Monday, June 30
Sweet Rose
If You were a Rose, which one would U be?
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(haha im sorrie this is just funny)
You are a prep. Even worse then a poser. Go away.
Whats your label? (Updated)
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ur outgoing and fun!! u bring fun and laughter to
others all the time. ur also sorta
hyperactive.. *grinN.*
which.[ the sims ].game are u?
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you get me high`
8:40 AM
8:40 AM
Insignificance
I dont really know why im still feeling so down. Someone mind ta tell me? I reeeaallllyy dont wish ta quarrel wiv anyone, but doesnt anyone see or understand me? In everyone's head, not just my schoolmates, everyone, is like "oh she's such bad company" tadahdahdah. Pple who know me just a tad betta. Not MUCH betta, but just a tad, would know that i hate fights. Whhhyy and so on. But ive come to a conclusion. Why bother about people who dont care about me? It's a selfish thought i know, but hey, it's only selfish to me. To others, it may be their daily motto or somethin'. I figure i appear more self-sacrifical.
Hmm, band prac tmr, suck-ified man. Much that i reallllllyyyy wanna go. But i want, and i needa study (oh gawd im being such a damn mugger), ahh forgetit. wake up a lil earlier and do more work. I'll have much more ahead of me.
Mum and Aunty Ann always says im like Joel, Aunty ann's son. NUS lawyer i think. Cause both of our minds are prettie naive, we never figure out why there are pple, more generally knwn as the "bad company" and all. TO us, the world is filled with pple like us, without tricks up our sleeves and bah.
Maybe im not that innocent. Why? The only reason i can think of is i dont wanna make anyone's life miserable. Yes im saying i know so much more bout some pple that they'll never imagine. ANd all those itty-bitty ugly facts, i keep them to myself, cause i dont wanna hurt anyone. Okay, so i keep everything deep down in me, is it my fault?
Trying to check up on population density for geog. Im prettie sure I lost my chinese "ri ji yi zhe" so i'll have ta redo it. Whetha i'll have the time, thats a totally different story. At least im not in a group who thinks i do all i can to pull the group/class down. Reality check: Kel, u're in a new group now. ADAPT.
kisses.
I dont really know why im still feeling so down. Someone mind ta tell me? I reeeaallllyy dont wish ta quarrel wiv anyone, but doesnt anyone see or understand me? In everyone's head, not just my schoolmates, everyone, is like "oh she's such bad company" tadahdahdah. Pple who know me just a tad betta. Not MUCH betta, but just a tad, would know that i hate fights. Whhhyy and so on. But ive come to a conclusion. Why bother about people who dont care about me? It's a selfish thought i know, but hey, it's only selfish to me. To others, it may be their daily motto or somethin'. I figure i appear more self-sacrifical.
Hmm, band prac tmr, suck-ified man. Much that i reallllllyyyy wanna go. But i want, and i needa study (oh gawd im being such a damn mugger), ahh forgetit. wake up a lil earlier and do more work. I'll have much more ahead of me.
Mum and Aunty Ann always says im like Joel, Aunty ann's son. NUS lawyer i think. Cause both of our minds are prettie naive, we never figure out why there are pple, more generally knwn as the "bad company" and all. TO us, the world is filled with pple like us, without tricks up our sleeves and bah.
Maybe im not that innocent. Why? The only reason i can think of is i dont wanna make anyone's life miserable. Yes im saying i know so much more bout some pple that they'll never imagine. ANd all those itty-bitty ugly facts, i keep them to myself, cause i dont wanna hurt anyone. Okay, so i keep everything deep down in me, is it my fault?
Trying to check up on population density for geog. Im prettie sure I lost my chinese "ri ji yi zhe" so i'll have ta redo it. Whetha i'll have the time, thats a totally different story. At least im not in a group who thinks i do all i can to pull the group/class down. Reality check: Kel, u're in a new group now. ADAPT.
kisses.
you get me high`
8:34 AM
8:34 AM
Sunday, June 29
mugger sh!t
hm. School's started for almost everyone. Other than the rgs gurls of course. Haish. Im gonna stardeeeeeeeeee. Mhmm. Psychoed myself into doing so already.
MMmmm, comin sunday's youth service. Im backup singer, and i realllyyyy wanna play on the grand piano. Katee................. AHh well. Evan's partnering me i think. Haha, kate said must harmonise, right gurl? I figure I know how ta, after all our "emotions", but what abt evan? Hehe. Lets just see larh. Oh hey. remind me bout prac kay, REMIND ME. Eh wait, there's one tmr. Shoot. Haveta blow xing off i think. Bah.
Mmm, so went for dance yesterday. Pat was, uh, in this really pleasant mood! =.= strange guy. Its like when jess and i went into the studio, he smiled smiled smiled. =.= MaD. Hehe. Urm the dance was.. kinda strange tho. Oh jess, btw, i was thinking of going for Rob's JAZZ next week. I WANNA DANCE TO EVANESCENCE. I mean im sure i can use his funk steps, but evanescence's beat's a lil stranger from the rest, or maybe it's just me. And his jazz steps are lush. Hee. Okay kinda done, must go back to mugging.
To druce who wont read this, get well soon! Dont get caught up with fever for too long! Mite get sars. HAHA.
Songggeeeeeeey:
one day i'll fly away-moulin rouge
I follow the night
Can't stand the light
When will I begin
To live again?
What more could love do for me?
When will love be through with me?
One day I'll fly away
Leave all this to yesterday
Why live life from dream to dream?
And dread the day
When dreaming ends
One day I'll fly away
Leave all this to yesterday
Why live life from dream to dream?
And dread the day
when dreaming ends
One day I'll fly away
Fly, fly
Away
All that jazz-Chicago
All that Jazz
Come on babe why don’t we paint the town
And all that jazz
I’m gonna rouge my knees and roll my stockings down
And all that jazz
Start the car, I know a whoopee spot
Where the gin is cold but the piano’s hot
It’s just a noisy hall, where there’s a nightly brawl
And all that jazz
Slick your hair, and wear your buckle shoes
And all that jazz
I hear that father dipp is gonna blow the blues
And all that jazz
Hold on hun we’re gonna bunny hug
I bought some asprin, down at united drug
In case you shake apart, and want a brand new start
To Do, That, Jazz
Find a glass we’re playing fast and loose
And all that jazz
Right up here is where I store the juice
And all that jazz
Come un babe we’re gonna brush the sky
I betcha lucky Lindy
Never flew so high
Cause in the stratosphere
How could he lend an ear
To all that jazz?
Oh you’re gonna see you sheba, Shimmy shake
And all that jazz
Oh, she’s gonna shimmy till her garters break
And all that jazz
Show her where to park her girdle
Oh, her mother’s blood’d curdle
(If she’d hear her baby’s queer)
For all, that, jazz!
C’mon babe
Why don’t we paint the town?
And all that jazz
I’m gonna rouge my knees and roll my stockings down
And all that jazz
Start the car, I know a whoopee spot
Where the gin is cold, but the piano’s hot
It’s just a noisy hall, where there’s a nightly brawl
And all that jazz!
No, I’m no one’s wife
But, oh I love my life
And all that jazz!!
That jazz!
hm. School's started for almost everyone. Other than the rgs gurls of course. Haish. Im gonna stardeeeeeeeeee. Mhmm. Psychoed myself into doing so already.
MMmmm, comin sunday's youth service. Im backup singer, and i realllyyyy wanna play on the grand piano. Katee................. AHh well. Evan's partnering me i think. Haha, kate said must harmonise, right gurl? I figure I know how ta, after all our "emotions", but what abt evan? Hehe. Lets just see larh. Oh hey. remind me bout prac kay, REMIND ME. Eh wait, there's one tmr. Shoot. Haveta blow xing off i think. Bah.
Mmm, so went for dance yesterday. Pat was, uh, in this really pleasant mood! =.= strange guy. Its like when jess and i went into the studio, he smiled smiled smiled. =.= MaD. Hehe. Urm the dance was.. kinda strange tho. Oh jess, btw, i was thinking of going for Rob's JAZZ next week. I WANNA DANCE TO EVANESCENCE. I mean im sure i can use his funk steps, but evanescence's beat's a lil stranger from the rest, or maybe it's just me. And his jazz steps are lush. Hee. Okay kinda done, must go back to mugging.
To druce who wont read this, get well soon! Dont get caught up with fever for too long! Mite get sars. HAHA.
Songggeeeeeeey:
one day i'll fly away-moulin rouge
I follow the night
Can't stand the light
When will I begin
To live again?
What more could love do for me?
When will love be through with me?
One day I'll fly away
Leave all this to yesterday
Why live life from dream to dream?
And dread the day
When dreaming ends
One day I'll fly away
Leave all this to yesterday
Why live life from dream to dream?
And dread the day
when dreaming ends
One day I'll fly away
Fly, fly
Away
All that jazz-Chicago
All that Jazz
Come on babe why don’t we paint the town
And all that jazz
I’m gonna rouge my knees and roll my stockings down
And all that jazz
Start the car, I know a whoopee spot
Where the gin is cold but the piano’s hot
It’s just a noisy hall, where there’s a nightly brawl
And all that jazz
Slick your hair, and wear your buckle shoes
And all that jazz
I hear that father dipp is gonna blow the blues
And all that jazz
Hold on hun we’re gonna bunny hug
I bought some asprin, down at united drug
In case you shake apart, and want a brand new start
To Do, That, Jazz
Find a glass we’re playing fast and loose
And all that jazz
Right up here is where I store the juice
And all that jazz
Come un babe we’re gonna brush the sky
I betcha lucky Lindy
Never flew so high
Cause in the stratosphere
How could he lend an ear
To all that jazz?
Oh you’re gonna see you sheba, Shimmy shake
And all that jazz
Oh, she’s gonna shimmy till her garters break
And all that jazz
Show her where to park her girdle
Oh, her mother’s blood’d curdle
(If she’d hear her baby’s queer)
For all, that, jazz!
C’mon babe
Why don’t we paint the town?
And all that jazz
I’m gonna rouge my knees and roll my stockings down
And all that jazz
Start the car, I know a whoopee spot
Where the gin is cold, but the piano’s hot
It’s just a noisy hall, where there’s a nightly brawl
And all that jazz!
No, I’m no one’s wife
But, oh I love my life
And all that jazz!!
That jazz!
you get me high`
10:54 PM
10:54 PM
you get me high`
10:36 PM
10:36 PM
Saturday, June 28
so...happy?
Hmm... I went out with jesso. Hahaha figure im a tad happier. Not really sure why. FOr one, our neoprints turned out really lush. Really really nice. Haha just not enough time to actually finish writing our words. But hey. It was still good ya. *Now i need ling2 to help me scan.. linnngggggg!!!* Yeah alright, so back to what's up. Im a strange creature man. Using this, uh, new blogger thang, i actually bother to write my caps and stuff. Whoo. Hehe. Okay now.
Haish dinner got postponed *im reeallllyyy sorrie cy, i didnt noe they'll postpone it* Probably having it on.. tuesday? Hope all goes well!
Okay finished my bio essay. YiiIPPPPppppIIIiiiiiEEee. Hey im proud of myself kay. I spent an hour doing it. With full concentration (LP playing as backgrd), and i got everything straight. Wish me luck! Hope i do weeellll. Like how lingling did. Oh ling ar, mine's upon 25 ya know. And no it aint bout Lipid stuff. Hee.
Errmmm. Im still in a prettie bad mood la, just a TAD better. Hmm, didnt getta see Edison Chen todae, kinda upset. But hey, it was at 9, I wouldnt have been allowed to. Bah. hehheh. Kay i think enough of the crap, let's go to the song baby!
Wash it all away- Evanescence"You hold the answers deep within your own mind.
Consciously, you've forgotten it.
That's the way the human mind works.
Whenever something is too unpleasant, too shameful for us
to entertain, we reject it.
We erase it from our memories.
But the answer is always there."
(Can't wash it all away)
(Can't Wish it all away)
(Can't hope it all away)
(Can't cry it all away)
The pain that grips you
The fear that binds you
Releases life in me
In our mutual
Shame we idolize
To blind them from the truth
That finds a way from who we are
Please don't be afraid
When the darkness fades away
The dawn will break the silence
Screaming in our hearts
My love for you still grows
This I do for you
Before I try to fight the truth
my final time
"We're supposed to try and be real.
And I feel alone, and we're not together. And that is real."
Can't wash it all away
Can't wish it all away
Can't cry it all away
Can't scratch it all away
Lying beside you
Listening to you breathe
The life that flows inside of you
Burns inside of me
Hold and speak to me
Of love without a sound
Tell me you will live through this
And I will die for you
Cast me not away
Say you'll be with me
For I know I cannot
Bear it all alone
"You're not alone, are you?"
"Never... Never."
Can't fight it all away
Can't hope it all away
Can't scream it all away
It just won't fade away, No
Can't wash it all away
Can't wish it all away
Can't cry it all away
Can't scratch it all away
(Can't fight it all away)
(Can't hope it all away)
Can't scream it all away
Ooh, it all away
Ooh, it all away
"But the answer is always there. Nothing is ever really forgotten."
"Because I'm tired of it too."
"Because I'm tired of it too."
"Because I'm tired of it too."
"Because I'm tired of it too."
"Because I'm tired of it too."
Hmm... I went out with jesso. Hahaha figure im a tad happier. Not really sure why. FOr one, our neoprints turned out really lush. Really really nice. Haha just not enough time to actually finish writing our words. But hey. It was still good ya. *Now i need ling2 to help me scan.. linnngggggg!!!* Yeah alright, so back to what's up. Im a strange creature man. Using this, uh, new blogger thang, i actually bother to write my caps and stuff. Whoo. Hehe. Okay now.
Haish dinner got postponed *im reeallllyyy sorrie cy, i didnt noe they'll postpone it* Probably having it on.. tuesday? Hope all goes well!
Okay finished my bio essay. YiiIPPPPppppIIIiiiiiEEee. Hey im proud of myself kay. I spent an hour doing it. With full concentration (LP playing as backgrd), and i got everything straight. Wish me luck! Hope i do weeellll. Like how lingling did. Oh ling ar, mine's upon 25 ya know. And no it aint bout Lipid stuff. Hee.
Errmmm. Im still in a prettie bad mood la, just a TAD better. Hmm, didnt getta see Edison Chen todae, kinda upset. But hey, it was at 9, I wouldnt have been allowed to. Bah. hehheh. Kay i think enough of the crap, let's go to the song baby!
Wash it all away- Evanescence"You hold the answers deep within your own mind.
Consciously, you've forgotten it.
That's the way the human mind works.
Whenever something is too unpleasant, too shameful for us
to entertain, we reject it.
We erase it from our memories.
But the answer is always there."
(Can't wash it all away)
(Can't Wish it all away)
(Can't hope it all away)
(Can't cry it all away)
The pain that grips you
The fear that binds you
Releases life in me
In our mutual
Shame we idolize
To blind them from the truth
That finds a way from who we are
Please don't be afraid
When the darkness fades away
The dawn will break the silence
Screaming in our hearts
My love for you still grows
This I do for you
Before I try to fight the truth
my final time
"We're supposed to try and be real.
And I feel alone, and we're not together. And that is real."
Can't wash it all away
Can't wish it all away
Can't cry it all away
Can't scratch it all away
Lying beside you
Listening to you breathe
The life that flows inside of you
Burns inside of me
Hold and speak to me
Of love without a sound
Tell me you will live through this
And I will die for you
Cast me not away
Say you'll be with me
For I know I cannot
Bear it all alone
"You're not alone, are you?"
"Never... Never."
Can't fight it all away
Can't hope it all away
Can't scream it all away
It just won't fade away, No
Can't wash it all away
Can't wish it all away
Can't cry it all away
Can't scratch it all away
(Can't fight it all away)
(Can't hope it all away)
Can't scream it all away
Ooh, it all away
Ooh, it all away
"But the answer is always there. Nothing is ever really forgotten."
"Because I'm tired of it too."
"Because I'm tired of it too."
"Because I'm tired of it too."
"Because I'm tired of it too."
"Because I'm tired of it too."
you get me high`
7:32 AM
7:32 AM
Friday, June 27
if ure not professional, ure not professional
Alright. So this is it. All the tears ive shed made me happier. Irony i know, but its true. Im not gonna talk about it, just for one thing as said: If you're not a professsional, u can never be one.
Well i spent the whole of last night, browsing through what i could, trying so hard understand the main main concept of PCR. Haish but school doesnt teach the basics of genetix n all. Really stupid. Cuz it's damn hard to actually understand PCR or even translation and transcription, b4 u learn the basics. AHh well. At least I know exactly what to do!! Yup. Proud of myself. I can show the rest that i aint all that dumb. Hrmf.
Okay going out with jesso later. Funny funny. =PpP okok i'd betta get going to write muh essay. Ciaozzies!
oh, thanks for the note vick.
One minute-MaryMary
I know it now that i was such a fool
To turn my back on You
When You had given me everything
I let You down, I know that's true
now i've come to realize that there
there are no happy days because
You're not here, i need to know
If there's a chance for me again
ohh
Chorus:
All i need is 1 minute of Your time
5 seconds of it may change Your mind
10 seconds to make You see
15 to say Lord I'm sorry
For all the things I've done
It will take 20 more to say that You're the one
9 to think it through
i'll take the one to say I love You
Late at night when I was alone
You held me in Your arms
I strayed away only to find
There was no place to hide
Lord please hear me when i say
I'll give my life to You whatever I've got to do
Show me Lord and i will live for You
(Chorus)
I'm not willing to, to give up on You
knowing that You always stood right by me
Until You forgive me my world won't turn
So if you hear me Lord i'm saying that i'm
sorry
Said, i'm saying sorry
(Chorus)
Alright. So this is it. All the tears ive shed made me happier. Irony i know, but its true. Im not gonna talk about it, just for one thing as said: If you're not a professsional, u can never be one.
Well i spent the whole of last night, browsing through what i could, trying so hard understand the main main concept of PCR. Haish but school doesnt teach the basics of genetix n all. Really stupid. Cuz it's damn hard to actually understand PCR or even translation and transcription, b4 u learn the basics. AHh well. At least I know exactly what to do!! Yup. Proud of myself. I can show the rest that i aint all that dumb. Hrmf.
Okay going out with jesso later. Funny funny. =PpP okok i'd betta get going to write muh essay. Ciaozzies!
oh, thanks for the note vick.
One minute-MaryMary
I know it now that i was such a fool
To turn my back on You
When You had given me everything
I let You down, I know that's true
now i've come to realize that there
there are no happy days because
You're not here, i need to know
If there's a chance for me again
ohh
Chorus:
All i need is 1 minute of Your time
5 seconds of it may change Your mind
10 seconds to make You see
15 to say Lord I'm sorry
For all the things I've done
It will take 20 more to say that You're the one
9 to think it through
i'll take the one to say I love You
Late at night when I was alone
You held me in Your arms
I strayed away only to find
There was no place to hide
Lord please hear me when i say
I'll give my life to You whatever I've got to do
Show me Lord and i will live for You
(Chorus)
I'm not willing to, to give up on You
knowing that You always stood right by me
Until You forgive me my world won't turn
So if you hear me Lord i'm saying that i'm
sorry
Said, i'm saying sorry
(Chorus)
you get me high`
9:37 PM
9:37 PM
Thursday, June 26
horrible. just horrible
YOu know how an ant makes its way through life, struggling on its own, trying to stand out, and the next minute it's dead? Well that illustrates me.
Sometimes i sit here and wonder I could actually make friends in this whole complicated world, and 99% of my friends are the best you can find. I must have been blessed somehow. However, that small minority of 1% is putting me to hell. Moreover, they are pple i see just about 24-7. Pple, i can tell you, i wholeheartedly try not to trust, but just cant do it. i will trust them. Okay, as it is, i feel it's a good and bad characteristic bout me.
SO anyway. I dont wanna go into what happened, but i only can pray to God that he will teach me to learn smart.
Well looking on the brite side, weekends are coming. And we got a new chinese and history/form teach. Chinese teacher's real good. The only one chinese lesson ive enjoyed in sec school. Havent officially met the history teacher, but he lookx funny alright. And i figure if i got the right guy, Mr Law, his name's Redmund Law? =.= Splendid name. Alrighty then, off i go!
Nobody's Listening-LP
Yo, peep the style and the kids checking for it
The number one question is
How could you ignore it
We drop right back in the cut over basement tracks
With raps that got you backing this up like
[Rewind that]
We're just rolling with the rhythm
Rise from the ashes of stylistic division
With these non-stop lyrics of life living
Not to be forgotten but still unforgiven
But in the meantime there are those who wanna talk this and that
So I suppose (that) it gets to a point
(Where) Feelings got to get hurt
And get dirty with the people spreading the dirt, it goes
Tried to give you warning
But everyone ignores me
[Told you everything loud and clear]
But nobody's listening
Call to you so clearly
But you don't want to hear me
Told you everything loud and clear]
But nobody's listening
I've got a heart full of pain / Head full of stress
Hand full of anger / Held in my chest
And everything left is a waste of time
I hate my rhymes
[But I hate everyone else's more]
I'm riding on the back of this pressure
Guessing that it's better I can't keep myself together
Because all of this stress gave me something to write on
(And) The pain gave me something I could set my sights on
You never forget the blood, sweat, and tears
The uphill struggle over years
The fear and trash talking and the people it was to
And the people that started it just like you
Tried to give you warning
But everyone ignores me
[Told you everything loud and clear]
But nobody's listening
Call to you so clearly
But you don't want to hear me
[Told you everything loud and clear]
But nobody's listening
I've got a heart full of pain / Head full of stress
Hand full of anger / Held in my chest
Uphill struggle / Blood, sweat, and tears
Nothing to gain / Everything to fear
Heart full of pain / Head full of stress
Hand full of anger / Held in my chest
Uphill struggle / Blood, sweat, and tears
Nothing to gain / Everything to fear
Heart full of pain
Tried to give you warning
But everyone ignores me
[Told you everything loud and clear]
But nobody's listening
Called to you so clearly
But you don't want to hear me
[Told you everything loud and clear]
But nobody's listening
I've got a heart full of pain / Head full of stress
[Nobody's listening]
Hand full of anger / Held in my chest
[Nobody's listening]
Uphill struggle / Blood, sweat, and tears
[Nobody's listening]
Nothing to gain / Everything to fear
[Nobody's listening]
Coming at you
Coming at you
Coming at you
Coming at you from every side
YOu know how an ant makes its way through life, struggling on its own, trying to stand out, and the next minute it's dead? Well that illustrates me.
Sometimes i sit here and wonder I could actually make friends in this whole complicated world, and 99% of my friends are the best you can find. I must have been blessed somehow. However, that small minority of 1% is putting me to hell. Moreover, they are pple i see just about 24-7. Pple, i can tell you, i wholeheartedly try not to trust, but just cant do it. i will trust them. Okay, as it is, i feel it's a good and bad characteristic bout me.
SO anyway. I dont wanna go into what happened, but i only can pray to God that he will teach me to learn smart.
Well looking on the brite side, weekends are coming. And we got a new chinese and history/form teach. Chinese teacher's real good. The only one chinese lesson ive enjoyed in sec school. Havent officially met the history teacher, but he lookx funny alright. And i figure if i got the right guy, Mr Law, his name's Redmund Law? =.= Splendid name. Alrighty then, off i go!
Nobody's Listening-LP
Yo, peep the style and the kids checking for it
The number one question is
How could you ignore it
We drop right back in the cut over basement tracks
With raps that got you backing this up like
[Rewind that]
We're just rolling with the rhythm
Rise from the ashes of stylistic division
With these non-stop lyrics of life living
Not to be forgotten but still unforgiven
But in the meantime there are those who wanna talk this and that
So I suppose (that) it gets to a point
(Where) Feelings got to get hurt
And get dirty with the people spreading the dirt, it goes
Tried to give you warning
But everyone ignores me
[Told you everything loud and clear]
But nobody's listening
Call to you so clearly
But you don't want to hear me
Told you everything loud and clear]
But nobody's listening
I've got a heart full of pain / Head full of stress
Hand full of anger / Held in my chest
And everything left is a waste of time
I hate my rhymes
[But I hate everyone else's more]
I'm riding on the back of this pressure
Guessing that it's better I can't keep myself together
Because all of this stress gave me something to write on
(And) The pain gave me something I could set my sights on
You never forget the blood, sweat, and tears
The uphill struggle over years
The fear and trash talking and the people it was to
And the people that started it just like you
Tried to give you warning
But everyone ignores me
[Told you everything loud and clear]
But nobody's listening
Call to you so clearly
But you don't want to hear me
[Told you everything loud and clear]
But nobody's listening
I've got a heart full of pain / Head full of stress
Hand full of anger / Held in my chest
Uphill struggle / Blood, sweat, and tears
Nothing to gain / Everything to fear
Heart full of pain / Head full of stress
Hand full of anger / Held in my chest
Uphill struggle / Blood, sweat, and tears
Nothing to gain / Everything to fear
Heart full of pain
Tried to give you warning
But everyone ignores me
[Told you everything loud and clear]
But nobody's listening
Called to you so clearly
But you don't want to hear me
[Told you everything loud and clear]
But nobody's listening
I've got a heart full of pain / Head full of stress
[Nobody's listening]
Hand full of anger / Held in my chest
[Nobody's listening]
Uphill struggle / Blood, sweat, and tears
[Nobody's listening]
Nothing to gain / Everything to fear
[Nobody's listening]
Coming at you
Coming at you
Coming at you
Coming at you from every side
you get me high`
8:09 AM
8:09 AM
Tuesday, June 24
wheeee
.:. pix added!
i'd feel i've accomplished sumthing. finished 6 months worth of math assignments. im proud of it. =) haha. studied from 9-4. this morning and afternoon. cool. well actualy i dun haf much to say, just that im meeting shauno and jesso tmr! probable. hopeful. YAY!
.:. pix added!
i'd feel i've accomplished sumthing. finished 6 months worth of math assignments. im proud of it. =) haha. studied from 9-4. this morning and afternoon. cool. well actualy i dun haf much to say, just that im meeting shauno and jesso tmr! probable. hopeful. YAY!
you get me high`
6:05 AM
6:05 AM
something my friend sent me.. hehe bored u see.
1. Full name: kelly chan mingyue
2. Height: 167cm?
3. DOB/horoscope: 28 feb 89 pisces
4. Birthplace: Spore
5. Where do you live now?: Spore?
6.Parent(s): mum n dad
7. Sibling(s): my older bro. dead sulk.
8. What do you look like: oh like baby's food, papaya, watermelon, durian, jackfruit, jelly beans, angsana, melon, poo, saliva, and lizards, all mashed together and produces.. me!
9. Favorite animal(s): pups, kits, bunnies, hamsters! (esp the dwarf ones)
10. Favorite TV shows: friends, charmed, bufffffy, ppg(dun ask me why), dexter, tom n jerry =))) all time favs.
11. One phrase to describe yourself: shit
12. SchooL: rgs
16.Future job: i was thinkin a vet, since i luv animals, but seeing my family starting a lawyer chain, i think i wanna be one too. and i dun care, im gonna stardee in cambridge.
17. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: none.
18. Best Buds: kate nick jess ling shaun druce mik josh
19. Favorite candy/drink: gummmiiiiieeeeess and chocs. =)))) drink. uh milo?
21. Things you collect: stuffed toys? hehe
22. Do you have a personal phone line: hp?
23. Favorite thing on/in you: im.....loyal to all my friends. and a tad tooo cheezy. hehe.
25. What attracts you about the opposite sex: urm, must be kindhearted, schweet, not tooooo thick, and i spose gdlooks matter, but like a lil only. =)) oh must be funny toO!
26. Where Do you get your news from?: bro, friends, skool.
27. Any tattoos and where of what? i wish man. but the thought of drawing on myself permanently just freaks me out.
28. Piercing and where?: ears. two on each.
29. What do you sleep in: tshirt n shorts
30. What do you think of chain letters?: stupid?
31. Best Advice: almost all sucked. i carn rmb the best.
32. Leno or Letterman?: what?
33. Words and phrases you over-use: haha and bah
34. Non-sport activity you enjoy: singgginnnn'
36. What type of music do you listen to?: bout all, particularly like jazz, and music frm chrisSA.
37. Favorite Radio Station(s): p10.
38. Scariest thing you've ever done: walk through a path of cockroaches. EE.
40. When's your bedtime: when i feel like to and i dun haf much work.
41. Where do you shop?: everywhere, mostly topshop, zara, mango, gior, U2, armani, guess
42. Coke or Pepsi: pepsi. but u noe, sprite rules it all.
43. Favorite thing to wear in the future: uh. my zara quarts and zara skirt! haha whoops. =X
44. Favorite subject(s): lit, chem
45. Favorite color: all.
46. Favourite songs: I hope you dance(leann womack), ni bu yao da jing xiao guai(shin) [no i dun usually listen to cl music, that song's just cute.]
47. Favorite people to talk to online: haha dunno larh.
48. Root beer or Dr. Pepper: root beer.
49. Where do you work? no where.
50. Favorite article of clothing: zara skirt baggeh jeans
51. Favorite TV commercial: the 7210 one.
52. Do you smoke?: nope
53. Favorite Vacation Spot: hawaii, maldives
54. Do you have good grammar?: uh
55. Favorite Family Member: dog!
56. Do you want to have kids? urm. dunno man/
57. What's the neatest thing about your room?: abt everything.
58. Favorite CD you own: christina a, evanescence.
59. Favorite Restaurant: er dunno what it's called, but sells terribly lush fish and chips in sydney. =) oh and the chinese duck restaurant in bayswater, london.
60. Favorite Food(s): anything other than stupid chinese food.
61. Who is the hottest girl or guy in the world: heh. im sure everyone has their own opinions. ;)
62. Favorite Fast Food: long john.
63.wad sports do you like: daannnncccinnnggggg. =)))))
64. Are you going to get married?: haha yea if anyone wants me.
65. Do you believe in aliens?: nah. cute but stupid creatures
66. If you had the chance to do something professionally, what would u do?: dance.and sing.
67. Things u obsess over: my dance studio, my music and my friends. (hee)
68. favourite day of the week: sunday. other than the next day is monday. but hey, i getta see my bezzie.
69. A teacher you dislike: urm chng li wen. stella lee. prama sumthing.
70. Favorite Disney Movie: strangely, i really like cinderella. haha. whoops.
71. What is your favorite season?: autumn =))))))
72. What toppings do you like on your pizza?: ham pineapple and cheeeeze. hawaiian basically.
73. Do you like your school food?: no! it sucks and it's so blardee ex! gawsh!
74. If you could live anywhere, where would you live?: auzzie auzzie auzzie. and probably sumwhere in england.
75. Favorite thing to do on weekends: chill out with muh mates. tho i dun exactly always getta do it.
76. Favorite Magazine: dun haf any. mags are prettie damn stupid.
78. Favorite Ice Cream flavor(s): peanut butter delite, cookie dough, cookiesncreme
79. What kind of guys/girls are you attracted to?: how would i noe. i may like sum guy that i dun usually would fancy.
82. Who is your favorite author?: nicholas sparks!! wooo!
83. Who was your first kiss?: haha. thats for me to know and for you to find out? =)
84. What's your most embarrassing moment? haha urm. i nv know. cuz im immune to it. just keep singing, just keep crapping...
85. If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be? smarter, so i wunt keep getting dissed. and to be uh more cunning.
87. Do you eat breakfast first than brush your teeth or brush before u eat? brush teeth
88. Favorite cereal(s): the peanut butter one. dun haf a clue what it's called. haha.
89. Favorite time of day: depends?
90. Can a guy and girl be just "best friends?": of course!
91. Do you ask the girl/guy out or wait for them to come to ask you?: i dun mind any. =) its not as though im asking sum guy i realy like out. or a gurl? yuck.
92. Do you mind paying for a date?: haha yeap. the guy carn always do everything.
93. Best book you've ever read: a bend in the road- nicholas sparks
94. the most important thing in someone's personality? kindness
95. Pager or cell phone: ?
96. Who's more important, family or friends?: depends. bt i'd put friends.
97. Do you get stressed out easily?: no, but im forced to.
98.What will be the best gift you will like to receive? eh, a hug from ALL of my friends. =))))
99. Name a person that really gets on ur nerves: my mum. ugh.
okok done. wooo finally. =)) ciaoz.
1. Full name: kelly chan mingyue
2. Height: 167cm?
3. DOB/horoscope: 28 feb 89 pisces
4. Birthplace: Spore
5. Where do you live now?: Spore?
6.Parent(s): mum n dad
7. Sibling(s): my older bro. dead sulk.
8. What do you look like: oh like baby's food, papaya, watermelon, durian, jackfruit, jelly beans, angsana, melon, poo, saliva, and lizards, all mashed together and produces.. me!
9. Favorite animal(s): pups, kits, bunnies, hamsters! (esp the dwarf ones)
10. Favorite TV shows: friends, charmed, bufffffy, ppg(dun ask me why), dexter, tom n jerry =))) all time favs.
11. One phrase to describe yourself: shit
12. SchooL: rgs
16.Future job: i was thinkin a vet, since i luv animals, but seeing my family starting a lawyer chain, i think i wanna be one too. and i dun care, im gonna stardee in cambridge.
17. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: none.
18. Best Buds: kate nick jess ling shaun druce mik josh
19. Favorite candy/drink: gummmiiiiieeeeess and chocs. =)))) drink. uh milo?
21. Things you collect: stuffed toys? hehe
22. Do you have a personal phone line: hp?
23. Favorite thing on/in you: im.....loyal to all my friends. and a tad tooo cheezy. hehe.
25. What attracts you about the opposite sex: urm, must be kindhearted, schweet, not tooooo thick, and i spose gdlooks matter, but like a lil only. =)) oh must be funny toO!
26. Where Do you get your news from?: bro, friends, skool.
27. Any tattoos and where of what? i wish man. but the thought of drawing on myself permanently just freaks me out.
28. Piercing and where?: ears. two on each.
29. What do you sleep in: tshirt n shorts
30. What do you think of chain letters?: stupid?
31. Best Advice: almost all sucked. i carn rmb the best.
32. Leno or Letterman?: what?
33. Words and phrases you over-use: haha and bah
34. Non-sport activity you enjoy: singgginnnn'
36. What type of music do you listen to?: bout all, particularly like jazz, and music frm chrisSA.
37. Favorite Radio Station(s): p10.
38. Scariest thing you've ever done: walk through a path of cockroaches. EE.
40. When's your bedtime: when i feel like to and i dun haf much work.
41. Where do you shop?: everywhere, mostly topshop, zara, mango, gior, U2, armani, guess
42. Coke or Pepsi: pepsi. but u noe, sprite rules it all.
43. Favorite thing to wear in the future: uh. my zara quarts and zara skirt! haha whoops. =X
44. Favorite subject(s): lit, chem
45. Favorite color: all.
46. Favourite songs: I hope you dance(leann womack), ni bu yao da jing xiao guai(shin) [no i dun usually listen to cl music, that song's just cute.]
47. Favorite people to talk to online: haha dunno larh.
48. Root beer or Dr. Pepper: root beer.
49. Where do you work? no where.
50. Favorite article of clothing: zara skirt baggeh jeans
51. Favorite TV commercial: the 7210 one.
52. Do you smoke?: nope
53. Favorite Vacation Spot: hawaii, maldives
54. Do you have good grammar?: uh
55. Favorite Family Member: dog!
56. Do you want to have kids? urm. dunno man/
57. What's the neatest thing about your room?: abt everything.
58. Favorite CD you own: christina a, evanescence.
59. Favorite Restaurant: er dunno what it's called, but sells terribly lush fish and chips in sydney. =) oh and the chinese duck restaurant in bayswater, london.
60. Favorite Food(s): anything other than stupid chinese food.
61. Who is the hottest girl or guy in the world: heh. im sure everyone has their own opinions. ;)
62. Favorite Fast Food: long john.
63.wad sports do you like: daannnncccinnnggggg. =)))))
64. Are you going to get married?: haha yea if anyone wants me.
65. Do you believe in aliens?: nah. cute but stupid creatures
66. If you had the chance to do something professionally, what would u do?: dance.and sing.
67. Things u obsess over: my dance studio, my music and my friends. (hee)
68. favourite day of the week: sunday. other than the next day is monday. but hey, i getta see my bezzie.
69. A teacher you dislike: urm chng li wen. stella lee. prama sumthing.
70. Favorite Disney Movie: strangely, i really like cinderella. haha. whoops.
71. What is your favorite season?: autumn =))))))
72. What toppings do you like on your pizza?: ham pineapple and cheeeeze. hawaiian basically.
73. Do you like your school food?: no! it sucks and it's so blardee ex! gawsh!
74. If you could live anywhere, where would you live?: auzzie auzzie auzzie. and probably sumwhere in england.
75. Favorite thing to do on weekends: chill out with muh mates. tho i dun exactly always getta do it.
76. Favorite Magazine: dun haf any. mags are prettie damn stupid.
78. Favorite Ice Cream flavor(s): peanut butter delite, cookie dough, cookiesncreme
79. What kind of guys/girls are you attracted to?: how would i noe. i may like sum guy that i dun usually would fancy.
82. Who is your favorite author?: nicholas sparks!! wooo!
83. Who was your first kiss?: haha. thats for me to know and for you to find out? =)
84. What's your most embarrassing moment? haha urm. i nv know. cuz im immune to it. just keep singing, just keep crapping...
85. If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be? smarter, so i wunt keep getting dissed. and to be uh more cunning.
87. Do you eat breakfast first than brush your teeth or brush before u eat? brush teeth
88. Favorite cereal(s): the peanut butter one. dun haf a clue what it's called. haha.
89. Favorite time of day: depends?
90. Can a guy and girl be just "best friends?": of course!
91. Do you ask the girl/guy out or wait for them to come to ask you?: i dun mind any. =) its not as though im asking sum guy i realy like out. or a gurl? yuck.
92. Do you mind paying for a date?: haha yeap. the guy carn always do everything.
93. Best book you've ever read: a bend in the road- nicholas sparks
94. the most important thing in someone's personality? kindness
95. Pager or cell phone: ?
96. Who's more important, family or friends?: depends. bt i'd put friends.
97. Do you get stressed out easily?: no, but im forced to.
98.What will be the best gift you will like to receive? eh, a hug from ALL of my friends. =))))
99. Name a person that really gets on ur nerves: my mum. ugh.
okok done. wooo finally. =)) ciaoz.
you get me high`
1:13 AM
1:13 AM
Sunday, June 22
for once, i cheered up
mm alright. beats me why i feel happier. mebbe stuff around aint so hostile anymore(but i still dun wanna see my mum's face). ok so recappppp.
morning, was spose to go wesley with jess, but after finding the place in ymca for such a long time, we gaf up, went to haf swensens instead. ok so we both we upset.. till the verge of insanity. so. great. she ordered esprit, i ordered omelette. cuz i carn resist when i see omelettes.. esp those with ham? haha yeah. so imagine this. two idle gurls, sitting at that far end of the restaurant, over looking the view outside of plaza sing. and just feeling like crap. hell, it sucked. being us, we decided tht we shall show attitude. since no one in the face of the planet gifs a shit bout kids like us. so mm sat there. omelette came after 10? so we indulged ourselves into sweet sensation. then i decided. shoot we've gotta haf ice cream. it's swensens! yeah so we ordered frosted choc malt. it was just ravishing. the ice cream was garnished with sweet maltesers, with creme and choc chips on them. simply irresistable. den we wanted to pay. took a hell of a long time, we almost walked outta there.
then we made our way to dance. well shaun knew both of us werent in a gd mood. so he met us at citylink. for 3 secs. i thought it was cool, but such a waste of time for him. aniwae he's cool. kay reached the studio, saw pat. he was wearing this utterly ridiculous burberry-print stupid "home-town boy" hat. gawsh was it hilarious. well his hair's longer now, but i still think he loox ugly. haha whoops. *shhh* his moves are getting betta! the dance they did last week was remarkable. (i didnt noe pat loo had that capability) oh yeah and b4 that we saw rob. *pauses*
*raps*
yoyoyoyo rob hip hop, we always luv it baby when you bop and bop, girls like ta put you in the main spot, so baby wunt you do it......
*sings*
uh huh uh huh! gif it to me baby, uh huh uh huh! and all the gurls sae he's prettie fly for a black guy
haha whooops. the rap jess and i made. i think it's super crappy. but hey it's got meaning to it. and well, yeah, we came up with it in 5? haha jess we rawk man! okok well had kwite a lot of fun at dance. only that we had to do quite a bit of floor move and it was painful.. bruises everywhere. ahh well.
went to my mum's car after. -complete hostility-
okay urm then studied the whole time after that, was spose to go xing's house for tuition. wooo she had a family "gathering". it's hard for all of them to gather, really. cuz her bro, han, is in berkeley, just that he's having summer break now. older sis is 25? ahh yeah. so well had this big quarrel. i still went. but i sat there and study. haha they're like sum symphony, cuz they quarrel big time.
well aniwae im back home, gonna teach adler how to play "thousand miles", vaness carlton, tmr. die larh. it's damn hard. it's damn hard. its damn hard. ciaozzies.
songgeyyyy.
song? aiyah screw song. carn think of any.
mm alright. beats me why i feel happier. mebbe stuff around aint so hostile anymore(but i still dun wanna see my mum's face). ok so recappppp.
morning, was spose to go wesley with jess, but after finding the place in ymca for such a long time, we gaf up, went to haf swensens instead. ok so we both we upset.. till the verge of insanity. so. great. she ordered esprit, i ordered omelette. cuz i carn resist when i see omelettes.. esp those with ham? haha yeah. so imagine this. two idle gurls, sitting at that far end of the restaurant, over looking the view outside of plaza sing. and just feeling like crap. hell, it sucked. being us, we decided tht we shall show attitude. since no one in the face of the planet gifs a shit bout kids like us. so mm sat there. omelette came after 10? so we indulged ourselves into sweet sensation. then i decided. shoot we've gotta haf ice cream. it's swensens! yeah so we ordered frosted choc malt. it was just ravishing. the ice cream was garnished with sweet maltesers, with creme and choc chips on them. simply irresistable. den we wanted to pay. took a hell of a long time, we almost walked outta there.
then we made our way to dance. well shaun knew both of us werent in a gd mood. so he met us at citylink. for 3 secs. i thought it was cool, but such a waste of time for him. aniwae he's cool. kay reached the studio, saw pat. he was wearing this utterly ridiculous burberry-print stupid "home-town boy" hat. gawsh was it hilarious. well his hair's longer now, but i still think he loox ugly. haha whoops. *shhh* his moves are getting betta! the dance they did last week was remarkable. (i didnt noe pat loo had that capability) oh yeah and b4 that we saw rob. *pauses*
*raps*
yoyoyoyo rob hip hop, we always luv it baby when you bop and bop, girls like ta put you in the main spot, so baby wunt you do it......
*sings*
uh huh uh huh! gif it to me baby, uh huh uh huh! and all the gurls sae he's prettie fly for a black guy
haha whooops. the rap jess and i made. i think it's super crappy. but hey it's got meaning to it. and well, yeah, we came up with it in 5? haha jess we rawk man! okok well had kwite a lot of fun at dance. only that we had to do quite a bit of floor move and it was painful.. bruises everywhere. ahh well.
went to my mum's car after. -complete hostility-
okay urm then studied the whole time after that, was spose to go xing's house for tuition. wooo she had a family "gathering". it's hard for all of them to gather, really. cuz her bro, han, is in berkeley, just that he's having summer break now. older sis is 25? ahh yeah. so well had this big quarrel. i still went. but i sat there and study. haha they're like sum symphony, cuz they quarrel big time.
well aniwae im back home, gonna teach adler how to play "thousand miles", vaness carlton, tmr. die larh. it's damn hard. it's damn hard. its damn hard. ciaozzies.
songgeyyyy.
song? aiyah screw song. carn think of any.
you get me high`
10:13 AM
10:13 AM
i hate my damn life
okay great. yesterday. went out with my mum to go shopping at ps. but in e end went out with ling to watch finding nemo instead. okay so this was how it went. wanted to watch the 245 show, but it was sold out. so like, we bought the 450 one. den we decided to go take neoprint. which i hope she's already helped me scan. yeah urm so we took it.... 5 minutes? den went to buy ice cream. so wanted to sit down to chill. we sat outside the korean restaurant. "Han Ka Ram" on the 5th floor of heeren, to catch up with "current affairs". so,say we sat there for about...an hour and a half? den we decided to switch view. sat in front of "noodle place/house" den i wenta buy wedges. lala. 6 bucks kay! rip off. okok den bababa. managed to get through the 2+++++ hours? zai. den we went into the cinema. i still like the show man. damn cute. but the jellyfish part is damn sad. where dory passed out. ahh well.
ok den went for dinner. my mum HAD to bring up the studies issue. so what if im not doing as well as annalyn? how i wish i could but mebbe im too stupid. i got hell when i got home. only managed to sleep at 3? frick.
i hate my mum to fullest man. why must everything be compared to others?im not here to oh suck up to the smart ones and look down on the rest. im here to make friends and all. and not to be stressed to the fullest. ugh.
okay great. yesterday. went out with my mum to go shopping at ps. but in e end went out with ling to watch finding nemo instead. okay so this was how it went. wanted to watch the 245 show, but it was sold out. so like, we bought the 450 one. den we decided to go take neoprint. which i hope she's already helped me scan. yeah urm so we took it.... 5 minutes? den went to buy ice cream. so wanted to sit down to chill. we sat outside the korean restaurant. "Han Ka Ram" on the 5th floor of heeren, to catch up with "current affairs". so,say we sat there for about...an hour and a half? den we decided to switch view. sat in front of "noodle place/house" den i wenta buy wedges. lala. 6 bucks kay! rip off. okok den bababa. managed to get through the 2+++++ hours? zai. den we went into the cinema. i still like the show man. damn cute. but the jellyfish part is damn sad. where dory passed out. ahh well.
ok den went for dinner. my mum HAD to bring up the studies issue. so what if im not doing as well as annalyn? how i wish i could but mebbe im too stupid. i got hell when i got home. only managed to sleep at 3? frick.
i hate my mum to fullest man. why must everything be compared to others?im not here to oh suck up to the smart ones and look down on the rest. im here to make friends and all. and not to be stressed to the fullest. ugh.
you get me high`
3:51 AM
3:51 AM
Thursday, June 19
Killin' Me Slowly
Well i guess after letting out all my anger the last entry, it did put out the fire in me. but it didnt cure the curiousity.
I feel as though i live in my own world. a world that consists of no one, but me. a world without, angst, guilt, conscience, love, hatred, superficiality, disgrace, and deceive.
So i went to school todae. for choir. i love choir. i love to sing. i love every member there, cuz they're just the sweetest. but todae, we had foto-taking. well it was fun and all, besides the fact that i was half dying. the heat was immense. people were rushing up and down doing stuff for the coming concert. So there i stood, watching the crowd go back and forth, screaming, shouting, whispering, complaining, whining, singing. and i just stood there. it felt as though i was in the middle of a highway, with cars racing across in front and behind me. At that point of time, i almost lost it. My vision started to get blurry, things looked kinda.. strange and all. and thank god i rested my head in a taxi in time.
well i do try to loosen up a bit. but hey im 14 as ive said. i dun need all this crap. dammmit. damn everything. and to that - person in muh gb. so what if im a cheap slut.. what are u then?
strummin' my pain with his fingers
singing my life with his words
killin' me softly with his song
Well i guess after letting out all my anger the last entry, it did put out the fire in me. but it didnt cure the curiousity.
I feel as though i live in my own world. a world that consists of no one, but me. a world without, angst, guilt, conscience, love, hatred, superficiality, disgrace, and deceive.
So i went to school todae. for choir. i love choir. i love to sing. i love every member there, cuz they're just the sweetest. but todae, we had foto-taking. well it was fun and all, besides the fact that i was half dying. the heat was immense. people were rushing up and down doing stuff for the coming concert. So there i stood, watching the crowd go back and forth, screaming, shouting, whispering, complaining, whining, singing. and i just stood there. it felt as though i was in the middle of a highway, with cars racing across in front and behind me. At that point of time, i almost lost it. My vision started to get blurry, things looked kinda.. strange and all. and thank god i rested my head in a taxi in time.
well i do try to loosen up a bit. but hey im 14 as ive said. i dun need all this crap. dammmit. damn everything. and to that - person in muh gb. so what if im a cheap slut.. what are u then?
strummin' my pain with his fingers
singing my life with his words
killin' me softly with his song
you get me high`
6:08 AM
6:08 AM
Wednesday, June 18
why should i even care????
great. after all these time, now i feel the pain.
why should i care whether other pple, or even myself, are happy? it's like. great. so i try my best to cheer this one up, then next one will get upset and all. then would anyone, at all, care if im upset? if im feeling down? who would care? im just this nobody innit. this oh-so-crap person who luvs it when all her friends are happie, even tho she aint? WHY.
why carn i learn to be just a tad more self-centered.
why didnt i speak up a lil more, altho it'll do much harm to my friends, why why why!!
why should i be so damn soft hearted, and take everyone's word as it is.
why am i so trusty, shouldnt i learn to b more cunning, ignorant to the surroundings?
why should i stoop myself down to talk to one who i've quarreled with? why why why!!!
why dus everything hafta revolve ard pple who do betta academically.
why dussen anione care abt character no more?
why must our report book haf straight As. or at least why must mine.
WHY! im just an ordinary gurl, with not so ordinary problems, tryna lead life normally. like a human being. not one who is tortured or anithing near that. im just taking things one at a time? u mean it's wrong? u mean i carn do so? it's my fault?
ok so a regular gurl cant whine i guess. she cant find sum1 she really likes, and fall in love? i dunno. sumthing liddat.
why must a sporean be loaded with piles of juicy hw, appalling stress, and two-faced friends. tell me. WHY. forget the stupid songs. i should enjoy my own favourites, and not share them with the rest of the world.
great. after all these time, now i feel the pain.
why should i care whether other pple, or even myself, are happy? it's like. great. so i try my best to cheer this one up, then next one will get upset and all. then would anyone, at all, care if im upset? if im feeling down? who would care? im just this nobody innit. this oh-so-crap person who luvs it when all her friends are happie, even tho she aint? WHY.
why carn i learn to be just a tad more self-centered.
why didnt i speak up a lil more, altho it'll do much harm to my friends, why why why!!
why should i be so damn soft hearted, and take everyone's word as it is.
why am i so trusty, shouldnt i learn to b more cunning, ignorant to the surroundings?
why should i stoop myself down to talk to one who i've quarreled with? why why why!!!
why dus everything hafta revolve ard pple who do betta academically.
why dussen anione care abt character no more?
why must our report book haf straight As. or at least why must mine.
WHY! im just an ordinary gurl, with not so ordinary problems, tryna lead life normally. like a human being. not one who is tortured or anithing near that. im just taking things one at a time? u mean it's wrong? u mean i carn do so? it's my fault?
ok so a regular gurl cant whine i guess. she cant find sum1 she really likes, and fall in love? i dunno. sumthing liddat.
why must a sporean be loaded with piles of juicy hw, appalling stress, and two-faced friends. tell me. WHY. forget the stupid songs. i should enjoy my own favourites, and not share them with the rest of the world.
you get me high`
6:41 AM
6:41 AM
Tuesday, June 17
guilt-struck
ok urm this morning, spent the whole time talkin to jess and shauno. cool stuff man. but cuz my waffle was cooking, and got charred in the end, i didnt getta talk much. sigh. den went to candice's house. watched meteor garden2 for awhile. cheeezzzzzzyyyyy. mhmm. den went to film. damn farnie cuz i was the "newscaster", den had to talk so much. and my speech was like super cheezed up cracker? mhmm. fun lar. ordered pizza and all. urm den had tuition. best. 4 hours. den talked to han ge2, gaf me tips to stardee... burkeley guy. carn get tooo bad. =))
ok this is.. disturbing. i figure i hafta clear this up. yuan. um u know u are my great friend. fabulous in every way. but ure such a great friend of mine that, it's not what i consider "more than friends". i dont noe if u knoe but the more i getta know sum1, the more i luv him/her as friends and not anithing else. well i guess there are exceptions and all, but generally. n u're an exception in the sense that u rawk like hell. =) yeah so i dont know if u really meant it, or just joking, but i dunt noe howta handle situations liddat. if i made a blunder and hurt u in anywae, im terribly sorrie. i really wanna thank you sincerely for all the moral support you've given me. =) thanks.
song =):
have you ever-brandy
Chorus-
Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry?
Have you ever needed something so bad you can't sleep at night?
Have you ever tried to find the words, but they don't come out right?
Have you ever, have you ever....
Verse-
Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything up to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start
Chorus
Verse-
Have you ever found the one
you've dreamed of all your life
You'd do just about anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care
Chorus
Verse-
What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world
Cuz baby I can't sleep
Chorus 2x
ok urm this morning, spent the whole time talkin to jess and shauno. cool stuff man. but cuz my waffle was cooking, and got charred in the end, i didnt getta talk much. sigh. den went to candice's house. watched meteor garden2 for awhile. cheeezzzzzzyyyyy. mhmm. den went to film. damn farnie cuz i was the "newscaster", den had to talk so much. and my speech was like super cheezed up cracker? mhmm. fun lar. ordered pizza and all. urm den had tuition. best. 4 hours. den talked to han ge2, gaf me tips to stardee... burkeley guy. carn get tooo bad. =))
ok this is.. disturbing. i figure i hafta clear this up. yuan. um u know u are my great friend. fabulous in every way. but ure such a great friend of mine that, it's not what i consider "more than friends". i dont noe if u knoe but the more i getta know sum1, the more i luv him/her as friends and not anithing else. well i guess there are exceptions and all, but generally. n u're an exception in the sense that u rawk like hell. =) yeah so i dont know if u really meant it, or just joking, but i dunt noe howta handle situations liddat. if i made a blunder and hurt u in anywae, im terribly sorrie. i really wanna thank you sincerely for all the moral support you've given me. =) thanks.
song =):
have you ever-brandy
Chorus-
Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry?
Have you ever needed something so bad you can't sleep at night?
Have you ever tried to find the words, but they don't come out right?
Have you ever, have you ever....
Verse-
Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything up to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start
Chorus
Verse-
Have you ever found the one
you've dreamed of all your life
You'd do just about anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care
Chorus
Verse-
What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world
Cuz baby I can't sleep
Chorus 2x
you get me high`
9:50 AM
9:50 AM
Monday, June 16
wheeeeee
okee. let's start with yestaday. and im promising myself not to whine todae.
mmm went to celebrate father's day with my granddaddy. with the whole family, inculding the extended ones. haha damn funny cuz like my cuzin, shan, and i went to take neoprint. den when we returned, showed her mum,my mum, and my granddaddy the foto. whoa. they were all so excited, they decided to keep the neo. =.= =.= den we were like. okok u gif us more cash to take more. den my granddaddy, so happy, fished out 10 bucks and all.. den shan and i were like yay! =)))) hehe. well den the whole family came to the neoprint place. den they all went to take. =.= i took shots with my granddaddy, couzins(prettie damn nice), and shan. hehe. then they were all so damn excited. =.= outdated man. mm. well i kept getting scolded yestaday. but i wunt whine/
todae. urm went out wiv nick!!! =)))))))))) smileys everywhere. well we called sharon, merp and nigel along, cuz he was scared that his sis mite see him and groud him for life. =.= ya ya. haha but it was really fun! took neos. sharon treated us to sakae. thanks a million gurl! =)) yup den we took neos too. hehe i seem to be a neo-freak. ahh well. didnt wanna take the marathon one. hehe. so took the other one that i knew how to work. =) came out prettie nice i must sae.
kay kay i really dun have much to sae. =))))) yup later!
songgeeeeyyyyy:
this is where i belong-boyzone( it's a really nice song! )
Here I stand in the northern rain
And I can't believe I'm home again
And I can't believe how nothing's changed
I'm finding my way
Old park bench where I carved my name
But now it doesn't stand alone
Cause now the trees have over grown
Many a road that I've travelled
That's led me a stray
Here's where my heart's gonna stay
This is where I belong
This is where I come from
No need to shed my tears
Or face my fears anymore
So I won't walk alone
Taking things on my own
All of the lands I've roamed
Memories of my home
They keep beating strong
Cause this is where I belong
There you stood in the open door
Just like so many years before
When I told you that I needed more
In my life
I was wrong to ever walk away
Abandon all the love that we made
But now I've learned from all my mistakes
Just like a star in the sky
Guiding me on
Your love is pulling me home
CHORUS
Just like a star in the sky
Guiding me on
Your love is pulling me home
okee. let's start with yestaday. and im promising myself not to whine todae.
mmm went to celebrate father's day with my granddaddy. with the whole family, inculding the extended ones. haha damn funny cuz like my cuzin, shan, and i went to take neoprint. den when we returned, showed her mum,my mum, and my granddaddy the foto. whoa. they were all so excited, they decided to keep the neo. =.= =.= den we were like. okok u gif us more cash to take more. den my granddaddy, so happy, fished out 10 bucks and all.. den shan and i were like yay! =)))) hehe. well den the whole family came to the neoprint place. den they all went to take. =.= i took shots with my granddaddy, couzins(prettie damn nice), and shan. hehe. then they were all so damn excited. =.= outdated man. mm. well i kept getting scolded yestaday. but i wunt whine/
todae. urm went out wiv nick!!! =)))))))))) smileys everywhere. well we called sharon, merp and nigel along, cuz he was scared that his sis mite see him and groud him for life. =.= ya ya. haha but it was really fun! took neos. sharon treated us to sakae. thanks a million gurl! =)) yup den we took neos too. hehe i seem to be a neo-freak. ahh well. didnt wanna take the marathon one. hehe. so took the other one that i knew how to work. =) came out prettie nice i must sae.
kay kay i really dun have much to sae. =))))) yup later!
songgeeeeyyyyy:
this is where i belong-boyzone( it's a really nice song! )
Here I stand in the northern rain
And I can't believe I'm home again
And I can't believe how nothing's changed
I'm finding my way
Old park bench where I carved my name
But now it doesn't stand alone
Cause now the trees have over grown
Many a road that I've travelled
That's led me a stray
Here's where my heart's gonna stay
This is where I belong
This is where I come from
No need to shed my tears
Or face my fears anymore
So I won't walk alone
Taking things on my own
All of the lands I've roamed
Memories of my home
They keep beating strong
Cause this is where I belong
There you stood in the open door
Just like so many years before
When I told you that I needed more
In my life
I was wrong to ever walk away
Abandon all the love that we made
But now I've learned from all my mistakes
Just like a star in the sky
Guiding me on
Your love is pulling me home
CHORUS
Just like a star in the sky
Guiding me on
Your love is pulling me home
you get me high`
9:25 AM
9:25 AM
Saturday, June 14
determination
god i hate myself. i suck i suck i suck. BAH. nvm. what im gonna do ish im gonna study as hard as i can. wake up with my books, eat with my books, sleep with my books. im gonna be a bookworm. i know im not a genius and i dont fit to be in rg. but who cares. im innit aniwae, im gonna prove to those pple that im not sum useless pile of crap. i can mug too. i can do well, and not screw up sem2. i will get into rp. remember that. no matter what, i will. no matter hw many scoldings i'll have i'll still bite my lip and not gif up. yes i'll still go out, and i will still fall sick. but i'll be at home and studying. but one thing i'll never do. i will not neglect my friends fullstop. yeap. i dunt care.
man. i let out this lil secret i have with my friend and i might get loads of pple into trouble. it really isnt my fault, cuz it's wrong for me not to sae it, but i wunt continue elaborating. bah this sucks.
oh yeah went to tanglin mall yestaday. saw zhenghao and monkey guy. hHAA. urm yeah. zh ish strange. furst time i saw him he was looking at me damn blur-ly. second time, at the escalator. i gaf me this sorta cheekish grin. third time loooked at me damn fiercely. joker leh. fourth time. urm. what did he do... pouted his lips or sumthing? haha then the last time he told me where my mum was cuz i couldnt find her. later.
Going Under-Evanescence
Now i will tell you what ive done for you
50,000 tears i've cried
Screaming deceiving and bleeding for you
And you still wont hear me
(Going under)
DOnt want your hand this time
I'll save myself
Maybe I'll wake up for once
Not tormented
Daily defeated by you
Just when i thought i've reached the bottom
Chorus:
I am dying again
Im going under
DRowning in you
Im falling forever
I gotta break through
Im going under.....
Blurring and stirring the truth and the lies
(so i dunt noe what's real and what's not)
Always confusing the thoughts in my head
So i can't trust myself anymore
Chorus
So go on and scream, scream at me
Im so far away
I wont be broken again
Ive got to break through
I cant keep going under.....
Everybody's Fool-Evanescence
Perfect by nature
Icons of self indulgence
Just what we all need
more lies about a world that
Never was and never will be
Have you no shame, dont you see me
You know you've got everybody fooled
Look here she comes now
Bow down and stare in wonder
Oh how we love you
No flaws when you're pretending
But now i noe she
Never was and never will be
You dont know how you've betrayed me
You know you've got everybody fooled
Without the mask. Where would you hide
Cant find yourself
Lost in your lie
I know the truth now,
I know who you are
And i dont love you anymore
Never was and never will be
You're not real and you cant save me
You know you've got everybody fooled..
My Last Breath-Evanescence
Hold on to me love
YOu know i cant stay long
ALl i wanted to say was i love you
and im not afraid
Can you hear me?
Can you feel my in ur arms?
Holding my last breath
Save inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you ?
Sweet raptured light,
It ends here tonight.
I miss the winter
A world of fragile things
I miss the winter.
A world of fragile things.
Look for me in the white forest,
Hiding in a hollowed tree (come fine me)
I know you hear me.
I can taste it in your tears.
Holding my last breathe.
Safe inside myself.
Are all my thoughts of you ?
Sweet raptured light,
It ends here tonight.
(Chorus)
Closing your eyes to disappear.
You pray your dreams will leave you here
But still you wake and know the truth
No one's there!
Safe inside myself.
Say goodnight
Don't be afraid.
Calling me,
Calling me,
As you fade to black.
(say goodnight)
holding my last breathe. (don't be afraid)
Safe inside myself. (calling me)
Are all my thoughts of you ?
Sweet raptured light,
It ends here tonight.
(Chorus)
Holding My Last Breathe.
Safe inside myself.
Are all my thoughts of you ?
Sweet raptured light,
It ends here tonight.
Holding My Last Breathe
wrote these all myself. =)
god i hate myself. i suck i suck i suck. BAH. nvm. what im gonna do ish im gonna study as hard as i can. wake up with my books, eat with my books, sleep with my books. im gonna be a bookworm. i know im not a genius and i dont fit to be in rg. but who cares. im innit aniwae, im gonna prove to those pple that im not sum useless pile of crap. i can mug too. i can do well, and not screw up sem2. i will get into rp. remember that. no matter what, i will. no matter hw many scoldings i'll have i'll still bite my lip and not gif up. yes i'll still go out, and i will still fall sick. but i'll be at home and studying. but one thing i'll never do. i will not neglect my friends fullstop. yeap. i dunt care.
man. i let out this lil secret i have with my friend and i might get loads of pple into trouble. it really isnt my fault, cuz it's wrong for me not to sae it, but i wunt continue elaborating. bah this sucks.
oh yeah went to tanglin mall yestaday. saw zhenghao and monkey guy. hHAA. urm yeah. zh ish strange. furst time i saw him he was looking at me damn blur-ly. second time, at the escalator. i gaf me this sorta cheekish grin. third time loooked at me damn fiercely. joker leh. fourth time. urm. what did he do... pouted his lips or sumthing? haha then the last time he told me where my mum was cuz i couldnt find her. later.
Going Under-Evanescence
Now i will tell you what ive done for you
50,000 tears i've cried
Screaming deceiving and bleeding for you
And you still wont hear me
(Going under)
DOnt want your hand this time
I'll save myself
Maybe I'll wake up for once
Not tormented
Daily defeated by you
Just when i thought i've reached the bottom
Chorus:
I am dying again
Im going under
DRowning in you
Im falling forever
I gotta break through
Im going under.....
Blurring and stirring the truth and the lies
(so i dunt noe what's real and what's not)
Always confusing the thoughts in my head
So i can't trust myself anymore
Chorus
So go on and scream, scream at me
Im so far away
I wont be broken again
Ive got to break through
I cant keep going under.....
Everybody's Fool-Evanescence
Perfect by nature
Icons of self indulgence
Just what we all need
more lies about a world that
Never was and never will be
Have you no shame, dont you see me
You know you've got everybody fooled
Look here she comes now
Bow down and stare in wonder
Oh how we love you
No flaws when you're pretending
But now i noe she
Never was and never will be
You dont know how you've betrayed me
You know you've got everybody fooled
Without the mask. Where would you hide
Cant find yourself
Lost in your lie
I know the truth now,
I know who you are
And i dont love you anymore
Never was and never will be
You're not real and you cant save me
You know you've got everybody fooled..
My Last Breath-Evanescence
Hold on to me love
YOu know i cant stay long
ALl i wanted to say was i love you
and im not afraid
Can you hear me?
Can you feel my in ur arms?
Holding my last breath
Save inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you ?
Sweet raptured light,
It ends here tonight.
I miss the winter
A world of fragile things
I miss the winter.
A world of fragile things.
Look for me in the white forest,
Hiding in a hollowed tree (come fine me)
I know you hear me.
I can taste it in your tears.
Holding my last breathe.
Safe inside myself.
Are all my thoughts of you ?
Sweet raptured light,
It ends here tonight.
(Chorus)
Closing your eyes to disappear.
You pray your dreams will leave you here
But still you wake and know the truth
No one's there!
Safe inside myself.
Say goodnight
Don't be afraid.
Calling me,
Calling me,
As you fade to black.
(say goodnight)
holding my last breathe. (don't be afraid)
Safe inside myself. (calling me)
Are all my thoughts of you ?
Sweet raptured light,
It ends here tonight.
(Chorus)
Holding My Last Breathe.
Safe inside myself.
Are all my thoughts of you ?
Sweet raptured light,
It ends here tonight.
Holding My Last Breathe
wrote these all myself. =)
you get me high`
9:50 PM
9:50 PM
Friday, June 13
i hate them i hate them i hate them i hate them i hate them i hate them i hate them!
you get me high`
10:25 AM
10:25 AM
Cant hold us down-ChrisA
So, what am I not supposed to have an opinion
Should I keep quiet just because I'm a woman
Call me a bitch 'cause I speak what's on my mind
Guess it's easier for you to swallow if I sat and smiled
When a female fires back
Suddenly big talker don't know how to act
So he does what any little boy would do
Making up a few false rumors or two
That for sure is not a man to me
Slandering names for popularity
It's sad you only get your fame through controversy (so sad)
But now it's time for me to come and give you more to say
This is for my girls all around the world (around the world)
Who have come across a man that don't respect your worth (oh ooh)
Thinking all women should be seen not heard (ohh)
So what do we do girls, shout louder
Lettin 'em know we're gonna stand our ground
So lift your hands higher and wave 'em proud (ohh)
Take a deep breath and say it loud (ohh)
Never can, never will
Can't hold us down
Nobody can hold us down
(Hold us down)
Nobody can hold us down
(Hold us down)
Nobody can hold us down
(Hold us down)
Never can, never will
So, what am I not supposed to say what I'm saying
Are you offended with the message I'm bringing
Call me whatever 'cause your words don't mean a thing
'Cause you ain't even a man enough to handle what I sing
If you look back in history
It's a common double standard of society
The guy gets all the glory the more he can score
While the girl can do the same and yet you call her a whore
I don't understand why it's okay
The guy can get away with it the girl gets named
All my ladies come together and make a change
And start a new beginning for us, everybody sing
This is for my girls all around the world
(Round the world)
Who have come across a man that don't respect your worth
(Respect your worth)
Thinking all women should be seen not heard (ohh)
So what do we do girls, shout louder
Lettin 'em know we're gonna stand our ground
So lift your hands higher and wave 'em proud (ohh)
Take a deep breath and say it loud
Never can, never will
Can't hold us down
Lil' Kim:
Check it
Here's something I just can't understand
If a guy have three girls then he's the man
He can even give us some head, and sex her off
If the girl do the same, then she's a whore
But the table's about to turn
I'll bet my fame on it
Cats take my ideas and put they name on it
It's aight though, you can't hold me down
I got to keep on moving
To all my girls with a man who be trying to mack
Do it right back to him and let that be that
You need to let him know that his game is whack
And Lil' Kim and Christina Aguilera got your back
You're just a little boy
Think you're so cute so coy
You must talk so big, to make up for smaller things
Said you're just a little boy
All you do is annoy
You must talk so big, to make up for smaller things
(This is for my girls)
This is for my girls all around the world (ohh)
Who have come across a man that don't respect your worth
(Respect your worth, oh ooh)
Thinking all women should be seen not heard
So what do we do girls, shout louder
(Shout louder)
Lettin 'em know we're gonna stand our ground
(Stand our ground)
So lift your hands higher and wave 'em proud (oh ooh)
Take a deep breath and say it loud
Never can, never will
Can't hold us down (oh ooh)
This is for my girls all around the world
(For my girls)
Who have come across a man that don't respect your worth
(Around the world)
Thinking all women should be seen not heard (yeah)
So what do we do girls, shout louder
Lettin 'em know we're gonna stand our ground
So lift your hands higher and wave 'em proud (ohh)
Take a deep breath and say it loud
Never can, never will
Can't hold us down
Uh oh, uh oh
Uh, uh, uh, uh uh, uh, uh
Spread the word
Can't hold us down
Yeah, we here, we back again
Yeah, Lil' Kim and Christina Aguilera, yeah
Can't hold us down
So, what am I not supposed to have an opinion
Should I keep quiet just because I'm a woman
Call me a bitch 'cause I speak what's on my mind
Guess it's easier for you to swallow if I sat and smiled
When a female fires back
Suddenly big talker don't know how to act
So he does what any little boy would do
Making up a few false rumors or two
That for sure is not a man to me
Slandering names for popularity
It's sad you only get your fame through controversy (so sad)
But now it's time for me to come and give you more to say
This is for my girls all around the world (around the world)
Who have come across a man that don't respect your worth (oh ooh)
Thinking all women should be seen not heard (ohh)
So what do we do girls, shout louder
Lettin 'em know we're gonna stand our ground
So lift your hands higher and wave 'em proud (ohh)
Take a deep breath and say it loud (ohh)
Never can, never will
Can't hold us down
Nobody can hold us down
(Hold us down)
Nobody can hold us down
(Hold us down)
Nobody can hold us down
(Hold us down)
Never can, never will
So, what am I not supposed to say what I'm saying
Are you offended with the message I'm bringing
Call me whatever 'cause your words don't mean a thing
'Cause you ain't even a man enough to handle what I sing
If you look back in history
It's a common double standard of society
The guy gets all the glory the more he can score
While the girl can do the same and yet you call her a whore
I don't understand why it's okay
The guy can get away with it the girl gets named
All my ladies come together and make a change
And start a new beginning for us, everybody sing
This is for my girls all around the world
(Round the world)
Who have come across a man that don't respect your worth
(Respect your worth)
Thinking all women should be seen not heard (ohh)
So what do we do girls, shout louder
Lettin 'em know we're gonna stand our ground
So lift your hands higher and wave 'em proud (ohh)
Take a deep breath and say it loud
Never can, never will
Can't hold us down
Lil' Kim:
Check it
Here's something I just can't understand
If a guy have three girls then he's the man
He can even give us some head, and sex her off
If the girl do the same, then she's a whore
But the table's about to turn
I'll bet my fame on it
Cats take my ideas and put they name on it
It's aight though, you can't hold me down
I got to keep on moving
To all my girls with a man who be trying to mack
Do it right back to him and let that be that
You need to let him know that his game is whack
And Lil' Kim and Christina Aguilera got your back
You're just a little boy
Think you're so cute so coy
You must talk so big, to make up for smaller things
Said you're just a little boy
All you do is annoy
You must talk so big, to make up for smaller things
(This is for my girls)
This is for my girls all around the world (ohh)
Who have come across a man that don't respect your worth
(Respect your worth, oh ooh)
Thinking all women should be seen not heard
So what do we do girls, shout louder
(Shout louder)
Lettin 'em know we're gonna stand our ground
(Stand our ground)
So lift your hands higher and wave 'em proud (oh ooh)
Take a deep breath and say it loud
Never can, never will
Can't hold us down (oh ooh)
This is for my girls all around the world
(For my girls)
Who have come across a man that don't respect your worth
(Around the world)
Thinking all women should be seen not heard (yeah)
So what do we do girls, shout louder
Lettin 'em know we're gonna stand our ground
So lift your hands higher and wave 'em proud (ohh)
Take a deep breath and say it loud
Never can, never will
Can't hold us down
Uh oh, uh oh
Uh, uh, uh, uh uh, uh, uh
Spread the word
Can't hold us down
Yeah, we here, we back again
Yeah, Lil' Kim and Christina Aguilera, yeah
Can't hold us down
you get me high`
9:50 AM
9:50 AM
great... continued
just came back from 12th night. well i must say the acting was good and all, but like their diction was horrendous. MOREOVER they're talking shakespeare's language. i mean at least pronounce the words properly. haha but i guess it's bound to b liddat. no harm i guess. okay so we went to the pool side cafe thang. MY GOSH. help me. those guys.. lets sae.. poly? were trying to flirt with jess and i.. i mean no im not imagining stuff. they just kept coming and saying hi and talking talkin talkin. asking what skool we were from and stuff.. =.= hehehe. damn strangeeeee!
okay great so this ish what i need. i went to jocelyn.. the scgs gurl's site. thru amos'. well well. this ish what i get. this gurl tryna be me in her gb. so i went there. told her which kel i was. the one u insulted at the neos place. hey i didnt insult her in her gb. i dun even noe her. den i told her i liked her site, cuz it really was prettie neat. den suddenly a note from tyron and ian. telling sum1 to fuck off. well im prettie sure it was sposedly me cuz he cldnt be asking jocelyn to fuck off when it was her site. so im like GREAT. u noe ty, thanks. den ian was like dun muttle crap or tyron will kick ur ass or smthg. im like. oh right. thx too ian. when i say and tell others what a nice guy u are. bah. i mean im sorta hurt cuz check these guys out. siding the sposed chio bu-s and all. im like. okay. u mite wanna FIND OUT bt stuff furst b4 even asking pple to gth. mebbe im just putting all the bad stuff together. but im liddat. who cares man. so i explained and like no i didnt blame them. i blamed myself. and ty said i was crazy. i mean thanks i really needed it. and esp saying that when im in a prettie foul mood already with all that clovis and chengwei wadeva crap at barker. the whole gang was there, staring at both of us like freaks. hey, we're not the freaks alright. look at urself. ugh. ruthless brats.
just came back from 12th night. well i must say the acting was good and all, but like their diction was horrendous. MOREOVER they're talking shakespeare's language. i mean at least pronounce the words properly. haha but i guess it's bound to b liddat. no harm i guess. okay so we went to the pool side cafe thang. MY GOSH. help me. those guys.. lets sae.. poly? were trying to flirt with jess and i.. i mean no im not imagining stuff. they just kept coming and saying hi and talking talkin talkin. asking what skool we were from and stuff.. =.= hehehe. damn strangeeeee!
okay great so this ish what i need. i went to jocelyn.. the scgs gurl's site. thru amos'. well well. this ish what i get. this gurl tryna be me in her gb. so i went there. told her which kel i was. the one u insulted at the neos place. hey i didnt insult her in her gb. i dun even noe her. den i told her i liked her site, cuz it really was prettie neat. den suddenly a note from tyron and ian. telling sum1 to fuck off. well im prettie sure it was sposedly me cuz he cldnt be asking jocelyn to fuck off when it was her site. so im like GREAT. u noe ty, thanks. den ian was like dun muttle crap or tyron will kick ur ass or smthg. im like. oh right. thx too ian. when i say and tell others what a nice guy u are. bah. i mean im sorta hurt cuz check these guys out. siding the sposed chio bu-s and all. im like. okay. u mite wanna FIND OUT bt stuff furst b4 even asking pple to gth. mebbe im just putting all the bad stuff together. but im liddat. who cares man. so i explained and like no i didnt blame them. i blamed myself. and ty said i was crazy. i mean thanks i really needed it. and esp saying that when im in a prettie foul mood already with all that clovis and chengwei wadeva crap at barker. the whole gang was there, staring at both of us like freaks. hey, we're not the freaks alright. look at urself. ugh. ruthless brats.
you get me high`
9:29 AM
9:29 AM
Thursday, June 12
GREAT...... =.=
great. my last entry got deleted. just great. bah so i was sayin.
yestaday went out wiv ad. really funny cuz he's really damn tall. taller than elliot. =.= so mmmm went to lido to get tix, den sat down and talked for an hour and a half. quite nice i spose. funny guy...yup. nothing much. just talk talk talk. then we went to watch the movie. bruce almighty. man. lame show. the only funny part was like the news caster part. damn funny. he laffed until the whole row of chairs started shaking. =.= great. hahahahha but it was cool.
kay urm kate's party. was such a blast! i think.. haha. kate was happie tho. and we had great fun. let's see who came. druce ry paulae jase, kate me joce van. ty mos? aniwae. yup. had a prettie lush time when we were playing blindman, freeze and melt(druce calls it freezer. =.=) haha been playing since young with those dudes, so mite as well live in the past again. bah. and we played it at night, so sumhow or another i got a few cuts from running in the sand. *shrugs* how am i spose to noe how i got them. bah.
see my eye is still prettie sore so I dont have the mood to write much. yeap. ouch. ciaozzziessssss....
song of the day:
S Club 7-Gonna change the world
Bradley:
I wanna change the world...
But I know I have to start with me...can you help me?
When your world is closin' like it's comin' at ya
When you're in the darkest corner
I'm the one who'll come and catch ya
Jon:
When your life is wanderin'
Down some nowhere highway
Try a different point of view and
Do your best to see things my way
Bradley:
Lookin down there is brother facin brother
Dyin' one by one
Jon:
But from the ground you can look up at the stars
And see the words 'I love you!' painted high above you..
Chorus:
Gonna change the world
Gonna make it right
Gonna get down on my knees tonight
Gonna change it all
Gonna find a way
Gonna start to change the world today
Jon:
There is not a book that
You cannot rewrite
When your in the darkest corner
All you do is shine you're light and
Bradley:
When the other guy is
Bigger than the sky
Just before he's gonna hit ya
You can always try a smile 'cos
Jon:
All around hear a million lonley people
As they say, "Goodbye"
Bradley:
Yet there's a sound of a world that's full of laughter
Because now I know I'm better at 'Hello' and
Chorus:
Gonna change the world
Gonna make it right
Gonna get down on my knees tonight
Gonna change it all
Gonna find a way
Gonna start to change the world today
Both:
When something is wrong, only we can turn it around
So give me your hand, my brother and walk together
'Cos we got a mountain to climb...
Change the world today
dunt noe why but i love this song. good meaning to it.
great. my last entry got deleted. just great. bah so i was sayin.
yestaday went out wiv ad. really funny cuz he's really damn tall. taller than elliot. =.= so mmmm went to lido to get tix, den sat down and talked for an hour and a half. quite nice i spose. funny guy...yup. nothing much. just talk talk talk. then we went to watch the movie. bruce almighty. man. lame show. the only funny part was like the news caster part. damn funny. he laffed until the whole row of chairs started shaking. =.= great. hahahahha but it was cool.
kay urm kate's party. was such a blast! i think.. haha. kate was happie tho. and we had great fun. let's see who came. druce ry paulae jase, kate me joce van. ty mos? aniwae. yup. had a prettie lush time when we were playing blindman, freeze and melt(druce calls it freezer. =.=) haha been playing since young with those dudes, so mite as well live in the past again. bah. and we played it at night, so sumhow or another i got a few cuts from running in the sand. *shrugs* how am i spose to noe how i got them. bah.
see my eye is still prettie sore so I dont have the mood to write much. yeap. ouch. ciaozzziessssss....
song of the day:
S Club 7-Gonna change the world
Bradley:
I wanna change the world...
But I know I have to start with me...can you help me?
When your world is closin' like it's comin' at ya
When you're in the darkest corner
I'm the one who'll come and catch ya
Jon:
When your life is wanderin'
Down some nowhere highway
Try a different point of view and
Do your best to see things my way
Bradley:
Lookin down there is brother facin brother
Dyin' one by one
Jon:
But from the ground you can look up at the stars
And see the words 'I love you!' painted high above you..
Chorus:
Gonna change the world
Gonna make it right
Gonna get down on my knees tonight
Gonna change it all
Gonna find a way
Gonna start to change the world today
Jon:
There is not a book that
You cannot rewrite
When your in the darkest corner
All you do is shine you're light and
Bradley:
When the other guy is
Bigger than the sky
Just before he's gonna hit ya
You can always try a smile 'cos
Jon:
All around hear a million lonley people
As they say, "Goodbye"
Bradley:
Yet there's a sound of a world that's full of laughter
Because now I know I'm better at 'Hello' and
Chorus:
Gonna change the world
Gonna make it right
Gonna get down on my knees tonight
Gonna change it all
Gonna find a way
Gonna start to change the world today
Both:
When something is wrong, only we can turn it around
So give me your hand, my brother and walk together
'Cos we got a mountain to climb...
Change the world today
dunt noe why but i love this song. good meaning to it.
you get me high`
10:30 PM
10:30 PM
Tuesday, June 10
great. im having a sore eye. and like i carn rmb what and who hit my eye the other day, the bone there.. now it hurts damn baddddd.. bah. gotta go out to get groceries with my brother later... AND I MISSED SPA~!! ARGHHHH
you get me high`
9:13 PM
9:13 PM
sum1..spesh.
well sumhow or another, a special sum1 seemed to haf stepped into my life. no i dun like it. cuz that spesh sum1 ish sum1 i will probably not be able to stay in contact with. =( sigh. i mean he just makes and made me melt... BAH. just lidddat. haish.
mm oh well. yeah wnt out wiv jiaqi tristan and weiting todae. haha damn farnie cuz i techically only noe jiaqi. ive met weiting b4 but its just once. and tristan.. well i only noe him as "tyron's big bro" how wld i noe how hu the hell he ish. haha. hrmf. okay it started liddat. i woke up at 11+++ den msged jiaqi, saying okay i can meet u kinda thing, budden i fell fast asleep. =) hee. den by the time i woke up. ARGH its 1310! and im meeting him at 1320!!! AT NEWTON!!! ARGHHHH. so whoa, fumbled outta bed, brushed up n all, budden took such a long time to decide whadda wear. =X haha whoops. yeah. so, well, great. i HAD to haf my breakfast or else my mum'll make a lot of noise. so delay delay delay. at the same time msging jq, apologizing and all. bah bah bah. thank god my mum decided to fetch me there, seeing the state of panic i was in. ok. so i got there prettie late. hee. 1350? i guess it was OKAY larh. considering i woke up so late.
kay so jiaqi ish a genius im guessing. met at newton, den had to take a train down to city hall to go to BRAS BASAH. great. just terrific. haha but it was cool larh. saw zhenghao in the music stall. HAHA. looking as dead as he could ever be. he's always haf this "now how are YOU doing?" kinda face on. haha damn cheeZy. but hes still my buddie anyway. =) hehe. urm yeah. shopped in there for so long, helped them tune sum guitars.. damn strange. haha. well i still feel that an amplifier ish redundant. bah.
ok so afta he bought his stupid damn amp. we took a cab to his place to drop it off larh. den went to pick weiting up. den dunno how it turned out, oso had to pick tristan up. AH HIS DOGS ARE DAMNNN THE HELL CUTE!! i saw the chowchow? ahhh sooo cute!! he loox like sum damn lion that ish just fricking adorable. a.d.o.r.a.b.l.e dammit.
ok im continuing.
ok so we picked tristan, and went to lido. these guys cant make up their minds u noe. bah. the show at 445 at lido was all filled up, except the front row. =.= so we hadda go for the 530 one. thank god my mum allowed. =) ok. so we had loads of time to kill. lets sae.. an hour+++? haha kay so we went to zara opposite. great. we met tyron. with who? with his great dear jocelyn n lishan. =.= my ass larh. why would he wanna spend his birthday with THOSE TWO.. as in it'll make more sense if it were to be... spending it with.. kate? or smthg. not them. those pple are so fake. only noe howta suck up in front of ty. errks. bah. den we went to topshop. lalala. shopshopshop.. they all thot i was really bored or smthg.. well i was having loads of fun. but they were.. uh.. overly concerned or smthg? bah i dunno. aniway it was prettie farnie. den we went to watch finding neemooooo. DAMN CUTE!!!!!! recommanded show for everyone!!
well sumhow or another, a special sum1 seemed to haf stepped into my life. no i dun like it. cuz that spesh sum1 ish sum1 i will probably not be able to stay in contact with. =( sigh. i mean he just makes and made me melt... BAH. just lidddat. haish.
mm oh well. yeah wnt out wiv jiaqi tristan and weiting todae. haha damn farnie cuz i techically only noe jiaqi. ive met weiting b4 but its just once. and tristan.. well i only noe him as "tyron's big bro" how wld i noe how hu the hell he ish. haha. hrmf. okay it started liddat. i woke up at 11+++ den msged jiaqi, saying okay i can meet u kinda thing, budden i fell fast asleep. =) hee. den by the time i woke up. ARGH its 1310! and im meeting him at 1320!!! AT NEWTON!!! ARGHHHH. so whoa, fumbled outta bed, brushed up n all, budden took such a long time to decide whadda wear. =X haha whoops. yeah. so, well, great. i HAD to haf my breakfast or else my mum'll make a lot of noise. so delay delay delay. at the same time msging jq, apologizing and all. bah bah bah. thank god my mum decided to fetch me there, seeing the state of panic i was in. ok. so i got there prettie late. hee. 1350? i guess it was OKAY larh. considering i woke up so late.
kay so jiaqi ish a genius im guessing. met at newton, den had to take a train down to city hall to go to BRAS BASAH. great. just terrific. haha but it was cool larh. saw zhenghao in the music stall. HAHA. looking as dead as he could ever be. he's always haf this "now how are YOU doing?" kinda face on. haha damn cheeZy. but hes still my buddie anyway. =) hehe. urm yeah. shopped in there for so long, helped them tune sum guitars.. damn strange. haha. well i still feel that an amplifier ish redundant. bah.
ok so afta he bought his stupid damn amp. we took a cab to his place to drop it off larh. den went to pick weiting up. den dunno how it turned out, oso had to pick tristan up. AH HIS DOGS ARE DAMNNN THE HELL CUTE!! i saw the chowchow? ahhh sooo cute!! he loox like sum damn lion that ish just fricking adorable. a.d.o.r.a.b.l.e dammit.
ok im continuing.
ok so we picked tristan, and went to lido. these guys cant make up their minds u noe. bah. the show at 445 at lido was all filled up, except the front row. =.= so we hadda go for the 530 one. thank god my mum allowed. =) ok. so we had loads of time to kill. lets sae.. an hour+++? haha kay so we went to zara opposite. great. we met tyron. with who? with his great dear jocelyn n lishan. =.= my ass larh. why would he wanna spend his birthday with THOSE TWO.. as in it'll make more sense if it were to be... spending it with.. kate? or smthg. not them. those pple are so fake. only noe howta suck up in front of ty. errks. bah. den we went to topshop. lalala. shopshopshop.. they all thot i was really bored or smthg.. well i was having loads of fun. but they were.. uh.. overly concerned or smthg? bah i dunno. aniway it was prettie farnie. den we went to watch finding neemooooo. DAMN CUTE!!!!!! recommanded show for everyone!!
you get me high`
8:17 AM
8:17 AM
Monday, June 9
bah this sucks. ive got friends who aint exactly very happie. much that it always happens to me, it sorta hurts me to see them liddat. sum who are close and the others, not. mebbe its just me, being overly sensitive, but i dunno. it dus hurt and affect me. haish. im such a strange soul. i read sum of their journals and bloggiez. and ilke msn nicks too. and they all seem so... sad. i mean im not exactly in a delighted mood, and they may not be as down as i am, but to noe that pple ard me feels the same way. i feel down. bah.
well i guess i just hafta reach out to pple who're.... closer to me.
ah yuan ar yuan. im sure i sposedly noe how u feel, but things can get worse. i'll always be here if u wanna talk, but like when u call me, sounding so damn depressed, i honestly wanna cry le. mebbe as i said, im more sensitive to things happening ard me den things happening to me itself. no im not shunning u away, but just wanna letcha noe how i feel. im prettie sure u noe that u mean kwite a bit to me. yeah so just POUR everything out on me... and i'll... just.. cope. as long as u feel betta.. =)) bah. luvya. chill ya.
well i guess i just hafta reach out to pple who're.... closer to me.
ah yuan ar yuan. im sure i sposedly noe how u feel, but things can get worse. i'll always be here if u wanna talk, but like when u call me, sounding so damn depressed, i honestly wanna cry le. mebbe as i said, im more sensitive to things happening ard me den things happening to me itself. no im not shunning u away, but just wanna letcha noe how i feel. im prettie sure u noe that u mean kwite a bit to me. yeah so just POUR everything out on me... and i'll... just.. cope. as long as u feel betta.. =)) bah. luvya. chill ya.
you get me high`
9:31 AM
9:31 AM
screws daily update
okay. i mean. yestaday, i wrote out this WHOLE LONG passage for my blog, n i accidentally closed the window. =.=
ok lets start with friday.
baah urm had arts fest. panic panic cuz we havent even got the dance all sorted out yet.. in the end.. urm.... rush rush ma ma hu hu.. gottit done.. phew. and i guesss i was ALRIGHT larh. but not splendid. =( sigh.
urm b4 that we were opened with cheerleading. kwite okaaay larh. just didnt like the whole bimbo feel to it. still considering if i should join or not. next year that ish. sigh.
urm tarbet was kwite sad cuz like they went furst, and when they were doing their pyr, jiayi fell. damn jialat. i was like ouchhhh. heard they all burst out into tears afta that. sigh. i guess it just aint their day. too bad it fell on the performance day itself.
buckle. i really liked the dance. dunno why oso. i fink suwee choreo-ed it right? dunno larh. i just liked it. i didnt see jieying at all. bah. ah well. george. i figure she can dance, but she just turns everything super bimbo. i guess there's nothing wrong wiv that.. it just loox... typical. while i thot suwee danced kwite well. oh well.
richard. urm. i shant comment cuz i didnt like their performance at all.
waddle. so cutteee!!! my gosh my gosh! hahaa i liked it too.. and ying was soooo cute. =))))
hadley. uh okay larh. last year's one was much betta. i felt that bernice danced prettie well. haha. duh innit?
yeah den after everything, i sat at the mini amphi. haha damn farnie cuz furst, sum strange old teacher sang sum oldies wiv mrs anis. den laff laff laff. den halsall.. WAHAHA. that one ish farnier. he sang one song which i dunno, and den all the small things. damn cheezy. =) typical canadian. sigh so sad i didnt catch slatter sing, im sure he'd haf sang well. my fav teach btw. =))))
After sch, i went out wiv jess. hee. watched what a gurl wants.. AGAIN. =)) yeap yeap. den met jiaqi for tea. jess and i are zai man. hide hide hide from him cuz his pants were just tooo failure. until kinda felt sorrie so called him. ate at "lips" in cine. kwite cool. i liked my drink alot. it's called "red love potion". uh okay anithing. HAHA den jess drank peachy bitch. i thot the name sounded cool man. den we took neos. hehe.
okok thats it for friday.
now for sundae since saturday was so boring.
ok. lets just say i missed my duty for the 830 service cuz i overslept. =((( haha whoops. den aniwae kate called me up to REMIND me to go to church cuz i was still very much in dreamland. so so.
went to church, den went to pulau ubin with the youthzone. went from 11 to 530. well kate and i were the station marshalls so we just sat there for like 2-3 hours? to wait for the groups to finally make it to our station and play our game. =.= wah freak. den so many bugs ard can. wel i figure it was alright cuz we were in the shade, so not THAT hot.
den afta that, since kate and i were early, we decided to go cycling. we rawk man. cycle up i dunno where for half an hour, under immense sun and heat. bah. was going to find jason's hut, but went the wrong route, so ended up at jordan's. np man. dere was this huge sea view that was gorgeoussss. yup yup. but it was DAMN hot there. so got sm water and went back. oh btw, i was wearing my fbts and a sleeveless shirt. den while descending this slope, i hit a bump and fell from the bike, straight on my face. great. excellent kelly, well done. lucky me it wasnt THAT bad, just many scraps on my right knee and one cut across my right elbow. but that one hurt reallllyyyyyyy bad. so there i sat, sobbing a lil, with kate next to me tryna get a fone. lalala. done. no one picked up. gorgeous. so i just had to crawl back on my bike and hit down the hill, which btw was prettie near the destinated place. den o nthe way, we saw this durian head jason, on the verge of screaming at us for being so damn late. great. just wad we needed.
well when he heard that i fell, the look of angst just urm turned to this. i dunno what face. haha prettie much a joker. oh no freak gotta round this up soon. yup yup. so i went home, looking like this stupid red burnt up lobster cuz i was red thruout, and todae, my shoulders were so blardee sun burnt. bah. okay. betta get going!
Long time coming-Oliver James =))))))
Everbody wants to be love
Every once in a while
We all need someone to hold on to
Just like a helpless child
Can you whipser in my ear
Let me know it's all right
(Chorus) It's been a long time coming
Down this road
And now I know what I've been waiting for
And like a lonely highway
I'm trying to get home
Ooo loves been a long time coming
You can look for a lifetime
You can love for a day
You can think you got everything
Everything is nothing when you throw it away
Then you look in my eyes and I have it all once again
(Chorus) It's been a long time coming
Dthis raod
And now I know what I've been waiting for
It's like lonely highway
I'm trying to get home
Ooo loves been a long time coming
Didn't know I was lost 'til you found me
Didn't know I was blind but now I see
Can you whisper in my ear
Let me know its all right
It's been a long time coming
Down this road
And now I know what I've been searching for
It's been long long highway and now I see
Ooo loves be a long time
OO loves been a long time
Loves been a long time...
coming
okay. i mean. yestaday, i wrote out this WHOLE LONG passage for my blog, n i accidentally closed the window. =.=
ok lets start with friday.
baah urm had arts fest. panic panic cuz we havent even got the dance all sorted out yet.. in the end.. urm.... rush rush ma ma hu hu.. gottit done.. phew. and i guesss i was ALRIGHT larh. but not splendid. =( sigh.
urm b4 that we were opened with cheerleading. kwite okaaay larh. just didnt like the whole bimbo feel to it. still considering if i should join or not. next year that ish. sigh.
urm tarbet was kwite sad cuz like they went furst, and when they were doing their pyr, jiayi fell. damn jialat. i was like ouchhhh. heard they all burst out into tears afta that. sigh. i guess it just aint their day. too bad it fell on the performance day itself.
buckle. i really liked the dance. dunno why oso. i fink suwee choreo-ed it right? dunno larh. i just liked it. i didnt see jieying at all. bah. ah well. george. i figure she can dance, but she just turns everything super bimbo. i guess there's nothing wrong wiv that.. it just loox... typical. while i thot suwee danced kwite well. oh well.
richard. urm. i shant comment cuz i didnt like their performance at all.
waddle. so cutteee!!! my gosh my gosh! hahaa i liked it too.. and ying was soooo cute. =))))
hadley. uh okay larh. last year's one was much betta. i felt that bernice danced prettie well. haha. duh innit?
yeah den after everything, i sat at the mini amphi. haha damn farnie cuz furst, sum strange old teacher sang sum oldies wiv mrs anis. den laff laff laff. den halsall.. WAHAHA. that one ish farnier. he sang one song which i dunno, and den all the small things. damn cheezy. =) typical canadian. sigh so sad i didnt catch slatter sing, im sure he'd haf sang well. my fav teach btw. =))))
After sch, i went out wiv jess. hee. watched what a gurl wants.. AGAIN. =)) yeap yeap. den met jiaqi for tea. jess and i are zai man. hide hide hide from him cuz his pants were just tooo failure. until kinda felt sorrie so called him. ate at "lips" in cine. kwite cool. i liked my drink alot. it's called "red love potion". uh okay anithing. HAHA den jess drank peachy bitch. i thot the name sounded cool man. den we took neos. hehe.
okok thats it for friday.
now for sundae since saturday was so boring.
ok. lets just say i missed my duty for the 830 service cuz i overslept. =((( haha whoops. den aniwae kate called me up to REMIND me to go to church cuz i was still very much in dreamland. so so.
went to church, den went to pulau ubin with the youthzone. went from 11 to 530. well kate and i were the station marshalls so we just sat there for like 2-3 hours? to wait for the groups to finally make it to our station and play our game. =.= wah freak. den so many bugs ard can. wel i figure it was alright cuz we were in the shade, so not THAT hot.
den afta that, since kate and i were early, we decided to go cycling. we rawk man. cycle up i dunno where for half an hour, under immense sun and heat. bah. was going to find jason's hut, but went the wrong route, so ended up at jordan's. np man. dere was this huge sea view that was gorgeoussss. yup yup. but it was DAMN hot there. so got sm water and went back. oh btw, i was wearing my fbts and a sleeveless shirt. den while descending this slope, i hit a bump and fell from the bike, straight on my face. great. excellent kelly, well done. lucky me it wasnt THAT bad, just many scraps on my right knee and one cut across my right elbow. but that one hurt reallllyyyyyyy bad. so there i sat, sobbing a lil, with kate next to me tryna get a fone. lalala. done. no one picked up. gorgeous. so i just had to crawl back on my bike and hit down the hill, which btw was prettie near the destinated place. den o nthe way, we saw this durian head jason, on the verge of screaming at us for being so damn late. great. just wad we needed.
well when he heard that i fell, the look of angst just urm turned to this. i dunno what face. haha prettie much a joker. oh no freak gotta round this up soon. yup yup. so i went home, looking like this stupid red burnt up lobster cuz i was red thruout, and todae, my shoulders were so blardee sun burnt. bah. okay. betta get going!
Long time coming-Oliver James =))))))
Everbody wants to be love
Every once in a while
We all need someone to hold on to
Just like a helpless child
Can you whipser in my ear
Let me know it's all right
(Chorus) It's been a long time coming
Down this road
And now I know what I've been waiting for
And like a lonely highway
I'm trying to get home
Ooo loves been a long time coming
You can look for a lifetime
You can love for a day
You can think you got everything
Everything is nothing when you throw it away
Then you look in my eyes and I have it all once again
(Chorus) It's been a long time coming
Dthis raod
And now I know what I've been waiting for
It's like lonely highway
I'm trying to get home
Ooo loves been a long time coming
Didn't know I was lost 'til you found me
Didn't know I was blind but now I see
Can you whisper in my ear
Let me know its all right
It's been a long time coming
Down this road
And now I know what I've been searching for
It's been long long highway and now I see
Ooo loves be a long time
OO loves been a long time
Loves been a long time...
coming
you get me high`
2:35 AM
2:35 AM
Friday, June 6
YAY! hols! finalllyy!! this long awaited day ish finally here! wooohhhoo!! hehe. this is probably muh schedule:
Science prac assesment. =.=
choir if there ish.
dance dance dance
go out wiv nick, jess, uh kate(wiv druce and gang.hopefully)
mebbe with adler too.
haha mmm okaaaay. not much i guess. budden whaddya expect? its only 3 damn weeks. nothing much ta do aniwae. blah. i guess even if my classmates were to spread this around.. do i care? no! haha. well note this:
i wanna go clubbin i wanna go clubbin i wanna go clubbin.
whether it happens or not, ish another issue. but that ish one way, to get rid of all my hatred...at least for awhile..and cheer myself up a lil. i mean yeah. i hate the shit going ard in skool. i mean. gross! making rumours up bout me? haha ive learnt muh lesson. wanna diss me, do it in front of me, but if ure too cowardly, why should i care? ure just sum spaz coward.
"i like big butts and i cannot hide." HAHA
Science prac assesment. =.=
choir if there ish.
dance dance dance
go out wiv nick, jess, uh kate(wiv druce and gang.hopefully)
mebbe with adler too.
haha mmm okaaaay. not much i guess. budden whaddya expect? its only 3 damn weeks. nothing much ta do aniwae. blah. i guess even if my classmates were to spread this around.. do i care? no! haha. well note this:
i wanna go clubbin i wanna go clubbin i wanna go clubbin.
whether it happens or not, ish another issue. but that ish one way, to get rid of all my hatred...at least for awhile..and cheer myself up a lil. i mean yeah. i hate the shit going ard in skool. i mean. gross! making rumours up bout me? haha ive learnt muh lesson. wanna diss me, do it in front of me, but if ure too cowardly, why should i care? ure just sum spaz coward.
"i like big butts and i cannot hide." HAHA
you get me high`
8:17 AM
8:17 AM
Thursday, June 5
borrinngggggg..
.:. pix added.
baah. stayed at home todae cause im like still sick. problem is that i realllly wanna watch chemistry, but i might have to go to e docs later. baah. aniwae, im glad im feeling betta, and cheery. mm baah. nth to write. ahh well.
song of da day.
Isnt it a wonder- Boyzone
It's the sign of the times, girl
Sad songs on the radio
It's the sign of the times, girl
As the leaves begin to go
But all these signs now,
showing on my face
Proving me wrong, taking it's place
And I pray to God
That there's more that we can do, yeah
And I pray to God
That there's more that we can show
More that we can do, yeah
Isn't It a Wonder
as a newborn baby cries
And isn't it a wonder
with the sweetness in my eyes
and isn't it a wonder
at the crossroads of my life
Isn't it a wonder?
Isn't it a wonder, to me?
It's the way of the world when,
Wrong takes hold of right
It's the way of the world
In which we've all lost sight
But isn't this world
Too simple to be true?
Holding on to memories of you
And I pray to God
That there's more that we can do, yeah
And I pray to God
That there's more that we can show
More that we can do, yeah
CHORUS
That I can see, a change in me
But I won't look back
Cos that's behind me
And after all,
Strong words are spoken
My heart will never be, never be
Never be broken...
CHORUS
That I can see, a change in me
But I won't look back
Cos that's behind me
And after all
Strong words are spoken
My heart will never be, never be
Never be broken...
Father and Son-Boyzone
It's not time to make a change
Just relax, take it easy
You're still young, that's your fault
There's so much you have to know
Find a girl, settle down
If you want you can marry
Look at me, I am old
But I'm happy
I was once like you are now
And I know that it's not easy
To be calm when you've found
Something going on
But take your time, think a lot
Think of everything you've got
For you will still be here tomorrow
But your dreams may not
How can I try to explain
When I do he turns away again
And it's always been the same
Same old story
From the moment I could talk
I was ordered to listen
Now there's a way and I know
That I have to go away
I know I have to go
It's not time to make a change
Just sit down and take it slowly
You're still young that's your fault
There's so much you have to go through
Find a girl, settle down
If you want you can marry
Look at me, I am old
But I'm happy
All the times that I've cried
Keeping all the things I know inside
And it's hard, but it's harder
To ignore it
If they were right I'd agree
But it's them they know, not me
Now there's a way and I know
That i have to go away
I know I have to go
.:. pix added.
baah. stayed at home todae cause im like still sick. problem is that i realllly wanna watch chemistry, but i might have to go to e docs later. baah. aniwae, im glad im feeling betta, and cheery. mm baah. nth to write. ahh well.
song of da day.
Isnt it a wonder- Boyzone
It's the sign of the times, girl
Sad songs on the radio
It's the sign of the times, girl
As the leaves begin to go
But all these signs now,
showing on my face
Proving me wrong, taking it's place
And I pray to God
That there's more that we can do, yeah
And I pray to God
That there's more that we can show
More that we can do, yeah
Isn't It a Wonder
as a newborn baby cries
And isn't it a wonder
with the sweetness in my eyes
and isn't it a wonder
at the crossroads of my life
Isn't it a wonder?
Isn't it a wonder, to me?
It's the way of the world when,
Wrong takes hold of right
It's the way of the world
In which we've all lost sight
But isn't this world
Too simple to be true?
Holding on to memories of you
And I pray to God
That there's more that we can do, yeah
And I pray to God
That there's more that we can show
More that we can do, yeah
CHORUS
That I can see, a change in me
But I won't look back
Cos that's behind me
And after all,
Strong words are spoken
My heart will never be, never be
Never be broken...
CHORUS
That I can see, a change in me
But I won't look back
Cos that's behind me
And after all
Strong words are spoken
My heart will never be, never be
Never be broken...
Father and Son-Boyzone
It's not time to make a change
Just relax, take it easy
You're still young, that's your fault
There's so much you have to know
Find a girl, settle down
If you want you can marry
Look at me, I am old
But I'm happy
I was once like you are now
And I know that it's not easy
To be calm when you've found
Something going on
But take your time, think a lot
Think of everything you've got
For you will still be here tomorrow
But your dreams may not
How can I try to explain
When I do he turns away again
And it's always been the same
Same old story
From the moment I could talk
I was ordered to listen
Now there's a way and I know
That I have to go away
I know I have to go
It's not time to make a change
Just sit down and take it slowly
You're still young that's your fault
There's so much you have to go through
Find a girl, settle down
If you want you can marry
Look at me, I am old
But I'm happy
All the times that I've cried
Keeping all the things I know inside
And it's hard, but it's harder
To ignore it
If they were right I'd agree
But it's them they know, not me
Now there's a way and I know
That i have to go away
I know I have to go
you get me high`
4:31 AM
4:31 AM
Wednesday, June 4
screwed up day, but yet an enjoyable one.
well i went out wiv kate, char, and jocelyn todae. watched "What a girl wants".
despite most pple saying its kwite a bad show? my gawd. we ALL enjoyed it. andl ike till halfway. we were all sobbing and stuff.. cuz the show's like kwite sad, kwite touching etc. hahaha den like we were all like.. *sob sob sob* until the end of the show. dammit. i carn stand it!!! AMANDA ISH SO LUCKI!!!! SHE GOTTA KISS OLIVER JAMEESS!!! FRICKING HOTTTTIIEEEE!!! RAVISHING STUNNING LUSH INTRIGING GORGEOUS HOTttIEEE!!!!!! ahhhh hahhaa. gosh. aniwae i really really loved the movie. but its a damn gurly movie. guys wunt like it, for sure. and i realllyy felt it reflected sooo much on me.. like my dream.. well almost only every dream, and all. so lush man! im gonna watch it as many times as i can.. with jess tooo.. and like buy the vcd. hehehex.
" All my life, altho u loved me, there was always this missing piece in me. this missing piece that seems irreplaceable"
haish. this was said by daphne in the show. i must admit. it stands. maybe it aint my greatest desire, but when i heard this. i dont know why but it just stood in me. =) mhmm. well this show is really mostly just for girls. not sure why but it IS liddat. hehe. yup so all compliments.
hmm was on the phone with jiaqi for like.. wad... 2-3 hours? haha it was prettie funny how jess and i tried to talk him out of the whole " i AM a failure" concept. inthe end, we won. =)))) whoops. aniwae much that he aint sumone i always contact. i do feel that hes someone i can trust, dont ask me why, and like, yeah, i will confide in? i guess. and its fun talkin to him, and seeing his pessimistic self take place again (as i would say it relates to me.. and i guess jess too).
Well im back to the whole my gawsh i hate this afternoon thing. i guess im still brooding over it, not because im still angry at what they said, but that they had to disrupt my..."chillin' out" time. i mean i havent been in exactly delightful mood recently, and i dun think that incident would have made me happier? i really wanted to go out wiv kate(esp), char and joce, to catch a movie, chill out, and just haf sum fun! and i mean maybe i was and still am a lil brittle today for the simple fact that im not in a good mood and anithing that irritates me, makes me pissed. ahhh but it's always good to have a friend, who has never attended the same skool as me, to still remain as my bezzie till this day. Ive known kate for.... 10 years or sO? and mind u im only 14. so it's like 5/7 of my life. majority innit? haha and char was commenting on how hyper we were and all, and like we were one of a kind. which i do agree btw. cuz esp during this era, where there're too many posers, lians, bengs, sohs, engs, whadeva, there're still two pple i know... well three actually...jess kate and i.. who dun exactly care if we make a fool of ourselves. And there's never any tension between us. at all. its miraculous innit?
bleagh. im like throwing up every half n hour. dont fink im fit enuff for skool. we'lll see......
well i went out wiv kate, char, and jocelyn todae. watched "What a girl wants".
despite most pple saying its kwite a bad show? my gawd. we ALL enjoyed it. andl ike till halfway. we were all sobbing and stuff.. cuz the show's like kwite sad, kwite touching etc. hahaha den like we were all like.. *sob sob sob* until the end of the show. dammit. i carn stand it!!! AMANDA ISH SO LUCKI!!!! SHE GOTTA KISS OLIVER JAMEESS!!! FRICKING HOTTTTIIEEEE!!! RAVISHING STUNNING LUSH INTRIGING GORGEOUS HOTttIEEE!!!!!! ahhhh hahhaa. gosh. aniwae i really really loved the movie. but its a damn gurly movie. guys wunt like it, for sure. and i realllyy felt it reflected sooo much on me.. like my dream.. well almost only every dream, and all. so lush man! im gonna watch it as many times as i can.. with jess tooo.. and like buy the vcd. hehehex.
" All my life, altho u loved me, there was always this missing piece in me. this missing piece that seems irreplaceable"
haish. this was said by daphne in the show. i must admit. it stands. maybe it aint my greatest desire, but when i heard this. i dont know why but it just stood in me. =) mhmm. well this show is really mostly just for girls. not sure why but it IS liddat. hehe. yup so all compliments.
hmm was on the phone with jiaqi for like.. wad... 2-3 hours? haha it was prettie funny how jess and i tried to talk him out of the whole " i AM a failure" concept. inthe end, we won. =)))) whoops. aniwae much that he aint sumone i always contact. i do feel that hes someone i can trust, dont ask me why, and like, yeah, i will confide in? i guess. and its fun talkin to him, and seeing his pessimistic self take place again (as i would say it relates to me.. and i guess jess too).
Well im back to the whole my gawsh i hate this afternoon thing. i guess im still brooding over it, not because im still angry at what they said, but that they had to disrupt my..."chillin' out" time. i mean i havent been in exactly delightful mood recently, and i dun think that incident would have made me happier? i really wanted to go out wiv kate(esp), char and joce, to catch a movie, chill out, and just haf sum fun! and i mean maybe i was and still am a lil brittle today for the simple fact that im not in a good mood and anithing that irritates me, makes me pissed. ahhh but it's always good to have a friend, who has never attended the same skool as me, to still remain as my bezzie till this day. Ive known kate for.... 10 years or sO? and mind u im only 14. so it's like 5/7 of my life. majority innit? haha and char was commenting on how hyper we were and all, and like we were one of a kind. which i do agree btw. cuz esp during this era, where there're too many posers, lians, bengs, sohs, engs, whadeva, there're still two pple i know... well three actually...jess kate and i.. who dun exactly care if we make a fool of ourselves. And there's never any tension between us. at all. its miraculous innit?
bleagh. im like throwing up every half n hour. dont fink im fit enuff for skool. we'lll see......
you get me high`
7:05 AM
7:05 AM
Monday, June 2
blah had skool todae. i tried so hard not to trust her, but i still did. im so annoyed wiv myselff!! cuz its a gd and bad trade of mine and personally, i hate it!!!!!!!!!! i guess we've got pple like cy who just dussen exactly whole heartedly trust pple (other than xuan) or smthg, but still its DAMN annoying how im the direct opposite of him. argh. gawsh i hate myself. hate me hate me hate me!!!! -yells-
oh yeah and now like im back to my pessimistic+i really really miss 6L mood. damn. ling please organise.
aniwae i hope i getta go ova ta ling's house to dye hair.. or at least a lil. haha damn farnie. i miss e old tymes where ling was index no.1 n i was 2. den like during exam periods when we were having free tyme, can write spaz notes and all. i still haf moz of them in my drawer. like when i read them from time to time, really can cry just missing those days. people den where so naive and innocent. while now..........it'll be surprising if they think pure for one day. not cunning or smthg. shit. kel stop finkin of themmm!!! stoooppp!!!! it's making u more miserableeeee!!!! arggghhhh!!!!!. and i hate spore. hate it hate it hate it. pple here arent lax at all. all so tense and annoying. like take life easy man. mebbe i should apply it to myself. but i carn larhhh!!! CARN!! argh!
freak i get scolded for every single DAMN thing i do wrong. even it it's like superficial and stuff.... SCREW UP LARH FREAK! Im learning stuff day by day, and i dun wanna get scolded for every single thig i dooooo!!!!! i stardee hard for my mum, work hard for my mum, play the violin for my mum. and like everything else i enjoy ish condemned by her!!!!! my frens, hobbies, interests, DANCE. screw up larh! im going mad. i carn take it animore!!!! kate told me bout ty's partie.. i wannnnna gooooo u goobbbssttooopppeeerrr!! RGHHHHHH. shit im going mad. save me. aiya no song for the day! im on the verge of insanity.
i wanna go back to brit...................
oh yeah and now like im back to my pessimistic+i really really miss 6L mood. damn. ling please organise.
aniwae i hope i getta go ova ta ling's house to dye hair.. or at least a lil. haha damn farnie. i miss e old tymes where ling was index no.1 n i was 2. den like during exam periods when we were having free tyme, can write spaz notes and all. i still haf moz of them in my drawer. like when i read them from time to time, really can cry just missing those days. people den where so naive and innocent. while now..........it'll be surprising if they think pure for one day. not cunning or smthg. shit. kel stop finkin of themmm!!! stoooppp!!!! it's making u more miserableeeee!!!! arggghhhh!!!!!. and i hate spore. hate it hate it hate it. pple here arent lax at all. all so tense and annoying. like take life easy man. mebbe i should apply it to myself. but i carn larhhh!!! CARN!! argh!
freak i get scolded for every single DAMN thing i do wrong. even it it's like superficial and stuff.... SCREW UP LARH FREAK! Im learning stuff day by day, and i dun wanna get scolded for every single thig i dooooo!!!!! i stardee hard for my mum, work hard for my mum, play the violin for my mum. and like everything else i enjoy ish condemned by her!!!!! my frens, hobbies, interests, DANCE. screw up larh! im going mad. i carn take it animore!!!! kate told me bout ty's partie.. i wannnnna gooooo u goobbbssttooopppeeerrr!! RGHHHHHH. shit im going mad. save me. aiya no song for the day! im on the verge of insanity.
i wanna go back to brit...................
you get me high`
7:01 AM
7:01 AM
Sunday, June 1
bleagh. i havent talked to druce ryan paul mik josh and all in person for a very long time. *pouts* dunno why i wanted to say this too. but kinda miss camp where like druce n kate were in the same grp as me. den like even during message we were chatting away. =PpP haha, whoops. aniwae druce called me todae to ask me what msg i sent him? =| haha yeah. okay den cyaz.
you get me high`
9:06 AM
9:06 AM
haha whoops didnt bllog yestaday. prettie interesting day.
well jess and i went to haf udon again, den it was like damn farnie cuz no one there was actually making much noise but both of us, as usual, crap alot. hahhaa. ahh well. den wanted to watch what a gurl wants. budden the show was like at wad... 5? or wazzit 4? sumthing liddat larh. kaosss. oh aniwae we saw the monkey guy and his friends.. uhhh yarh damn farnie. monkey guy loox betta wiv a cap on innt jess.. haha. so we made our way to cine. saw dan and jamie.. hhaa talked to them for like an ahour or so. and we, being irritating pple, bot them stuff. and dan was reallly funny. hehe. shant go into our conversations, but mhmm, it was prettie fun. well dan.. ish like lookin hotter and hotter each day man! hahahahaha. hes damn cute now loh. damn. =X jamie's well. haha kwite okay larh. haha almoz got dan's car keys! damn damn damn! ahaha. mhmm. den we met my kor, took neoprint.. H AHA damn farnie. he lyk dunno how to take... damn blur. =P nvm still turned out okay. den we took wad.. TWO DAMN HOURS TO GO HOME THANKS TO JESSIE TAN"S MUM! HAHHAHA. okok that was kinda mean. yeap yeap. dats abt it...
todae was kinda boring. went to church and like i noe kate was hosting the games and stuff, but i was talkin to eu abt how gay *ahem* ish. AHHH I FEEL SO SAD FOR HIM!! JUST gONNA CRY LE!!!! hahahahhaa. almoz cried last night man. oh yarh. dept head of barker's name ish adler. zai leh. he didnt even do like an intro or smthg. haha aniwae added him, got his email frm jon poh.. hams u want? hhaahhaa. i asked for the email just to get his name.. well to confirm his name. cuz ling said adler, jon said addler, and so on. yup. got his website too. =X hehe. yup. like gareth talked to me on msn juz now. i mean he initiated the convo. i was like.. okaaaaaaay. i thot he was sq. haha i guess he ish. yup. i fink i'd betta go now.
mmm well just wanna sae this. well i was talking to adler last night and like realising how much i really wanna leave spore. like part of why i dread everyday ish cuz i hate spore. i hate the place, i dun exactly like my skool. yeah ive got nice friends there. but the pple i spend time most wiv in skool, i dun terribly like all ov them. i dunno larh its sad i guess. but like i dun wana compare but i do, my friends outside are like a hell lot nicer than those in skool. dunno larh. mebbe cuz they think they're rg and they're the smartest ov the lot blah blah. and spore ish so!!!!!!! damn!!!!!! hot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! arggghhh!!!! i wanna go back to britain!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
song of the day.. uhhhh i dunno..... lemme fink abt it....
Bent-Matchbox Twenty
If I fall along the way
Pick me up and dust me off
And if I get too tired to make it
Be my breath so I can walk
If I need some other love
Give me more than I can stand
And when my smile gets old and faded
Wait around I'll smile again
Shouldn't be so complicated
Just hold me and then
Just hold me again
Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together
Keep breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent
If I couldn't sleep could you sleep
Could you paint me better off
Could you sympathize with my needs
I know you think I need a lot
I started out clean but I'm jaded
Just phoning it in
Just breaking the skin
Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together
You're breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent
Start bending me
It's never enough
I feel all your pieces
Start bending me
Keep bending me until I'm completely broken in
Shouldn't be so complicated
Just touch me and then
Just touch me again
Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together
You're breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent
Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together
You're breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent
well jess and i went to haf udon again, den it was like damn farnie cuz no one there was actually making much noise but both of us, as usual, crap alot. hahhaa. ahh well. den wanted to watch what a gurl wants. budden the show was like at wad... 5? or wazzit 4? sumthing liddat larh. kaosss. oh aniwae we saw the monkey guy and his friends.. uhhh yarh damn farnie. monkey guy loox betta wiv a cap on innt jess.. haha. so we made our way to cine. saw dan and jamie.. hhaa talked to them for like an ahour or so. and we, being irritating pple, bot them stuff. and dan was reallly funny. hehe. shant go into our conversations, but mhmm, it was prettie fun. well dan.. ish like lookin hotter and hotter each day man! hahahahaha. hes damn cute now loh. damn. =X jamie's well. haha kwite okay larh. haha almoz got dan's car keys! damn damn damn! ahaha. mhmm. den we met my kor, took neoprint.. H AHA damn farnie. he lyk dunno how to take... damn blur. =P nvm still turned out okay. den we took wad.. TWO DAMN HOURS TO GO HOME THANKS TO JESSIE TAN"S MUM! HAHHAHA. okok that was kinda mean. yeap yeap. dats abt it...
todae was kinda boring. went to church and like i noe kate was hosting the games and stuff, but i was talkin to eu abt how gay *ahem* ish. AHHH I FEEL SO SAD FOR HIM!! JUST gONNA CRY LE!!!! hahahahhaa. almoz cried last night man. oh yarh. dept head of barker's name ish adler. zai leh. he didnt even do like an intro or smthg. haha aniwae added him, got his email frm jon poh.. hams u want? hhaahhaa. i asked for the email just to get his name.. well to confirm his name. cuz ling said adler, jon said addler, and so on. yup. got his website too. =X hehe. yup. like gareth talked to me on msn juz now. i mean he initiated the convo. i was like.. okaaaaaaay. i thot he was sq. haha i guess he ish. yup. i fink i'd betta go now.
mmm well just wanna sae this. well i was talking to adler last night and like realising how much i really wanna leave spore. like part of why i dread everyday ish cuz i hate spore. i hate the place, i dun exactly like my skool. yeah ive got nice friends there. but the pple i spend time most wiv in skool, i dun terribly like all ov them. i dunno larh its sad i guess. but like i dun wana compare but i do, my friends outside are like a hell lot nicer than those in skool. dunno larh. mebbe cuz they think they're rg and they're the smartest ov the lot blah blah. and spore ish so!!!!!!! damn!!!!!! hot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! arggghhh!!!! i wanna go back to britain!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
song of the day.. uhhhh i dunno..... lemme fink abt it....
Bent-Matchbox Twenty
If I fall along the way
Pick me up and dust me off
And if I get too tired to make it
Be my breath so I can walk
If I need some other love
Give me more than I can stand
And when my smile gets old and faded
Wait around I'll smile again
Shouldn't be so complicated
Just hold me and then
Just hold me again
Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together
Keep breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent
If I couldn't sleep could you sleep
Could you paint me better off
Could you sympathize with my needs
I know you think I need a lot
I started out clean but I'm jaded
Just phoning it in
Just breaking the skin
Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together
You're breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent
Start bending me
It's never enough
I feel all your pieces
Start bending me
Keep bending me until I'm completely broken in
Shouldn't be so complicated
Just touch me and then
Just touch me again
Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together
You're breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent
Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together
You're breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent
you get me high`
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