Tuesday, November 29
[i believe in fairytales]
one shot to your heart without breaking your skin. no one has the power to hurt you like someone you love. these days have been rough, but i thank you for all the love. from jess, to xiaoyu, to lenard, to derek. for the msgs, the notes, the phone calls, the moral support. i would have crumbled if it wasn't for you.
starry eyed from the past two, three days. stars, as the tears leave you dizzy sometimes. riding by the cliffs, i guess i never liked things dangerous. and before i land myself in a point of no return, i thought i'd test the waters one last time, and to see if this time, i'm really protected. whether the gurders are really gonna be built this time, to prevent me from falling. whether i'm still the gem, too fragile to be dropped.
on a side note, dammit, i deleted my pictures my accident. grr. act of honest stupidity. thank goodness they aren't pictures that can't be taken again. watched kingdom of heaven. orlando bloom. damnn. he looked reallyreally hot on oprah last sunday. it's not my kinda show, well, not till i noticed that its rather interesting with the right artistes. but phwoar, never seen bloom so hot before. and if i say hot, i really mean hot. (:
mummy's finally coming back on thursday. she said she got me a skirt. and in the meanwhile, i've been.... baking (yes, i said baking), making earrings, talking on the phone, drawing, to kill time. brother's having exams, or WAS, at least. thus the negligence i felt. :| oh well.
was browsing through my old things, and stumbled upon an old diary of mine. written when i was in hk last year. and there was a day where nick actually called me at 5am, after he ran to the swimming pool for refuge from his parents. called me if i could accompany him. and somehow, i dont remember that happening. a vague impression lingers, but not substantial enough. just isn't a very...nick thing to do. shall clarify with him again. but if it really happened and i wasn't just dreaming, maybe our friendship is more solid than i've always thought it was. hmm. interesting thought.
really wanted to go for ivan's opening night. it's tomorrow. but i really doubt mum's gonna allow. bleagh. sorry.
i wanna go for kenny g's concert! HE'S STILL ALIVE!! i never knew! 20th jan '06. any takers? any kind souls who drown in music from the saxophone? any amazing person who's willing to accompany me? i know kenny g's not the hottest thing in the industry now. but still....!
get it together
one shot to your heart without breaking your skin. no one has the power to hurt you like someone you love. these days have been rough, but i thank you for all the love. from jess, to xiaoyu, to lenard, to derek. for the msgs, the notes, the phone calls, the moral support. i would have crumbled if it wasn't for you.
starry eyed from the past two, three days. stars, as the tears leave you dizzy sometimes. riding by the cliffs, i guess i never liked things dangerous. and before i land myself in a point of no return, i thought i'd test the waters one last time, and to see if this time, i'm really protected. whether the gurders are really gonna be built this time, to prevent me from falling. whether i'm still the gem, too fragile to be dropped.
on a side note, dammit, i deleted my pictures my accident. grr. act of honest stupidity. thank goodness they aren't pictures that can't be taken again. watched kingdom of heaven. orlando bloom. damnn. he looked reallyreally hot on oprah last sunday. it's not my kinda show, well, not till i noticed that its rather interesting with the right artistes. but phwoar, never seen bloom so hot before. and if i say hot, i really mean hot. (:
mummy's finally coming back on thursday. she said she got me a skirt. and in the meanwhile, i've been.... baking (yes, i said baking), making earrings, talking on the phone, drawing, to kill time. brother's having exams, or WAS, at least. thus the negligence i felt. :| oh well.
was browsing through my old things, and stumbled upon an old diary of mine. written when i was in hk last year. and there was a day where nick actually called me at 5am, after he ran to the swimming pool for refuge from his parents. called me if i could accompany him. and somehow, i dont remember that happening. a vague impression lingers, but not substantial enough. just isn't a very...nick thing to do. shall clarify with him again. but if it really happened and i wasn't just dreaming, maybe our friendship is more solid than i've always thought it was. hmm. interesting thought.
really wanted to go for ivan's opening night. it's tomorrow. but i really doubt mum's gonna allow. bleagh. sorry.
i wanna go for kenny g's concert! HE'S STILL ALIVE!! i never knew! 20th jan '06. any takers? any kind souls who drown in music from the saxophone? any amazing person who's willing to accompany me? i know kenny g's not the hottest thing in the industry now. but still....!
get it together
you get me high`
8:11 AM
8:11 AM
Sunday, November 27
i still try to look up whenever my teardrops come close
trying to defy gravity
but they were too big and too heavy
carrying with them what felt like daggers
so when one falls
they all fall
like a broken string of pearls
they keep falling
till there's a time when someone comes around
and shower them with enough affection
love
and care
will the string be mended
and the pearls stop falling
it's not an overnight process
but one that needs consistency
these tears of pearls.
trying to defy gravity
but they were too big and too heavy
carrying with them what felt like daggers
so when one falls
they all fall
like a broken string of pearls
they keep falling
till there's a time when someone comes around
and shower them with enough affection
love
and care
will the string be mended
and the pearls stop falling
it's not an overnight process
but one that needs consistency
these tears of pearls.
you get me high`
3:27 AM
3:27 AM
Saturday, November 26
how can you mend a broken heart
you get me high`
8:06 PM
8:06 PM
[fallen leaves]
dont you feel like a fallen leaf sometimes? in life, one always just goes with the flow, being blown around by the wind. sometimes a storm, sometimes just a breeze. when it rains, the raindrops slap you hard across your face, or when the sun is too strong, you wither. technically, you're lifeless, emotionless, and just too used to being pushed around. you've said bye to your branch- perhaps your purpose, just so you can see the world.
the compromises we make when we enter into society, just to experience the world around us. is it worth it? so many people wonder why they're alive, why they exist, what exactly is their purpose on earth? and they just waste their life away, on material things and emotions that they can't carry to their graves.
i guess if you're religious, you're supposed to know that your purpose is to spread the gospel and all. and yet, so many Christians dont seem to think that's a good enough reason. i'm not standing from an almighty point, pointing fingers at fellow peers. i, too, am a victim of these thoughts at times.
we only live once. yet look at the vast lifestyles amongst us. some are so wealthy they dont even know where to place their cash. while some are plagued with all the tragedies in their lives, and yet, they still have to persevere.
i guess what i'm trying to say is, i've seen so many people who are so fortunate, they dont even know it. it's so important to know what your purpose in life is. otherwise, give yourself a dream, a purpose. and work towards it. the journey may be rough, with many bumps and all, but it's better than being a fallen leaf. with no destination, no dreams. just afloat because they get prodded around. sometimes a direction in life can get you far. at least you can say you've achieved something you really wanted or substantial in your life.
i dont know why i'm typing out this entry. i guess i'm tired and my thoughts are all jumbled up. getting a headache. shall fold my clothes then head to bed. yay i know how to use blogger to host pictures now! thanks ivan. (: shall blog abt today soon.
__________________________________________
i'm really sick now and i'm in so much pain. i've been so lonely alll day, and i just dont really care about what's going on at your party. what's the point of sending me smses telling me what you're doing there? other than rubbing it in, i dont know what good comes out of it. i'm glad you're having fun but i just wished that you could multi task at times. when i'm out, i'm constantly msging you. and whenever you're not feeling happy, wherever i am, i'll still take time out to call you and try to cheer you up, and i won't be able to continue having fun with my friends until i'm sure you're okay. but no, it doesn't matter to you when i say bye but i sound like shit. you can still put down the phone and continue with your game. i hate it everytime you put your games and your pool before me. i'm gloomy, i'm tired. and i just wanna hear your voice. but not only at one thirty in the morning, after waiting for ages for your phone call, and in the end, i still have to call. this was what i meant by being tired of, it's not us that i dont want. but it's this that i dont want. you can call me hard to please, like what everyone thinks. but really, is it too much to ask for?
lean on me
you get me high`
8:34 AM
8:34 AM
Friday, November 25
[what took you forever]
alright. let's get down to blogging.
i've changed my template back, i didnt like the previous one, really.
i've just been diagnosed with tonsil infection and i'm hating it. it hurts, really. like hell. i could hardly sleep last night, and i hope that doesn't repeat tonight. sleep's really important. smiles. and i'm coughing so much, my chest hurts. i think i can feel my lungs being inflated and deflated too rapidly and too constantly. really painful. bleagh. been binging on strepsils. thank heavens it isn't fattening. just that it's a laxative, and i think it's taking its toll. the trip to the restroom would be much needed soon, i believe. my antibiotics are cool, and strong, i think.
okay i might put pictures of my last few nights out later. if i've got the energy, and the medicine doesn't get me too drowsy.
so last night was interested. was at fling with jess and david. tons of people there, haha all the underaged khakis hanging out together. started off really boring. and i mean, reallllyyyy boring. even when people started heading out to the dance floor. it was still a bore. you could see those people who thought they danced really well, just cause they knew how to shake to some strange music. what wrong impressions they had. guess it was really boring for jess and i, cause there were so many people, you could hardly move. just from side to side. and side to side again. but i guess things kinda warmed up after awhile, get accustomed to moving around in circles. but what was disgusting, were the girls who were dancing and touching themselves thinking they looked really hot. i'd bet they wouldn't dare to dance like that if it were a real clubbing day, with older men around, and alcohol and cigarettes. really just walking into the lion's den.
met quite a few friends though. from church to school to random friends. tried to pull josh to dance, but he stood firm in wanting to look cool and not dancing. haha. oh well. a night quite different from my usual nights out. good exercise too, i'd say. ah well. chinablack's kinda overrated though. nothing as good as it has been made to sound like.
ah well, so we all grabbed food from the makeshift newton, and cabbed home! where we watched saw, till five in the morning, then we all fell asleep. haha. woke up around one in the afternoon. haha.
anyway, david brought me to see the docs for my throat. sigh. still hurts like mad. hope i can sleeppppp.
just had a good talk with a few friends. makes me feel happier. after accepting the fact, now he tells me something else. sigh. derek you're done! give me a call k! (:
narcism!
alma mata. quite a bore. ling, char, cha, yilun.
i hate the flash.
day out with nick! the last shot was candid, so we both look kinda weird. haha.
i still need permission to put up pictures of david and i, then i can say, my two best boys! haha ivan, you jealous thing.
fling@chinablack. (:
i like to move it move it
alright. let's get down to blogging.
i've changed my template back, i didnt like the previous one, really.
i've just been diagnosed with tonsil infection and i'm hating it. it hurts, really. like hell. i could hardly sleep last night, and i hope that doesn't repeat tonight. sleep's really important. smiles. and i'm coughing so much, my chest hurts. i think i can feel my lungs being inflated and deflated too rapidly and too constantly. really painful. bleagh. been binging on strepsils. thank heavens it isn't fattening. just that it's a laxative, and i think it's taking its toll. the trip to the restroom would be much needed soon, i believe. my antibiotics are cool, and strong, i think.
okay i might put pictures of my last few nights out later. if i've got the energy, and the medicine doesn't get me too drowsy.
so last night was interested. was at fling with jess and david. tons of people there, haha all the underaged khakis hanging out together. started off really boring. and i mean, reallllyyyy boring. even when people started heading out to the dance floor. it was still a bore. you could see those people who thought they danced really well, just cause they knew how to shake to some strange music. what wrong impressions they had. guess it was really boring for jess and i, cause there were so many people, you could hardly move. just from side to side. and side to side again. but i guess things kinda warmed up after awhile, get accustomed to moving around in circles. but what was disgusting, were the girls who were dancing and touching themselves thinking they looked really hot. i'd bet they wouldn't dare to dance like that if it were a real clubbing day, with older men around, and alcohol and cigarettes. really just walking into the lion's den.
met quite a few friends though. from church to school to random friends. tried to pull josh to dance, but he stood firm in wanting to look cool and not dancing. haha. oh well. a night quite different from my usual nights out. good exercise too, i'd say. ah well. chinablack's kinda overrated though. nothing as good as it has been made to sound like.
ah well, so we all grabbed food from the makeshift newton, and cabbed home! where we watched saw, till five in the morning, then we all fell asleep. haha. woke up around one in the afternoon. haha.
anyway, david brought me to see the docs for my throat. sigh. still hurts like mad. hope i can sleeppppp.
just had a good talk with a few friends. makes me feel happier. after accepting the fact, now he tells me something else. sigh. derek you're done! give me a call k! (:
narcism!
alma mata. quite a bore. ling, char, cha, yilun.
i hate the flash.
day out with nick! the last shot was candid, so we both look kinda weird. haha.
i still need permission to put up pictures of david and i, then i can say, my two best boys! haha ivan, you jealous thing.
fling@chinablack. (:
i like to move it move it
you get me high`
9:37 AM
9:37 AM
Thursday, November 24
argh, everyone's been saying my blog's inaccessible.
i hope changing the template works
though it's really just temporary
i like my previous one better.
dont really like the word sucide.
plus how the boxes look.
bleagh.
okay will blog again soon
bout my fun night out yesterday. (:
i hope changing the template works
though it's really just temporary
i like my previous one better.
dont really like the word sucide.
plus how the boxes look.
bleagh.
okay will blog again soon
bout my fun night out yesterday. (:
you get me high`
10:23 PM
10:23 PM
Tuesday, November 22
[unbreakable]
post alma mata. been alright i guess.
havent had the time and energy to blog. it is quite time consuming.
let's see. been out quite a bit.
shopping, meeting friends, hanging.
i realise life is rather straightforward these days
nothing to be philosophical about.
no chance to sound vaguely profound about anything
cause it's just quite routine. quite repetitive.
but i like this repetition.
unlike the school agenda
well, had better relax before jc starts
it's gonna be really hectic. really busy.
really scandalous. really hypocritical.
something inside wished i had applied to IB.
like cheryl.
but yet something inside's holding me back.
i know what it is. but it's a silly reason.
the reason why i wanna apply for medicine
the reason why i do so many things the way i do
but nonetheless, a stupid reason.
well let's see.
went out with nick to buy his grad night stuff.
first time in my life he seemed so enthu to go out.
stupid, cause it's buying his own stuff.
it's nice to know that though we dont talk much these days
cause our schedules are just way too packed
when we meet, we still talk about anything under the sun.
good friends will always be good friends i guess?
whether you talk once in awhile
or you talk every day.
best examples, nick and dada.
my two best boys!
talk to one every day
and yet the other, really seldom. ladeedoo.
anyway heard he looked quite hot at grad night
that's good.
and that's all my work.
hahaha. ((: it was fun.
been out with david quite a bit. watching vcds and all.
funfun. ((:
holidays are good.
post Os euphoria's even better.
right dear?
yes kate we gotta go out.
call me! (:
was out with nigel last night.
met him for dinner.
haha it was fun, catching up.
though there were awkward silences here and there.
heh.
(: had fun nonetheless.
and i got my borders' notebook!
yayy.
oh crap i think im running late.
gotta get to coro! ahh!
okay seeyah!
couldn't drag me away
post alma mata. been alright i guess.
havent had the time and energy to blog. it is quite time consuming.
let's see. been out quite a bit.
shopping, meeting friends, hanging.
i realise life is rather straightforward these days
nothing to be philosophical about.
no chance to sound vaguely profound about anything
cause it's just quite routine. quite repetitive.
but i like this repetition.
unlike the school agenda
well, had better relax before jc starts
it's gonna be really hectic. really busy.
really scandalous. really hypocritical.
something inside wished i had applied to IB.
like cheryl.
but yet something inside's holding me back.
i know what it is. but it's a silly reason.
the reason why i wanna apply for medicine
the reason why i do so many things the way i do
but nonetheless, a stupid reason.
well let's see.
went out with nick to buy his grad night stuff.
first time in my life he seemed so enthu to go out.
stupid, cause it's buying his own stuff.
it's nice to know that though we dont talk much these days
cause our schedules are just way too packed
when we meet, we still talk about anything under the sun.
good friends will always be good friends i guess?
whether you talk once in awhile
or you talk every day.
best examples, nick and dada.
my two best boys!
talk to one every day
and yet the other, really seldom. ladeedoo.
anyway heard he looked quite hot at grad night
that's good.
and that's all my work.
hahaha. ((: it was fun.
been out with david quite a bit. watching vcds and all.
funfun. ((:
holidays are good.
post Os euphoria's even better.
right dear?
yes kate we gotta go out.
call me! (:
was out with nigel last night.
met him for dinner.
haha it was fun, catching up.
though there were awkward silences here and there.
heh.
(: had fun nonetheless.
and i got my borders' notebook!
yayy.
oh crap i think im running late.
gotta get to coro! ahh!
okay seeyah!
couldn't drag me away
you get me high`
5:57 PM
5:57 PM
Saturday, November 19
i love catching up with old friends.
had a nice long sms chat with nigel today.
probably catch up with him on monday for dinner too.
yay.
bedtime.
had a nice long sms chat with nigel today.
probably catch up with him on monday for dinner too.
yay.
bedtime.
you get me high`
8:11 AM
8:11 AM
Friday, November 18
[so many people on this merry-go-round]
sorry i haven't been blogging. i haven't had the time and the energy.
ah well.
it's been, ivan's place, prom, harrypotter. haha.
so wednesday was at ivan's.
HAHA. it was quite funny. we were supposed to meet at seven at his place, but i told him i'll be there early and he said it was fine! so i got there at like 645, but he was stuck, he couldnt get a cab, for like an hour. so he hopped on some bus to nowhere! wow! haha he got me in his house first, and i had quite a lot of fun scattering around, tyring to work his gadgets. like, turning on the tv using the remote that looked like a pda. haha. ivan your room's DAMN MESSY! haha. ah well. then darren was in the cab and there was some hoo-ha cause the driver didn't wanna wait for ivan, so he ended up coming first. so we both watched friends till the great one arrived.
had dinner, macs, by the pool. and in the darkness cause somehow the lights decided to go off while we eating. :| then we finally got down to rehearsing. i think all went quite well, quite smoothly. ((: yay.
thursday was alma mata.
and to be honest, it was hell boring. taking pictures. and pictures. and more pictures. plus the programme was kinda dodgy. ah well, wasn't expecting much either. oh plus the food wasn't great. haha. OH WELL. so after prom, which ended at 11, ling's mum gave us a ride back to my place, where all three of us, ling cha and i crashed and watched vcds. the first one we watched was really boring and outta point, and by the time we watched wicker park, annalyn was half asleep, and i was getting sleepy. so in the end, annalyn and i slept, while cha watched the show and read my book. which i thought was kinda weird, but she was okay with it, so oh well. okay. anyway they all left in the morning. yawnss. kinda boring. but it's weird that prom's over now. so weird.
friday was my night out!
met david at 6ish,7. had dinner. was highly annoyed for that one hour or so, but nevermind. rah. then we headed off to cine was harry potter. the show wasn't that great i guess, but at least i liked the company. (: anyway he sent me home after the show, and stayed on to watch tv with me! yayy. haha. we got home at around twelve thirty? and he stayed till about 135,145. and he put me to bed. hahaha. cause i was really sleepy. then he went off. ): oh well. the Os ARE OVER! now i can have more time, before he flies away and leaves me alone. ):
fion's wedding today! haha. dont think i'll go for the reception. but should be able to make it for the dinner. ahh well. i'd better get going then. i'll post pictures up soon, but not too many, narcism puts me off at times. (:
take comfort in a friend
sorry i haven't been blogging. i haven't had the time and the energy.
ah well.
it's been, ivan's place, prom, harrypotter. haha.
so wednesday was at ivan's.
HAHA. it was quite funny. we were supposed to meet at seven at his place, but i told him i'll be there early and he said it was fine! so i got there at like 645, but he was stuck, he couldnt get a cab, for like an hour. so he hopped on some bus to nowhere! wow! haha he got me in his house first, and i had quite a lot of fun scattering around, tyring to work his gadgets. like, turning on the tv using the remote that looked like a pda. haha. ivan your room's DAMN MESSY! haha. ah well. then darren was in the cab and there was some hoo-ha cause the driver didn't wanna wait for ivan, so he ended up coming first. so we both watched friends till the great one arrived.
had dinner, macs, by the pool. and in the darkness cause somehow the lights decided to go off while we eating. :| then we finally got down to rehearsing. i think all went quite well, quite smoothly. ((: yay.
thursday was alma mata.
and to be honest, it was hell boring. taking pictures. and pictures. and more pictures. plus the programme was kinda dodgy. ah well, wasn't expecting much either. oh plus the food wasn't great. haha. OH WELL. so after prom, which ended at 11, ling's mum gave us a ride back to my place, where all three of us, ling cha and i crashed and watched vcds. the first one we watched was really boring and outta point, and by the time we watched wicker park, annalyn was half asleep, and i was getting sleepy. so in the end, annalyn and i slept, while cha watched the show and read my book. which i thought was kinda weird, but she was okay with it, so oh well. okay. anyway they all left in the morning. yawnss. kinda boring. but it's weird that prom's over now. so weird.
friday was my night out!
met david at 6ish,7. had dinner. was highly annoyed for that one hour or so, but nevermind. rah. then we headed off to cine was harry potter. the show wasn't that great i guess, but at least i liked the company. (: anyway he sent me home after the show, and stayed on to watch tv with me! yayy. haha. we got home at around twelve thirty? and he stayed till about 135,145. and he put me to bed. hahaha. cause i was really sleepy. then he went off. ): oh well. the Os ARE OVER! now i can have more time, before he flies away and leaves me alone. ):
fion's wedding today! haha. dont think i'll go for the reception. but should be able to make it for the dinner. ahh well. i'd better get going then. i'll post pictures up soon, but not too many, narcism puts me off at times. (:
take comfort in a friend
you get me high`
8:09 PM
8:09 PM
Monday, November 14
[heavenbent]
hey world. (:
have been too busy unpacking and stuff to blog.
and uploading my pictures.
hmm. so maybe i'll put pictures up!
so if you're not a fan of narcism, do leave.
didn't take much in hk though, mostly just annalyn and my face.
scenary isn't great there.
but oh well, the shopping was good! ((:
will blog about my trip....soon.
so we shall start from the last day of school! (:
jamie, cheryl s, lei, and ling! (:
ah i'm too lazy to put up the rest. heh.
hk! (:
on the plane, with the redhaired annalyn.
and other random pictures of us and mum.
hongkong has really weird signs and things...
first sign was at the airport;
second's the view from the hotel room. check out how cramp it is.
third's just chauvinistic;
fourth's hongkong's version of guardian. HAHA. so patriarchal too huh. 'man'nings.
and of course. the best pictures in the world!
taken by yours truly.
model played by kaitlyn ng. hahaha.
hahaha. cute, innit.
((:
if you can't view the pictures, just right click and try 'view image'.
whee.
it's 2am! bedtime!
thankyou
hey world. (:
have been too busy unpacking and stuff to blog.
and uploading my pictures.
hmm. so maybe i'll put pictures up!
so if you're not a fan of narcism, do leave.
didn't take much in hk though, mostly just annalyn and my face.
scenary isn't great there.
but oh well, the shopping was good! ((:
will blog about my trip....soon.
so we shall start from the last day of school! (:
jamie, cheryl s, lei, and ling! (:
ah i'm too lazy to put up the rest. heh.
hk! (:
on the plane, with the redhaired annalyn.
and other random pictures of us and mum.
hongkong has really weird signs and things...
first sign was at the airport;
second's the view from the hotel room. check out how cramp it is.
third's just chauvinistic;
fourth's hongkong's version of guardian. HAHA. so patriarchal too huh. 'man'nings.
and of course. the best pictures in the world!
taken by yours truly.
model played by kaitlyn ng. hahaha.
hahaha. cute, innit.
((:
if you can't view the pictures, just right click and try 'view image'.
whee.
it's 2am! bedtime!
thankyou
you get me high`
9:31 AM
9:31 AM
Thursday, November 10
in hongkong now! third day here.
i've got internet here! whee.
it's really tiring.
sorry baby i haven't had time to reply your email today.
tomorrow k? (:
was talking to you on msn larh.
just had a REALLY GOOD seafood meal.
woohooo.
okay mummy needs the computer.
i wanna go home though.
homeeeeeee.
HIIII JESSSS!! (((:
nostalgia's a powerful thing.
i've got internet here! whee.
it's really tiring.
sorry baby i haven't had time to reply your email today.
tomorrow k? (:
was talking to you on msn larh.
just had a REALLY GOOD seafood meal.
woohooo.
okay mummy needs the computer.
i wanna go home though.
homeeeeeee.
HIIII JESSSS!! (((:
nostalgia's a powerful thing.
you get me high`
6:30 AM
6:30 AM
Friday, November 4
[the beginning of an end]
so yesterday concluded my four years in the home of rgs. it was once my dream school, my goal. so i worked hard for it. i slogged for it. and with an acceptable aggregate, i managed to enter the school. rgs has seen me through manymany struggles. some of which i grit my teeth and courageously fight through the battle, yet there are others that i face with tears welled up. so much for that dream of mine, the first two years were really quite crap. probably the class, but i wouldn't blame it on them entirely. i wasn't a great person, i do admit. but nonetheless, i really didn't enjoy myself. i vividly remember how i always told julian that i wanted to transfer out out out. cause my school and class was crap. and best of all, to transfer to tanglin int. for more reasons than one. (: sec two was the worst, i'd believe. having the people who you THINK are the closest to you, talking behind your backs, making up stories, and telling the teachers. getting me into SO much trouble. i wasn't the most studious kid around, but it's absolute crap, and i really despised them for that. ESPECIALLY when they end up materialising the stories that they told of me. but forgiveness took place, though i dont really know where forgetness went. i guess it just cut deep.
but after many prayers and even more prayers, 309'04 was an amazing class. kind, caring, mostly studious, but yet so sweet. until today, i've never seen a very big argument arise in our class. but though my classmates were awesome, there were a few times i stepped on the teachers' toes, which didn't win me great repercussions. nevertheless, the year was a much enjoyed one. and in sec 4, probably the best year of all, other than the hypocrisy i was met with during choir, i loved it. things started to fall into place, my teachers were great, classmates still fantabulous, and i was a lot more focused. my grades started to improve, though it never reached an admirable cliff, i was still pleased. cause hardwork pays off, doesnt it.
and now, as we go on to year5. i dont know if i'm looking forward to it. leaving the compound of rgs, knowing i'm never gonna sing the school song in that silly amphitheatre, nor sit at the back in class laughing my guts out with cha, nor crossing classes to pass letters to xiaoyu. the routines have got to change, and there will be other things in my agenda in the years to come.
despite everything i went through, i wouldn't have chosen another secondary school to attend if i were given a second chance. for in this school, i have matured, and learnt values that other schools may not be able to impart. (and i love our cheers, heh) and there'll be so many memories left behind. but alas, let us not live in the past (like i'm still living in 6L), but move on and face year 5 with courage and zest. for there'll be different sorts of challenges, and again, we will learn, and we will improve.
so to 409'05,
you rock.
and to rgs,
thank you.
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so after school yesterday, we went to marche for a really late lunch. had to rush off cause i needed to go home and change for the award show. which got me really stressed cause ivan said you had to dress up. and hell i dont really like to dress up, i only like to stick to my spunky hat look. haha. but oh well, got dressed, then rushed to suntec to meet jesso. everything was really last minute.
the award show was okay i guess. really good seats, so thank you ivan for that. i guess most of them sound better live. like JJ for example. sounds...less annoying. haha. anyway it dragged on till very late, madness. everything ended like past eleven thirty.
so ivan jess and i went to gluttonbay for supper. quite fun. packed the food and sat by the river...in semi-darkness. enjoyed that little time we had. mum came at five to one, got home in twenty minutes. then bedtime!
woke up kinda late. haha. met daaa for lunch. whee. last time i'm gonna meet him in two weeks i believe. sigh. ): i dont even have the mood to continue blogging anymore. SIGH.
anyways. i'll be flying to hk on tuesday. so if i dont blog till then, ta! (: will be back saturday midnight.
it's not over yet
so yesterday concluded my four years in the home of rgs. it was once my dream school, my goal. so i worked hard for it. i slogged for it. and with an acceptable aggregate, i managed to enter the school. rgs has seen me through manymany struggles. some of which i grit my teeth and courageously fight through the battle, yet there are others that i face with tears welled up. so much for that dream of mine, the first two years were really quite crap. probably the class, but i wouldn't blame it on them entirely. i wasn't a great person, i do admit. but nonetheless, i really didn't enjoy myself. i vividly remember how i always told julian that i wanted to transfer out out out. cause my school and class was crap. and best of all, to transfer to tanglin int. for more reasons than one. (: sec two was the worst, i'd believe. having the people who you THINK are the closest to you, talking behind your backs, making up stories, and telling the teachers. getting me into SO much trouble. i wasn't the most studious kid around, but it's absolute crap, and i really despised them for that. ESPECIALLY when they end up materialising the stories that they told of me. but forgiveness took place, though i dont really know where forgetness went. i guess it just cut deep.
but after many prayers and even more prayers, 309'04 was an amazing class. kind, caring, mostly studious, but yet so sweet. until today, i've never seen a very big argument arise in our class. but though my classmates were awesome, there were a few times i stepped on the teachers' toes, which didn't win me great repercussions. nevertheless, the year was a much enjoyed one. and in sec 4, probably the best year of all, other than the hypocrisy i was met with during choir, i loved it. things started to fall into place, my teachers were great, classmates still fantabulous, and i was a lot more focused. my grades started to improve, though it never reached an admirable cliff, i was still pleased. cause hardwork pays off, doesnt it.
and now, as we go on to year5. i dont know if i'm looking forward to it. leaving the compound of rgs, knowing i'm never gonna sing the school song in that silly amphitheatre, nor sit at the back in class laughing my guts out with cha, nor crossing classes to pass letters to xiaoyu. the routines have got to change, and there will be other things in my agenda in the years to come.
despite everything i went through, i wouldn't have chosen another secondary school to attend if i were given a second chance. for in this school, i have matured, and learnt values that other schools may not be able to impart. (and i love our cheers, heh) and there'll be so many memories left behind. but alas, let us not live in the past (like i'm still living in 6L), but move on and face year 5 with courage and zest. for there'll be different sorts of challenges, and again, we will learn, and we will improve.
so to 409'05,
you rock.
and to rgs,
thank you.
__________________________________________________
so after school yesterday, we went to marche for a really late lunch. had to rush off cause i needed to go home and change for the award show. which got me really stressed cause ivan said you had to dress up. and hell i dont really like to dress up, i only like to stick to my spunky hat look. haha. but oh well, got dressed, then rushed to suntec to meet jesso. everything was really last minute.
the award show was okay i guess. really good seats, so thank you ivan for that. i guess most of them sound better live. like JJ for example. sounds...less annoying. haha. anyway it dragged on till very late, madness. everything ended like past eleven thirty.
so ivan jess and i went to gluttonbay for supper. quite fun. packed the food and sat by the river...in semi-darkness. enjoyed that little time we had. mum came at five to one, got home in twenty minutes. then bedtime!
woke up kinda late. haha. met daaa for lunch. whee. last time i'm gonna meet him in two weeks i believe. sigh. ): i dont even have the mood to continue blogging anymore. SIGH.
anyways. i'll be flying to hk on tuesday. so if i dont blog till then, ta! (: will be back saturday midnight.
it's not over yet
you get me high`
11:50 PM
11:50 PM
[beautiful memories]
walking down the riverside
everyone around me seems to be two by two
yet i'm so alone
all by myself
its been awhile since i see twos
and i wished my hand were in someone's
it's just nostalgia
believe me
and forgive me
i guess i just miss you
but it's okay
all will be well in two weeks
i can wait
i will try to wait
and to be strong during this time
to occupy myself
cause i'm not that reliant
but you have been part of my daily agenda
and it's just hard to change one's usual habits
but all will be well
i just have to wait awhile
time will pass like a flash
before i know it
i'll be tucked in your arms again
safe and sound
i know i will
for now
i just have to wait
and good comes to those who wait
we always say absence makes the heart grow fonder
i do hope that is true
satisfation
walking down the riverside
everyone around me seems to be two by two
yet i'm so alone
all by myself
its been awhile since i see twos
and i wished my hand were in someone's
it's just nostalgia
believe me
and forgive me
i guess i just miss you
but it's okay
all will be well in two weeks
i can wait
i will try to wait
and to be strong during this time
to occupy myself
cause i'm not that reliant
but you have been part of my daily agenda
and it's just hard to change one's usual habits
but all will be well
i just have to wait awhile
time will pass like a flash
before i know it
i'll be tucked in your arms again
safe and sound
i know i will
for now
i just have to wait
and good comes to those who wait
we always say absence makes the heart grow fonder
i do hope that is true
satisfation
you get me high`
9:37 AM
9:37 AM
Tuesday, November 1
[crazy little thing called love]
these few days have rocked my socks. woohoo.
my very gay socks, according to ivan.
yesterday! hcl Os.
you know who woke me up?
my baby!! (((:
he collaborated with my mummy to come in the morning!
though baby didnt have school
he still woke up at 530 to come down!
awww i'm so touched
he even brought breakfast for himself mummy and me!
then he plonked on my bed when it was time to wake me
and gave me a bigggbigggg hug.
awww it made my whole dayy!
and because of my nice breakfast
i wasn't hungry between the chinese papers.
yayy. happiness.
(((:
so the papers were okay i guess.
hopefully i'll do well
if i dont pass i'll go jump
haha.
then i met baby again after my papers
rented 'wimbledon' to watch
(: so funn.
loveeees.
smilesmile*
then met jess and cha for halloween!
we were nice pretty fairies.
it was super fun!
okay other than... some parts of it.
spotted another hot caucasian guy
haha.
we're the epitome of getting high without alcohol
hahahaha. funfun.
just that we didn't get that much candy this year
sigh
oh well.
then cha left at ten
jess and i went to cine's tcc.
haha they were decorated for halloween too
so funny.
we were still wearing our wings
even on the mrt
haha.
got home at midnight.
was sooo blimmin' tired.
woke up for violin early this morning
kinda got screwed cause my intonation was quite off
haha. then met dada for lunch.
whee happyhappy
then i had to stone for an hour and a half after he left
humph.
headed to ivan's
haha omg jamming was so funny
with jerrold. HAHA.
darren and i were rather amused, it seems.
hahaha. had quite a bit of fun
jamming's fun with lovers of music
haha fun fun.
stayed there till after dinner
(: thanks for having me over!
whee.
okok SOMEONES NAGGING FOR ME TO SLEEEEP.
no it's not my mum.
*smiles*
HAPPY FIFTH MONTHHH!!
it's you and me
these few days have rocked my socks. woohoo.
my very gay socks, according to ivan.
yesterday! hcl Os.
you know who woke me up?
my baby!! (((:
he collaborated with my mummy to come in the morning!
though baby didnt have school
he still woke up at 530 to come down!
awww i'm so touched
he even brought breakfast for himself mummy and me!
then he plonked on my bed when it was time to wake me
and gave me a bigggbigggg hug.
awww it made my whole dayy!
and because of my nice breakfast
i wasn't hungry between the chinese papers.
yayy. happiness.
(((:
so the papers were okay i guess.
hopefully i'll do well
if i dont pass i'll go jump
haha.
then i met baby again after my papers
rented 'wimbledon' to watch
(: so funn.
loveeees.
smilesmile*
then met jess and cha for halloween!
we were nice pretty fairies.
it was super fun!
okay other than... some parts of it.
spotted another hot caucasian guy
haha.
we're the epitome of getting high without alcohol
hahahaha. funfun.
just that we didn't get that much candy this year
sigh
oh well.
then cha left at ten
jess and i went to cine's tcc.
haha they were decorated for halloween too
so funny.
we were still wearing our wings
even on the mrt
haha.
got home at midnight.
was sooo blimmin' tired.
woke up for violin early this morning
kinda got screwed cause my intonation was quite off
haha. then met dada for lunch.
whee happyhappy
then i had to stone for an hour and a half after he left
humph.
headed to ivan's
haha omg jamming was so funny
with jerrold. HAHA.
darren and i were rather amused, it seems.
hahaha. had quite a bit of fun
jamming's fun with lovers of music
haha fun fun.
stayed there till after dinner
(: thanks for having me over!
whee.
okok SOMEONES NAGGING FOR ME TO SLEEEEP.
no it's not my mum.
*smiles*
HAPPY FIFTH MONTHHH!!
it's you and me
you get me high`
7:52 AM
7:52 AM