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[im spoiled in your love]
okay sorry sorry havent been updating. busy larhh. tests. man it's crazy.
exams are in.. 18 days. thats reallllly fast. -.-
heh and im nt like annalyn. dont know where she finds so much time to blog like almost everyday.
anyway, its a holiday tmrrr! *grins* cause we did well for smthg. not sure what.
haha. yayyy. stupid. ri has it tooo. maybe i'll go studying wit mq tmr, since i want him to teach me trigo. -.- ms lim. i give up.
anyway. abt annalyn's AMLA.
i think ASLA's nicer. nicer to pronounce. her name's shulin see.
haha. man. first is was ayha.
i hateeee her kay. stupid woman.
cant even teach.
oooh i love joss stone to pieces.
her voice. it's like. ooooh.
and not to mention shes like how damn chio.
the world's an unfair one. mmhmm.
If your spirit's broken and you can't bear the pain
I will help you put the pieces back
blah so lets see whats been happening.
oh im gonna get a beeeeg zero for physics.
it was crap. i dont rmb what a scale diagram is. -.-
then calculating acceleration. it was plain funny.
dont know what the HELL i was doing.
heh.
oh chinese was damn funny today.
like half the class didnt bring the tb. either that or we brought the wrong one.
then laoshi was saying how she doesnt know why she's nv got angry at our class b4
(it's cause we're lil angels, laoshii)
then she kept singing her 'ghostly' song.
which was DAMN funny cause the way she sings it is plain hilariouss.
she got it from this chinese drama serial that i used to watch
with zoe tay as this ghost who stayed in the mirror
anyone rmbs?
but i dont rmb the part abt her daughter.
i rmb watching it, being SUPER freaked out
cause the next day, the pple living in the house would end up waking up like
on top of a shelf or something.
then when you walk into the mirror
the passage way to her bed was realllly freaky.
hahaha.
i miss those daysss!
ohhh sg idol.
ha. funny buncha pple.
the judges are BIAS.
you hear me! BIAS.
haha. maia isnt even all that great.
jeassea screwed up. but they still said she was great
maybe it's very different hearing it live huh.
hmm maybe maybe.
and uhh. there was one guy. cant rmb who.
he was aiiiight what. then they diss him until liddat.
only ken gottit right, i rmb.
bleagh.
stupid buncha pple.
aiight. err. a few pple to address.
shiyuan, der(?), jon, tiff. CHEER UP. (((:
oh ivan too! tho you say you're not exactly unhapppy anymore.
woo and uhh thank you to muffin for talking to me these days. (:
So fall into sleep
Peaceful and deep
And may this journey help you fly
When you can't hold out much longer
Don't you cry
When the darkness is getting stronger
Sleep like a child
Peaceful and deep
And when you lay you down
I pray your soul to keep
Sleep like a child
Peaceful and deep
And I when you lay you down
I pray your soul to keep
[nobody knows it but me]
hmm lets start from friday.
sorry had been too tired to blog. bleagh.
fridayy. school. normal stuff. then had the bio test.
im soo pissed im telling ya. the curriculum thing was crap larh huh.
the test came out a lot easier than those cheem shit i studied.
and what happens. i cant rmb the easy stuff. UGH. im SO IRRITATED.
im so gonna screw it up. ughhh.
mm then i met jess after the test.
met sharon to get the tickets for some tiger beer thing. uhh yeah. then went over to taka to meet mum. she drove us to far east to get light sticks. then drove us to indoor stadium. got there at like uhh. 6 plus? met cynthia kate and josephine. went across the bridge to this cafe. cosy cafe. wooo it was so cool. like right next to the uhh. river. haha. and its open air. we went to e third level. and we kept bullying the waiter. he had to walk up and down and up and down again. super hilarious. we were all going nuts i tell ya. hysterical. cyn's so like random. haha bill mcdonald. im sureee. haha. funny buncha pple. in the end we decided to be nice so we brought our plates down. and they looked so puzzled. then anyway we were all a bit high and crazy.
split up to go to our different entrances. seated. then uhh. waited. haha. wait wait. there were stupid kids sitting next to jess and i. so STUPID. ughhh. waited. then walked around. ooh found mq. no jess did. haha. sharp woman. then uh. startd. derek started off the show. my gosh he's so good. his voice is really damn nice. i used to think he's just a really nice guy who cant sing. who would've known. but his songs still arent very nice. what a waste huh. good voice bad songs. ha. then uhhh blue came on. my gosh dunc's hair. looked like. a SHEEP. ughh. so wrong. lee was great as usual i guess. its funny i came back liking derek more. than blue. ha. aint sposed to be like that eh. anyway the harmony was good and all. yup. derek's veryvery hot. and super friendly. we all stayed back after the concert for his mini autograph sess. he signed like. this paper. haha. felt so bad. cause he was actually gonna sign cds. but everyone made him sign that paper. he was soo nice k. made an effort to talk to everyone. woo.
uh then. ohh took a cab to meet mq and his stupid friends. yup. haha. stupid larh. then mum fetched us at 12. we were just casually talking abt where lee was gonna be. and mum said. err okay i'll fetch you there. it was jess jo and i btw. we were like. AH -SCREAMS- so we went there. haha we saw lee. ladeedum. sian. jo stayed over. got home at 3. cant believe i didnt study.
saturday.
jo left realllllyyy early. got up at 10. uhh went to school to discuss lit. came up with a pretty sweet idea. tianni got the script done by like 5 that day. impressive. went home. studied. studied. it can get addictive sometimes. shows how warped an rgs girl becomes. mm then violin at 3. went to church for worship at 4. yeelin keeps giving me a hard time. damn irritating. ryan's new fender is SO DAMN COOL. he was playing mcfly, and rach and i were singing singing. then we got scolded. -.- BLEAGH YOU WOMAN. stupid larh. then after worship. went to bug josh in the other room. then suddenly.. *BING* i rmbed. its jay's bday the next day. man i FREAKED. i had totally forgot abt it. bleagh. then uhhhh. lets see. oh anyway i was just fooling around. then mum came.
rushed home. grabbed my books. had to go for dinner. aunty cath's bday. went to action city. and got jay this err. monkey radio thang. =\ met them at thai express. studying while eating. realised that she knows clo's mum. and they were really good friends. sigh. then my mum was telling her abt some max mara sale. so they rushed there. -.- had to take care of ernie. jie en actually. she's a bit more matured now. but still, nevertheless, a kid. so i studied while they were just err shopping. and she kept bugging me to tell her stories. =\ then we went back to holland v for dessert. essential brews. -gleams- they all love it there. all four of us. jess we rock. haha. then uhhh got back pretty late again. bed time.
sunday.
worship was a horror. and in the end ryan mik and i got like "lectured" by zhiqiang. when it wasnt even our fault. yeelin couldnt catch the cue. what to do u tell me. pffft. then we split up into groups. joce and i. then we combined with mik's group. who had already combined amongst the normal gang. so it was uh me joce ansley(josh's girl) josh jay mik ryan druce timothy zhanfa(?). yeah. haah went to tiong bahru plaza for street e. it suddenly just became me jay and mik cause the rest were SLACKING. so jay. being jay. started the ball rollling. like asked around if they could spare him five minutes. but he kept being turned down. its VERY discouraging. then suddenly mik disappeared. so it was just er both of us. went around. very very discouraging. did talk to a few pple larh. it's so sad how some pple are so resistant against knowing Christ. we're just trying to share the goood news. ladeedum. then there was this old man. he said he got freaked out when he went to some church. cause the pastor said that God eats pple. omg. it was soooo weird. then mum came had to rush for dance.
i thought it was a really meaningful like err. event. haha.
dance. found out medicine guy's name! it's ming yao. haha all the mings. -.- anw dance was cool as usual. dan's dao. =\ er then went home. TRIED to study was too tired. anw made a new friend. alexa. haha. cool. oh she told me derek's coming back in two weeks. -GLEAMS- i better start studying soon b4 i excuse myself for awhile. then i dozed off. too tired larh. must understand.
dinner at gramps'. they were so happy. haha. err. got home. studied again. talked. studied. blah. oh was msging cyn. and jay msged saying.. your monkey radio's fantastic!...thanks ming! i was like errrrr. what a big reaction. haha. strange pple. reminds me of nick the other time. all the random-ness. what cyn's best at. aha. derek spelled her name as syn and she was so *poof* abt it. haha.
okay its really bed time. getting a sore eye.
im gonna die 4 my tests tmr. yup. confirm.
i carry a smile when im broken in two
[knowing you love me
drives the clouds and fears away]
i miss nicholas tannn.
bleah.
miss sec one daysss. when i see him like every fortnight.
and now. AHHH i see him like. once. every 6 months.
if i get to im already quite lucky.
he owes me my BDAY pres.
promised to give it to me b4 oct.
he has. 8 days.
he wont make it.
sigh.
i used to getta see him every day in p5 and p6.
those were the days!
ahh piano exam tmr.
would like to blog more tho i dont know what to say.
my head's just filled with photosynthesis and respiration.
sighh.
i feel really sorry for clovis.
sigh.
poor boy.
at least he knows mummy's up there now.
sighh.
God really works in mysterious ways.
hope he's fine.
i was really sad when nik told me abt it.
sighh.
cant imagine that happening to me.
no matter how riduculously irritating my mum can be most of the time.
i still cant imagine what i'll be without her.
love song for the Saviour
[im sick of all this]
im so fucking annoyed with everything in this bloody world.
people dont know how to appreciate the nice things in life.
people dont know how to appreciate other people.
then what is the fucking meaning in your life huh.
bloody hell rs.
it's not as tho i dont know where im going.
i just need enough backgrd info.
a lot of it.
so whats wrong with coming week after week to show you what ive found out.
huh?
you dont just fucking tell me i dont have the right attitude when im bloody trying to SHOW you but you dont LISTEN.
how am i gonna find fucking links if i dont even have the basic knowledge?
and im sorry i have a busy schedule so i cant find so many things in one go.
besides. do you think it's very easy to find info on photography?
like on the damn technology behind all cameras?
so the LEAST you could do is give me TIME. fuck.
TIME.
i need it. and it's not as tho i dont have enough time.
i have all the way till next year.
SO WHATS THE RUSH, WOMAN.
you tell me you need to know like what i find out every week.
my updates.
u need the hardcopies.
SO I GIVE IT TO YOU.
N YOU TELL ME I COME TO U EVERYWEEK WITH BG INFO AND JUST WHAT I RESEARCHED ON.
FUCK YES THATS WHAT I DID AND WHAT I NEEDED TO DO.
and i dont understand why cant you be like other mentors.
who're more understanding.
and not be so fucking demanding.
it's not easy to do this proj all by myself you know.
fuck cant you just UNDERSTAND?!
i really hate you. i really do.
and what. you just snatch away the excuse letters i give you when i cant do pe?
what kinda attitude do YOU have HUH.
great teacher im sure.
pms more like it.
and some people are just so terrbly unappreciative.
fuck you think living life detached from everyone else.
and wallowing in your own pool of stress will do you any good?
newsflash. no.
all i was trying to do was to help you.
understand what the fuck youre going through and maybe share your blooody burden.
if you dont appreciate. fine.
im sorry i wasted my breath.
my fault lar ya. of course it is u must thinking.
i didnt ask you to come bug me what.
fine. so ive learnt my lesson.
but lemme tell you this.
if you think you can get by life.
being detached.
being cynical.
being self centred.
and to you the only person that revolves around this earth is YOU.
then think again.
cause fuck, the time you really breakdown.
when u really need help.
u really want someone to talk to other than fucking WORK,
you aint got anyone.
cause you've shun them allll away.
this is probably a load of bulll to you.
and like a doh-uh thing. i dont need friends.
i dont need anyone.
i just need myself.
really. i wish you luck.
everything i say here doesnt mean anything to you. im sure.
and that nothing here convinces you.
sure.
but just mark my words. you'll see the consequences in the future.
no one can live life in a world of their own.
theres no point wishing you had a best friend all to yourself
if you dont even reach out and appreciate other pple for who they are.
i hate you woman.
even if u choose to be a mentor who's mean and demanding.
much that it's good most of the time.
you're nothing.
nothing at all.
your existance isnt even appreciated in this world.
who are you to raise your voice at me
when it's due to your own lack of far-sightedness that stops you from seeing what im doing.
it's probably partially my fault that i cant deliver a clear picture cause i dont have enuff info.
SO LET ME GATHER THE DAMN INFORMATION.
FUCK WHAT IS YOUR POINT.
UGH.
and to you again.
you think you're the only one who has painful life experiences and you know yourself well. BLAH BLAH BLAH.
hell to you cause you dont know one bit abt life.
you dont know anything.
but just to mug your fucking life away
cause academics are just oh so important to you.
im not ruling out the fact that it's impt
but your life just revolves around it.
you're nothing more than someone who's shallow.
who cares if you can write well. speak well.
and know all your fucking bio facts well.
if you dont even know how to appreciate things around you.
you might as well just go and die.
of live in a box on your own.
cause only there you dont have to interact with other pple.
you can just go marry your facts cause THEY WILL GO TO HEAVEN WITH YOU.
you only pray to have good results.
have you ever prayed that God will bring peace amongst your family members?
and not always having to see your dad and mum fight?
no wait.
you're always on daddy's side anyway.
have you ever prayed, asking God to help you understand your mum better?
help you communicate?
or HELP YOU BE A BETTER DAUGHTER?
i guess not.
cause all these arent impt to you.
only those bloody words in the fucking textbook.
it's always.
ohh my prayers came true.
thank you God for granting me with satisfactory results.
it's nv.
thank you God for the pple around me.
oh whatever.
refiner's fire
you get me high` 11:50 PM
[since that moment of bliss
that thrilling kiss]
oooh. hahahaha. i havent been blogging.
been busy.
dead stresed.
anyway. i had the most interesting dream last night.
i slept at 930 btw.
im like so proud of myself.
then i woke up at 830.
830 lehhhh! haha.
i dreamttt that i was ashton kutcher's gf.
-rolls on the floor and laughs-
i was in laughing fits when i woke up kayy!
hahahhahahaha.
i dont even terribly adore him.
i mean if i dreamt of josh hartnett.
it's like a tad more understandable.
but ASHTON KUTCHER???
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA.
so i admit he's pretty hot.
but AHAHAHHAHAHHA.
i told rucha and we both broke out in fits.
HAHAHHAA.
im practically DYING doing my cle reflections.
fifteen DAMN pages.
RETARDED QUESTIONS.
-screams-
have i mentioned how chio joss stone is.
her album's coming out on the 28th.
cant wait.
i love her voice.
it's sooo soul. my favv.
dance was awfully funky today.
shulin's so good.
i cant stand it.
i cant stand it that mag got into scholarships.
and i probably only didnt cause of my age.
IT ISNT FAIR DAMMIT.
DAMMITT.
SHES SO NOT GOOD ENOUGHHH!
UGHHH.
stupid world.
STUPIDD!!
-clenches fist-
haha.
ashton here i comee!
-HAHAHAHAHAHHAA-
nightt.
see once upon a time i was your fool
[but with you i belong, cause you helped me be strong]
wah. what a great ordeal in my gb.
i'd say derek would emerge the hero. haha.
haha hes always so calm and all.
yayyy. oh to reply your note
i love you too! (:
haha.
oh AND IM NOT EVEN HIGH PROFILED YUAN.
okay ling dont kill me. =
shit im having a very tough time memorising quotes for lit test.
there're like. so many.
and it's stupid cause u nv know which scene would come out.
moreover i spent so much time on that stupid issue.
childish i'd say.
then still needa make sure i didnt screw up anyone's relationship.
aiyah. horrible.
and i still have to draw a comic for chinese thingamajig tmr.
darnn it.
moreover lit's a block after pe. and pe's first block.
ahh i dont wanna go for pe.
i dont like yeo pei li!!!
shes very mean during rs! poof.
[okay rmb to bring the cam tmr. rmb rmb.]
and there's math test tmr.
and chinese presentation.
sighh.
i hope hope hope han makes the lit test after recess.
i prithee! haha.
hope i dont screw up the math test either.
i needa do wellll.
(:
okay school today. quite funny.
ss.
cc's damn funny. he was talking abt like some country.
i forgot which country.
like there's a lot of bombig there.
even the sheeps also know when it's bombing.
haha and the way he described it was DAMN FUNNY.
haha but i think he talks a lot of bull.
apparently he adopted a son there.
like. 12 bucks a month to raise him only.
haha.
doing his As now.
apparently he's really cute. haha.
would be interesting to see him huh.
physics.
yeolay's funny stuff.
like, really funny stuff.
she keeps talking abt boyfriends.
she's very funnyyy.
and also she's very good at explaining.
im so grateful i've got a teach like her!
haha.
chem.
equilibrium
-.-
trust me i still dont get it.
math.
oh i didnt listen as usual.
like why's she going thru the ws.
we've all done it at homee!
-.-
sheesh.
then what was the use right.
and moreover half the answers are wrong
like all the time.
cle.
AHHHH CHANGED PLACESSS.
now im sitting where ling was sitting.
SHITE LOH.
HOW TO SLEEP LIDDAT.
HOW TO MSG.
poof. =sitting next to yang2. (:
cheryl sim's behind me.
then nikki. cha. jung.
haha sheesh i was actually sitting where jung was!
like next to lingling.
just that separated by an alley.
hahahah.
dammitt!
bleagh.
i made a lot of noise when i had to sit at e back.
thank you ms han for letting me switch places.
(((:
ah you know i really gotta do my work.
blog tmr or smthg.
yayy thank you to der again. u really rock! ((:
dreams are just dreams
[i found the reason for me]
ahh damn. first day of the term.
couldnt sleep last night.
was watching vma.
my gosh. usher's dance. USHER'S DANCE.
i dont get the outfit tho.
and the start of performance when hes like. wet. -.-
and he sings confessions. =of course, very very evidently, lypsyncing.
so sad. i only managed to watch till after yellowcard's performance.
didnt catch alicia keyss!
AHHHHHHHHHH. -screams-
nvm. i'll catch it another time.
mm. lets seeeee.
school today.
chem. haha i dont understand chem equilibrium.
i'll go read up after this.
then sposed to be ss.
we were all fretting cause we forgot bt the ss oral presentation.
in the end.
cc didnt come. -.-
greeeat right.
after recess.
lit.
man i had sucha stressful time during lit.
cause somehow i dont have every scene's essential questions.
and i had to highlight the quotes in my book.
explain them.
and also write down the answers for the qns.
i ended up scribbling everything in pencil.
super untidy.
then i slowly erased and rewrote.
how irritating.
sorry i cant stand my notes to be untidy. haha.
then physics.
yeolay's DAMN FARNIE.
i cant stand it.
why do we have sucha funnyfunny teacher.
haha.
and her explainations are like damn clear!
so... hard to find.
and shes nice too.
math.
oh gosh math.
i hate that woman.
she sucks k.
SUCKS.
she doesnt even teach properly.
i didnt know what the hell she was talking abt for theorem.
stupid.
wheres mrs pey.
okay ling brought hoe wah toon's article.
oh. my. word.
he looks almost a hundred percent different.
i mean he still looks like wahtoon.
but he just looks different.
he actually almost looks goodlooking.
almost. haha.
ahhh everyone looks diff!
and im telling you 6L ROCKSSS!
haha.
we produce so much talent. heh.
and most of us have like established a rep.
take admund for eg.
and err. zh. ahhh haha.
nick. (:
woooo so weirdddd.
he looks sooo differenttt.
anyways after lunch met mum.
roamed around a bit.
then i got my headsets!!!! my earphoneeesss!
i lost mine during choral fest and i was soooo upset.
yay so now i getta listen to my music again. (:
oh yes i didnt talk abt yesterday.
auditions auditions.
it was... pretty stressful.
it was like two and a half hours of nonstop dancing.
we had to learn three dances.
THREE leh.
sheesh.
one classical piece. ballet.
one funk and one jazz piece.
the ballet was sooo funny.
u look at the hiphoppers.
we looked SO UNNATURAL.
esp the guys.
hahaha oh justis came for auditions. haha.
you try to look prim and proper and ballet-ish.
but it doesnt help.
cause pat's SHARPSHARPSHARP is drilling thru you.
haha. (:
the funk piece. we did it b4!
so it was pretty easyy.
the jazz piece. errr.
alot of jumps in the air. and err jumpsplits in the air.
haha i forgot what they're called.
oh yeahh.
the progressions.
across the floor.
horribleee.
cause i hadnt done warmups.
and the first progression was kicks.
high kicks to be specific.
so i like kicked.
the ouchhh. my hamstring.
haha damnn.
that shows how impt warmups are.
ladeedum.
then jess and i went to ESSENTIAL BREWS
at holland v.
that place is terribly terribly greattt.
and the desserts are SUPERB.
haha jess and i were like in aweeee.
and its a great place to study.
how cool's that.
we're so going there again soon.
yuppp. sigh i gotta do my chem.
blog next timeee.
(:
hold on lil girl
[always you]
we're finally where we belong
true hearts together
no storm or misfortune too strong
for us to weather
we've found the life we've been dreaming of
a world of our own and of real love
good times, good friends, and good memories
light up our days and our nights
and all our dreams
always you
beneath a sky of blue
forever im on your side
whatever you do
always you
our love was tried and true
the good life is ours now
after all we've been through
i feel like ive known you
for a hundred million years
we were lovers back then
will be again
a world without ends always
i carved a heart on a tree
when we were children
imagining how it would be
if you were willing
i had a vision of you and me
here in the shade
as i held you tenderly
your soulful eyes were all i could see
and ive believe in my heart
that it would be
always you
beneath a sky of blue
forever im on your side
whatever you do
always you
our love was tried and true
the good life is ours now
after all we've been through
i feel like i've known
for a hundred million years
we were lovers back then
will be again
a world without ends always
[the moment]
ah shuckshuckshucks.
i didnt sleep one bit last night.
so out of terrible cannot make it fatigue, i slept at.. 5 when i got home.
and woke up at 11. ELEVEN.
and now im watching scream 3.
how am i gonna sleep tonighttt!
and wake up for scholarships tmr!
AHHH.
auditions are freaky.
ive got TERRIBLE audition/exam frenzy.
anyways.
jess came over last night.
we caught like wicker park's sneak prev.
mm we left the house at 1140, but the bus took sooo long to come.
by the time we got to the nearest mrt, we missed the last train.
wahhhh so stupid. -.-
so we had to take a cab down to ps.
reached there on the dot. went to get tickets.
ooh i got free tickets. (: haha.
my mum rockss.
mm the show started off reallly confusing.
jess and i were like. errr whats going on.
is this a flashback. or not.
damn confusinggg!
then after awhile they start explaining everything.
the camera angles are DAMN good.
haha i think i start looking out for it after the media course. (:
its damn smartt.
and sick. the show's damn sadistic.
the girl's damn sadistic.
its a must watch kay.
and it doesnt help that josh hartnett was just absolutely droolworthy.
mm i wanna watch the virgin suicide.
mmhmm.
(:
then err after that.
we went to gluttonsquare to have prata.
haha alwyn came.
yayy thank you. haha.
the food was.
really average larh.
then we got a drink at buttercup cafe at cine.
timecheck. 4 in the morning?
then we went to meet my bro.
but guess what.
we didnt go home.
haha we went to hang around the esplanade.
abt 5 in the morning.
my gosh there're actually quite a few pple there.
and lots of pple CYCLING.
-.-
left at 545.
we walked to err. marina mandarin to see if there was breakfast.
no. -.-
and it was HOW EX anyway.
-.- i miss american breakfast.
then we took a bus back.
stopped at clementi for breakfast.
reached home.
showered.
then i had to practise piano.
oh jess and i watched kill bill.
=\ sadistic show.
another one, really.
dont know why our two pple like it so much.
haha.
mm err. anyway by then i was SO TIRED.
like SO DAMN TIRED.
but i had piano at ten.
so went for piano.
jess had to wait. heh sorry.
then after that we went to church to study.
sorryyy girl. didnt go see trainee cause it was just too far.
tmr kay.
anyway studying in church isnt that bad is it.
haha. the usual pple were there.
i just realised how every other girl in yz either likes juice or jay.
like. -.- okaay.
anyway jess left at. 330++. i left at 430.
couldnt take it anymore.
so took a cab home cause i didnt wanna hog my oh so huge bio book home.
ladeedum.
got home. and just fell asleep.
till now.
ahh sighh. im so deaddd.
im so not tired.
ahhh sheesh. i hate this.
scream3's odd. =dammit ive gotta get up at 8 tmr.
meeting jess at 9 to go for auditions.
omg im freaked stiff.
yadadyadayada.
i miss kate. ):
oh yeahh der thank youuu
haha you always brighten up my day y'know.
i just wanna fly away.
-jess
[harmonium]
i think thats sucha cool album name.
but vanessa carlton sounds pretty stupid now.
haha sigh.
lets see. i slept at four last night.
haha.
woke up at.. 1330?
yupp. after my mum finished moping the whole house.
haha.
whoops.
(:
we had lunch at pizza hut at clementi.
omg it was EXASPERATING.
cause my mum had to drop by the bank to get some stuff.
i went up first.
im telling you. i stood at the entrance for like.. almost TWENTY minutes.
you know its normal etiquette to WAIT TO BE SEATED.
i mean thats what it usually says, doesnt it??
i was like INVISIBLE.
all the waitresses walked past me.
and like they just DAO ME.
i was SO TERRIBLY EXASPERATED.
i was already JUMPING and they didnt NOTICE DAMMIT.
then the manager came.
HE LOOKED AT ME THEN HE LOOKED AT ME.
OMG I COULD JUST KILL ALL OF THEM.
it wasnt till my mum came, did they see me.
OOF HOW PISSIFYINGGG!!!
im watching mtv's vma now.
and i dont see the kiss between madonna and britney.
=i still like christina.
her vocals compared to britney. britney's nothing.
britney just... whines. and hollers.
ahh but too bad christina's like how bitchy.
strange eh.
but its cool. like 3 divas on stage.
anyway after lunch.
we went to the supermarket.
did some shopping.
ladeedum.
visited my grandmum.
then errr oh josh called.
he said he's in church studying. like with the rest of the pple.
asked me to go down.
so i did.
reached there at like what. 450?
so much for waking up so late.
haha.
studied there till almost 7.
then they were all leaving.
see i barely got any work done.
cause i woke up too late. and the whole day got delayed.
haha.
right.
anyway i did do some work larh.
finished my conceptmaps.
and NOW I UNDERSTAND PHOTOSYNTHESIS.
like almost the whole topic.
moving on soon.
mm then followed jay jase and juice (HAHA).
druce i mean.
they went to play pool at this SUPER ULU PLACE.
mymy.
evidently i didnt play cause all of them are like all so damn pro.
but i hit a few balls and like. one or two got in. haha.
nvm wasnt paying attention.
but i realised what clive taught me did come to use.
like he kept telling me to PUT YOUR CHIN ON THE CUE.
then u'll see if the cue's pointing straight.
and through observance, i realised most of the balls they missed was because their cue wasnt straight. haha. cool huh.
(:
anyway jay like taught me the rules.
so now it's just practice. haha. (:
alright i still got stuff to do.
jess' coming over soon.
oh yeahh. haha this is a snippet from annalyn's blog.
i dont attract guys lyk you ok.
guys fly to you
lyk moths to a lamp.
lyk hyenas to a carcass.
lyk belinda ooi to parker
and if you're gonna say thts nt true.
im so gonna jam ur head into the cement wall -.-
well guess what.
THATS RUBBISH LING.
mm. ciaozz.
oh i love this song. (:
beeyootiful lyrix.
The night.
She brushed her hands upon my flushed cheek
Smelled of childhood remnants of a dusty weeping willow
Clouds soothe, Shredded by the calico
Were oh so vast and quick as I was on my own now.
This time like every other time I believe that I never find
Another sweet little girl with sequined sea foam eyes
Ocean lapping voice smile coy as the brightest quiet span of sky
And I'm all alone again tonight not again, not again, not again.
And don't it feel allright. and don't it feel so nice. Lovely. Lovely, lovely
Say it again, say it again.
Still I'm unable to inhale all the riches
As I'm awkward as a wound on my bones
Still I've got cobblestone joints and plate glass points
As I'm all by myself tonight not again not again
And don't it feel allright. and don't it feel so nice. Lovely. Lovely, lovely
Say it again, say it again.
And if you should nervously break down
When its time for the shakedown would you take it
It's when you cry just a little
but you laugh in the middle that you've made it
And don't it feel allright. and don't it feel so nice.
Lovely.
Say it again. Lovely. So lovely. to do it again
Again. Loving again. It's coming again.
Lovely.
[caught in a moment]
im watching jc chasez's mtv now.
and im utterly disappointed!
he used to be my fav member from nsync.
and now what is he singing.
alll day long i think about sex..
all night long i think abt sex...
and all the time i think abt sex...
with you...
like hello. what's wrong wit you.
mm watching sg idol.
surprisingly the contestants arent too... horrible.
but the guys are pretty disappointing.
ohh i thought the girl who sang big spender wasnt too bad whatt.
why didnt the judges like it. >.<
weirdd.
maia's gonna sing too.
i like her. and she's better not disappoint me. haha.
the guy who sang michael bolten was DARN FUNNY.
haha.
fixing a broken heart's a pretty nice song.
but the guy sang it really.. weirdly. haha.
i know tons of pple who should join sg idol.
and i think they're better than any of these contestants.
stace is one for sure.
she was probably my closest senior when i was in sec1.
and i tell you she has a remarkable voice.
i was like always in awee. haha.
even during warmups, she was realll zai. (:
maybe im just bias cause i tend to like pple with solo voices.
not choral.
but val's voice is whoaaa too. and she's terribly choral.
okay maia's disappointing me.
sighh.
these pple's voices have no power. only jessea.
is that how you spell her name...
i think ken's the best judge.
why doesnt anyone else thinkk so. haha.
ohhh mummy bought lots of stuff back today.
like food larhh.
and she bought my bro and i coconuts. (: hahahah my favvv.
and since my bro doesnt terribly like them.
he gave it to MEE! haha. yayy.
(maia's powerful mehh)
ooh and i used the method jess taught me to choose the coconuts
and its terribly sweet. (:
oh did i mention i bought my flops today.
yipeee i think its pretty
and its stripedd. (: stripes rock.
yipeee.
almost got a samuel&kevin shirt.
it's nice. but i guess i didnt get it.
haha.
but i do like this collared top from giordano.
its so weird. i rarely like stuff from there.
but it was like. 2 for 20-
if i were to buy one, it's 16 bucks.
like what's the point right.
(so now its time to psycho jess and see if she likes it.)
laughs. (:
ahh im freaked out.
auditions are on sunday. SUNDAY.
and its not as tho rob's there.
nor lionel.
it's gonna be. fen. and venecyi.
i think?
hope it doesnt end too late. so maybe i could drop by timo's church.
since i wont have enuff time to rush back to my own church.
hopehopehope.
if only it's rob. then we have a lil more chance to be sure we'll get in.
jess and i, that is.
i rmb i dreamt of it last night.
haha and i was freaked out.
yayyayyay.
i think jess might be able to stay over tmr.
yayyyy.
then nightlife it is. (:
mm i watched the terminal today.
it's quite good. quite funny.
i think tom hanks is a pretty good actor.
and zeta jones looked quite good.
now its time for raising helen.
and err. some other movie. i cant think of it.
heh.
i gotta study soon. haha.
sometimes i love you.
sometimes you make me blue.
[you bring meaning to my life]
poof.
i woke up at...at...9 this morning!
for pianoo.
i promise im so gonna fail my exam. just like last year.
poofness.
and ive got violin later.
whaaat is this man. music day arh.
haha.
anyways. after lesson, didnt really wanna sleep.
beats me.
so i watched infernal affairs one.
mannn it's gooood stuff.
really smart show.
but of course, stupid ppls, like one in a ri, wouldnt get the show.
-.- count yourself a ri boy.
what a disgracee.
i think the director's like really smart.
haha. clever.
i think julie andrews is pretty cool.
the princess diaries' 2 seems nice. will watch it. haha.
OH YES.
i have been a gooood gooood girl.
i havent been out having fun. (:
haha. other than yesterday.
but its not counted cause i was in WESTMALL.
westmall k. poof.
watched 13 going on to 30 with ling.
haha pretty sweet show.
mark ruffalo looked pretty good too.
you know i just realised that he's actually in collateral.
(and he looks like crap there)
and eternal sunshine of the spotless mind
(he looks worse)
haha damnnn i soooo wanna watch that show.
im sooo buying the dvd. (:
im telling ya, this not going out thing better better pay off.
meaning jess BETTER BE ABLE TO COME STAY OVER ON FRIDAY.
humpf.
anyway,
IVE FINISHED MY MATH WORKSHEETSSS!!! (:(:(:
i dont care. im gonna do well for the next test.
im going to do wellllll! grrr. better do well.
remainder theorem sucks.
no actually i havent finished. cause i dont understand ws 4.
but ive done the rest.
wheee.
on my own too. (:(:(:
time for the other work.
i think ryan's funny.
sometimes he daos me, sometimes he doesnt.
and everytime i ask if he's daoing me.
then he'll go no darling im not.
like its the same reply all the time.
hahaha. funny. >.<
ohh yeah. got the yearbook from marclow.
wahhh he's gotta learn how to cheer up. so grumpyyy!
too stressed abt chem larhh. crazy.
haha.
haha ling your case studies very sad.
like you only have two pple to compare wit. =.=
say yes to more guys then u'll have more pple to compare wit!
not always wucheannn. and whoever.
and that whoever FOREVER doesnt cut the mark.
haiyoh.
chean's not like perfect eg leh.
in fact he's quite irritating.
>.<
okay i'll shush.
ahhh aint it quick. the hols are halfway thru.
man do i wanna join the dance scholarship.
think abt it.
i will have no time for social life.
zero.
im either dancing.
or taking my extra time to study.
no time loh.
>.< maybe try it out? but thats only if i can skip the class that clashes wit church.
ahh sighhh.
then the teachers in charge will probably be fen and venecyi(is that how you spell it) right. poof. where's lionel and rob when you need them.
i feel fat.
esp today. its time to goo exercisee.
haha. mm. shall go swim one of these days. and tennis.
but for now. its time to practise violin.
turra~*
And I want a moment to be real
Want to touch things I don't feel
Want to hold on and feel I belong
And how can the world want me to change?
They're the ones they stay the same
They don't know me
'Cause I'm not here
you get me high` 11:19 PM
[the SIDE effects]
not twins effect huh.
haha. sighhh.
the side effects killllllL!
i think of him every minute.
haha okayyy fine i'll shut up.
dance today was superbly fun.
pat's crazyyy. he taught us so many steps.
and expected us to learn it like. how quickly.
sheesh auditions next week.
kinda phreaked out, really.
hope i dont screw it.
anyway i wont take it up even if i get in larh.
it clashes wit church.
i wont not go to church.
(:
auditionsauditions*
the auditioner (i dont know how to spell her name, so im not trying) likes the street jazz style a lot!
and im not sure if i can do it.
sighh.
wheres rob when u need him.
he needs ta brush up on my jazzzzz. and my turnssss.
haha. (:
rmb doing chains of chaines and piques?
fun stuff. ohh and pirouettes.
sighh.
ehh green day's back. haha. interesting band.
anyway i was at nik's hosue doing performance tasks today.
penny is so adorable!!
poof. shes SO CUTE KAY.
(cuter than nikki. haha.)
im watching mtv, and nelly thinks he's like number one.
like honestly, whatever.
haha.
ahh im going crazy.
every step i take. for the past few days.
its just you on my mind.
its CRAZY.
when im err. dancing. im thinking of you.
even when im singing im thinking of you.
talking to other pple also.
haha im going crazyy.
nvm it'd fade after awhile.
not very soon, but eventually.
then it'd all go back to the same state.
esp when u leave.
then not till after ages, will this feeling come back again.
nvm. im used to it.
been used to it for the past.. year or so?
yup.
haha it sounds like im psycho-ing myself.
ohh did i mention.
nick tan's grown up! well sorta.
haha its so weird.
last night i suddenly got a msg from him.
telling me that like he realises like how ive been there for him and hes very appreciative.
many friend have sorta left him cause he's been too busy for them.
and he really treasures our friendship.
i was like a bit taken aback.
haha.
its so not nick loh. (: but nvm.
at least hes appreciative.
not like someeee pple. they just get on my nerves.
ladeedum.
derek derek! look here!
haha leave me a note i know u're reading this!
i dont care if u're still pissed cause u shouldnt be!
comecome! say hi! (:
heh.
dont do this when i need pple around me now.
im missing you..
[im all smiles]
happy bday ching! ((((:
helloo.
see i told u it was gonna rock. and it did. (:
okay sch yesterday. hmm everything started off fine i guess.
we were all damn nervous bout our chinese test.
poof err cle was boring stuff.
bio. err nothing. we've got so many tests coming up.
another math test.
like, what kinda holiday is this man.
muggeroo holiday.
mm chinese was okaaay larh.
i forgot what some words meant.
the first section was quite a killer.
managed to write quite a bit for the compre... so i hope its okay.
-crosses fingers-
yupp.
choir after that.
we had rehearsals for open house. which was today.
...i just got a very strange testimonial from bhojwani. >.<
dont know mann.
okay err. rehearsals rehearsals.. then we had some cleaning up to do.
cleared our old costumes.
ooh still rmb the funny broadway one.
our founders day's item when i was in sec one.
haha by gershwin. (: its goood.
then took a cab back.
ladeedum. took a shower and i was soo beat i took a nap.
till abt 7ish. mum came back and dropped me at auntie virginia's place.
okay i was err very extra.
some 6 year old kid's bday party.
and my aunt invited me.
so i thought just go since xing2 will be there, and probably clive. then it wont be so boring.
so we watched tele, and ate.
i think clive came back halfway thru dinner. ladeedum.
then after that we watched pple play badminton.
cut the cake. sang song. haha so funny. we sang it in three diff languages. (:
the lil girl's so cuuuutee.
her name's jessie. hahaha. jessica i think. ive got pictures of her. like candid shots. i'll post it up soon. heh.
she refused to take a picture wit me. hahaha.
then soon my cousin had to leave. =.=
wahh i was like. err. okay crap. i'll be soo extra now.
thank goodness clive was still there.
err played badminton. wahh i feel so lousy. they're all like DAMN good.
even the mums and dads all play darn well.
i admire those sports pple alot.
pple like clive right. just finish a game of tennis, come back, still can play badminton.
and he plays it very well too. poof. talents.
haha then we played dog and bone!
it was pretty funn. (:
then err poisonball.
(pls realise it's a kid's party, but i had fun nevertheless)
haha anyway i really seldom like.. PLAY.
and so i did yesterday.
and it was helluva fun.
by the time we were done it was 11ish?
then went back into the house. after a drink, clive taught me how to play pooll!!
i have no idea how to play pool. haha.
and its harddd. anyway i had to leave cause my mum was there.
but she waited for me to get like a ball in.
that took me. three tries.
wahh but my ball moves so slowwwwwly.
his balls are like wham! and its always in.
>.< pro pple.
left there abt half-ish past 11. got home just b4 twelve.
mann i was so beatt.
but i had lots of fun. (((:
ohh and clive's really nice.
and he thinks jazz is cool.
HAHA.
today!
open house. not muchta say larh.
budak pantai came to watch us.
we're collabo-ing with them for their concert in november.
what privilege. (:
anyway they're a bit... weird? haha.
their songs are, at least.
they kept talking abt our "expertise",
we were all a bit like. err. no larh not so pro.
we're probably singing gao shan qing at their concert.
>.<
ladeedum.
we busked around the sch and it was soo super fun. (((:
hehe. we were all damn high.
i think we took a few pictures. they're wit smae.
hope she sends them soon. (:
i realise ive got loads of new pictures.
gotta slowly upload them.
ladeedum.
man im so tired from yesterday. aching quite badly.
ha shows how long i havent been playing my racket games.
but nevertheless, dance's still right on top. (:
auditions on the 13th. freaky stuff.
kay larh. i need to nap.
going thru bio wit my cuz later.
like wth. its how hard.
show me the shape of my heart
i promise you.
tmr's gonna ROCKK.
but dammit ive got chinese test.
okay fine. u need it explicit.
derek chan wei han.
what did i dooooo. =\ yuannn help!
sigh.
nvm. tmr's gonna rock.
hey! we're gonna rock the house.
its gonna rock. i promise.
it better do.
moreover its the last day of the termmmm! _gleams_
alright back to cheenk.
will update tmr.
[unappreciated]
ohh i forgot to mention. sunday!
ahha. funfun day. went for church. im telling you. its like officially bad hair day for guys. honestly. what in the WORLD happened to mik's hair. and jason's. and max's. and err. BEEJAYS! YES. shoot man. its suchan irony cause jess was just telling me that mik had to do something with his hair. and my oh my did he. =\ haha.
thennn. dance was like soo super fun. the choreo was just fabbb. as usual. nus is holding some spore version of the wade robson proj. like honestly, how copyrighted can they ever get. spore idol. who wants to be a millionaire. and now even wade robson? i wonder when the bachelor will be. -.-
hmm met mum after that. she drove me to jcc to play tennis wit bryan. oooh sorry i was late. (: heh. anyway triple thanks to bryan! cause he also had to put up with my horrible playing. like honestly, HORRIBLE. haha. havent played so badly in a veryyy longgg timeee. maybe i shud go back to playing huh. sounds good? haha its a form of exercise too. (:
met err gerald after that. long story.
mm skippped dinner. grr. then err went home. mm at abt 2000, went to the park to mug. home's too noisy. too much anger in the atmosphere. and hostality.
shrugs-
err tuesday.
went back to ny. oh oh did i mention that my last entry managed to make the oh-so-unfeeling annalyn NG LI-TING feeling again. haha. sniggers. its a very accomplished feeling.
mm. met ling. then went to ny. woo it rocks. saw ms lee. then we talktalktalk. then ms mok. then we talktalktalk. then we saw mr ting. MR TING!! haha. anyway we took picturesss! that came out pretty nice. but i look bleagh in all of them. but nvm! haha. mr ting's still so funny. and to you ling, i still dont think hes feigning it. lets just hope im right yeah. haha we were taking pictures, and mr ting's like PEACE TO THE WORLD! and NO TO SHARKS FIN. or smthg liddat. heh. he's always been so environmental. and esp concerned abt the sharks that are dying out. keke.
then err after that. went for a movie with xue and gloria. fineee ling u PLAY ME OUT. to think i brought u to ny. im sure u cant go there by yourself cause u wont know which stop to stop arh. laughs. im joking. im not sure if u know.
watched the bourne supremacy. mm its pretty good? but i think identity's better. like its too action. everything moves too quickly. but i do think the director's pretty smart.
ohh and i got a flower. daisy. its sooo pretttyy. pictures up soon.
okay today!
met jess earlyyy. (: the early bird always catches the... the...i forgot. =\ man. nick used to tell me this all the time and now i cant rmb. =OH btw i called nick yesterday. hes gonna make time for meeeee during the hols. haha. but we all know how POSSIBLE that's gonna be right. haha. at least its the thought that counts. ladeedum.
okay we setted off earlyyy. headed to changi beach. DONT TELL ME THE BEACH IS BORING ANNALYN NG. u're not much better than mq that way. haha. man i tell you suddenly, the water's sooo clear. and its sooo darnnn pretty. excellent. but. BUT. jesso lost her wallet. sighh. she panic man. hahaha. (: sighh. so sad. she had 50 bucks in there k. with her ic and everything. poor girl. haha. sighh. anyway we headed to town after that. ladeedumdeeedum.
ohh happy bday ryan. (: haha funny person. was trying to look for something for him frantically. couldnt find! =\ whoops. heh nvm. ive got a few more days b4 i see him. (: anyway like after jess left. like after we did a lot of things, and its not v impt to note, haha, i was waiting for my mum. so i was msging lenard. wah laooo. when i got on the car, then he tells me he just reached taka. like hello. i was there too. and i was left stoning for half an hour. you COULD HAVE told me u were in town too. haha. (: anyway i think lenard rockss. hes the typa friend who'd still be my buddy when im 40. which brings me to my next point.
those friends that are just soooo unappreciative.
honestly, it's quite painful. cause being the stupid me, im a terribly unfeeling person. maybe i shud work towards hostality. i hate it. when my friends are down and out, i try to like be there for them. sometimes. i dont even get a thankyou. no im not expecting anything in return, but its like the least you could do. you know whadda mean? sigh. im gonna work towards being unfeeling. who cares right. its their own lives. unless they're terribly close to me. like jess nick kate etc. the rest, to hell with you guys. i'll just be like any other normal friend. when u're upset. just oh okay. i'll leave you alone. why make an extra effort to be nice and make sure youre not suicidal. and in return. when im feeling like shit, its the pple who i havent made an effort to make sure they arent suicidal when they're upset, who are there to cheer me up. sometimes even my best friend isnt there. wait, actually shes seldom there. sighh. so now its clear. who's the typa friend i want. and who's the typa friend that i shouldnt waste too much time on. ohh yes its so very clearr.
pictures will be up soon. actually did you guys know i actually posted quite a few pics up le. like of my outings with jess and stuff. haha. just that there're more to comee! (: ohh i'll put up the ones i took of my flower too. haha im flower-obsessive.
and this is to you. i think you know who you are. really i honestly dont know when and what i did wrong. but you're too impt to me. so. just chill. im sorry if i didnt realise what i did. im sure you know it isnt on purpose. so be so kind to forgive me. (:
your fav song.
cause all of the stars have faded away
just try not to worry
you'll see them some day
so take what you need
and be on your way
and stop crying your heart out
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