all that jazz'

Friday, October 31

netball carn todae. halloween too.

okay lets start on netball. kay i didnt play. did the cheer, which i thought was quite -.- but nvm la. ooooh. then bask in the sun for like what. 730-3? 8 hours? gawsh. i look like a lobsta now. how cool is that. and i stupidly didnt put sun block. cause i didnt think this might happen to me. ohhhh welll. seafood's nice i guess. so no harm being no lobster. =) hmm. i wont talk abt the stuff with jess. stil a lil annoyed.

welll for dance after all the commotion. yeah i know. i look like a lobster. looks as tho im glowing. and rob had sucha great time laffing. aniwaes. did jazz walk. oh yeah. this rg teacher. um.. judie koh or goodness knows who. was in the same class. -.- greeeeatt. well aniwae. jazz walks. cooool. i finally getta do two spins. yeahhhh! um. then sorta learnt that thing where u run run run run then u jump and do a split. cant do it properly tho. next week's high kicks etc. and uh. i cant rmb what else. mm.

ahhhh. now my shoulders hurt. seeeee. thats what burns do to you. -.- ciaoz

you get me high`
6:38 AM

Monday, October 27

+pics updated

ahh. havent had the mood to blog. so i guess i'll blog now.

hmmmmm. okay went to kates house to stay over some time back. hmm. on that day. we went to support her dad, playing footy for ORA (old rafflesian assos.) against OVA (old victorian assos.) tied in the end. hrmf. shauno came down cause he was bored. -.- well TIED LAR! victorians didnt win!! =PpP hmmm yeah. then we had dinner at toh yi hawker. went back. watched tv, took pix, then stayed up quite late fiddling ard wiv them. haha. kay. next morning. wkoe up at 9++. -.- soooo earllyyy. -.- went to do wha? soccer wiv kate. -.- zaaiii. well it was fun, but tiring. then after that i hadda go. didnt do much after that.

mmmmm. then we met for dinner again at traders hotel with my bro. ooooh. cool food. the fruits were just absolutely lush. okok then he fetched us home.

next day.... went to her house again. to make konnyaku wiv han and yiling. a tad hard but yeah it was quite nice. =) silly girl. bought strawberry essence, but bought lychee. -.- dumdum.

sunday. went to city harvest with cy. yayyyyyy cheered me up so muchhh!! tho i must say. its kinda brainwashing, the pple there a tad TOO friendly, but i still think it's better than tw. i mean. there. pple are so slackkk. not praising God or anithing. oh wellllssssssss. then after that met jess for tennis. haha play until damn sian, so we went to the gym. shiat. now my shoulder blades hurt like CRAP. dang i kinda hafta zao. kk. ciaozies.

song first. =)))))

Hello Friend-S Club 7

Hello friend,
I know you're smiling but believe it,
Don't have to pretend.
I know at times it seems your broken heart
Might never mend,
Hello friend.

Hello girl,
I had lost my faith in human kind,
Until your call.
It's nice to know you've been there for me
Through it all,
Hello girl.

Hello friend.

Ain't it strange, the things you'll go through,
Till you finally realise (You will realise),
That the things you need the most are always
Right before your eyes (Before your eyes).
And the truth is always something
You would never know is true.
I guess I can't deny it, no you can't deny it.
I really need you.

Hello friend,
I never had the chance to say,
How much I really miss,
The things I'm finding harder now, I can't resist.
Hello friend.

Hello girl, Things were better from the day
You came into my life.
And everything I need to know is in your eyes,
Hello girl.

And hello friend.

And the truth is always something
You would never know is true.
I guess I can't deny it, no you can't deny it.
I really need you.

Hello friend
Hello friend
Hello friend

I guess I can't deny it, no you can't deny it.
I really need you.
Hello friend.

you get me high`
2:17 AM

Friday, October 24

Let us be one voice
To glorify Your name
Let us be one voice
Declaring that you reign
Let us be one voice
With love and harmony
And we pray oh God
Grant us unity

you get me high`
9:03 PM

Wednesday, October 22

fuck all results. fuck them ALL. argh. excuse my french for this entry.

whats up man. what is fucking up. sci and hist and english. i probably had the most confidence. english. im SPOSE to get a fucking a1. what did i get?! b4. great huh?! just! great! sci n hist? fucked up marks too. instead, my lit was the highest. pple can sit there and complain abt how horrible their overall is but u know why they're complaning? ONE MARK AWAY FROM A1 ARH! FUCK LARH! LIDDAT OSO WANNA COMPLAIN! while the pathetic me cant get no bloody 60. O levels, here i come! AH FUCK.

crying festival's over for me. its been awhile since ive experienced it. cried till no more tears came out. not as tho crying could change anithing right now. i just suck soooo bad. there aint no fucking facts in my brain. it's all fucking dense. fucked up life. ah. i hate my fucking selffff!!!!! i feel so crude but i fucking dont care!! whats up with all the vulgarities aniwae? it's just f-u-c-k. a four letter word. u dont haveta think it means anithing. more like. damn. kinda thang. ahhhhhh fuckkkk!!

whats the big deal about rp aniwae? ah fuck dont kid urself kel, u want it soooooo fucking bad. u actually mugged like helll for this exam. but hey guess what! IT DIDNT FUCKING HELP! who fucking cares abt HIM aniwae! bastard! fuck i know i did once. but hey pple learn their mistakes. fucking pple arent meant to be cared for. so fuck off bastard. fuck! off! u've hurt me once, and once again. im not gonna stand here and wait till i just fucking break down. whats all this crap about liking pple aniwae? nothing gets any where! i know excellent example. or is it a trend of having a fucking bf for one week, break up, and find another fucking one, and the cycle goes on.

fuck fine. so gonna burst out in tears again. but who cares innit? maybe only my fucking pillow will.

you get me high`
6:00 AM

Monday, October 20

sigh. results tmr. im gonna flunk it. everyone knows im freaked out to the max. and i know when i do badly, i'll be really upset. and afterwhich, i'll just sit in a corner and cry or something. since mum's not home, and my bro's always busy. im left to be all. alone.

sigh sigh. sometimes i wish that when im gonig thru times liddat, there's someone there to hold me in his arms and tell me everything's gonna be alright. but i guess thats just a day dream. probably wont come true ani time soon. ah well. what AM i expecting anyway?

okay then. im gonna haveta go to bed now. wish me all the best! -shivers-

you get me high`
8:49 AM

Sunday, October 19

+new pix added! deleted 3 of the old ones.

okaaay. i promised i'll say something 2 that bastard-him..

okay. i nv tried very hard to forget u, i nv will, really.
those memories we had now all seem so far away.
i also nv tried to not think of u.
i wanna learn to be strong.
strong till i dont havta force myself to not think of you.
i'll have to force myself to forget u instead.
altho im afraid that when there's no one ard me, i'll think of u.
and that i may accidentally here of ur news.
but i guess when my luv for u slowly fades,
when everything i had is all slipping away,
i just gotta bravely let it go.
yeah im still afraid that when im lonely, i'll think of u.
and sometimes i may regret forgetting you
but when i remember that after love always comes hurt,
i will remain strong, and keep pushin' on.

yeah, thats how it's gonna be.

you get me high`
8:10 AM

Saturday, October 18

ahhh. todae. went to meet ling at jec. went skatttinnnngggg. skate until can die le. cold like anithing. tsk. then our great yonglian was soooooo late. then carry skateboard ard. o.O anithing larh. skated for a very, very short while. =\ stupid.

then after that we took a cab to town. SO BLOODY EX. -.- well. then met glor. had BK. yonglian was just stoning there. he's in CO kay! can u believe it! =\ oh welllllss. then he went to skate at skatepark. glor ling and i went to take neos. took 2 types ov 'em. one's the one on e 5th level, the other's the 8beam. =\ quite nice i must say. hehe.

dum dum. what else. aiyah i cant rmb larh. im so tired. im just gonna go sleep. maybe say some other stuff tmr.

ive got something to sae to him too. but i'll do that tmr.

you get me high`
7:01 AM

Tuesday, October 14

im so ANNOYED! my goodness. he's so irritatinggggg!!!! u know stacie orrico's "i hate you, but i luv u, i cant stop thinkin of u. it's true, im stuck on you!" ARGH! i hate u!!! but i know i luv u!!! UGHHHH!!

bloody hell. just dont reply me. happily create misery for me. UGH. nOT IN THE MOOD TO TALK ABT HIM!

I HATE HIMM ARHXXXXX

you get me high`
10:29 PM

ooh. havent blogged in ages.had so much fun today!! went out with jesso shauno and john(o?) ahhh welllss. everyone was late! i mean. shaun and john. jess and i were so punctual kay. hrmf. make the girls wait. and they cldnt pay for lunch as punishment as they were broke stiff. greeeat.

tadada. then we went to seoul garden. cause it wasnt lunch. it was roughly what. 25 bucks per person? four pple. $92++. sucha ripoff! we should always go there for lunch. AHHHH WE DIDNT GET OUR JOBBSSS! o.O sooo saddddd. bloody seoul garden. blooooddyyyyyyy. ahh welll. so we went to mos burger. our usual crappy self. john was soooo quiet! just laffing at about everything, but barely saying anything. tadaaaaa. shauno was so friendly todae. so strange. AND HE FORGOT TO BRING HIS CAMERA!!! o.O shaunooooooooo..!! i wanted to post up stupid pictures of us, but he forgot! grrrr. nvm. next time. o.O then we went to ps. punctuality again. =X welll the movie was fine larh, a bit boring, but quite funny. john again.. was all stoned. o.O while shaun on the other hand was probably laughing his guts out. wahhahaa. so weird huh. hardly see shaun liddat.

ahh well. on the way home, when jess left. i was left in that freezing cold bus, sitting next to the window. i guess thinking of him too. sighhhh. everything just flashes back at me. all the memories (not as tho we had many, anyway), and everything. BANG. hits me in the head. shauno described this feeling to me b4. i guess im feeling it now. sighhh.

oh welllllsss. i kinda gotta run off now. =) pple ENJOY ur holidays. before u get back ur results!!

songggggg songggg songgggg:

Evanescence-Hello

Playground school bell rings, again
Rainclouds come to play, again
Has no one told you she's not breathing ?
Hello, I am your mind, giving you someone to talk to
Hello

If I smile and don't believe
Soon I know I'll wake from this dream
Don't try to fix me
I'm not broken
Hello, I'm the lie living for you so you can hide
Don't cry

Suddenly I know I'm not sleeping
Hello, I'm still here, all that's left
Of yesterday...

you get me high`
8:30 AM

Saturday, October 11

ahhhh darn. had asthma attack yesterday. during dinner. crap. =X booooooo. wellllll. couldnt go for first aid todae.. o.O booooo. aniwaessssss.
EXAMS ARE OVER!!!!! mmhmm. feels just like paradise. but theres the aftermath. o.O oh wells. went out yesterday. saw..... quite a bit pple. mabels gang. i actually saw ernie. o.O SO WERID! he looks so different. boarder. sigh. all the boarders are roaming town. lala. oh welllllllsssss.

why dont i have the mood to blog. so strange. anyway im hungry, better go grab a bite. cyaz.

you get me high`
5:25 AM

Thursday, October 9

skipededoodahhhhh!!

yayyyyy!! one more final final day to that bloody eoy!!! =))))))))))) cant waiiitttt!! gonna go out wiv jesso tmr!!!!!! then can go for jazzz!!!!!! then can go for funk tooo!!!!!!!!!! both funks if possibleeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!! -screeeeeeammmsssssss- maybe both jazzes tooooooo!!! AHHHHHHH!!! SO HAPPYE!

now its all bout my results. i really hope i'll be able to get into rp. dum dee dee dum.

i miss himmmm.. hope i'll like bump into him in town or something, and lets hope im looking alright. ahhhhh!!! wonder who i'll be with, wonder who he'll be with.

ahhh better go mug now. LAST DAY! ALL THE WAY! and im started to rhyme. -grumbles-

you get me high`
5:26 AM

Wednesday, October 8

im so bloody screwed. SCREWED.

exams.
english: compo was fine, compre was prettie easy.
math: dont even talk to me bout this. it's like SHIT. SHIAT. SHITE. SHIT
history: relatively quite manageable. quite happie with this one.
geog: my goodness.. anotha SHIAT shit.
chinese: compo. okaaaaaay larh. im dreading paper two.

basically i think im gonna fail my overall. cause of my math. oh pple please praayyyy for meeee. i need loads of help. mentally and spiritually. Lord helpppppppp meeeeeeee. ugh. lit's tmr. that one oso quite screwed up. cause i didnt exactly complete the book. and i read verrryyy slowlllyyy. so basically i didnt exactly read tot he part where tom rob died. -.- dang. how. Lord helppp meeeee. im praying so hard everyday. hoping i'l do well. sigh. i'll hafta leave it to Him i guess. chinese and science on friday. chinese. -.- help. science shouldnt be ALL THAT bad larh. and after that. gonna go wild for one week. then gotta face my terrible music. see an irony how music's my life and ive gotta face terrible music. wahaha. lit. irony. -.- help.

PREJUDICE AND DRISCRIMINATION!!! =X

wish me luckkkkkk. =X

sigh. better run. song for myself. =) so nice. =)

To Be Loved-Westlife

Verse 1
The song of a little bird
The joy in three little words
I know it's real, that's how it feels
To be loved by you
The stars from a midnight sky,
The melody from a lullaby
There's nothing real, that I wouldn't steal
To be loved by you

To be loved by you
If everybody knows, it's only 'cause it shows

Verse 2
A smile to put you on a high,
A kiss that sets your soul alight
Would it be all right if I spent tonight
Being loved by you

Being loved by you
If everybody knows, it's only 'cause it shows

Middle 8
Your love is released
And you move me with ease
And you rescue me time after time
Oh~ oh you give your all
And you take it all in your stride

Verse 3
Oh with all the power of a symphony
That's how my heart beats
When you're holding me
I can't conceal, this is how it feels
To be loved by you
Oh yeah~ to be loved by you
If everybody knows, it's only 'cause it shows
Because I take your love,
Everywhere I go

Verse 4
I know what it is I need,
It's clear as a shallow stream
It's as it seems, my only dreams
To be loved by you

you get me high`
6:01 AM

Wednesday, October 1

booo. went to watch infernal affairs with jess. i can safely say it's boring. i almost dozed off. wait. i did. for a sec. cause i was just tooooo damnnn tireeddd. but i must say that shawn yue and edison chen are soo hooottt! =)))
we did a bit of shopping b4 that. dropped by zara to kill time. arhhh!! i want that "dance" tee!! fifteen bucks onlllyy!! mummy says she might buy it for me tmr.. -crosses fingersssssssss- and those denims!! arhhhh!!! -screeaaaammmsss-. i waannnttttt!!!!! and the track pants jess tried on!!! so nice for jazzzz!! argh im going crazy.
im really freaked out for my exams. one, cause im dead stupid. cant do anything right. two, it's cause i keep thinkin, and dreaming, bout AFTER the exams. ive got so much things to do!! and i start daydreaming and i cant focus! but i realise that i gotta go thru the exams first before entering into the post exam euphoria!
argh. then i cant go for jazz on friday. which just sucks! nvm!!! be disciplined for another weekk! just ONE MORE WEEK! and u'll get by it!! but what if i dont do wellllllllll? ugh. went thru so much stress this year, i need a break.
haha i rmb last time in sec one. i got so worked up abt rg. cause i missed merp and xue and nick all of them so damn much. that when i saw yingsze, i almost burst out in tears. so now everytime im stressed. i'll just hope to find her at the fruits stall, then can talk to her for a bit. but now becum v-pref. so big shot. talkin to her a bit stressful. i wrote her a letter sometime back. then i think think think, decided not to gif it to her. so strange arh. so i'l just catch up with her at the fruit stall. =X
booo. cant wait for exams to be overrrrrrrr!! can go skating with the 6Lers!! nick if u read this, come come come, then i can watch u fall downnn!! ha!
then can go bintan with lingling. so shiokkk!! =X
then can go chill out with katie!!!
arh ming stop dreaming! just go studyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!
ciaoz*

you get me high`
6:23 AM