiv a guy? they arent just insulting me.. but my mum too.. it shows my upbringing.. and no my upbringing ish not perfect. but its proper.. and i myself noe my limits... so wad if i dun like my class? why carn i have my own hates and all?? i can haf my own friends and my own dislikes... and ive got all reason to bitch about my classmates cuz my "BETTA FRIENDS" seem to be the ones spreading the crap about me... which ish fricking horrible... sumone told me.. ohh like u're always putting up a facade? well they're fake to the brim. nameless i honestly dunno who u are and much that i agree with u to a certain extent.. you dunno wad im going thru....u pple'd family's are whole and true. my family upbringing was wholesome but yet it lacked so much.. i was brought up like everyone else.. maybe even stricter. and no i will not resort to crap like wad my dear classmates have mentioned. moreover im a believer and i wunt do anything to defy the commandments of the lord. so dun gimme crap liddat.
todae was just about a disater. i hate school. i hate my classmates. WHY. tell me WHY do they hafta judge things from the surface. carn they just look deeper into the issue and realise that ive got my reasons? not everything ish just black and white. they're definitely sum greys in between. there're reasons behind every action. and they should noe it.. arent they from rg? like the britest of the whole spore? tell me why dun they haf a bit ov manners.. they dunno their morals. since they dun haf all these qualities, that personally, are the most important, why are they qualified to be in rg? im not saying ive got them all... im not saying im cut out for rg.. but since they wanna judge me.. lemme judge them back. if your class ish basically against u.. and bitches abt u like mad... even ur "clique" as u thot so... wunt u feel hurt? constance. if hamsie hated u to the core and turned the whole class against u.. how on earth will u feel. i hate this so much not becuz the other ppl in my class talk so much crap about me and they evidently do not haf no prove. its becuz my friends.. those i considered gd friends.. were all just plain fake and like yarh... fake. annoying... hypocrites. i wunder how they'll eva make friends if they arent true. const said im like always putting on a facade.. not letting pple see my weaknesses.. u noe wad? after sum thot.. i far from agree.. i noe who i am... and i realise all that i am in class. ish just me.. excluding the hatred for those ignorant pple..
i agree im living in the past. i wish my darl was still in muh class... i larve all of them so much.. excluding dear carl yan who ish also bo liao enuff to insult the first time i talk to him in 2 years.. zai. he prolly still hasnt grown up... yup. but i miss merpin, glo, ling2, all ov these pple.. who were still young and naive.. jealousy never came into play.. complications...hypocrites.. were just outta the qn.. everyone was who they were and there was no hiding, even if u liked them or not. i hate it when man grow older... we tend to doubt more. be more ambiguous. and i tell u that sucks... to those out there.. esp my classmates...there's a whole outta beeger world out there. not just your classroom filled with insults. oh and u like it too.. insulting sumone u dunno...im not living in dreamland. u gurls are. u mite wanna learn to grow up..
anyway... i dun wanna waste my blog entries on burdens that i noe i sldnt dwell upon. cast my cares upon Him.... this ish e time to test my faith.. this ish all advice from jase.. thanks...todae i went fer dance.. it was damn damn cool sia.... i learnt 8 eights? which was chorus verse chorus chorus. no my dance isnt clubbing.. they're lessons that i take from proper established dance studios... which proper intructors.. anyway.. i think rob's a lil mad.. haha just a tad larh.. =PpP. ok the other bad thing ish just max.. hes just so i dunno wad todae larhh.. haha dunno how to sae.. i'll mention stuff only when its confirmed...which i dun think it will.. =) yup gota run. catcha.
i shouldnt dwell upon my burdens. i did not do nothing wrong. they are all just too judgemental and hypocritical...
Dear God, i pray that u help me overcome my burdens and my classmates.. the unfair judgement that has been made about me and i pray u gif me the strength to overcome this period of difficulties, and at the same time, testing and strengthening my faith in you. Lord, gi me peace so i wont rebel against you. may you guide me and allow me to be redeemed. allow the others to see the good that u've put in me and not those that should be despised.. Lord i pray u teach them to learn to love one another. esp if they are of ur people, ur children. In Jesus' name i pray, Amen.
kate-you, are one of the most impt beings that exist in my life. i dunno what to sae to u cuz i see u all the time, and like i can just almost anything to you. dun eva leave me alone in this strangerland and run off to britain. god bless ya foreva n eva n eva.......
nick- i missssss youu sooooooo muuccchhh!!!!! if i were still in the same class as u. even if i run into crap like wad im going thru now. i noe u'll always be in the same room as me supporting me for who i am. i luvya sooo much. take care....
cy-heyy..... thanks for all those uhh lectures.. that well.. sum of them woke me up from my thots.. no not the one abt nick. i totally disagree wiv u.. yeah and always sticking by me and going out wiv me..gd luck fer your Os. im sure u'll do well.. =) thank u thank u thank u.
ty- ha..brudda... i said i'll write about u cuz i think u're pretty hilarious. as ive told u already. u aint as much as a playa as i thot u were.. =) haha.. yeap one ov ur smiley faces. i mean u can sit down and talk sense.. and thats just rea;;y good. shows u can play hard.... and talk sense.. =)=) haha yeah. keep guessing! chill out. later.... =PpP
sigh u noe. i carn think ov anymore name.s. i'll put more down next tyme.. i just read bren's blog? im sorrie? i made ms ding cry? this aint fair. ive been soo nice to ms ding so far. i'll die just to like offend her cuz i noe she isnt like verh stable.. nvm i wanna explain things to ms ding myself.. personally.. let her hear my side of the story. and not just take wad the others say for granted.......
went swimming todae. while swimming, u carn cry. cuz its filled wiv tears and sorrow flowing already. spent most of the time during backstroke, looking at the sky. it was beautiful. utterly beautiful. on my right, this tinted blue sky, so luminous. patched up wiv clouds so lush...so perfect, dat they looked fake. on my left were streaks of orange yellow and red. and a purple-pink backgrd. just like a pretty picture one would paint. it was sunset by the way. prolly the nicest moment of the day. i just stood in the pool, admiring the god-given scene. i thank God for at least giving me friends that are so true, dat its possible for one to not of the existance ov such a being. not having the experience of being loved, not just by our parents, but by those we care about most. well at least those I care about most. Its the most wonderful feeling in the world.
[the greatest thing we'll ever know is to learn to love and be loved in return.]
its mother's day todae. im kwite glad i made my mum happie by giving her vcds. at least i noe ive cheered sumone up. and that there isnt one more person who ish like me. i would accept it if ppl didnt like me cuz of who i am. i definitely will accept it. but they dun like me cuz of sumthing i didnt do. im really not sure why this affects me so much, esp it's done by pple whom i am not close to, but im really hurt. my depression and self anger has turned into plain anger. being angry with everyone. including those who hav stood by me foreva. yes and i'll write entries on my individual friends later.
had church todae. i love it. all my best friends unite under our one and only salvation. our lord jesus christ. these pple who ive known for almost my lifetime. druce, mik, josh, kate, and all the rest. i love them with all my heart. i should just shut this entry and start a new one for my friends.
this is wad i'll believe it from now on. and i pray i wunt b softhearted..
[i believe they can take anything from me
but they cant succeed in taking my inner peace
they can say all they wanna say about me
but i'm gonna carry one
im gonna keep on singing my song]
-crying-
yuan ar... why dya haf the same name as the korean actor i like? other than surname. and i think its written differently.. budden hanyu pinyin ish the same.. haha. u ar. that reminds me..sorrie if i havent been talking to you much. (CAUSE YOU DUN HAF A HP) nono kiddin kiddin. ha yeah. sorrie. i'll make it up next tyme kay.. treat u to lunch or sumthing.
oh i just found out, my classmates actualli read my blog! wow! =.= and they misunderstand me like crazy. im sorrie i dun think ive done anything to offend them in any way. so let me explain myself.
brenda, if u sumhow read this, or sumone direct her to this. that thursday? no i didnt see you till i reached the escalator. i was with chunyee.. hamsie's kor(or gor. wadeva). i did not see u wave to me or i'll definitely wave back. i just called him. he said he didnt see u till then either. maybe im blur or sumthing. no not maybe. i AM blur. budden im sorrie iv u misunderstood that i like walked away instead.
constance, i dunno how u got so many wrong impressions about me. honestly i think there's no evidence to back it. but still. u do haf so many that they carn be counted. ive tried to explain myself to you. i do hope u gettit. oh yarh for those pple who thot i pon-ed class on friday? look down and u'll realise i didnt pon. i was still in my school u cuz i went to the lib to stardee. i wanted to go to school. esp since there was ting xie and yes i studied pretty hard the night b4. const its either u're just not sensitive abt this or im just tooo overly sensitive. but half the time, when i talk to u, u dun seem to wanna talk to me.. why should i always be the one starting the conversation when i DO THINK i didnt do anithing wrong. im try so hard not to offend u. not to upset u.. wad happens ish that u still misunderstand me. den, ive got nothing betta to say.
hamsie, gurl i talk to u the most. u mite sense that i open up to u more? i dunno why either but yarh i do. i dunno if u've been mistaking me like the others. but i sure hope u dunt.
thats wad ive gotta sae. i dunno why and what i did to make others think that im always up to sumthing no good. ive got my share ov problems. and im not living in dreamland as wad constance would haf said. my world, my life, ish too real for a normal fourteen year old. dun roll ur eyes now cuz u think im talkin crap. cuz im not. maybe if u're going thru wad i am.. u'll understand.
-crying-
yuan ar... why dya haf the same same as the korean actor i like? other than surname. and i think its written differently.. budden hanyu pinyin ish the same.. haha. u ar. that reminds me..sorrie if i havent been talking to you much. (CAUSE YOU DUN HAF A HP) nono kiddin kiddin. ha yeah. sorrie. i'll make it up next tyme kay.. treat u to lunch or sumthing.
oh i just found out, my classmates actualli read my blog! wow! =.= and they misunderstand me like crazy. im sorrie i dun think ive done anything to offend them in any way. so let me explain myself.
brenda, if u sumhow read this, or sumone direct her to this. that thursday? no i didnt see you till i reached the escalator. i was with chunyee.. hamsie's kor(or gor. wadeva). i did not see u wave to me or i'll definitely wave back. i just called him. he said he didnt see u till then either. maybe im blur or sumthing. no not maybe. i AM blur. budden im sorrie iv u misunderstood that i like walked away instead.
constance, i dunno how u got so many wrong impressions about me. honestly i think there's no evidence to back it. but still. u do haf so many that they carn be counted. ive tried to explain myself to you. i do hope u gettit. oh yarh for those pple who thot i pon-ed class on friday? look down and u'll realise i didnt pon. i was still in my school u cuz i went to the lib to stardee. i wanted to go to school. esp since there was ting xie and yes i studied pretty hard the night b4. const its either u're just not sensitive abt this or im just tooo overly sensitive. but half the time, when i talk to u, u dun seem to wanna talk to me.. why should i always be the one starting the conversation when i DO THINK i didnt do anithing wrong. im try so hard not to offend u. not to upset u.. wad happens ish that u still misunderstand me. den, ive got nothing betta to say.
hamsie, gurl i talk to u the most. u mite sense that i open up to u more? i dunno why either but yarh i do. i dunno if u've been mistaking me like the others. but i sure hope u dunt.
thats wad ive gotta sae. i dunno why and what i did to make others think that im always up to sumthing no good. ive got my share ov problems. and im not living in dreamland as wad constance would haf said. my world, my life, ish too real for a normal fourteen year old. dun roll ur eyes now cuz u think im talkin crap. cuz im not. maybe if u're going thru wad i am.. u'll understand.
mmmm todae. ish. zai. somehow, i wanted to go to school todae. but i was late. so i made my way to the general office. my reason was cuz i had a flu, n yeah i did. i was sniffing away, no not intentionally. dis was our conversation.
clerK:"you haf a flu?"
me:"uh yarh?"
clerk:"you cannot cum to school!"
den she made me go check my tempreture. it was 36.7
me:"i realli dun hafta go home, see i dun haf a fever."
clerk:"budden we hafta care abt the other students! wad if u're having symptoms?"
me:"but i dun need and dun wanna go back!!"
clerk:"you have to!!!"
and it went on liddat for awhile till i gaf up. mad man. and since i wasnt sick. i went out wiv mabel in the afternoon. charlene and brenda saw me.. zhen de shi dao man. i mean they nudged each other. but hello? just ask why i didnt go to school larh. damn. mm yeap. we haf lunch at lido. like upstairs without the chairs? zai. =P mhmm.. den went ta heeren take neoprints... zai man.. take neoprint can scream ar.. =D hahah.. first time first time. i pei fu man. pretty small group ov pple.. we can make a LOT of noise. hehheh.mhmmm.. den went to cine. to get movie studs to get free bowling game. cheapo or wad? =P hehheh. den saw tyron.. lala... e usual.. budden didnt say hi to him... rather queer cuz i didnt see amos nor ian and co. he was wiv a group ov pple.. but the onli person i saw was him, and one of his frens who held the lift door... mmm.. haha. okay so. had kwite alot ov fun todae larh. den when i met my mum..went to zara.. shes gonna buy me this reallllliiii nice skirt but onli when the stock cums on sunday. hehe. man. im rarely in a gd mood.. now i am. =D ciaoz......!!
bleeagghhh. i honestly think im losing touch wiv nick. much that ya we're still close and all but like i dun getta talk to him much nowadays. and even if i do, im either rushing off, or he ish, OR ive got nu-in to say. sigh. and i realised i get along with older pple betta. yeah i mean nick, i DO get along wiv him. same age ones too, budden sumhow, i think i clique wiv sum older ones betta.. as they say, the youngest usually clique wiv older pple. =.=
sigh. one thing i dun realli get. how can pple change so kwickly. ive got so many examples. one. beejay. he used ta be one ov my best best pals. well now i gues he still ish.. but i dunno. he like went thru sum strange transaction and shut himself out from the world for kwite a while. that created the distance. my best friend. kate. i just got off the fone wiv her.. b4 she went ta wales. yeah she was dressy and stuff.. but she nv used to care how she looked like to others.. didnt realli care wad others thot of her. i was and still am e same. and she was telling me. oh like mmmm how she needs ta trim down cuz she looks flabby and stuff. i mean. it aint her!!! wad on earth has e world becum? vic. dat one im speechless.... fancy getting into police trouble. tsk. bleagh bleagh.
haish how? pple are geting worse and worse these days. i can die man. haish okay going out wiv seniors tmr.. kinda freaky.. but u noe? heck. =P kay ciaoz....
mm YAY i got my shirt... well its form u2.. but its just as nice.. or even nicer.2 fer 20 bucks... wheeeeheeee...oh n math test was abreeze. just hope i dun abreeze abreeze until do veh badly.hehe. well i noe i stardeeed pretty hard fer it..budden my french? was like crap. tmr havnig geog and history.. wah both humans. can die too. well todae, to be honest. sucked. i dunno wads wrong wiv muh classmates. yes i noe they mite read this. budden like. start ov the day. const didnt wanna talk to me... until recess.. i was like.. wtf? wad did i do?!?! tell me!! gosh.. den afta dat was hamsie. i mean im sorrie? im not here just so u can talk to whenever and wherever u like, and shun me away when ure pms-ing or smthg. gosh. haish. anyway. lookin on the brite side.. going out on friday. =P no mabel. u'll take my life if u want me to breeng friends along. yeap. bleagh bleagh. oh yarh kate iv u're reading this. remember juice ryan paul has midyears.. u hafta tell uncle alex that we can onli perform next combine serv kay? yay. heh.
oo yeah. i dunno iv ive said i bot the evanescence cd.well its rather good. but ab it noisy.. =P yeap. my mum sorta allows me to go for rob's class.. or pats.. depending on muh mood i guess.. but its case ta case. yup. heex. i mean pats dances are realli veh nice. well sum. while rob's style. im still getting used to.. so it's like new, fresh, exciting kinda thing. but rob's a lil too polite. pat ish just plain rude and pms. bleagh. dunno leh. lionel a's the bez larh. haha yeap. well ive got geog and hist test tmr.. so i'd betta go get stardeeing.. yup ltr!
wheeee. just came back from funk2. intermediate hiphop in other words. lalala urm. i went cuz of robert vinson. the teach taking ova lionel a for the time being. hes like the choreographer of dancerz like chrissA, britney, janet j.. lala.. and hes really really good! haha. so damn funkeh kay. haha he did a solo for us. sorta break dancey. and it was like wad.. all impromptu.. left us basically dumbfounded..jaws dropped. lala. ^^ yeap. den his dance. shiok man. dance until my whole shirt was wet. den my whole face was red.not peenk. RED. haha. cool. mm todae stayed at home to stardee e whole day, at the same time, scolded the whole day. SighS. yeap. bleagh. ahh well. french mid years tmr and im dying. dying dying dying. ahh baby im dyinnnggg.. we're alll dyyinngg... bleagh. anyway i should look on the brite side, going out wiv mabel and sum of her friends on friday. budden wednesday and thurs haf tests. =.= nothing to look forward to!! argghhhh.
ok i shall talk abt wad happened yestaday. well i went wiv jess to watch xmen again. haha. but had to leave halfway to meet muh mum. b4 that we went to the music shop at ps and like had sum fun wiv the gits. man. got chased out afta awhile. =.= haha but kwite fun larh. =P den we went to sweet recipe to eat. nono wait.. we saw jess' edric at the grand piano shop. she told me he was pretty cute. budden yestaday when i saw him? ^^ he looked.. well....rather bad. haha. budden she said he loox good when he smiles.. so ive yet to see. yeap. den we went to eat cake at sweet recipe. haha. this lao ah be kept staring at us. we were like.. whadda hell. ur wife and child ish in front of u. stare wad stare. yeap den went ta watch the movie. den my mum and i went ta heeren. i saw this REALLI nice black top. rather simple larh. its a sports top cutting. budden nicer material.. not the type that sticks to ur skin. budden it was wad.. 30,40 bucks? =( mum didnt allow me ta buy. anyway yarh. den afta that normal day larh. kays i think i'd betta go now. ciaozzies.
as i said i wld blog later. so i shall continue on my day yestaday. didnt make much sense. nvm. well we DID getta watch xmen and im rather happie. haha. called ryan just now and realised he didnt getta watch e show. =P hehheh. i'd say it was kwite well done. budden a bit too drama for xmen.. well maybe just more drama den the first one. i was like clutching my seat...sumhow or another. and kelly hu has reallli long nails. ha. yeap. e ending was kwite sad larh... i mea cyclops was cryinnnng!!! hes my favorite mutant btw.. super cute super hooot. =P yeaaap. i dunno wad else happened.. oh yeah oh yeah. had coffee bean wiv nigel and vic. and merp and all, i havent exactly lost contact wiv them so they seem pretty normal to me.. ahh yeah and i bot like the nike bottle i've always wanted.. the thermal one. =D
okok to todae. arnh;iuchyniwruhylwricnyrwu... MY ORALS WERE ATROCIOUS! the picture was surprisingly alrigghhht. budden the conversation was just baad. i mean e qn was wad games i played when i was younger.. excuse me? i dun exactly play specific games... =.= so i realli realli crap. i mean if i were the examiner, i'd noe this person ish just talking crap. gosh. die le... kk i'd betta go stardee.. ciaoz [carn stand it.. mabel.. im spelling more n more like u.]
mmm lets see wad i did yestaday. went out wiv my classmates. well i saw yonglin. and honestly speakin, he loox worsethan b4.. very terrible. i mean its so sad how he said wow. hes got nice hair, muscular bod, uhhh basically a cute guy. my gosh. kill me. den saw uhhhh whos that... carl. yeap. as midget as eva, zhen de shi sad ar..oh and like xingqun has becum a giant. but a giant TWIG. hehheh. nigel's comin pretty nice. as in like nice guy kinda thing. and victoria.. =.= shes mixed wiv such bad company, she's got a police record. =.= shoplifting and gang fite.. GANG FITE K. bleahs. den like shes so vulgar, nigel and i were like.. ^^. i mean hes a guy loh.. and he isnt even that vulgar. sad man. =P ah well. in school now. betta get going. blog later!
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