Friday, December 30
i don't know if i'm ready to talk to the world yet,
inside i'm still hurting like mad.
but i'm trying to mend it, and to love as much as i did before.
and i think i'd like to sum up my 2005.
this year's been a very eventful year for me.
starting from school, i think i've worked the hardest in the four years of secondary school. and i ended off the year with results that i'm actually really pleased with. just that they got pulled down cause of a few slips during the midyears. my walk through rg has been a rather tough one, with many misunderstandings, sabotage, and hypocrisy. but yet i made it through, that by itself deserves a pat on my shoulder. and though i didn't do too much for choir, i think i learnt a really good lesson from the four years of choir, and i saw through most of their facades, knowing who my true friends are. but i will miss my juniors, like my joojoo. (: but i think i miss my seniors more, so yay i getta see ivee more next year.
well in 2005, i managed to pass my grade 8 piano with a merit, something i never dreamt i could have done. with the help of a fantastically patient piano teacher, and support from my mum, brother, dada, and even my neighbours who were there with me during the exam as mummy was abroad.
also, i managed to take up two dance lessons a week, which is something i've always wanted to do. and yet know enough not to compromise my studies.
and this year, i was blessed to have my da. someone who has encouraged me so much, and has been there for me all the time. teaching me and guiding me, and trying to make me a more confident person. (: smilesmile.
furthermore, i built on friendships that i really treasured. with ivan, mikh, josh, bj, xiaoyu, derek, nick etcetc. and i always thank God for friends like lenard who's always there, though we may not have time to meet up and always talk. sorry sorry my bad, i'm gonna msg you to have ice cream with me tomorrow.
and most importantly, i believe in the span of this year, i've grown closer to God, and really tried to be a better person according to His standards. though i may fall short sometimes, i really am trying, and i know that He sees that. (:
so,
new year resolutions:
-continue to spend quiet time with God obediently every day of 2006,
-study hard. very hard.
-learn to treasure friendships i've been blessed with, and to learn to forgive those that i hold grudges against.
-work with da to build a good r/s. (:
i've been out with jjemss lately! spending new year's eve with them and all. that includes jay, cyn, mikh, me, josh and amy. but nye was just with bj mikh and cyn. which was just bucketloads of fun. thanks you guys, probably one of my greatest nye, cause i usually just spend it at home watching tv with mum. ((: did a whole lot of crappy things, can someone scan in the neos? i'll put up pictures soon. promise! (: anyway cyn couldn't come to my place after that. ): but the guys still came and had supper, and stayed in my brother's room, while i drifted off to dreamland in my nice cosy room.
it's been raining tons lately, and school's starting. i'm getting the jitters. jc, a new system, a new crowd. plus I DONT KNOW WHO ELSE IS IN MY OG. AHH. so that really sucks. ): should have asked me ogl. but i've been praying and i've commited everything to the Big Guy up there, haha. so He knows what to do.
anyway i went for a friend's baptism today, then had teochew porridge with the rest of the family friends. aunty ruth was there- this woman i've always admired for her strong faith; she's amazing. when you're with her, you really see how she willingly commits every single detail of her life to God, and then how she's so richly blessed. (: anyway i wasn't feeling very well, so nice aunty ruth said a little prayer for me, and i felt a lot better after that. (: might sound cheesy, but it's quite miraculous actually.
and now i've gotta go to my aunt's for dinner. so i'll blog soon. and annalyn that was a very insensitive thing to say. why instead of asking me what happened and trying to be a friend about the whole thing, you had to say something to insolent. sigh.
be still, and know that He is God.
inside i'm still hurting like mad.
but i'm trying to mend it, and to love as much as i did before.
and i think i'd like to sum up my 2005.
this year's been a very eventful year for me.
starting from school, i think i've worked the hardest in the four years of secondary school. and i ended off the year with results that i'm actually really pleased with. just that they got pulled down cause of a few slips during the midyears. my walk through rg has been a rather tough one, with many misunderstandings, sabotage, and hypocrisy. but yet i made it through, that by itself deserves a pat on my shoulder. and though i didn't do too much for choir, i think i learnt a really good lesson from the four years of choir, and i saw through most of their facades, knowing who my true friends are. but i will miss my juniors, like my joojoo. (: but i think i miss my seniors more, so yay i getta see ivee more next year.
well in 2005, i managed to pass my grade 8 piano with a merit, something i never dreamt i could have done. with the help of a fantastically patient piano teacher, and support from my mum, brother, dada, and even my neighbours who were there with me during the exam as mummy was abroad.
also, i managed to take up two dance lessons a week, which is something i've always wanted to do. and yet know enough not to compromise my studies.
and this year, i was blessed to have my da. someone who has encouraged me so much, and has been there for me all the time. teaching me and guiding me, and trying to make me a more confident person. (: smilesmile.
furthermore, i built on friendships that i really treasured. with ivan, mikh, josh, bj, xiaoyu, derek, nick etcetc. and i always thank God for friends like lenard who's always there, though we may not have time to meet up and always talk. sorry sorry my bad, i'm gonna msg you to have ice cream with me tomorrow.
and most importantly, i believe in the span of this year, i've grown closer to God, and really tried to be a better person according to His standards. though i may fall short sometimes, i really am trying, and i know that He sees that. (:
so,
new year resolutions:
-continue to spend quiet time with God obediently every day of 2006,
-study hard. very hard.
-learn to treasure friendships i've been blessed with, and to learn to forgive those that i hold grudges against.
-work with da to build a good r/s. (:
i've been out with jjemss lately! spending new year's eve with them and all. that includes jay, cyn, mikh, me, josh and amy. but nye was just with bj mikh and cyn. which was just bucketloads of fun. thanks you guys, probably one of my greatest nye, cause i usually just spend it at home watching tv with mum. ((: did a whole lot of crappy things, can someone scan in the neos? i'll put up pictures soon. promise! (: anyway cyn couldn't come to my place after that. ): but the guys still came and had supper, and stayed in my brother's room, while i drifted off to dreamland in my nice cosy room.
it's been raining tons lately, and school's starting. i'm getting the jitters. jc, a new system, a new crowd. plus I DONT KNOW WHO ELSE IS IN MY OG. AHH. so that really sucks. ): should have asked me ogl. but i've been praying and i've commited everything to the Big Guy up there, haha. so He knows what to do.
anyway i went for a friend's baptism today, then had teochew porridge with the rest of the family friends. aunty ruth was there- this woman i've always admired for her strong faith; she's amazing. when you're with her, you really see how she willingly commits every single detail of her life to God, and then how she's so richly blessed. (: anyway i wasn't feeling very well, so nice aunty ruth said a little prayer for me, and i felt a lot better after that. (: might sound cheesy, but it's quite miraculous actually.
and now i've gotta go to my aunt's for dinner. so i'll blog soon. and annalyn that was a very insensitive thing to say. why instead of asking me what happened and trying to be a friend about the whole thing, you had to say something to insolent. sigh.
be still, and know that He is God.
you get me high`
5:11 AM
5:11 AM
Monday, December 26
i'm struggling,
i'm going through a really tough time right now.
so i'm sorry to those i haven't been talking to
or responding
or replying to your smses
and the close friends whom i haven't been sharing things with.
sorry.
i just haven't been in the mood to talk.
i hope you guys understand that it's really tough now.
and i'll probably only blog again when i'm ready
to talk to the world again.
so yeah, till then.
thanks for all your msgs,
merry christmas, though a bit late.
i'm going through a really tough time right now.
so i'm sorry to those i haven't been talking to
or responding
or replying to your smses
and the close friends whom i haven't been sharing things with.
sorry.
i just haven't been in the mood to talk.
i hope you guys understand that it's really tough now.
and i'll probably only blog again when i'm ready
to talk to the world again.
so yeah, till then.
thanks for all your msgs,
merry christmas, though a bit late.
you get me high`
5:47 AM
5:47 AM
Friday, December 23
someone once told me this,
now i just dont know what to believe.
i sat in bed and turned my sleepy head
looking into space i catch a glimpse of your lovely face
then someone whispers in my ear
and i turn to see you my dear
as you whisper sweet nothings to me
i think this is how life is meant to be
a perfect picture of you and me
now i just dont know what to believe.
you get me high`
8:40 PM
8:40 PM
Sunday, December 18
[turn me inside out]
alright, i'm quite happy now. feeling less nostalgic. probably gotten more used to it. and dav's coming back down from the mountains soon i believe. which means internet for him. hopehope.
so what have i been doing these days?
let's do this story-illustration style.
well, last tuesday i met xiaoyu. i promised pictures. i won't put up too many cause come on, we took what, 120 shots? haha. photowhores i'm telling you. we had lunch at subway, and coffee at starbucks.
after which, she came over, and we had a fun talking, chatting, and taking more and more pictures!
hmm, the next day was my day out with ivan. no we didn't take pictures. why dont we ever, huh? hmm. had quite a lot of fun walking around shopping for xmas gifts. though he ended up buying more things for himself than his friends. tskkk. but nevermind, all will be forgiven since he's getting me my mickeymouse top! ((: which reminds me, i haven't a clue what to get for him for xmas. you suck! you were supposed to let me get you the cd! grrr.
then i had a nice haircut with freddie!
he scares me, really. terribly feminine, and that usually should be quite approachable. but nah, he's quite freaky. and unfriendly. haha. oh wellies. he cuts good hair. at least something i like. (:
thursday was family dayout! first one in a really long time. so my brother, mum and i headed out to shopshopshop. mostly for my brother's ireland trip stuff. bloody lucky, nevermind. but i never dared to take open pictures with my brother. don't think he'd like it alot. so here's a sneaked one. not that he'll like it very much either, but at least he doesn't know. heh.
so hi ge! if you happen you see this. sorry! (:
well didn't get much done, but i got a top that is just THE LOVE. from zara. but mum made it my xmas present from her. ): nevermind, it's still THE LOVE. haha. hopefully she'll let me go on the 27th, then i can wear it!
well the next few days went by in a flash. i really don't remember what happened, cause i was goggy with depression and nostalgia and just not in the right state of mind. mummy says i'm scared of being left alone, and she says it's not good. quite true, i'd say. so dont leave me alone. |: haha.
okay to be honest, i cant remember much, only remember what happened yesterday.
things started with brunch with nick. no i didn't pictures, i dont know why. haha.
hmm, after that we went to check out my brother's xmas pres. and my beads. and had coffee at starbucks again. hmm. yup then i had to meet my church friends for bible study!
it was yiling suye and i. was quite happy, managed to voice out my views on yz. and help clarify the people's impression of me. suye helped me talked to them today, and i'm happy. ((: nice bs leader. though she's really quite a klutz. bs ended quite late, though. by the time we were done, it was time to head to church for the xmas musical!
before the musical, it was left with kate suye and i. we brought dinner back from macs, and ate in church.
and a lot more, so i wouldn't bother putting them up.
went inside the sanctuary, and we sat with josh and khati (kati? spelling?), jocelyn's friend. thought we'd be friendly and befriend him.
kate josh and i.
we were just bored...
josh and khati.
so the musical was fine. mikh lance jay were in it. along with eudora jocelyn and their whole gang. kinda short though. uncle kianseng ended it with a rather cartoon message, i felt. haha, quite funny. we were making funny faces at the choristers throughout their performance, hoping to make mikh and co laugh. heh.
after the musical was catching up time. (: jay josh mikh kate and i went to the playground to relive the blindman days. we used to love playing that game, twas so long ago. ): childhood days were still the best. but being the cheezeballls we are, we decided to mimick a boyband (think westlife), and make spastic poses.
evidently, bj's cheesy pose was to close his eyes, ahhahaa. clockwise from the guy whose eyes are closed, jay, me, kate, josh, mikh! rather childhood buddies, huh. where's druce.
the day ended and we said bid farewell.
got home, tried to sleep, but i couldn't sleep. so i got up to read till like 5am in the morning. it was hell, my mind was just too active. mummy kept insisting it was cause i missed david. you think?
and thus she didn't let me go for service. it was at 830am, and i wouldn't have had enough sleep. plus i just recovered, and that would just screw everything up again. and neither did she let me go for dance, cause it took up way too much energy.
so i got up later to get to church, cause we were supposed to celebrate josh's birthday. bad hair day! so i grabbed ivan's cap and left the house, haha. met kate there too.
we had fun! taking pictures and all; just having fun.
but not till kate left and i felt really uncomfortable with the remaining gang. yeahhh. so i left too.
so we have the birthday boy...
and the mad boy, mikh. haha. ((:
ever tried flirting with ronald? he's really stiff, though.
met mum, and shopped for awhile. headed home, hoping to sleep, but no she dragged me out to a kiddies' party. where i sat in a corner and read my book most of the time. but there were these two really cute kiddies. twins.
this is shannen,
and this is russell.
and it was a really boring party. but aren't they lovely?
ladeedum. so now i'm sitting here, watching lotr, and wondering how orlando bloom, such a gorgeous being, can exist. (:
random pictures,
jess, the toga i thought you might like!
rah my mum's calling for help. the laundry again. ):
can't wait till you've got internet!
i've missed you. ):
but today was quite fun. gotta sleep soon though. as tired as can be.
going out to buy mum's xmas present tomorrow!
wippeeee.
goodbye to you
alright, i'm quite happy now. feeling less nostalgic. probably gotten more used to it. and dav's coming back down from the mountains soon i believe. which means internet for him. hopehope.
so what have i been doing these days?
let's do this story-illustration style.
well, last tuesday i met xiaoyu. i promised pictures. i won't put up too many cause come on, we took what, 120 shots? haha. photowhores i'm telling you. we had lunch at subway, and coffee at starbucks.
after which, she came over, and we had a fun talking, chatting, and taking more and more pictures!
hmm, the next day was my day out with ivan. no we didn't take pictures. why dont we ever, huh? hmm. had quite a lot of fun walking around shopping for xmas gifts. though he ended up buying more things for himself than his friends. tskkk. but nevermind, all will be forgiven since he's getting me my mickeymouse top! ((: which reminds me, i haven't a clue what to get for him for xmas. you suck! you were supposed to let me get you the cd! grrr.
then i had a nice haircut with freddie!
he scares me, really. terribly feminine, and that usually should be quite approachable. but nah, he's quite freaky. and unfriendly. haha. oh wellies. he cuts good hair. at least something i like. (:
thursday was family dayout! first one in a really long time. so my brother, mum and i headed out to shopshopshop. mostly for my brother's ireland trip stuff. bloody lucky, nevermind. but i never dared to take open pictures with my brother. don't think he'd like it alot. so here's a sneaked one. not that he'll like it very much either, but at least he doesn't know. heh.
so hi ge! if you happen you see this. sorry! (:
well didn't get much done, but i got a top that is just THE LOVE. from zara. but mum made it my xmas present from her. ): nevermind, it's still THE LOVE. haha. hopefully she'll let me go on the 27th, then i can wear it!
well the next few days went by in a flash. i really don't remember what happened, cause i was goggy with depression and nostalgia and just not in the right state of mind. mummy says i'm scared of being left alone, and she says it's not good. quite true, i'd say. so dont leave me alone. |: haha.
okay to be honest, i cant remember much, only remember what happened yesterday.
things started with brunch with nick. no i didn't pictures, i dont know why. haha.
hmm, after that we went to check out my brother's xmas pres. and my beads. and had coffee at starbucks again. hmm. yup then i had to meet my church friends for bible study!
it was yiling suye and i. was quite happy, managed to voice out my views on yz. and help clarify the people's impression of me. suye helped me talked to them today, and i'm happy. ((: nice bs leader. though she's really quite a klutz. bs ended quite late, though. by the time we were done, it was time to head to church for the xmas musical!
before the musical, it was left with kate suye and i. we brought dinner back from macs, and ate in church.
and a lot more, so i wouldn't bother putting them up.
went inside the sanctuary, and we sat with josh and khati (kati? spelling?), jocelyn's friend. thought we'd be friendly and befriend him.
kate josh and i.
we were just bored...
josh and khati.
so the musical was fine. mikh lance jay were in it. along with eudora jocelyn and their whole gang. kinda short though. uncle kianseng ended it with a rather cartoon message, i felt. haha, quite funny. we were making funny faces at the choristers throughout their performance, hoping to make mikh and co laugh. heh.
after the musical was catching up time. (: jay josh mikh kate and i went to the playground to relive the blindman days. we used to love playing that game, twas so long ago. ): childhood days were still the best. but being the cheezeballls we are, we decided to mimick a boyband (think westlife), and make spastic poses.
evidently, bj's cheesy pose was to close his eyes, ahhahaa. clockwise from the guy whose eyes are closed, jay, me, kate, josh, mikh! rather childhood buddies, huh. where's druce.
the day ended and we said bid farewell.
got home, tried to sleep, but i couldn't sleep. so i got up to read till like 5am in the morning. it was hell, my mind was just too active. mummy kept insisting it was cause i missed david. you think?
and thus she didn't let me go for service. it was at 830am, and i wouldn't have had enough sleep. plus i just recovered, and that would just screw everything up again. and neither did she let me go for dance, cause it took up way too much energy.
so i got up later to get to church, cause we were supposed to celebrate josh's birthday. bad hair day! so i grabbed ivan's cap and left the house, haha. met kate there too.
we had fun! taking pictures and all; just having fun.
but not till kate left and i felt really uncomfortable with the remaining gang. yeahhh. so i left too.
so we have the birthday boy...
and the mad boy, mikh. haha. ((:
ever tried flirting with ronald? he's really stiff, though.
met mum, and shopped for awhile. headed home, hoping to sleep, but no she dragged me out to a kiddies' party. where i sat in a corner and read my book most of the time. but there were these two really cute kiddies. twins.
this is shannen,
and this is russell.
and it was a really boring party. but aren't they lovely?
ladeedum. so now i'm sitting here, watching lotr, and wondering how orlando bloom, such a gorgeous being, can exist. (:
random pictures,
jess, the toga i thought you might like!
rah my mum's calling for help. the laundry again. ):
can't wait till you've got internet!
i've missed you. ):
but today was quite fun. gotta sleep soon though. as tired as can be.
going out to buy mum's xmas present tomorrow!
wippeeee.
goodbye to you
you get me high`
5:32 AM
5:32 AM
Thursday, December 15
[serendipity]
last night was depressing. i think i sobbed my way to sleep at 9pm.
so i may know what to do in the day,
but it sucks at night.
when i'm alone in my room.
feeling so lonely.
with no one to talk to, no one to msg.
today's better cause i kept myself occupied with household chores
but the night's creeping in
and i feel the emptiness overwhelming me again.
where are you when i need you.
are you even thinking of me, or is it just one-sided.
just hope it doesn't get too dark for me to see
or too cold for me to breathe....
last night was depressing. i think i sobbed my way to sleep at 9pm.
so i may know what to do in the day,
but it sucks at night.
when i'm alone in my room.
feeling so lonely.
with no one to talk to, no one to msg.
today's better cause i kept myself occupied with household chores
but the night's creeping in
and i feel the emptiness overwhelming me again.
where are you when i need you.
are you even thinking of me, or is it just one-sided.
just hope it doesn't get too dark for me to see
or too cold for me to breathe....
you get me high`
8:15 AM
8:15 AM
Wednesday, December 14
hello earth.
had a nice day out with ivan today. insult-free. then i had a haircut. right.
i'm in no mood to blog now.
-after the emotional trauma, the following has been deleted-
had a nice day out with ivan today. insult-free. then i had a haircut. right.
i'm in no mood to blog now.
-after the emotional trauma, the following has been deleted-
you get me high`
4:47 AM
4:47 AM
Tuesday, December 13
baby if the sun comes up, and i'm not home,
be strong.
if i'm not beside you, do your best to,
carry on.
ahh the nostalgia's killing me.
i'm sitting here talking to myself.
writing notes.
going mad. AHH.
i hug my baby's jumper to sleep every night.
and the sheep he gave me.
i hug two things to sleep every night. ):
________________________________
and anyway, i had breakfast with derek!
i woke up late, so he brought breakfast to the park.
haha, damn should have taken a picture with him.
but i'm glad we met.
had a good chat. it's been awhile. (:
talked about manymany things.
and thanks for the enlightenment on so many things.
(: helped me sort out my thoughts,
helped me be more certain. (: thankyouu
went out with xiaoyu after that!
and we did some serious photowhoring.
we're mad. probably took about.. 120 pictures?
haha. but after awhile the expressions are about the same.
heh.
she came over till dinner,
yayy. finally. a companion.
thanksss for the nice long talk we had.
(: always a good person to talk to.
so photos soon k?
it's kinda late, gotta go to bed.
i finally got my email and blog!
now i miss the phone calls. howww. ):
gonna go shopping with ivan tomorrow.
xmas shopping.
hopefully haircut at 4pm.
hmm. sounds good?
thenn thursday's family shopping day out.
till evening i believe.
friday's just violin at 530pm.
haha. so you know when i'm at home!
just in case you were gonna ring in.
which i doubt. and i'm okay with.
just fyi.
sighh.
ITS ONLY BEEN FOUR DAYS!!!
ONE THIRD OF IT!
somebody SAVVVEEEEE MEEEEE! [think, smallville]
sigh. wonder if you're missing me.
at least i've been talking to my other friends.
catching up. but i do talk to them even when he's not away.
just more, now.
sigh. shall go sleep.
hope i'm lucky and i get my msn, email and blog!
whee.
shall go wear/hug the jumper now. nightynight!
angels brought me to you
be strong.
if i'm not beside you, do your best to,
carry on.
ahh the nostalgia's killing me.
i'm sitting here talking to myself.
writing notes.
going mad. AHH.
i hug my baby's jumper to sleep every night.
and the sheep he gave me.
i hug two things to sleep every night. ):
________________________________
and anyway, i had breakfast with derek!
i woke up late, so he brought breakfast to the park.
haha, damn should have taken a picture with him.
but i'm glad we met.
had a good chat. it's been awhile. (:
talked about manymany things.
and thanks for the enlightenment on so many things.
(: helped me sort out my thoughts,
helped me be more certain. (: thankyouu
went out with xiaoyu after that!
and we did some serious photowhoring.
we're mad. probably took about.. 120 pictures?
haha. but after awhile the expressions are about the same.
heh.
she came over till dinner,
yayy. finally. a companion.
thanksss for the nice long talk we had.
(: always a good person to talk to.
so photos soon k?
it's kinda late, gotta go to bed.
i finally got my email and blog!
now i miss the phone calls. howww. ):
gonna go shopping with ivan tomorrow.
xmas shopping.
hopefully haircut at 4pm.
hmm. sounds good?
thenn thursday's family shopping day out.
till evening i believe.
friday's just violin at 530pm.
haha. so you know when i'm at home!
just in case you were gonna ring in.
which i doubt. and i'm okay with.
just fyi.
sighh.
ITS ONLY BEEN FOUR DAYS!!!
ONE THIRD OF IT!
somebody SAVVVEEEEE MEEEEE! [think, smallville]
sigh. wonder if you're missing me.
at least i've been talking to my other friends.
catching up. but i do talk to them even when he's not away.
just more, now.
sigh. shall go sleep.
hope i'm lucky and i get my msn, email and blog!
whee.
shall go wear/hug the jumper now. nightynight!
angels brought me to you
you get me high`
8:44 AM
8:44 AM
Monday, December 12
[fever when you hold me tight]
just decided to have a change.
but i just took a peek from internet explorer and it looks kinda weird.
looks better on mozilla.
so if it looks ugly, please tell me.
kinda like it from where i am though.
so black and white.. and round.
the words, haha.
getting tired.
i prepared dinner today!
steak, beans, and macaroni&cheese.
super nice. (:
dont really know what to say,
my days have been pretty mundane.
):
no email no blog yesterday.
sigh, thought i could wake up to them.
nevermind, you must have been busy.
or something like that.
hope prague's nice.
ladeedoo.
gotta go help with the garden now.
sigh.
doesn't anyone seem to realise that i'm sick?!
i wanna get lost in your rock and roll
just decided to have a change.
but i just took a peek from internet explorer and it looks kinda weird.
looks better on mozilla.
so if it looks ugly, please tell me.
kinda like it from where i am though.
so black and white.. and round.
the words, haha.
getting tired.
i prepared dinner today!
steak, beans, and macaroni&cheese.
super nice. (:
dont really know what to say,
my days have been pretty mundane.
):
no email no blog yesterday.
sigh, thought i could wake up to them.
nevermind, you must have been busy.
or something like that.
hope prague's nice.
ladeedoo.
gotta go help with the garden now.
sigh.
doesn't anyone seem to realise that i'm sick?!
i wanna get lost in your rock and roll
you get me high`
6:12 AM
6:12 AM
Sunday, December 11
wish you were here
to tuck me into bed
to wipe away my tears
to hug me tight
to tell me that everything's gonna be alright
to promise you'll never leave
to promise things will be the same
to talk to me till the sun comes up....
i wish..
i wish...
i wish...
to tuck me into bed
to wipe away my tears
to hug me tight
to tell me that everything's gonna be alright
to promise you'll never leave
to promise things will be the same
to talk to me till the sun comes up....
i wish..
i wish...
i wish...
you get me high`
9:22 AM
9:22 AM
i'm bored. so i shall post the earrings i've been making... whee.
i'm gonna make earrings for xmas pressies, so if you dont have an earhole,
you're troublesome!
but not earrings for everyone i guess.
my earrings are nice k! i like them a lot. and so does my mum.
just made these for my mum. took a really long time.
my pretty butterfly one. (:
simply retro. whee.
not so clear, but one of my favouriteesss.
ahh i'm too lazy to take pictures of them and post the rest up.
ladeedum.
i'm so bored.
time's passing so slowly.
and i'm still sick.
sulks.
maybe i'll blog later.
gotta eat, i'm starving.
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you can take it all away...
hello. just had a nice bowl of cereal.
dont know why i'm just so hungry today.
it's 1am! just took my cough medicine
waiting for the drowsiness to take effect.
whee. i hope i can sleep tonight.
been sleeping really late the last two nights.
sighh.
nothing planned tmr.
going out with xiaoyu on tuesday.
rehearsals on wednesday,
shopping day for the whole family on thursday,
violin on friday.
which! reminds me, i have to call the piano teacher. AHH.
everyone's outta town, it stinks.
cy, iwan, yuan, derek's leaving soon.
blahh. ):
crap i'm hungry again. i think there're worms in my tummy.
they keep eating up my food. bleah.
rah talked to dav early today. like at 10.
he was taking a rest.
time's passing SO SLOWLY.
it's only been two days. crap.
and the worst thing is that i'm sick
i usually recover faster than this.
i believe the medicine's taking effect. gotta run then.
turra!
gonna change the world
i'm gonna make earrings for xmas pressies, so if you dont have an earhole,
you're troublesome!
but not earrings for everyone i guess.
my earrings are nice k! i like them a lot. and so does my mum.
just made these for my mum. took a really long time.
my pretty butterfly one. (:
simply retro. whee.
not so clear, but one of my favouriteesss.
ahh i'm too lazy to take pictures of them and post the rest up.
ladeedum.
i'm so bored.
time's passing so slowly.
and i'm still sick.
sulks.
maybe i'll blog later.
gotta eat, i'm starving.
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you can take it all away...
hello. just had a nice bowl of cereal.
dont know why i'm just so hungry today.
it's 1am! just took my cough medicine
waiting for the drowsiness to take effect.
whee. i hope i can sleep tonight.
been sleeping really late the last two nights.
sighh.
nothing planned tmr.
going out with xiaoyu on tuesday.
rehearsals on wednesday,
shopping day for the whole family on thursday,
violin on friday.
which! reminds me, i have to call the piano teacher. AHH.
everyone's outta town, it stinks.
cy, iwan, yuan, derek's leaving soon.
blahh. ):
crap i'm hungry again. i think there're worms in my tummy.
they keep eating up my food. bleah.
rah talked to dav early today. like at 10.
he was taking a rest.
time's passing SO SLOWLY.
it's only been two days. crap.
and the worst thing is that i'm sick
i usually recover faster than this.
i believe the medicine's taking effect. gotta run then.
turra!
gonna change the world
you get me high`
4:26 AM
4:26 AM
Saturday, December 10
a promise is a promise in my eyescan't say you're gonna just to compromise
the very thing that keeps two hearts intertwined
a promise is a promise,
you can't deny
there's no way
a promise was made
between the both of us.
my promise was to be less sensitive.
and i promise, i won't keep picking on things you say unintentionally.
i really dont want to.
that way, peace can prevail
and we can stay happy.
that's our promise sign, btw.
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rahrah. day one of his departure.
ladeedoo.
my fever's back again. ): 37.2 deg.
it sucks. bleagh.
no one to wish me goodnight,
sleep tight, sweet dreams, dont let the bed bugs bite.
rahh.
was waiting for a sms to inform me of his arrival,
until i checked my guestbook.
so now i'm waiting for an email.
hope i'll get it. ladeedum.
can't even go outta the house cause i start feeling very terrible after awhile.
): it sucks being sick.
so nvm, i shall blog.
wednesday!
i think i went to dav's place for lunch. yupyup.
then we went out "shopping". wasn't really considered shopping.
and met my mum later on for dinner.
we ate at the bugis food court, then headed to the library for ivan's show.
oi sleeping beauty was quite good.
mummy was impressed (i dont think she thinks very highly of local productions)
but we all enjoyed ourselves anyway.
a nice night out, with a good laugh.
then we went to the makeshift newton for supper.
a lot, of supper. (:
thursday!
met dav at 9am at harbourfront centre.
we hung around and all till we were supposed to meet the rest at 10am.
kate and cyn were quite punctual. jess came shortly after.
josh and jay got there at like.. 1130. 0.o
but anyway, we went to sentosa. siloso.
found a spot, and started playing volley, monkey, and friskbee.
we really need a lot of help, haha.
and we decided to tan. haha.
it got a bit dull after awhile, so we went to kayak.
it was super fun!
needed awhile to get the hang of it, but it was tremendous fun. (:
but my shorts were all wet and disgusting after that. haha.
got lunch at delifrance. fun fun. (: had a delicious quiche.
came back and it was running late
played a few rounds of pool and foosball then dav jess and i had to leave.
had a lot of fun! just laughing and hanging around.
i know dada had fun too. (:
friday!
happy birthday jesso! (((:
we had lunch at crystal jade!
fabulous xiaolongbao they have there. (:
and we watched perhaps love.
okay i dont know if it was because i was falling sick,
but i really didn't enjoy it.
i had a perpetual headache (which later led to my fever)
and the show was really draggy.
the apparent hot guy isn't hot either
(sorry i dont know how to spell his japanese name, haha)
managed to change my necklace to a longer one!
(: but it looks like the original one, whee.
had to leave after that, wasn't feeling well either.
got home, was on the phone with baby till i realised i had a fever.
and no one was home. ):
was feeling really terrible.
dont know why i'm always sick. so annoying. ):
anyway he left at 2+am, going to 3am.
called me at 140am. (:
and i fell asleep, to a 3hour long dream/nightmare
woke up quivering at 430.
couldn't fall asleep, so i had to find an avenue to let it off.
rahh. i hate nightmares.
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the girls, before jess came. at macs.
the girls!
heehee. dont kill me. i still miss you.
the guys. soaked in the sun.
bezzies! i look really strange..............
cyn and i!
jess and i!
i still think i'm a good photographer
footprints! cyn's mine and jess' (:
kawaiii! hahaha.
in deep thought?
haha.
yeah you see the guys weren't very cooperative, that's why we didn't take many pictures of them, neither do we have a proper group photo.
haha.
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it's 131am!
no email yet. ): shall go to sleep then.
if you see this, check the other site.
i believe we are written in the stars
you get me high`
6:07 AM
6:07 AM
Friday, December 9
[my lover's gonee]
rah. i'm sick. down with a fever, headache and sore throat. haven't had a fever in quite awhile. at least it seems to be subsiding.
been out a lot lately, guess that's probably the reason.
have been having rough times and great times. the curve really fluctuates a lot.
went to sentosa yesterday with a really great buncha friends.
will blog about that when i'm feeling better.
along with pictures, i hope? (:
but for now, i dont have long.
bleagh. dada's going to the airport already. ):
it's gonna be 12 lonely days.
so please date me, people.
dont know whether you'll read this at the airport.
if you do, leave me a note!
do blog, do email, try to call.
i'll be missing you. ):
gonna be highly dada-sick for awhile.
at least i've been spending my past few days with him.
at the concert, beach, this morning.
thanks for the flowers. (: gleamss*
remember to have fun
remember not to be ill-influenced
remember to pray
remember to thank
remember to be nice to mummy and daddy
and most of all,
remember to think of me. (:
really gotta return to bed soon, i haven't got much sleep.
what miserable days to come.
come back soon!
lest i fall sick again.
rahh.
i wanna go to beautifull
rah. i'm sick. down with a fever, headache and sore throat. haven't had a fever in quite awhile. at least it seems to be subsiding.
been out a lot lately, guess that's probably the reason.
have been having rough times and great times. the curve really fluctuates a lot.
went to sentosa yesterday with a really great buncha friends.
will blog about that when i'm feeling better.
along with pictures, i hope? (:
but for now, i dont have long.
bleagh. dada's going to the airport already. ):
it's gonna be 12 lonely days.
so please date me, people.
dont know whether you'll read this at the airport.
if you do, leave me a note!
do blog, do email, try to call.
i'll be missing you. ):
gonna be highly dada-sick for awhile.
at least i've been spending my past few days with him.
at the concert, beach, this morning.
thanks for the flowers. (: gleamss*
remember to have fun
remember not to be ill-influenced
remember to pray
remember to thank
remember to be nice to mummy and daddy
and most of all,
remember to think of me. (:
really gotta return to bed soon, i haven't got much sleep.
what miserable days to come.
come back soon!
lest i fall sick again.
rahh.
i wanna go to beautifull
you get me high`
7:53 AM
7:53 AM
Monday, December 5
you're a beautiful surprise
i'm so tired! it's like, almost 1am. been aching for the whole day, from dance yesterday, then happy me went to play bball this morning. whee. (: but of course i strained my arms even further, and that's why they hurt so much now. ): hope they'll be better tomorrow.
i'm having a really bad stomachache, and thus having to run to the washroom every 10 minutes. bleagh.
bball was fun, though tiring. dav taught me how to do layup! and i honestly still suck at it, but better than i was during the school pe module. fun fun. (: and in case you all start thinking i sucked at bball during pe, i didn't! okay i dont know what i just said that, but it's just fyi. ahha. then we went back to his place for a shower and we both fell asleep. yawwn. woke up to 8 missed calls from mum cause she was supposed to pick me up from his place. oops.
humph. baby's leaving soonnn. for twelve days. i'm gonna be so miserable. rah. what so good about austria. nevermind, people now's the best time to date me! i'll surely be free. i'll go out with ivee, learn how to make meringue from tim, go out with derek, cy, lenard, dance more, have more rehearsals, practise my violin really hard, start my jazz piano lessons (which reminds me, LENARDD!! i'm too scared to call your teacher, help me kayy!), make more earrings, bake cookies for my aunties and uncles.
been really bored during the holidays. bleagh. i shall go sleep.
some people just like to piss me off.
hitch's anger.
i'm so tired! it's like, almost 1am. been aching for the whole day, from dance yesterday, then happy me went to play bball this morning. whee. (: but of course i strained my arms even further, and that's why they hurt so much now. ): hope they'll be better tomorrow.
i'm having a really bad stomachache, and thus having to run to the washroom every 10 minutes. bleagh.
bball was fun, though tiring. dav taught me how to do layup! and i honestly still suck at it, but better than i was during the school pe module. fun fun. (: and in case you all start thinking i sucked at bball during pe, i didn't! okay i dont know what i just said that, but it's just fyi. ahha. then we went back to his place for a shower and we both fell asleep. yawwn. woke up to 8 missed calls from mum cause she was supposed to pick me up from his place. oops.
humph. baby's leaving soonnn. for twelve days. i'm gonna be so miserable. rah. what so good about austria. nevermind, people now's the best time to date me! i'll surely be free. i'll go out with ivee, learn how to make meringue from tim, go out with derek, cy, lenard, dance more, have more rehearsals, practise my violin really hard, start my jazz piano lessons (which reminds me, LENARDD!! i'm too scared to call your teacher, help me kayy!), make more earrings, bake cookies for my aunties and uncles.
been really bored during the holidays. bleagh. i shall go sleep.
some people just like to piss me off.
hitch's anger.
you get me high`
8:43 AM
8:43 AM
Saturday, December 3
[bits of destruction]
it's one thirty am now. hooray. my night ended terrible.
it was good, at first, before mummy decided to scold me.
do i really look like a punching bag?
an object to rail at,
an object to lash profanities at?
no i'm not saying my mum's been swearing in my face,
but generally, am i?
woke up late, just in time for lunch.
headed to uncle kiat's place after lunch. had a prayer session with aunty lilian and other unknown people.
it was really good, really powerful.
for the first time i can say, i think i really felt God's presence.
many people like to say that when they're having worship in church,
but honestly i dont think they know what they're feeling.
it's more on a worship-high, when the music's good, and you feel good,
you think you feel God's presence.
but i really dont know, and i dont think so.
anyway, was really encouraged,
and i really want to stop something i'm doing.
cause it's wrong, i know it, but i still do it.
temptations are hard to resist, but i'm going to.
i'm thankful for today, for letting me grasp my faith once again.
then mum and i headed to expo for the john little sale.
shopped for awhile, then queued.
bloody, the queue was so long! thus the satay and the orange juice first
then i made our way to dav's place.
hardly had dinner there cause the vodka made my tummy quesy. ):
but had quite a bit of fun there.
too bad i dont have a close GROUP of friends.
all my friends are all over the place,
so it's hard to have parties, or hang as a clique.
bleagh.
left the place at abt ten past midnight,
then i got scolded for the stupidest reasons.
no not cause i left late, nothing to do with that at all.
but to do with my dressing. wth. so annoyed.
wasn't even her words.
but anyway,
as we speak, my brother and winston, both drunk,
are singing "one people, one nation, one singapore"
at the top of their lungs
and it's a quarter to two am.
marvellous isn't it.
i thought we mentioned a man with few words.
indeed, it's like a man with more song than words,
sprinkled with some cointreau
(or whatever it was they were drinking)
oh oh i know! they were drinking dry gin. bombay supphire (sapphire?) i believe.
no wonder they're all mad, it's pretty strong.
and every time i enter the room, they go,
"HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
yeah. they're 20, btw.
oh well. had better go to bed now.
having earlyearly lunch with mdm ong and the rest of the tuitioners.
hope she hasn't lost her liking for me,
she didn't sound too friendly over sms and the phone. ):
poor ol' dearie me.
yay im meeting derek next week! i think...
after six months or so! ((:
i spread my wings and i learn how to fly
it's one thirty am now. hooray. my night ended terrible.
it was good, at first, before mummy decided to scold me.
do i really look like a punching bag?
an object to rail at,
an object to lash profanities at?
no i'm not saying my mum's been swearing in my face,
but generally, am i?
woke up late, just in time for lunch.
headed to uncle kiat's place after lunch. had a prayer session with aunty lilian and other unknown people.
it was really good, really powerful.
for the first time i can say, i think i really felt God's presence.
many people like to say that when they're having worship in church,
but honestly i dont think they know what they're feeling.
it's more on a worship-high, when the music's good, and you feel good,
you think you feel God's presence.
but i really dont know, and i dont think so.
anyway, was really encouraged,
and i really want to stop something i'm doing.
cause it's wrong, i know it, but i still do it.
temptations are hard to resist, but i'm going to.
i'm thankful for today, for letting me grasp my faith once again.
then mum and i headed to expo for the john little sale.
shopped for awhile, then queued.
bloody, the queue was so long! thus the satay and the orange juice first
then i made our way to dav's place.
hardly had dinner there cause the vodka made my tummy quesy. ):
but had quite a bit of fun there.
too bad i dont have a close GROUP of friends.
all my friends are all over the place,
so it's hard to have parties, or hang as a clique.
bleagh.
left the place at abt ten past midnight,
then i got scolded for the stupidest reasons.
no not cause i left late, nothing to do with that at all.
but to do with my dressing. wth. so annoyed.
wasn't even her words.
but anyway,
as we speak, my brother and winston, both drunk,
are singing "one people, one nation, one singapore"
at the top of their lungs
and it's a quarter to two am.
marvellous isn't it.
i thought we mentioned a man with few words.
indeed, it's like a man with more song than words,
sprinkled with some cointreau
(or whatever it was they were drinking)
oh oh i know! they were drinking dry gin. bombay supphire (sapphire?) i believe.
no wonder they're all mad, it's pretty strong.
and every time i enter the room, they go,
"HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
yeah. they're 20, btw.
oh well. had better go to bed now.
having earlyearly lunch with mdm ong and the rest of the tuitioners.
hope she hasn't lost her liking for me,
she didn't sound too friendly over sms and the phone. ):
poor ol' dearie me.
yay im meeting derek next week! i think...
after six months or so! ((:
i spread my wings and i learn how to fly
you get me high`
9:36 AM
9:36 AM
courtesy of sixth month. (:
nyahhnyahh.
nyahhnyahh.
you get me high`
8:36 AM
8:36 AM
Friday, December 2
[in your eyes i know i'll find my way]
sleepysleepy me.
sixth month today! whee happyhappy. smilesmile.
today started off relatively early. went to ikea in the morning to buy da's photo frame. then headed to ivan's, well, half an hour late. heh. rehearsals were fine. we're singing a christmas song! yayyy. merrymerry. (:
but the swearing's really got to me, really putting me off. i mean. dont guys know that they shouldnt swear so incessantly in front of girls? kinda like basic manners? i dont know, much that we're really good friends, it's really UGH at times. shrugs. i've said it so many times that i'm tired of saying it to your face already. i've never pointed the middle finger at anyone before today, just so you know.
cabbed down with ivan to bugis. thanks for the ride.
took a train to newton, then cabbed to da's placee.
hope you like your gift dear. wheee. today was fun! one of the best. we hung around at his place for awhile. then headed to cityhall akashi for dinner! poor dear, his rice was ten bucks for a really really puny bowl. must have been hungry. hum. explains the carl's jr burger after that. heh. walked around the esplanade area. sat by the rocks next to the river. oooh so lovely. (: my two favourite things. da, and the crashing of the waves. just serene. whee. then we went to marina square to have icecreamm. (: headed home after that. haha he stayed to finish his burger, watch tv, then mummy sent him home cause it was raining. (: happyhappy. i hope things stay like that with him forever.
mummy's back! with a really nice skirt for me, just that it's huge, and it really hangs loosely on my hips. one tug and it's down i tell you. haha. her colleague's mad, he bought her 3 kg of beef, 3 kg of lamb, and 12 types of cheese. so i have a lot to finish at home. geez. and on wednesday, i went shopping with jesso! at bugis village. i tell you it's a whole new world out there. it's madness. at least we found a great and cheap place to have tea. with very very excellent garlic bread for just one buck. wHEE. got myself a cute batik pants-skirt thing. haha i can wear in for dance, it's so cool, looks like i'm flying. (:
it's 3am! and i'm really tired. still gotta blog somewhere else. why isn't my medicine taking effect. my tonsil infection's coming back! blasted doctor. ugh.
ladeedum. whee. (:
you're my inspiration
sleepysleepy me.
sixth month today! whee happyhappy. smilesmile.
today started off relatively early. went to ikea in the morning to buy da's photo frame. then headed to ivan's, well, half an hour late. heh. rehearsals were fine. we're singing a christmas song! yayyy. merrymerry. (:
but the swearing's really got to me, really putting me off. i mean. dont guys know that they shouldnt swear so incessantly in front of girls? kinda like basic manners? i dont know, much that we're really good friends, it's really UGH at times. shrugs. i've said it so many times that i'm tired of saying it to your face already. i've never pointed the middle finger at anyone before today, just so you know.
cabbed down with ivan to bugis. thanks for the ride.
took a train to newton, then cabbed to da's placee.
hope you like your gift dear. wheee. today was fun! one of the best. we hung around at his place for awhile. then headed to cityhall akashi for dinner! poor dear, his rice was ten bucks for a really really puny bowl. must have been hungry. hum. explains the carl's jr burger after that. heh. walked around the esplanade area. sat by the rocks next to the river. oooh so lovely. (: my two favourite things. da, and the crashing of the waves. just serene. whee. then we went to marina square to have icecreamm. (: headed home after that. haha he stayed to finish his burger, watch tv, then mummy sent him home cause it was raining. (: happyhappy. i hope things stay like that with him forever.
mummy's back! with a really nice skirt for me, just that it's huge, and it really hangs loosely on my hips. one tug and it's down i tell you. haha. her colleague's mad, he bought her 3 kg of beef, 3 kg of lamb, and 12 types of cheese. so i have a lot to finish at home. geez. and on wednesday, i went shopping with jesso! at bugis village. i tell you it's a whole new world out there. it's madness. at least we found a great and cheap place to have tea. with very very excellent garlic bread for just one buck. wHEE. got myself a cute batik pants-skirt thing. haha i can wear in for dance, it's so cool, looks like i'm flying. (:
it's 3am! and i'm really tired. still gotta blog somewhere else. why isn't my medicine taking effect. my tonsil infection's coming back! blasted doctor. ugh.
ladeedum. whee. (:
you're my inspiration
you get me high`
9:54 AM
9:54 AM