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love,
kelly.
arggghh my brrrooooo
argh. my bro's going to peru for debate. tonight! ugh im gonna be all alone at home. hrmf!im gonna be soo lonellllyyyyy. tho my bro dussen talk to me much...hes leavvinnnggggg~~~~~~~ for twenty whole days!!!!!!!!! not even celebrating nat day with meeeeee! sighx i gues i cant do much. tried to pass on a prayer chain like how someone started iwhen gab caught food poisoning during his As *shrugs*
ive been falling sick so damn easily, i think i should get some sleeeeeep. or at least get mooorreeeee sleep.
yay the end of the month's tode, and uh, ive exceeded my smses by a million. my calls, im not too sure,but i believe ive exceeded too.
Well im in school now (sposedly comin up wiv pp slides for agriculture-organic farming) im coughing consistantly. (screw the cough)
kk i'll blog later cuz class' over. =)))))
Wishful Dreams
Well furstly, when i was reading thru blogs, found this rap that lionel composed. prettie interesting:
Yo, its da D-A-N-C-E, uh, Society
When we do our thing up there, that aint no irony.
We dance and we prance, uh look yeah we made it.
And when we get up on da stage, we cant be deflated.
We gonna trash da rest,
in this SYF
So sit and enjoy da show,
this is our flow, and we gonna get da Gold.
We gonna get da Gold, uh, we gonna get da Gold.. (fade out)
HAHA. all the "uh"s and and stuff. Welllll welll lets see whassup.
Went for crossroads on saturday. OOOOO it was prettie damn fun. Runnin' round town looking for stupid dishes. Saw trudy soh. =X Hmm yeah. Oh yeah, beeeeeeeeejay came along too! Wiv urm.. spiked hair? Dont ask. Yeap. Basically we had loads of fun. =))) OOOOh yeah i got my Usher CD, it's amazing! So damn smooth!!!! =)))
Went ta church on sunday, beeeejay came again too! Well yeah urm it was really short and yabayabayaba. I spose nuthin' really happened in church. Went to my cousin's house after that, for her house-warming thang. Some strange Aunties and Uncles were there. Ladeeedumzie. Saw Clive[eh iz that how u spell his name?] Yijun and all. Had quite a lot of fun. To think the next tyme I'll see them is maybe.. in a year's time? SIgh. Trouble of studying abroad. Kay then i really dun hav much ta sae, cuz ive swooned all i wanted in my own diary. Heex.
Oh yeah and to all the slammers, dunno whatcha up to, just hope u get whatever u want after u do ur slamming.
Later.
Well im still gonna to my songs no matter what. Lyrix are somewhat dirty, but still a nice song, anyhow.
Twork it out-Usher
Ad Lib: Yo check this here
There's nothing that I'd rather do than spend this time with U, alright?
So why don't we just chill and make it cold cold sexy, U know
U sure lookin' right Spending some quality time
U make me wanna cha, cha, cha, cha, cha...
Yeah right there, jus' keep it right there...
And I know you're gonna like it
Ooh baby, U sure love to
You know what I'm sayin'
Nah, nah, nah ,nah, nah
V1:We been hanging out every day this week
How 'bout a nigga fix U something to eat
And just chill
We ain't gotta wild out just chill
Parlay littla momma right here
Sippin on chardonnay
Slip on that Vicky Secret lingerie
'Cause I ain't trying to throw my money away (in the streets)
If I could see U twork it out for me
C:Tworkin' it out
Layin in the cut
Kissing and rubbing and making sweet love
Damn the club tonight
Let's twork it out
just me on you
from 11 till 6 in the morning
I know you like it when I do you like that
Just twork it out
V2:Now that I got U all soakin' wet
I bet you know what's coming next
I'm gonna twork U out
Aw baby let me tell u how
What do you think about me
Tworking' U from front to your backend
Kick back and relax come sit up on my lap shorty
Tonight I'm taking U all the way
Won't stop until U scream my name
Chorus (x2)
Bridge: Morning is coming and I don't wanna let U go
Let's just lay here in this bed of red rose petals
I know that we're spent but
One kiss can make this start all over again
If U want it baby come with me
V3:It's way too treal
The way you're making me feel
The way you're tworkin' is oh so sexy
Ooh baby U sure love to ball
It's way too treal
The way you're making feel
The way U're tworkin' is oh so sexy
Ooh baby U sure love to ball
you get me high` 12:16 AM
Goodbye, Haagen Daaz. Welcome, cup noodles.
OOOOooooh. went out wiv jesso todae. Man, we did the funkiest and coolest stuff ard! check it out!
Okay, so firstly, i waited with hams and others for iain. =.= great. well thats why i had ta meet Jesso at Raffles Place. Well we were talkin and all. And then we saw this guy who looked damn a lot like Gareth. Well im not sure if it was him, cuz i vaguely noe how he looks like, but hey im not all that sure. Hmm then we arrived in town. Headed straight for Haagen Daaz, cause we both had eaten a bit. Well we ordered Chocolate Decedance. Uh. It looked good but it was a helluva toooooooo sweet. Couldnt take it, so we didnt finish. WHat a waste of cash. There're many things out there that are nicer and cheaper.
Okay then we went to Heeren. Apparently, yonglin saw me, but i guess i was more irritated wiv that strange guy who was on the verge of holding my hand and i was like WTF?! Well town was really quiet todae. creeps. Okay well we went to take neos. One irrelevant thought. What has happened to NY gurls? Izzit the long hair? Cause they're ALL fricking im-oh-so-chio now. Gawsh. Amazing. Well okay back to the point. We went to take the first neo. OOOOOOHh turned out prettie damn nice. So we wenta take another one. Whoa it was awesome! So in the end we took 3 sets of neos. ARRHHH we're mad. Mad mad mad.
Lala so when we were bout to go home, we were kinda hungry. Dropped by cheers at cine and did the craziest thing. We bought cup noodles. HAHA. Seemed like some kids who got chased outta their homes, cashless, so had to beg for cupnoodles. HAHAHAH. it's just hilarious. But we didnt have enuff time to sit there and eat, so we poured the hot water, placed the noodles in a plastic bag, with it's paper cover that secures it more, put our wallets on top of it so the hot air wont rush out, and made our way to the bus stop. HAHA ok i think we. are. mad. MAD. hahahahahaha. kaykay. done for now.
And one more prettie interesting fact i found out, was that my dear nicholas tan, is actually sorta 'stalked' by a sec 4 senior in my skool? Great. Just... so.... not despo. Lalala. weeelll if i were him, it'll be kinda freaky, and im sure he feels it. haha. good luck to him to go save the matter! kay then ciaozzies!
Songgeeeeeyyyy:
Crazy In Love-Beyonce
Intro - Jay Z]
Yes!
It's so crazy right now!
Most incredibly, it's ya girl, Bee,
It's ya boy, young.
[Intro - Beyonce:]
You ready?
Uh oh, uh oh, uh oh, oh no no
Uh oh, uh oh, uh oh, oh no no
Uh oh, uh oh, uh oh, oh no no
Uh oh, uh oh, uh oh, oh no no
[Intro - Jay Z]
Yea, history in the making,
Part 2, it's so crazy right now
[Verse 1 - Beyonce]
I look and stare so deep in your eyes,
I touch on you more and more every time,
When you leave I'm begging you not to go,
Call your name two or three times in a row,
Such a funny thing for me to try to explain,
How I'm feeling and my pride is the one to blame.
'Cuz I know I don't understand,
Just how your love your doing no one else can.
[Chorus - Beyonce]
Got me looking so crazy right now, your love's
Got me looking so crazy right now (in love)
Got me looking so crazy right now, your touch
Got me looking so crazy right now (your touch)
Got me hoping you'll page me right now, your kiss
Got me hoping you'll save me right now
Looking so crazy in love's,
Got me looking, got me looking so crazy in love.
Uh oh, uh oh, uh oh, oh no no
Uh oh, uh oh, uh oh, oh no no
Uh oh, uh oh, uh oh, oh no no
Uh oh, uh oh, uh oh, oh no no
[Verse 2 - Beyonce]
When I talk to my friends so quietly,
Who he think he is? Look at what you did to me,
Tennis shoes, don't even need to buy a new dress,
If you ain't there ain't nobody else to impress,
The way that you know what I thought I knew,
It's the beat my heart skips when I'm with you,
But I still don't understand,
Just how the love your doing no one else can.
[Chorus - Beyonce]
Got me looking so crazy right now, your love's
Got me looking so crazy right now (oh crazy)
Got me looking so crazy right now, your touch (you're in love)
Got me looking so crazy right now (love!)
Got me hoping you'll page me right now, your kiss (hey!)
Got me hoping you'll save me right now
Looking so crazy in love's, (hey)
Got me looking, got me looking so crazy in love.
I'm Looking so crazy in love's,
Got me looking, got me looking so crazy in love.
[Verse 3 - Jay Z (Beyonce)]
Check it, let's go
Young Hov y'all know when the flow is loco,
Young B and the R-O-C, uh oh, (oh)
Ol' G, big homie, the one and only,
Stick bony, but the pocket is fat like Tony, Soprano, (oh no)
The ROC handle like Van Axel,
I shake phoneys man, You can't get next to,
The genuine article I go I do not sing though,
I sling though, If anything I bling yo,
a star like Ringo, roll like ??
Crazy bring ya whole set,
Jay Z in the range, crazy and deranged,
They can't figure them out they like hey is he insane, (oh no)
Yes sir I'm cut from a different cloth,
My texture is the best fur, of chinchilla.
(Uh oh, uh oh, uh oh, oh no no)
Been dealing with chain smokers,
But how you think I got the name Hova?
(Uh oh, uh oh, uh oh, oh no no)
I been realer the game's over,
(Uh oh, uh oh, uh oh, oh no no)
Fall back young, ever since the label changed over
(Uh oh, uh oh, uh oh, oh no no)
to platinum the game's been wrap, One!
[Bridge - Beyonce]
Got me looking, so crazy, my baby
I'm not myself, lately I'm foolish, I don't do this,
I've been playing myself, baby I don't care
'Cuz your love's got the best of me,
And baby you're making a fool of me,
You got me sprung and I don't care who sees,
'Cuz baby you got me, you got me, so crazy baby
HEY!
[Chorus - Beyonce]
Got me looking so crazy right now, your love's (oh love)
Got me looking so crazy right now (lookin' crazy)
Got me looking so crazy right now, your touch
Got me looking so crazy right now
Got me hoping you'll page me right now, your kiss (baby)
Got me hoping you'll save me right now (baby)
Looking so crazy in love's, (whoa!)
Got me looking, got me looking so crazy in love. (whoa!)
Got me looking so crazy right now, your love's
Got me looking so crazy right now (your love)
Got me looking so crazy right now, your touch
Got me looking so crazy right now (your touch)
Got me hoping you'll page me right now, your kiss
Got me hoping you'll save me right now
Looking so crazy in love's,
Got me looking, got me looking so crazy in love.
ARRRRRRrrrrRrrrGGGGgggHHHHHHHHhhhh
ARGH!!!!!!!!!! im soooo anooyyeeedd. im gonna break down jst this frickin instance. i WAAANNNNNAA GOOOO DDAANNNCCEEEE~~~~~!!! AND WHHYY DIIDDNNNTT JUSSTTIIIISSS COMMMEEEE!!! WHHHHHHHHHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Fine. so we all have got a few disappointments in life. but lets just say, for an average fourteen year old, im facing too many. ok so to many, my life's like a whoa.. smooth sailing waterfall. oh my mum's so lenient in stuff. im practically saying crapshit larh. i mean. freak. yeah she MAY be slightly more lack than some other parents.. tho i personally may not feel so, but i dunt have any DARN space to BREATH.
Spore's education's like crap. Well, it's YOUR fault that u dont have no resources, but dont fucking stress your citizens out liddat! UGH. UGH. UGH.
AND SCREW THE FRICKING QUADRATIC GRAPHS. WHY DO WE NEEDA KNOW HOWTA DRAW CURVED LINES ANIWAE?!??!?!!?
Dilmmmmaaaaa
Sighz. So i feel kinda amused with myself. Kinda frustrated, and kinda upset. Mood swings are involved too, but most of it aint i spose.
My long earnest await comes into place when i realise that tmr's less than an hour away. i really try to pull myself outta of this situation, but it keeps comin back. sigh.
I dunt really hafta mood to rite. just wish me... good luck for tmr. =)
twins effect
oooh wow. look how long havent i blogged. sorrie ive been kinda restricted lately. busy, and sick. lala. well lets see how stuff went.
this morning had such a bad headache, i cried, n wanted to just take a knife and stab myself. thank God that it sorta cured after taking medication prescribed by my doc. mhmm. Well jesso needed to pass me something and she was in town, so hadta go gettit from her. WHEN my headache was over larh. ladeedum. den took neoprint. -grinssss- oh gawsh i think we're neo-freaks. =.=
then being the stupid us, we decided to watch twins effect. i think e thot of us watching it was kidna cheezy, but nevertheless, edison chen -nods- looks awesome as usual. just... irresistable. 'now he's irresistable, upclose and personal' okok anyway. he just looked... great. yeap.
then went to the docs again to check up once more, i have gastric flu. again. =.= annoying i must say. i just hope i'll be alive and jumpin to go for dance on sunday! =PpP
well, getting more on the personal side, i do believe im getting prettie mentally unstable. emotionally unstable. etc. im like going insane (well all knows that kelly's already mad but, yea) haha one eg, my mum was scolding me just now. but see im much taller than she is, and she was like under her room light. so she looked kinda.. luminous. i know it wasnt the most appropriate thing to do, actually, far frm appropriate. but i just burst out in laughter... HAHA. whooops. and i was laughing so hysterically last night at joke thang but i realise i didnt know what was the joke behind. just that the actions and the way of executing the joke was so hilarious. lalala so it's kinda obvious im going mad. and, really, i think jess is too. =PpP
Lala. playing for yz on sunday. hope all goes well and kate can play the bass! -grins-
well christina just released this song, and her mtv looks kinda... =X
Cant hold us down
So, what am I not supposed to have an opinion?
Should I keep quiet just because I'm a woman?
Call me a bitch cause I speak what's on my mind
Guess it's easier for you to swallow if I sat and smiled
When a female fires back suddenly big talker don't know how to act
So he does what any little boy would do
Makin' up a few false rumors or two
That for sure is not a man to me, slanderin' names for popularity
It's sad you only get your fame through controversy
But now it's time for me to come and give you more to say
Chorus:
This is for my girls all around the world
Who have come across a man that don't respect your worth
Thinkin' all women should be seen not heard
So what do we do girls, shout louder
Lettin 'em know we're gonna stand our ground
So lift your hands high and wave 'em proud
Take a deep breath and say it loud
Never can, never will
Can't hold us down
Nobody can hold us down
Nobody can hold us down
Nobody can hold us down
Never can never will...
So-What am I not supposed to say what I'm saying
Are you offended with the message I'm bringin'
Call me whatever 'cause your words don't mean a thing
Guess you ain't even a man enough to handle what I sing
If you look back in history it's a common double standard of society
The guy gets all the glory the more he can score
While the girl can do the same and yet you call her a whore
I don't understand why its OK,
The guy can get away with it the girl gets named
All my ladies come together and make it change
And start a new beginning for us, everybody sang
Chorus:
This is for my girls all around the world
Who have come across a man that don't respect your worth
Thinkin' all women should be seen not heard
So what do we do girls, shout louder
Lettin 'em know we're gonna stand our ground
So lift your hands high and wave 'em proud
Take a deep breath and say it loud
Never can, never will
Can't hold us down
Lil' Kim:
Now here's something I just can't understand
If the guy have three girls then he's the man
He can even give her some head, or sex her off
But if a girl do the same, she's a whore
But the tables about to turn
I bet my fame on it
cats take my ideas, and put they name on it
It's aight thow, you can't hold me down
I got to keep on moving
To my girls to their man who be trying to mac
Do it right back to him and let that be that
You need to let him know that his game is whack
And Lil' Kim and Christina Aguilera got Yo back
Your just a little boy
Think you're so cute, so coy
You must talk so big to make up for smaller things
You're just a little boy
All you do is annoy
You must talk so big to make up for smaller things
This is for my girls all around the world
Who have come across a man that don't respect your worth
Thinkin' all women should be seen not heard
So what do we do girls, shout louder
Lettin 'em know we're gonna stand our ground
So lift your hands high and wave 'em proud
Take a deep breath and say it loud
Never can, never will
Can't hold us down
beauuttiiiffull
sorry this' just a beautiful song. in case some dont gettit. it's a lil boy who lost his dad, but mite be finding him back. so sweeeet.
Oklahoma-Billy Gilman
Suitcase packed with all his things
Car pulls up, the doorbell rings
He don't wanna go
He thought he'd found his home
But with circumstances he can't change
Waves goodbye as they pull away
From the life he's known
For the last seven months or so
She said:
[CHORUS]
We found a man who looks like you
Who cried and said he never knew
About the boy in pictures that we showed him
A rambler in his younger days
He knew he made a few mistakes
But he swore he would have been there
Had he known it
Son, we think we found your dad in Oklahoma
A million thoughts race through his mind
What's his name? What's he like?
And will he be
Anything like the man in his dreams?
She could see the questions in his eyes
Whispered:
Don't be scared my child,
I will let you know what we know about
[CHORUS]
The man we found, he looks like you
Who cried and said he never knew
About the boy in pictures that we showed him
A rambler in his younger days
He knew he made a few mistakes
But he swore he would have been there
Had he known it
You always said this was something that you wanted
Son it's time to meet your dad in Oklahoma
One last turn he held his breath
Till they reached the fifth house on the left
And all at once
The tears came rollin' in
And as they pulled in to the drive
The man was waiting there outside
Wiped the worry from his eyes
Smiled and took his hand
And he said:
[CHORUS]
I'm the man who looks like you
Who cried because I never knew
About the boy in pictures that they showed me
A rambler in my younger days
I know I made a few mistakes
But I swear I would have been there
Had I known it
Never again will you ever be alone
Son, welcome to your home
In Oklahoma
heh another one. =))))))))) schweeet.
'Til i can make it on my own-Billy Gilman
I'll need time to get you off my mind
I may sometimes bother you, try to be in touch with you
Even ask too much of you, from time to time
Now and then, Lord, you know I'll need a friend
'Till I get used to losing you, let me keep on using you,
'Til I can make it on my own
I'll get by, but no matter how I try
There'll be times that you'll know I'll call
Chances are my tears will fall
And I'll have no pride at all, from time to time
But they say, oh, there'll be a brighter day
But 'Til then I lean on you, that's all I mean to do,
'Til I can make it on my own
Surely someday I'll look up and see the morning sun
Without another lonely night behind me
Then I'll know I'm over you and all my cryin's done
No more hurtin' memories can find me
But 'til then, Lord, you know I'm gonna need a friend
'Til I get used to losing you, let me keep on using you
'Til I can make it on my own.
'Til I can make it on my own.
Swim/Meet/Chat
okay i dunno what's up with the title. but hey. its just what im gonna do when i see nick later! for swimming finals... GRINS! well i cant believe i had to take down our neoprint cuz some RI guys were spreading stuff ard. i mean. HELOO?! if u cant make good gurl friends, dont make fun of someone who can. besides. he's just a great buddy of mine. ladeedum.
met adler's friend todae. no, i mean not met. but got to know. Jeff i think. actually, thru ching, not adler. mostly ching. gawsh im not speakin sense. bah. AND being my mum, i didnt getta wish him a gd trip lalalala cuz she chased me off the com. =.= ahh well. i guess it dussen matter. oh he's going to canada todae. actually, he's on the plane already. lucky dude. I WANNA GO. but well i figure i'll miss so many things here, other than the studies of course:
- my broooo. wait. he's going to peru. SHEESH.
- my mum who's always been there for me, but always chasing me to sleep and nv letting me write in my diary.
- kattiieeee darrrllllleeeennk. did i tell ya, when i saw ty the other day, he asked me where u were? -grins-
- nickkkkkkkkk darrrlllllleeeennnkkkk. AH. my one-helluva-smart-genius-zai-swimmmer-ri friend.
- my deeaarrr cuziinnnn who takes time to tutor me.
- drucey mikey joshhhhh. my forever fun loving buncha friends.
- beeeeejjaaaaaayyyyyyy!!!
- justis? heh
kay larh. im starting to talk crap. kinda worried cuz nicole had really bad gastrics just now, almost collapsed. and im damn worried. worried sick. kay larh. having com stardees now. betta get going. ciaozzies.
Drop in the Ocean- Michelle Branch
Love took me by the hand
Love took me by surprise
Love led me to you
And love opened up my eyes
And I was drifting away
Like a drop in the ocean
Now I realize
That nothing has been as beautiful
As when I saw Heaven's skies
In your eyes
In your eyes
And everytime I drift away
I lose myself in you
And now I see that I can be me
In everything I do
'Cause I was feeling as small
As a drop in the ocean
And now I realize
That nothing has been as beautiful
As when I saw Heaven's skies
In your eyes
In your eyes
Love took me by the hand
Love took me by surprise
And I was drifting away
Like a drop in the ocean
And now I realize
That nothing has been as beautiful
As when I saw Heaven's skies
In your eyes
In your eyes
In your eyes
In your eyes
crapshit
okay u guys wanna know what's been up wiv me? im feeling like crap. down almost all the time, and as usual, feeling -sick.
dance todae was kinda.. fun.. larh. haha jess and i enjoyed it.. AFTER we got home. =P but it's was a perttie damn physical one. guy-gurl partner dance. I got justis, jess got nick(no not my ri friend), and grace got de.....oh no. i dun rmb his name. HEHE. justis' probably one of the best dancer in rob's class loh. heh. kinda fortunate in that sense. but you know, when i got home, stuff got worse. jess'll know whadda mean. haish. ladeedum. Had really great fun at dance tho. -gwins- justttiiisssssssss. hahahaha. lalalala.
hmm. i miss zhenghao. for reasons. hahaaha. urm. yeah.
well my "special someone" seemed to have proved me wrong, in the sense that i should treat him anything more than a someone. ha. maybe im wrong larh ya. i hope i am. but oh gosh tell me im wrong.
Uh. going out wiv my senior, ching, n God knows who tmr. Hope it doesnt work out. hee.
Kiss me at midnight
Ohh yeah
Yeah
Kiss me at midnight
5, 4, 3, 2, 1
Chorus:
Kiss me at midnight
Dance into the morning light
Party into the New Year
All of my friends are here and when the timing's right
Kiss me at midnight
Kiss
I've been waiting for this special night
To be with you
The colors of Christmas are still shining bright
And I know what we're gonna do
Anticipatin'
Music is playin
The magic is in the air
All through the season
You've been the reason
I have so much love to share
Chorus
Kiss
Kiss me at midnight
Kiss
We've been makin' promises in the dark
Our resolutions
As a brand New Year is about to start
We're together
Celebratin'
No more waiting
Our time has arrived
Feel the beat of my heart (Beat of my heart)
As the countdown starts (Countdown starts)
Just look into my eyes
Chorus
Baby it's New Year's Eve
A time we can believe
In makin' wishes
Dreams come true
Just for me and you
Ladeedum
Hm. went out with jesso as usual. kinda last minute. but as usual, we were prettie damn hyppperrrrr!! hehheh.
Okay. now im feeling so upset im gonna cry le. as in. CRY. even when the issue dussen concern me.... AHHHHH!!!!!!! -sObS!!!!!-
kay i really cant type anymore.
confused
well. nothing much. just yet another tiring day at school, with my mind filled of that stupid someone.
well um got a lecture from jimmy kok. im like... wtf? dun listen to ur instructions then dont listen lar~! why make such a beeg fuss? youre just a smelly old bouncy guy (with the contradiction to "jimmy kok's the sexiest man alive!"). i mean. ure just my skool aesthetics music teach. hello!? and hey, u may noe more music than me, but after ur great...urm...over powering sentence that "everything in life's bout a race", i figure u gottit all wrong dude. all. wrong. im sorry but the thing u specialise in is one of the most relaxing thing on earth-music. well if ure like a....math teacher. (screw math) i figure i'l understand why u'll say sumthing liddat. but ure a dammit MUSIC teach. one who sits in front of the lovely piano each day, composing all sorts of different songs. now thats one job that i would want.
yeayea i know the logic of music makes one go mad. without mood swings, u'll play music logically, which i figure just isnt right. but those typa comments, should just be thrown to the bin. BIN YOU GO.
hm recap of yesterday.spose to meet jess, but wenta play squash (sorrie jessssoooooooo) with jq......weiting.....tristan....and sean. bah. i dunno sean. but i dun terribly like him. neither dus jess. ladeedum. but im sorta addicted to squash now. jesso, wanna play on saturday? hehehe. THEN mebbe we can chillll out. jesssooo... im -sick. -cries- lala
had remarkeably scrumptious dinner todae. super duper yummy. i mean. im full! and i ate chinese stuff! HA! that just didnt fit in. kay.
sigh im feeling so stressed now. cuz of everything. i feel like just.. i dnuno. killin' muhself. at least, i wunt hafta be bothered by...academic results....stress....cca. lala. someone shoot me. well at least i still have dance to look forward to. life cant get worse. katieeeeee. i need all muh friends to be so kind. and i figure they have been...extremely... whadda hell is kind. okay. im like s.c.r.e.w.e.d p.i.g
jq said the best way to kill my boredom is to get a bf. im like. oh sure. oh sure. like anyone will fall for me. =.= gawsh. =.=
FOr the longest time
if you'd say goodbye to me tonight
there would still be music left to write
what else could I do
I'm so inspired by you
that hasn't happened for the longest time
Once I thought my innocence was gone
now I know that happiness goes on
that's where you found me
when you put your arms around me
That hasn't happened for the longest time
for the longest time
for the longest time
I'm that voice your hearing in the hall
and the greatest miracle of all
is how I need you
and how you needed me too
that hasn't happened for the longest time
maybe this won't last very long
but you feel so right
and I could be wrong
maybe I've been hoping too hard
I've gone this far
and it's more than I hoped for
Who knows how much further we'll go on
maybe I'll be sorry when your gone
I'll take my chances
I forgot how nice romance is
I haven't been there for the longest time
I had second thoughts at the start
I said to myself
hold on to your heart
now I know the woman that you are
you're wonderful so far
and it's more than I hoped for
I don't care what concequence it brings
I have been a fool for lesser things
I want you so bad
I think you oughta know that
I intend to hold you for the longest time
for the longest time.
Failuratic Me
WHy. All i wanted to was to see that him for that shortttt while. and afterwhich, everyone seems to b in a bad mood. im sorrie! but im just human! I wanna see who i wanna see! Dont get upset with me.
Well im sorry I was self-centered just now but i just wanted to take a look at stuff i wanna seeeeee! Ugh. sometimes when im selfish. i get stuff that pple dont normally get.
why, to that spesh sum1, why ure spesh to me? im not very sure. Maybe i just see something different in you. something...... i really like.
old smokey
well old smokey was spose to be "on top of old smookkkeeeyyyy". meaning i was really happy! BUT. just realise.
I CANT GOOO FOOOR SHAUNOOOOOOOOO'S FINALLLLSSSS!!
AHHHHHHHH SCREWWWWWWW IT! haish okay. must chill must chill -ice-. yupzie. urm was really happy two seconds ago. (CANNTT GOO FOOOORR THEE FIININAAALLLLSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
well start of the day, was spose to go play squash with jq weiting jess and tristan. great. all theguys backed out in the end. but u noe, who cares! jess and i had a hell of a time. super duper farnie. and cuz both of us were kinda upset in sum way or anotha, just vent it on the ball, just vent it. oh we were playing squash with squash rackets but tennis ball. yabadaba. so well. it was real fun. so we were tired and hungry, went to marché. had shirley temple, and guess what, the person serving us was called shirley. we laffed till almost cried. realise jess and i are laffy daffy pple. =)))) shirley was laffing too. kay then order pizza. 5 toppings right, ham pineapple cheeze cheeze cheeze. wooooo yeahhhhh. beautiful. shirley temple's mocktail ya. and it's just whooooaaaaaa yeahhhh baby. hehehe. youth day did turn out prettie good.
den went to kates crib for dinner yestaday, with my mum. auntie swee kheng cooked steak. yum yum. with french recipe potatoes and all. and there was... urm...green pepper sause for the steak. luuussshhhh. only thing is that i hate my meat to be rare, while urm my steak was practically bleeding, had such a hard time eating it but didnt wanna tell auntie sk and pastor g cuz it'll be damn paiseh. =p hey furst time im using this word. ANYWAY. (ugh im still feeilng so damn cheated) After a scruptious dinner, went to kates room to chill out for awhile (note we all meant and said AWHILE. who knows.) well her room's nicer and all cuz she just moved. hahaha but we were doing the lamest stuff ard. talking bout bastarrddds who stare at us and gif us the sheepish/grinny/cheeky/playboy shit/perverted look. and how we just wanted to take a knife and stab them. S.T.A.B. (or mebbe dig out their eyeballs with a small teaspoon. just dig ittt outttttt). sheesh. well then talked bout our crushes thang, you know who and stuff... oh was msging paul too. jokeeerrrrr
so, being her bezzie, got to read her immature/funny/super super hilarious diary. man, was it amusing. I never knew she kept a diary, really. times when she was in wales lala. she was realllyyyy childish. we were practically laffing our heads off. even the furst entry when she came back. WAHAHAHAHAHA. entry of the year man. reaalllyy reallllyyyy hilariousssss. kay then, after..lets see...an hour and a half? heh. we were called out, had to go. sigh. So went to pick up my fone, left it at my aunts place. screewwww me?
it's always a delight spending quality time with my bezzzzie. friendship strengthens, crappiness strengthens, and jokes are multiplied. and its so cool kate, that we barely barely have our fites. mebbe very rare displeases. but hey. wee rawwwwkkk.
hmmmm the sec ones in church are really really into druce..and what's his name.. rayner? honestly juicey, joshhh, mikk, katieee, and i, are like what, childhood friends? known kate since just bout forever. and those 3 guys too. then recently, ryan and paulae came. chums forever man. heh. and being their IRRITATING immature self when they were younger, it's hard to imagine that druce turns out to be sum gurl-magnet as said. coooool yeah.
well had badminton as furst block todae (im having com studies now btw). hams' seniors were being so damn irritating. kept rolling their squinty lil eyes and us, screw up. maybe im not a badminton player, but hey, tennis' the same. just that the shuttle flies further. sheesh. if they made it a tad more obvious, i would have thrown my damn racket on their faces. and ask them to BUG OFF. too bad wasnt having temprements. lalala. den had chinese. -cwies- didnt do very well for my kao cha, but aiyah nvm lar. oh did quite well for my auto biography. *grins* hehe. kaykay. i havent even opened my iShell programme used for com studies, even tho half the lesson's over. AND my teacher looks just like tat xian. just in a stranger way. jess! hahahaha.
later.
Wordly Distractions
Dear Lord Jesus, please help me to stay alert and not be tempted by wordly distractions. please let all go well for me, concerning my studies, character-building, and managing my sin. Also, help me manage my feelings.
HAHA. okay urm cheeezzyy. hmmm. had dance todae. quite lush i feel, lionel came (after God knows hooowww lonnnggg). I still feel he dances well. lala. floor moves were hard. HARD. bah. hmm. aniwae, Jess told me what grace and lionel said bout her. Maybe grace had more right to, but lionel wasnt in no position. But i wunt exactly say anithing of them were at fault lar.
Oh had service todae, backed caiyue up. HEHE. damn farnieeeeee. Sometimes super off pitched. =P oh and i saw rayner(izzit how u spell this?), EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.
yup thats all im gonna say for now.
save me frm the nothing ive becum
I hate studying. I tried so hard to like it, enjoy the moment of new knowledge seeping thru my dense brain. But ha, guess what, i failed. I failed. My life, the sound of that just tingled in my brain. Okay so maybe Im wasnt born to study, as hard as those in my school, maybe Im on earth to do something better, to do something for mankind. Do good. Oh kelly shut up. At least much that i hate studying, i have been doing a great deal recently, and im proud of it. I'll keep working as hard, for as long as it takes cause i need to do well. For RP and my friggin classmates who probably think "oh kelly, bad influence, dont hang out with her". I'll prove to them that whatever the case, I'll study but still keep my life. Screw those who dont believe in me. SCrew them.
Ahh well, there'll always be the ups and the downs of ones life. Today happened to be enjoyable. Went out with jesso. Yeah so i spent more than 50 bucks. but hey, i needa have the time in which i can chill, not take anything as a problem. Spent on food, drinks, more drinks, arcade, table hockey. Eh jess, we didnt play the water surfin thing. haha. Bought earrings in case all four of my holes close, lalala. Had quite a lot of fun.
But then again, enjoyment (and misery) doesnt last forever. WE ended our day feelin' --sick. i figure only jess'll understand whadda I mean. I want.
Well then, poor jesso had to make trips up and down, frm town to home to town to home. HAHA. it was helluva funny, but i guess not for her. Hee.
I love it. I love the feeling of chillin' in town (tho spore's town is like CRAP), lovei t when i see friends along the way and like acknowledge lalala. Jess and kate(and mebbe one bunch of seniors) are the only gurls i can out with, i realise. Somehow, going out with guys can be more fun. Yeah go on, spread this ard. I. dont. care. Well, esp with that special someone. Oh and there were like so many damn people making out in town, jess and i had such a fun time laffing at their.... actions. *oink*
Yup, I figure no matter how screwed up my life is, I always have my friends (no not all i presume) to lean back on, to give me enjoyment, and lastly, hear my depression. Heh. Yeap so thank you all, each and everyone of u, for everything youve given me for how long uve known me. Thanks.
i think im gonna have 2 chinese songs..they are just...just...too beautiful.
Songgeeyyy:
Never EVer- All Saints
A few questions that I need to know
How you could ever hurt me so
I need to know what I've done wrong
And how long it's been going on
Was it that i never paid enough attention
Or did I not give enough affection
Not only will your answers keep me sane
But I'll know never to make the same mistake again
You can tell me to my face
Or even on the phone,
You can write it in a letter
Either way I have to know
Did I never treat you right
Did I always start the fight
Either way I'm going out of my mind
All the answers to my questions I have to find
My head's spinnin'
Boy I'm in a daze
I feel isolated
Don't wanna communicate
I take a shower
I will scour
I will run
To find peace of mind
The happy mind
I once owned, yeah
Flexing vocabulary runs right through me
The alphabet runs right from A to Z
Conversations, hesitations in my mind
You got my conscience asking questions that I can't find
I'm not crazy
I'm sure I ain't done nothing wrong, no
I'm just waiting,
cuz I heard that this feeling would last this long
Chorus
Never ever have I ever felt so low
When you gonna take me out of this black hole
Never ever have I ever felt so sad
The way I'm feeling yeah you got me feeling really bad
Never ever have I had to find
I've had to dig away to find my own peace of mind
I've never ever had my conscience to fight
The way I'm feeling yeah it just don't feel right
I'll keep searching
Deep within my soul
For all the answers
Don't wanna hurt no more
I need peace gotta feel at ease
Need to be
Free from pain
Going insane
My heart aches yeah
Sometimes vocabulary runs through my head
The alphabet runs right from A to Zed
Conversations, hesitations in my mind
You got my conscience asking questions that I can't find
I'm not crazy
I'm sure I ain't done, nothing wrong
Now I'm just awaiting,
cuz I heard that this feeling won't last that long
chorus x3
You can tell me to my face
or even on the phone
Ooh you can write it in a letter babe
Cuz I really need to know
You can write it in a letter babe
You can write it in a letter babe
(fade)
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okay urm. this' gonna be hard.
Tian Gao Di Hou- Xin Yue Tuan
NI lei le mei you, ke fo shen chu shuang shou
Xiang yong bao, zhen neng wo zhe quan tou
Wo me hai you hen duo meng mei zuo
Hai you hen duo ming tian yao zou
Yao rang shi jie ting jian wo men de ge.
Zhun bei hao mei you, shi jian bu zai hui tou
Xiang yao fei, bu bi ren he li you
Bu guan shi jie bian de duo ji mo
Ni de shen bian yi ding you wo
Wo men shuo guo bu guan tian gao di hou
Xiang fei dao na zui gao zui yuan zui sa tuo
Xiang yong bao zai zui mei li de na yi ke
Xiang kan jian pei wo dao zui hou shui shi peng you
Ni shi wo zui qi dai de na yi ge.
Ke yi2 yi2 qi chuang huo yi qi chen mo yi qi zou
Ke yi yi qi fei xiang
Yi qi lun luo
Bu guan tian gao di hou pei zhe wo
Pei wo yi qi da sheng kuang rang.
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just one mooreee....
Li Ge-SHIN
Yi kai shi wo zhi xiang xin
Wei da de shi gan qing
Zui hou wo wu li de kan qing
Qiang han de shi ming yun.
Ni hai shi xuan zhe hui qu
Ta qi tong ni de xin
Dan ni bu ken jue xin
Ni shuo ai ben jiu shi meng jing
Ken ni jie de xin fu
Wo zhe neng huan ni.
Xiang liu bu neng liu cai zui ji mo
Mei shuo wan wen rou zhi sheng li ge
Xin sui mei yi miao
Yong li de xiang yong zhe chen mo
Yong xin tiao song ni
Xin suan li ge.
Yuan lai ai shi zhong ren xin
Bu kai tai duo kao lu
Ai mei you cong bu cong ming
Zhi you yuan bu yuan yi
cheer up shaunooooo
okay i know shauno wunt read this. bt haiyah my dearie, pls cheeerr uppp. seeing u so down, jess n i feel damn upset too. mebbe more than u think. sigh. how i wish ur folks understood u more. gaf u more space to grow. besides, u're only fourteen, things......change. haish. kay kay betta get going.... byeeee.
missing-in-action
wow whee. look at how long i havent blogged. too busy, sick too, lala. been having bad headaches day in and out. sucks beeg time.
one consolation is that i got the shin cd cuz ive been working real hard. =)))) so happie. and man the songs are lush. otha than sum weird upbeat tempo stuff. the ballads just blew everyone away (righhhtttt jess?). yeahyeah i know it's a chinese cd and all. bla bla. but hey, it's good.
one thing i noticed bout chinese songs. no im not a c-pop fan, only english stuff. but like in english songs, the words can go as deep as christina aguilera's, and as shallow as tatu. but in chinese songs, to be quite honest, the words they use are cliche. real cliche. but sumhow, no matter how cliche they are, the "atmosphere" that the songs create, if they are ballads(loveeeyyy dovveeeyy stuff), it's realllly schweet. simple, stupid, but all the lyrix together, makes it real schweet. well well. they do have a way abt dont they?
okay, mebbe i'll getta go out wiv jess tmr, if im feeling betta. n mebbe jq will cum too. and mebbe his friends will cum too. (!!!) see how larh jess. other than u, ykw i want along too. ;)
you get me high` 12:30 AM
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