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dumdum. have been too busy to blog. all the horrible work, and the overdued work. ahhh. im annoyed.
i dont like yvonne han. she's unreasonable, and she doesnt know how to mark essays. it really cheezes me off. like, hello. do u even know what u're marking or not. my essay was SO NOT outta point larh dammit. think OUT OF THE BOX. ive never done so horribly for my essays before. at least richard yates last year was reasonable. i mean it wouldnt be fair if i said he was a good teacher, just cause he always gave me a relatively high score, but others can tell, he IS a good teacher. and he is actually rather strict wit his marking. he always fails me for compre tho, but it doesnt matter, cause i know i suck at it. see, but at least he's reasonable, and he bloody understands what he's marking. ugh.
im annoyed.
anyway, went out wit jess after school today. had to destresssss. haha. i should learn to go out with more pple, even josh is like, why are you always out wit her whenever i see you? keke. aniwae, i cant believe i saw graham today. haha. even jess cant believe it. it's damn scary how these coincidences always happen, and when it comes to me or jess, it happens in the most unlikely way. i mean sure, it's absolutely normal to see a friend in town, but not one that you happened to be talking abt yesterday, and had tuition with, and sent home, and stuff. and moreover when i saw him, what was going thru my head at that very instance was, hmm, i wonder what st pats' uniform is like. cause nev was also from there. its like, crap, outta this world. haha. then i saw josh wit his friend. he saw me and he was like 'alamak'. crazee guy. then hmmm, saw leila, and i forgot to say hi to her. =\ saw yilin, dahdahdah. anyway, lunch was quite horrible. ate at noodle place, and e food was just damn strange. jess didnt finish her food, AS USUAL, haha. and just kept going on abt how she needs to eat and all. haha. crazee woman, always eating. then, we went HAT SHOPPING! like AGAIN! haha. it was pretty fun. hmm, i think i like a mambo skirt that i tried on, just that it looks pretty... country, and it's like. a hundred bucks. gosh.
ahh urm, we went ard larh. doing nothing really. and ended up in taka EATING again. jess and her char siew noodle soup thingy again, that she did not finish AGAIN. haha. all the agains.
kay i think i'd better get going, emmanuel teo just said the lab's closing in 10 mins. haha. he's damn nice.
ooh, anyone wants to buy me the joss stone cd? i likkkeeeee. :]]]] puhlease puhlease pretty puhleaseeee. =P
please forgive me, i say these three words, cause i know how much you have suffered.
[you take my breath away]
great. my entry didnt show up again.
dammit.
alright, urm saturday. hmm it was pretty fun i must say.
went out wit jess. urm, started off wit lunch at nydc. okay. we were both supposed to only have like.... a lemon shiver each. but we decided to order a slice of cake later, cause the hottest guy on the planet was sitting two tables away from us. and i mean it, hottest guy in the house man.
he looks better than chris[whoops, sorry jess. haha.], better than tom cruise, brad pitt, dunc, lee. okay maybe that's just in our opinion, cause he's like the perfect portrait of our perfect guy. [jess and i have sorta like the same perfect guy image.]
he's got.
nice EYES [just, LOVELY]
nice SMILE
gorgeous FACE
nice SHIRT
nice SHOES
nice FASHION SENSE
nice HEIGHT
nice TEETH
nice ACCENT
nice EVERYTHING.
alright he looks like utt. with just a bit more angmoh proportion. uh, i think he's 22, 23? too bad he's that much older. we were quite tempted to go up and just tell him that he's like hot, but he was wit his dad, so we thought it was a little strange. tourists, i think. haha, being the stupid us. we had to come out wit a name for him, cause we couldnt keep calling him the hot guy the hot guy. so we figured he looked like a mark or an alan. [yes, i know, it's bullshit.] so we decided to refer to him as mark alan. HAHa. damn cheezy. we even wrote that on our neoprint later on. well, mark alan is like hothothothothothothothot. on fire. yes. woooo.
hmm after that he left, and we left too. walked over to heeren to test cds. yay i got my usherrrr. it sounded awesome at the shop, but when i got home, it sounded a bit, er. yeah. but the more i listen to it, it's still cool la. his music's so smooth, it's hard not to like. haha. nice beats too. urm, then we went to take neeoooss. but i think the queues were too long to our liking, so we went hat-shopping! haha. tried on like so many hats. jess wants a hat, u see. so well, she kept going, i cant see i cant see! haha. u're not spose to seeeeee everythingggg!! it's spose to cover a bit of ur vision. but it's coool!
yes, i love hats.
oh, i wore my hat out. and i was kinda worried we'd walk out a shop, and the owner goes, hey are u trying to steal my hat. haha. but it didnt happen, so it's cool i guess. hmm, i like the loud pink cap. jess u shud get it. and the 77th street one. i mean okay, they arent hat, hATS. they're the hats that look a bit like caps, but they arent caps. ah it's hard to explain. whatever.
then we went back to the neoprint place and took neos. haha. they turned out... aiight larh. i looked stupid. yup. uhhh, then we went to eat! haha. dropped by taka. we took away our food. char siew noodle thingy[jess'], and duck porridge[mine]. we were feeling spaz so we took our food to the steps to eat. ack it was hard cause i was in a skirt, and the food was hot, so we ended up in a very strange position, eating. oh well, after eating for awhile, i thought i felt something hit my hat and the thing went into my porrridge. got a bit freaked out so i didnt continue eating. but i was hungry, and i was just eyeing at jess' nooodles. haha. well she gaf me some, but i didnt want to take a lot. so she suggested for me to go have tako pachi. =\ it tasted kinda... weird. so i had one balley thingy, and jess had another, and the other, uh, the bin had it. so i was still hungry. -.- grabbed an ice cream in the end. didnt finish either. what's up wit the food wasting.
yeah then we went to shop a bit more. zara. ooo they've got this really cute pink toga thingy. but i wont gettit cause it aint really my thing. oh well. we scooted down to the zara at wheelock too, cause we wanted to see if there was jess' size for this skirt. i think it's cute. but it looks a bit big on her. =\ her blue skirt's the nicest. haha. exx.
oh well, went home after that. jess dropped first, so i had some time to do some soul-searching. i always do so, on the bus, when im alone and it's like getting dark. the aircon's cold and everything. oh well. thought thru some stuff. no i havent figured them out yet. until now im still asking stupid qns like, do u think i shud give up and do this, or do that, or not give up at all. oh jess, yeah there's only one nemo. but nemo's swimming away, doesnt that mean i just have ta settle wit dory?[the blue fish]
hmm, stoned at home for a damn long time. then called my aunt's place to see if she had hans vision. apparently she does but her internet's down. so i figured we wouldnt go. but apparently she called back like half an hour later, asking if we were coming down, cause my uncle was so excited that he went outside to wait for us. -___-" cute. so how could we not go. so jacked down there at abt midnight, and we went to have prata. ha. yumyum.
got back to her place, watched tele till like. 3am. gosh i wasnt watching anything. i just didnt feel like sleeping. been waking up late, and sleeping late so much. i dont think i'll be able to get up tmr.
uh nothing much happened today. winston came over. he's out for a car ride wit my bro now. haha, why is he cruising around when he has sch tmr. tsk. alriight larh. i think i'd better get going.
i feel like cutting fringe. hmm. someone tell me, yes, or no.
this is just to help me rmb. hw left:
the hans vision chinese thingy.
bio newsletter.
lit task.
chem task.
ss.
oh shit im dead.
My miracle is you
[cause all of the stars, have faded away. just try not to worry, you'll see them someday.]
hmm, today wasnt so bad afterall.
woke up for piano. went back to sleep. woke up for choir.
choir was surprisingly fun. ugh. but it's like what. almost everyday. it's either work or choir work or choir. so super stressful.
wanjoo's my mashimaro. she's so adorable.
after that went with mum to changi beach to wait for my bro to come out from the ferry terminal. hes done wit bmt!
haha, its probably the best time to go to beach.
relaxing and stress relieving. just what i needed.
isnt it strange how sometimes countless words cant compare to like the crashing of the waves.
just looking at the endless blue. sea. sky. everything. blue.
of course it would hav been better if i didnt have my mum pointing at the waves all the time and going "coming! coming!" like a kid in distress or smthg.
but yeah. it was great.
the feeling was great.
felt as tho the waves swept away my burdens to a far, far away place.
the sorrows, and the stress. all poof! swam away.
oh and did i mention the breeze was great.
after meeting my bro, we settled at nydc for dinner.
haha the food was good, but i didnt have much tho.
hmm i think im going out tmr. hopefully. if jess says yes.
thinking of getting usher's cd.
i wanna go shoppppinnggggg. ugh. i wanna spend.
for the first time in my life.
i really want to spend.
oh well. have i told you. im giving up on him.
woo yeah. just, giving up.
cause i've lost, hands down. i cant put myself thru another shock like that again.
ah well. what to do.
as khaymar says, there're many other fishes in the sea.
just gotta go find one.
so, stop crying your heart out.
yup. i feel good.
do i?
It’s been a long and winding journey,
But I’m finally here tonight picking up the pieces walking back into the light
Into the sunset of your glory where my heart and future lies
There’s nothing like that feeling when I look into your eyes
[IVE BECOME SO NUMB, I CANT FEEL YOU THERE. BECOME SO TIRED, SO MUCH MORE AWARE]
ugh, im annoyed.
im not very sure wit what. everything just aint going my way today.
day started off fine. wasnt feeling well enuff to go to school to meet claudia ting. hope i dont get into trouble for that. then went for lunch wit mum. to secret recipe at pandan valley. okay, that was nice. then i got home, and started talking to this PERSON. who just annoyed the world outta me. it wasnt because he was like UNPLEASANT or VULGAR or SOMETHING. he was just... annoying. i showed face, cause like ive got quite a bit of friends who know him. if not, i would hav just told him to shut up. like really. if i could tell jq that, i dont see why i cudnt tell him that. he's just a MIDGET.
the whole conversation centred around HIM. like HIM all the way. and how HE represented the AC POPULATION/COHORT. and HE"S their spokesman or something. only jess'll know what im talking abt. even she got annoyed just by me reading out BITS of the conversation. gawsh. how can someone ever talk SO much. then he went on abt the whole RI and AC rivalry, which just got damn annoying, cause hell, why WOULD i be bothered abt it. im a damn girl. i shud be more interested in the mg-sc-rg or whatever GIRL rivalry there is. and whats more is that im absolutely neutral wit ac and ri. i mean ive got great friends that come from both schools, so whats the deal.
ugh.
then glenn, or 'glenn' comes to talk to me. and asks me if im okay. im like huh? then blahblahblah. and he said something. well. nice. but i was a bit like. uhhhhh, huh. glenn, u dont sound right. and well, i WAS right. it wasnt him. haish.
for a mo, i really wished it WAS him.
ugh.
then he didnt come online! again! it's been days!
okay, so i miss him.
ugh.
then ami. i mean i like watching ami. i dont even know why im being affected by it. ha. but yeah. it was horrible today. i missed diana and george's performance, tho i heard diana did really well. and i like diana, and i missed her good performance. shucks. and it's like i only enjoyed how many. john stevens, i actually thought camille wasnt too bad, la toya, and amy. like what. FOUR? thats so not right. but the judges didnt think camille was good. i mean okay she was a tad pitchy, and that really might cause her out tmr. ugh. i like camille. i like her voice. matt rogers was just IRRITATING. randy and paula thought he was great. i was like cringing when he was singing. first, he was off, second, he had terrible stage presence. ugh. only simon's right. he thought it was horrible. i thought jasmine's performance was crap. absolutely pitchy. like whats happening man. and jon peter's performance was DEPRESSING! i felt so sad after watching it. it was like. -____-""" he looked so.. depressed! i mean aint he the happy happy one. and he was off too. so yeah. who else. fantasia was AIIGHT larh. crap.
ugh.
when will ONE DAY go right for me. theres still choir tmr. not that im against it or anything. but isnt three damn times a week just TOO MUCH? and it's elearning, dammit. and we just had camp last week! and if i skip one, the teachers will call my mum. it's like. UGH. gooo awayyyy. just gooooooo.
and there's SO MUCH WORK to do for elearning. its like. AH. OVERLOADING. i finished physics today. and opened the ss and bio file to save. gonna do those tmr. but yeah, overload! at least i got full marks for one physics assignment. ugh. UGH. and i wanna go out! but ive got no damn time cause it's either work or choir. work choir work choir. not all schools are having elearning, so i cant go out for lunch wit them earlier. nick's busy SWIMMING. like hello, take a break? and he PROMISED to go o ut wit me during the march hols, or elearning. whats up man.
dammit. buffy now. i shall go watch some kick ass stuff.
ugh. ugh. UGH.
CRAWLING IN MY SKIN, THESE WOUNDS THEY WILL NOT HEAL.
FEAR IS HOW I FALL, CONFUSING WHAT IS REAL.
I’ve flown too high on borrowed wings
Beyond the clouds and where the angels sings
i've blogged like so many times, but i dont know why it didnt get saved.
maybe i wasnt spose to blog those.
it wasnt supposed to be... publicized.
oh well.
things hav been normal i guess.
talking to him here and there.
msging here and there.
but i guess he's still on his scg girl. haish.
i've decided to leave everything to God.
at least thats what i learnt on sunday,
i guess He's trying to tell me something.
siiighh.
In a sky containing
No one but me
elearning sucks.
so much damn work. im still not done wit my lit.
damn.
done wit my math tho. didnt do too well, but still passed
so, yeah i guess, it's alright.
Up there's all-empty
And down there's the sea
No one here but me
as said below, he doesnt mean it when he says dearie.
but i guess it'll do.
i should be contented wit what i have. i mean honestly. im considered lucky.
arent i.
at least im getting to hear it like, at least every other day?
tho he doesnt know how much it means to me,
it's okay.
all is well, its okay.
unforgivable sinner.
i love this song. heres the remaining.
There’s nothing but light
That comes into sight, oh
There’s something up here that makes me wince
And I still got the feelings that I’ve felt ever since
I got to this place
Arrived at last
In front there's the future
Right back there's the past
Everything’s moving so fast
There’s nothing but light
That comes into sight, oh
The present like I’ve never seen it before
Is this the right place to stay?
Please, my wings
Fly me away
The present like I’ve never seen it before
Is this the right place to stay?
Please, my wings
Fly me away
Please my wings
Fly me away
Please, my wings
Fly me away
you get me high` 12:25 AM
[Lost again. Someone tell me how to get there]
i blogged. but the entry disappeared. will blog again tmr.
it felt good when he said sweet dreams dearie.
it felt good. so good.
but it wont last.
he doesnt mean it.
[why does it always rain on me]
oh wow. im feeling like this again.
its becoming my 2nd nature.
naturally.
i read neekee's blog. she said
i never felt like i needed someone b4
well now
im saying the same thing.
the day started alright. then as usual
things didnt turn out the way i wanted them to.
what happens?
depression.
can i just go end my life.
i had to go thru trauma today.
disappointments.
things that made me fall apart.
fuck, not again.
its the hols? yeah right.
more like im living in a pile of work.
in a living hell.
i had to go ask if qishen was free to go out. honestly, i just thought i might ask since i was bored. bored im sure, check out what i got in return. ah bloody.
im hurt.
and it doesnt help by staying alive.
there're so many movies i wanna catch.
but i just dont feel like asking anyone. well i did.
look what i got.
i asked nigel, he aint replying.
great.
just great.
anyway i give up.
life sucks.
why cant i live it like everyone else does. having ups and downs, and not just downs all the way.
my bro needs the com.
oh, fuck.
[I dont mind if i lose myself, as long as you are happy]
*yawns* i havent blogged for days. was sposed to blog last night, but i fell asleep like almost immediately. i got home at like 7, i fell asleep at like 715. haha. FATIGUE.
mm, choir camp frm tues to wed. it wasnt too bad larh. nightwalk wasnt all that freaky afterall, just that i KEPT FALLING. and the shadowers didnt do anything to stop it from happening. ahhhh. haha. erm, i cant even rmb what happened in the aftn. oh right. stat games. HAHA. they were FUN. our batch rocks. choir said they havent had such fun and dirty stat games since zain was sec one. it was REALLY fun, but REALLY tiring for the stat masters. oh well. we had sparklers at midnight. -.- i was msging nigel, and he kept going sorry! i need go do this! i'll msg u in a bit!! haha. damn cheezy. so when we went to bed, i waited for his msg larh. then e sec 3s laughed like HELL, at the things that werent even funny. we were sleeping in the hall right, then i forgot who asked this. "who's watching over us tonight?" we were all like... huh, dunno. and she said "Nathan and Nathan's wife!" and we all cracked up like crackers. gosh. cow was like HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAHHAA. so DARN loudly. HAHA. oh well, then msged nigel a bit, then we all fell asleep.
we all woke up as tho we were in an igloo. it was FREEZING. all of us couldnt get outta our sleeping bags cause it was just. too. cold. haha. alright then combined, then urban hike. wah crap it was tiring. after like FOUR hours, we headed back to school, then had busking and sectionals auditions. they werent TOO bad larh. =\ okay then we packed up and blahblah blah and dismissed! super duper tired by then. but when i got home, i just sat down a nd watched tv. haha. watched the 9 oclock chinese show, to ami, which was like two hours. [jasmine is SO zai.], then buffy! so it was like one when i slept.
next morning! woke up early to go kbox wit jess. HAhA. but i was still a tad dead. tired what. yeah but we got a lil high in the middle, then it got a bit depressing. dont ask larh. we work in strange ways. HAHA. yup then after that, we wanted to watch the eye. cine's one had like only the front row for the 250 show. so we walked to lido, theirs was at like 330. cine's next show was at 320, so we thought okay, since it's earlier, lets just go back. so took a bus back, but they were only left wit separate seats!!! -.- [we sat like one in front, one behind when we watched the eye 1, and we didnt want it to happen again cause it was far too scary.] so we AHHHHH, walked back to lido. -.- thank goodness they had lots of seats, cause they had a huge theatre.
the show was aiight larh. i mean it was freaky and all, but at least it was understandable. as in, there werent just ghosts for no goodness knows what reason. they slowly explained why the ghosts were there, blahblahblah. but it wasnt not scary. it was still quite freaky. [gawsh, unlike the take of two sistas. THAT, was SO FREAKY.] yup then we shopped around for a bit, had some miso soup at yoshi, HAHA, and headed home. yup. so i got home, fell asleep, and now im up again. haha.
download still on my brain by jt! it's the best song ever!
Love is a game, that we both like to play.
[Cause you are my star, and it dont seem right without you here wit me]
ooh lets recap. yesterday was so fun!
okay jess DIDNT THINK we were going for dance. but i really wanted to go, so i just ah heck, go. i went there, and i saw this fenton fulghum guy, teaching. like, oh no, i know its the workshop!! but i didnt think it'll be like the whole day! jon came! the dance looked SO fun, i just had to ask around. alright, the counter person said e next class was at 3, and it's like 35 bucks. -_____-""" but it looked SO fun, i couldnt not join. so i called my mum. she agreed! but i didnt really have enuff cash. jon said he'll sponsor if im short of a bit, and lend if i need 35 bucks. haha grr. grumbles. well i did hav enuff. but barely. so i called jess, i said, you have one and a half hours to get down to jitterbugs. hiphop workshop. justin timberlake's choreographer, JON'S HERE. HAHA. i know when i say that, SHE CANT NOT COME DOWN! hehe.
okay so i had to STONE when i was waiting for jess, cause there really wasnt anything for me to do. jon left for a bite wit the others, it'd have been funny if i would to tag along. so i sat down there, talking to some goodness knows who abt how he has to go down to suntec for the IT fest, and is hoping to get a mp3 player. at a good price. and how he's waiting for his friends. -_-"" then FINALLY jess came. oh yeah, i went down to get fries and a drink, thank goodness i did, or i'd have died in the studio.
alright so we PAID, gosh. all that cash. then got in the studio. i stood behind jon, jess stood behind me. -.- funny huh. well belinda led warmups, while fenton thought of steps. haha. alright then it was time to dance! gawsh, the steps were so complicated, and he taught SO quickly. no wonder he's jt's choreographer. he's good. he's zai. he's got the moves, and he's got the groooooves. hahha. well, the steps looked loads like the 'like i love you' mtv. it was amazing! doing all those things we see jt himself do on tv. haha. but it was SUPER fast. tho i was warned b4 that it was intermediate and it was gonna be FAST. we did it to like i love you, but we had a move every half count, it was like help help help. we had like NO break, only when we were learning the new counts. other than that, it was just yeah keep dancing! -.- but we managed to ask for a THREE minute or so break. haha. anyway the dance was just so cool. we felt really dehydrated and tired and all like after half an hour. but somehow, after that, it wasnt tiring anymore. hmm, mebbe what pat said is right. if u put in ur all, somehow or another, it wont be that tiring. haha. HIS WISE WORDS. well e class was an hour and.. a half? yup. good stuff. havent danced like that in ages.
kay after class, jess and i were like walking to catch the shuttle to citylink. it was like our legs were numb-ish, so everything was very like light and SPRINGY. HAHA. well we went over to long john's for a drink. okay we were fussing abt some stuff, then it was like BLACKOUT. it was DAMMIT FUNNY. cause it was like blah blah blah, then blackout. everyone was like quiet. but jess and i like burst out in laughter like almost INSTANTLY. it was like. BLAHBLAHBLAH. -blackout- SILENCE. BAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHA!! and everyone was like.. -.- what the hell? HAHA! it was DAMMIT FUNNY! so we both ran out laughing. yup. then walked to esplanade lib, it sucks. jess got horrible spagetti. so we just threw it away, and we went to citylink to have cupnoodles. HAHA.
jess was like doing her cup noodle thing, and she was putting the hot water in the cup. and like somehow, the water spilled on her hand. i was LOOKING at her. she had like NO REACTION. and i was like JESS JESS ARE U OKAY?!? THE WATER IS BOILING!!!! shes like. huh. no larh, im okay. but its good if i had some icec tho. -___-""" the water was CRAP HOT LARH. there was no ice. so she took some drink, put it in the cup, and rubbed her hand wit the outside of the cup. and her hand was like RED. i was like OH JESS ARE U OKAYYY!! and she's like IM OKAY OKAYYYY!!!!! it was damn freaky. haha.
okay then we went to test the shin cd again.haha. i was DAMN late already. so had to scoot off. blahblahblah. got home. blahblahblah sleep.
when i woke up this morning, i cud barely move. my muscles were aCHING like cRAZY. goodness. i could just die. im still dying now cause i move around very well. and ive got camp tmr!! ah. oh crap, id better go pack. con't next time. :]
catcha later!
If you see how beautiful you are to me, you'll know im not lying.
[Prepare the way of the Lord]
hmm, went for the 830 service today. so im waiting to go for dance, might as well blog a bit. hmm, i stumbled upon this. from effendy's... site. rather sweet.
"A Dancer's Prayer"
Dear angel, Ever at my side
Be there today, my feet to guide.
Help me dance high, and light, and free,
So everyone will be proud of me.
May the judges be fair and the stages be spacious.
In winning and losing let me be gracious,
So that every dance I'll remember with pride.
And angel, please keep my shoelaces tied.
haha. it's so dancer-y. so... her. oh well. service was surprisingly short today. pastor cheng huat was like talking and talking, then after awhile, it was like. alright lets close in prayer. then we were all like... huh? that's it? strange fella. oh yeah, he booked 150 seats for Gospel of John, i think i'm either gonna watch it wit them, or watch it wit the yzers or other pple, some other time. :]]]]
well we were sposed to wear red today. according to zhiqiang, but only a few did. i didnt expect jay to wear red! and the shirt was so nice but he changed out like immediately after service! haiyoh! and he wanted to give the shirt away, cause he said it was too big for him. but it's SO NICE. haha. crazy person. he's got a race at 5. i mean, why are races [swimming or running] on sundays? isnt it sposed to be a PUBLIC HOLIDAY? the seventh day, the Sabbath day? ah well. strange pple. he's collecting his jerseys from ty later. [haha, sniggers. jay? jerseys? *controls laughter*] oh well.
hmm, maybe i should go play tennis later. against the wall. or wit bryan if i see him. HMM. but wont i be so darn tired after dance? speaking of which, please let it be pat today. plsplsplspls. =\
kay i think i'll scoot. haha. [do not ask me why there's a haha. it's out of point.]
When you say you love me, do you know how i love you
[I dont care what they're saying. As long as Im your girl.]
centrestage yesterday. what can i say. acsi stuff's always better than barker, and most school stuff. haha. we didnt really hafta crash in the end. nikki got her ticks too. jess and i were actually short of one ticket. haha. we went down, saw zh. just happened to ask him if he had an extra ticket. he said this. "you buy pringles and a drink, i smuggle you in ah!" haha. then his friend was like. "yeayea just come buy (or something liddat), dont worry you wont get caught being smuggled in." then he gaf us this damn cute wink. haha. zh's friends are so typical k. all the same. anyway he gaf us his ticket. then i found out ivee actually had ticks for me. -____-"" so i gaf him back two tickets, haha. i like his specs.
mm, it was this inter class drama thingy. the sec fours. the first two were rather good, rather entertaining. the second play, reality check. i thought it was REALLY cute. this guy, matthew chek, played this farnie fillipino maid person, and he had to speak in the filllipino way. like. i need to pry the pish. [fry the fish.] it was REALLY damn cute. and he's like so short. haha. he won best actor! but i guess it was rather evident he would win. the other two plays were so-so, i just didnt get the acdc one. their drama club's one. it didnt really make.. sense. overall, it was quite enjoyable. just tht there wasnt an interval. so the pringles did come handy!
mm, after the show, me nikki ling rachel clara(izzit clara or clarice? dunt know.) sarah kevin and some other guy went to clementi macs for supper. marcus lim and low were there wit their friends too. haha. and they were going home after supper, so i thought i might just follow them. my mum was damn slack yesterday. i called to say im going for supper, she said okay. i called to say dont hafta come fetch me, i'll just follow marcusES home, she said oh okay. ^^ interesting. mm shared a meal with nikki ah ma, but i dont think we finished it. =\ haha. then marcus lim happily played us out, he went to his friend's place. oh well. so marcus low walked me home. talked a lot of rubbish on the way. hes a very nice person. haha. well i had lots of fun!
yup then got home at 11, coming to 12. chatted wit jess on the phone for a bit, then went to bed. had to wake up early for piano and choir today! haha. so cute! we're doing Mcdonalds girl. the lyrix are SO cute!! haha. ah well. got home and I SLEPT FOR A DAMN LONG TIME. woke up at like 630. haha dammit. was spose to go swim and to the gym but i was feeling lazzeeeeeee.
YAY! nick got first for his 100 free! for his first day of comp! yay yay yay! zai!
oh yes, thank you to PAUL! NIGEL! who tried to help me with e tickets too!
I am in love with a mCdonald's girl...
[You dont know me but I know you. See, you're my favorite star.]
hmm. i was really tired in schoool today. dont understand why tho. i mean i slept as usual last night. it wasnt esp late or something. i could barely stay awake during bio. the whole minamata thing.
tests are finally over. just left with SPA, which is tmr. wonder how it's gonna be like.
well, i was writing notes to ah ma in class today. super spastic cause she's sitting like right in front of me. hmm, im thinking of playing a matchmaker. tmr. was thinking of pairing her up wit marcus. but like, i just read her blog, and i think she might just not need it. :] haha. i think its the same for low too. we'll see how it goes.
gonna crash centrestage tmr. nigel said he's gonna try to help me get ticks. one or two. well i guess it's better than nothing. then at least there wont be so many pple crashing at a time, i agree it can get quite annoying. hmm, gotta think up a plan that would work...
i dont know why, but ive been feeling damn STRESSED these few days. yes, tests are over, but im still feeling stressed, im still feeling depressed! it's like, i just wanna go to like. changi beach or something. and scream and scream and scream like the last time i went there wit jess. it felt good. maybe i should just go make a trip down during the hols. but it's ONE pathetic week. overseas, they get two week MID TERM break. like wth. alright, so now i like my class better than the previous one. everything's like all well in class and everything? but there's still this... this... sense of... upset-ness in me. i dont wanna use the word depression cause it might be too strong a word. it's a degree better than depression. but it's still being upset. it's just an empty feeling in me.
i feel lost.
so many pple say they care, but do they really? so maybe they do, but the one who matters most doesnt. okay so apparently the person does too, but does he really? i dont know. im confused. i get along so well wit.. him. it's like when we talk, we click like two pieces of puzzle coming together. but it's so... sibling-y! well i really dont know. i guess i'll just hafta take things one step at a time.
kay i needa SLEEP. DESPERATELY. so im gonna split yeah. hope crashin' works tmr. oh and theres swim carn too.
Love is not pretending.
Time is meant for mending.
Memories into all is satisfactory.
Healthy smiles fill the page the day we spent in miles
And I let him drive away from me.
I'm still in love with you, boy
ooh! i just finished my ss assignment. rather tedious. there's not much to write about too. some stuff on your goals and how it's aligned to your parents' and society's goals. smthg liddat.
okay. school today was aiight larh. started off wit physics. AH IM GOING TO FAILLLL!!! then we had math, boring stuff. pey didnt do a great job explaining. got a bit ticked off for not bringing my ws. -____-""" big deal larh. alright then recess, then english! haha! it was like the best block! we grouped ourselves up, so it was me, ling, belinda, neeeeekeeeeee, char, and cheryl y. we did the FUNNIEST thing. okay we got envelopes wit stuff inside, we were spose to deduce what the overall 'theme' was. we got like cartoon comic drawings larh. there was an old lady on the rocking chair, some old guy with a walking stick, some young guy holding two wages of cash, some young guy in heart shaped boxers carrying a business bag, some young bimbotic lady, another relatively young lady but she was like SMALL. -.- and another restless loooking lady with a canon tied to her leg. then we got like four kids. so at first we paired them up. like the old, the middle aged, and the young. then after awhile we didnt know what else to do. so ms han came over and paired the old, middle aged, and young together, asked us what it was. it was a family tree with three gens. so we said "san dai tong tang". and she was like hahaha! -__- then she took away the grandparents, and we were like "liang dao tong tang!" well she found it very funny, and she asked us to carry on from there. so we started pairing, and ended up wit like gay and les couples, old man and young couples, old lady with young man couples, funny shit stuff liddat. THEN we got to our "THEME". it was something like the four kids were part of this child brothel thingy. the guy holding the piles of cash was the manager, and he owned the brothel, so he earned the cash. the old man, and the young boxers guy were the regulars of the brothel. [and ANNALYN HAD to somehow say they went there for sexual pleasure-____-""""] the bimbotic lady n the small lady was the breastfeeder of the kids. -____-"" [ling!!] then chained up person was the one who went around catching those kids to make them work in the brothel, but she got caught and thats why she was chained up. then the old lady was like the last batch of the child pros or SOMETHING, and she was being reminded of her past in the brothel dahdahdahdahadh. OH! there was this guy clapping too! ling's conclusion: he was clapping to the revolutionary idea of the baby brothel -_________-"""" zai. anyway it was DAMN FARNIE when we were making up these stuff, laughed till we could cry. and poor cheryl had to write everything down. in the end, e theme was like... FAMILY. look at how much we digressed! hahahhaahahahahaa.
we had chem, cle, then home.
took the bus to NUS to watch the tennis match. mg against rg. crap. mg's good. mg's like the best tennis team around. im not trying ta be irritating here, but i really wonder how rg got into the finals. the ri and acsi matches looked so much more interesting! glen came back to support them! haha. after awhile, it started pouring, so the matches were postponed. to tmr. -__- damn i cant go. yeah so we ALL had a very hard time trying to get to the busstop, i got to share an umbrella wit mabel [thanks!!], up to the bus stop, where velda sheltered me to the opposite side cause i was on the wrong side! she's sucha sweetheart!! yeah but nonetheless i was dead wet. i saw sru [coughs, i mean prasuna.], and she was alll SOAKED. poor lil thing! well we hopped on the A1 bus or something, and dropped off somewhere. where we had to cross the road again to get to clementi. wah lao the rain was dead heavy. i was contemplating if i should have taken a bus to buona vista, or clementi. besides sru was on the buona vista bus. oh well, that bus passed us, and i saw sru and glenn. haha. stupid guy. fine so i did see him a few times, but i refused to say hi. but he waved so. yeah. and velda was so cute. she was like. urm. kel, do u know those guys? cause one of them's waving at u. HAHA. okay anyway, got to clementi, catched a bite wit velda and her friends. i'll say it again! VELDA"S SUCHA DARLING! haha. yup then i went home to get my violin and went for class. oh oh! i found out melvin ran off w/o glenn and hitched a ride home wit jerrine! HAHA. HAHAHAHAHA.
okay larh, im dead tired, i really needa go sleeeeeepppppppppp. cheerios.
If you could see what i see, that you're the answer to my prayers
and if you could feel the tenderness i feel, you would know it would be clear,
that angels brought me here.
cause if you gots the poison, i gots the remedy
hmm! it's slackeroo tuesday. not going down for lunch again. im quite screwed. cause i havent handed in my lit journals. i had it yesterday, but she chose not to collect it, she wanted to collect it today. but aiyah, i havent had the time to bring it down to her locker, and now it's considered late. haish.
my dog's getting better.
haha okay! ive decided, im going to blog in absolute incoherence today. cause ive got nothing in particular to talk abt.
mm, philo was rubbish today. just talked a whole lot of rubbish.
oh yeah, it's tianni's bday today, happy bday darling!
i just got a whole lotta bimbotic sequel yesterday from some of my FRIENDS. sigh. it's depressing. saddening.
oh yes i gotta catch up wit sean from 6L! haha. quite funny.
lenard's getting blunter wit his words. =\ he really speaks in contradictions.
going to the tennis finals tmr! oh! must sign up! crap!!
i really gotta go soon.
dammit, i didnt bring my math corrections.
westside was so funny last night! thank goodness jess u watched it!
OH! JESS! did u see the shin thingy?
okok i think i'd really better go rush around. cant afford to not finish what im spose to be doing. [hmm, what AM i spose to be doing?]
feels like im walking in the rain.
[whatever tomorrow brings i'll be there, with open arms and open eyes.]
its sucha miracle, someone brought my dog to the spca. we called, and got it back. the only problem is that hes very strange now. he sits in a corner, and he cant sit properly, his limbs keep shaking. okay so i think he got into a fight, cause he's bleeding at some points, but he seems absolutely terrified, like he's been under a trauma. okay maybe he really has! but i really hope he gets outta this. when i call him, he doesnt come anymore. he just stares at me blankly, and quivers a bit. its really odd. and then after sitting down for awhile, and his hind limbs quiver quite badly, he'll put his fore limbs over them. one of them larh. then after awhile, he'll scratch himself all over. esp the parts where it's evident he's been like bitten or something. AH. Lord help him.
had math test today. it wasnt too bad larh. quite manageable actually. darn it, shouldnt hav wasted so much time studying and revising stuff. murmurssss.. bio tmr. kinda freaked out cause the facts given to us are so minimal, and like... shallow. it's so hard to even try guessing what kinda qns would come out.
hmm, melvin asked if i was going for the tennis tournaments on wednesday. feel like going, cause i think my cousins are competing. so gotta go sign up at the pref board. hope i still can. hmmm. yeah.
ooh i had a very nice dream last night! only jess knows what it's abt, cause she was innit, so i told her. it was rather cheezy, but then freaky, but then nice! haha. gawsh. where's this going. alright i know everyone's on abt missing their sec 2 class, but im gonna say this.
i miss 6L'01. i really do, i really wished we hadnt been separated.
sigh.
cause i want it all, or nothing at all.
mm, im here again.
went to church this morning. oh yeah, b4 that, there was this bIG argument between my mum and bro, abt absolutely STUPID things like, WHY DONT U TRUST ME, WHY DID U GO ASK MRS CREFFIELD BOUT WHETHER I HAVE A GF WHEN IVE ALREADY TOLD YOU I DONT?! so irritating! its like. i went into the kitchen to get my breakfast, and i realised i needed socks. so i went upstairs, and on the way down, i heard like FALALALALALALA. so darn it super loud. all they can do is squabble and argue and AH. its PAINFUL. so i took my food and just sat in the middle of the tv area downstairs. like. in the middle. ugh.
okok so i went to church and everything, jay got me a present! haha. it's cute! kate's got one too [duh they went to buy it together.] and they went wit this mg girl, rongxing. or izzit rongxin. i'll go thank her later[that is if i can find her blog, if she even has one.] cause she deco-ed it a bit, and it looks cute. its like a hp small lil teeny weeny baggy thingy. it's really quite cute. i was just a bit shocked considering it was from kate, but from jay, the feeling was just a tad wrong larh. haha. erm talked to suye a bit after yz, cause i was damn stressed. so we all prayed together as a dg, after choosing new material for bs. mm, i thought today's msg on accountability was quite good.
went for dance. AH DANCE. no i didnt getta go for class, cause they had this free dance weekend thing, and yes tho all classes were free, hiphop was at 11am and 5pm. jazz was at 2, but seeing the numba of pple, i dont think we would hav been able to stretch properly. apparently 60 pple turned up for pat's morning hiphop class. claire tay taught the 5 oclock one. his gf! oh well. was quite annoyed with e number of pple. magdalene and gary didnt know bout it either! so we all went, and we all left. so annoying! i wanna dance! so i went for lunch wit jess, then went to hmv to test the shin cd. -_________-" no comments. then we didnt know what to do, and my mum was meeting uncle paul, i didnt really wanna go barge in. i didnt hav the key so i couldnt go home. so jess and i ended up going to town doing nothing. ended up in paragon drinking sparkling apple juice, which didnt taste a bit like the ones i usually have, and helping me come up wit plans. haha. met my mum and here i am.
MY DOG'S STILL NOT BACK!!!
hi xin! :]
cheerios.
dammit. ive been getting really irritating strange msgs from unknown guys on friendster. its DAMN irritating. first, they cant speak properly, and wit that, they try to chat you up, and yes they suck at it, then they ask you oh, erm, how many ex's hav u had before. it's not as tho it's their business. and looking at their friendster profiles, they look SO bad its like.... disgusting. i mean i usually dont bitch about pple like this, not online, but one of them just made it seem like im damn stupid, and i dont understand what he's talking abt. when he speaks wit all his LAHs and AHS and WORs, and IRRITATING CRAPPED UP SINGLISH THAT SHOULDNT BE TYPED OUT. UGH. and they're all like what! 19-22?! if they actually have HOPE that i'll get wit them, i might as well go wit.. C****! sorry cant state the name... AH. so ANNOYING.
okay i think im just stressed that my dog's been missing for like 8 hours now, and it's very scary. he's old and fragile and he doesnt have excellent eyesight, im just too afraid something might happen to him. and my bros As werent like excellent, tho im rather contented wit it, my mum isnt really. and they're all in big arguments, and whos the bloody victim? me. everyones unhappy, and im like their best target to vent their anger. okay mebbe not my bro, he doesnt ever scream at me. but my mum. AH MY MUM. dammit. my case is always like 'different', or however she puts it. like my bro's case is always more serious, so when he kicks up a fuss, she doesnt really blow up. when i do, i get screamed at. not that there's a time that i DONT get screamed at, but yeah. same thing. AH im speaking wit darn n a lot of incoherence. its getting to me.
i guess to look on the brighter side, im finally going for dance tmr. after AGES of missing it. BARRIE ROBERTSON SUCKS, i'll say again. PAT LOO"S ALRIGHT, BUT ROB VINCE RAWKSSS. ugh, why isnt our rob back, i think he's back in LA already. he said he needs to go home first. then he might consider coming back if he has the opportunity. AH. but pat's moves are groovy, so i guess that'll do too. oh oh jay got me a gift! [see theres no link wit the other sentences.] i tried to get kate to tell me what it was but she's SO STUBBORN. oh well. she says it's quite pretty. mmmm, she went to buy it wit him.. and rongxing. or izzit rongxin. aiyah same thing. i saw their neos, quite cute really.
mm okay im gonna scoot right outta the house now. probably going for a swim. yeap. later.
mm... its been very stressssffullll.
um, had english chinese and chem test so far. english was a bit.. o.O odd. apparently half the level interpretated the thing 'wrongly'. its stupid larh. like, really stupid. chinese. WAHHH. cheemology. SO CHEEM. didnt hav time to finish the paper. see the words written on my face? it says DIE. chem wasnt as tough i guess. but still made some mistakes here and there. wonder how i'll do. im pretty sure im gonna screw up this round of tests.
going for debates wit ling and meng yuan later. at yusof ishak. i think my bro was spose to judge it, but hes collecting his As today. AH i wonder how it'll go. quite... scary actually. if he gets his 3 As, we'll be stuck in a dilemma [you see, if he gets his 3 As, he gets his scholarship plus his oxford, but he doesnt want to. see, dilemma.], but if he doesnt, a bit. >.< too. ah whatever. nick wee's getting his back too! wonder how he'll do.
ah i miss one of my friends who scooted to london for his studies. havent spoken to him for AGES. not as tho i could cause i dont hav his email, but yeah. not fun to miss someone. i rmb shi used to miss one of his GIRL friends who went to melbourne. and cause he doesnt hav a PHONE, and his email and msn's always damn screwy, he couldnt keep in contact wit her. haha. quite painful huh, shi. SEE I TOLD YOU. GET A PHONE. YOU NEED IT.
whassup wit the whole older gurl-younger guy relationship nowadays. i think it's a super sad case. its like.. not minority anymore. it's catching up wit those pple who hav NORMAL ACCEPTABLE relationships. not that its a sin to like someone who's older than you if u're a guy, but dont u think it's like a tad off? like oh im going out wit this girl.... she's sec 4, im sec 3. it doesnt match!!
going for choir in a minute. crap im half dead. i can barely stay awake. i dont even wanna waste energy talking. haiz. sectionals are boring. then later i might havta go for piano, but i dunno, i really really dunno. i wanna cancel it but i dunno how to. unless i can haf a half hour lesson, then rush to yusof ishak for the cat high debates. aiyahhh. very stress! thank goodness it's friday. but then again, my whole weekends will be damn short, considering we've gotta come back to school tmr for FOUNDERS DAY. dammit larh. ac gets what. one and a half days off for their founders day. we hav to COME BACK on saturdays to attend the stupid thing. and like the president's the spesh guest, but really, i dont think we(the students) really care if he comes or not. first, he's gonna be late, like they all always are. second, the whole school's making such a BIG deal outta the whole thing. like, so what if he's the head of state? he's still human?! and he's what. SINGAPORES president. not as tho he's bush or something. not that if its bush it's any different. AYE, anything larh.
i wanna go for a midnight movie again! again! but but but my mum wont allloooooooowwwwww!!! grr. oh yeah! i can do pe! i can do funk! doc says im relatively alright already! yIPPPEEE. i need to shed some pounds. haha. dammit. i eat so much. it's sinful. im going to play tennis, swim, dance dance dance! AND I CAN GO FOR PATS CLASS! YAY! much that he's a tempremental freak, i think his moves are like real nice. even nicer than rob's funk moves. and DEFINITELY MANY HELLS BETTER THAN BARRIE. whadda hell is many hells. haha nvm, i think my meaning's there.
kaykay gotta split. choir. :] cheerios.
you get me high` 10:17 PM
haha. EMMANUEL TEO RAWKS. BEST com studies teacher around.
AND the one of the NICEST teachers around.
STRESS is the only word i think of now.
ive got chinese test tmr, then chem, next week's math bio phy. its like a sure im gonna die case. ooh. a sms just made me smile. haha. ooh another one! haha. the power of the smses. i just got one frm kristel, she's so sweeeeeet! asking me to jia you! haha. add oil add oil. then i got a msg from ah qishen. telling me how i suck at the whole "go DO your work now! (damn i hate you), pSYCHOLOGY. haha. i realise nowadays i cheer up a lot after talking to qishen for the day. crazy person. too bad HE cant make me cheer up cause he's always BUSY. AH. haha.
ooh feeling quite a bit better now. i think i'll blog tmr, i still needa go mug for chinese. ahhhh. die die die.
yup, doubledeedoubledoo!
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