Sunday, January 29
[such a joy in my life]
happy chinese new year to everyone! (: too bad my doggie died, or it'd be his year.
well it's just been dinners and visiting and more visiting. sorry if i haven't been calling anyone. jess, in particular. i'm sure we both have been busy lar yeah? heh.
so friday night was reunion dinner. my grandma does it one day earlier so the daughters needn't have to go back to their inlaws and miss the dinner. twas at some hotel at novena. my granddad's treat! haha. hell, amounted up to 1000+. crazy. well it was good to see my cousins, just that at least half of them are overseas studying. one came back from working in shanghai to celebrate the new year. so it's all well. the food was aiight i guess, could've been better. dont know why my grandmum hasn't been cooking these years, i miss the tangyuan she always makes.
nothing much to say i guess, shall post some photos!
my big uncle's family! with my grandparents.
shan2, and the two army boys that just got back from bmt! glen and jonathan. (: haha their hair. haha.
my best granddad and i! aww so filial right. (: i have a neoprint with him k! he's way cool.
and of course a lot of photowhoring with shan2.
the night passed, and i woke up to david at my front door. initially we were supposed to go for a picnic! but i think we were both quite lethargic, so we lazed around, until FINALLY making our way there two hours after he came by. we went to west coast park! it's been ages since i'd been there. maybe jjemss should go there as an outing! then come to my place to stay, since we wanted an outing. (: dammit, if only kate was around. she loves west coast park! blahh. sorry girl, really wished you were here. (anyway i think i'm on my way to get the webcam and mic! my brother earned 800 bucks from debating! stupiddd.)
the spiderweb thingamajig that kate and i used to climb up all the time. damnnnn.
and of course there's dav and i photowhoring. (:
hehe, cute right? (:
aiight just had a long night, it's just past 230am now. bedtime! ((:
happy new year y'all!
fever when you're holding me tight
happy chinese new year to everyone! (: too bad my doggie died, or it'd be his year.
well it's just been dinners and visiting and more visiting. sorry if i haven't been calling anyone. jess, in particular. i'm sure we both have been busy lar yeah? heh.
so friday night was reunion dinner. my grandma does it one day earlier so the daughters needn't have to go back to their inlaws and miss the dinner. twas at some hotel at novena. my granddad's treat! haha. hell, amounted up to 1000+. crazy. well it was good to see my cousins, just that at least half of them are overseas studying. one came back from working in shanghai to celebrate the new year. so it's all well. the food was aiight i guess, could've been better. dont know why my grandmum hasn't been cooking these years, i miss the tangyuan she always makes.
nothing much to say i guess, shall post some photos!
my big uncle's family! with my grandparents.
shan2, and the two army boys that just got back from bmt! glen and jonathan. (: haha their hair. haha.
my best granddad and i! aww so filial right. (: i have a neoprint with him k! he's way cool.
and of course a lot of photowhoring with shan2.
the night passed, and i woke up to david at my front door. initially we were supposed to go for a picnic! but i think we were both quite lethargic, so we lazed around, until FINALLY making our way there two hours after he came by. we went to west coast park! it's been ages since i'd been there. maybe jjemss should go there as an outing! then come to my place to stay, since we wanted an outing. (: dammit, if only kate was around. she loves west coast park! blahh. sorry girl, really wished you were here. (anyway i think i'm on my way to get the webcam and mic! my brother earned 800 bucks from debating! stupiddd.)
the spiderweb thingamajig that kate and i used to climb up all the time. damnnnn.
and of course there's dav and i photowhoring. (:
hehe, cute right? (:
aiight just had a long night, it's just past 230am now. bedtime! ((:
happy new year y'all!
fever when you're holding me tight
you get me high`
3:37 AM
3:37 AM
Friday, January 27
[it's taking its toll on me]
life has been hard. due to the many things i'm having to cope with. but i'm just trying to be as normal as can be. and as close to God as possible, cause He'll tide me through it, no matter what the circumstances. i dont know, i feel like there're so many things i need to say, but if i say anymore, i would just blow off one of the closest people to me. so for now i'm just supressing it, and trying to get on with life.
cny has been a-okay i guess. walked around with my og today during celebrations! most of us did the chinese calligraphy!
minee! the two that are in the middle! ((:
even rucha did hers! not bad huh!
haha this is something chingchong did for us. can you decipher 'kelly'? (:
ogl- meiyu!
i dont have a proper picture of kayleigh, cause e pictures i took all look kinda strange. will put one up soon. don't think you're forgotten cause you're nottttt! ((:
chingchong with his chem equations. -.- talk about being an rj student, haha.
and chingchong again smiling for the cam!
have you seen cha dumbfounded by calligraphy? hehe.
well i had a lot more pictures, i'm just too lazy to put them up. soon soon. i'm really tired. and getting kinda vexed at myself. sometimes it's hard to force yourself to smile when you're not the happiest inside, but you know that that's the only way you can solve your own problem. as being moody just screws everything upside down.
i just wish i had someone to talk to.
i miss my best friend soo much. kaitlyn why did you have to go. i just wish you were here. really, it's hard to not have you around me. grahhh.
well to end off, my cousins and i! random picture that was taken during my brother's birthday!
and one of my brother and i. horrible picture, but this is what happens when you take pictures with my brother. you just gotta make do with it cause it's so rare.
i want my best friend back. it's been so hard.
now the song is different, and the words don't even rhyme
life has been hard. due to the many things i'm having to cope with. but i'm just trying to be as normal as can be. and as close to God as possible, cause He'll tide me through it, no matter what the circumstances. i dont know, i feel like there're so many things i need to say, but if i say anymore, i would just blow off one of the closest people to me. so for now i'm just supressing it, and trying to get on with life.
cny has been a-okay i guess. walked around with my og today during celebrations! most of us did the chinese calligraphy!
minee! the two that are in the middle! ((:
even rucha did hers! not bad huh!
haha this is something chingchong did for us. can you decipher 'kelly'? (:
ogl- meiyu!
i dont have a proper picture of kayleigh, cause e pictures i took all look kinda strange. will put one up soon. don't think you're forgotten cause you're nottttt! ((:
chingchong with his chem equations. -.- talk about being an rj student, haha.
and chingchong again smiling for the cam!
have you seen cha dumbfounded by calligraphy? hehe.
well i had a lot more pictures, i'm just too lazy to put them up. soon soon. i'm really tired. and getting kinda vexed at myself. sometimes it's hard to force yourself to smile when you're not the happiest inside, but you know that that's the only way you can solve your own problem. as being moody just screws everything upside down.
i just wish i had someone to talk to.
i miss my best friend soo much. kaitlyn why did you have to go. i just wish you were here. really, it's hard to not have you around me. grahhh.
well to end off, my cousins and i! random picture that was taken during my brother's birthday!
and one of my brother and i. horrible picture, but this is what happens when you take pictures with my brother. you just gotta make do with it cause it's so rare.
i want my best friend back. it's been so hard.
now the song is different, and the words don't even rhyme
you get me high`
7:21 AM
7:21 AM
Sunday, January 22
[change the world]
hello. i'm back! really sleepy, but i feel like blogging.
well mainly i think it's cause church today was... special. in the sense that many things stayed in my head. i played for worship today, wl was beejay. and he actually gave a scenario that i thought was rather thought provoking. he told us to imagine one person we really love, could be your mum or dad, or something. and now imagine that person totally disregards your love for him/her, how would you feel? and then think, that's what God's feeling. when we sin against him, and totally disregard His love for us. i've never looked at it this way, and i'm quite determined to do all i can to please Him, and live for Him. so yeahh, i thought it was a good insight bj introduced.
well then intercessory prayer! something i feel that is usually the most mechanical unsincere prayer, and they always force the younger ones up to pray, and they read from a script, totally not meaning whatever that came outta their mouths. but i can't blame them, cause apparently they're encouraged to write it down, in case they get stuck and all. but charles did the prayer today, and i honestly haven't heard a better intercessory prayer. haha. he didn't use a script, thank goodness, and he was so sincere and genuine, and i thought it was just amazing. made me look at him in a different light. so anyway i went by to commend him, and i hope he was encouraged. (and hopefully inspired to do the prayer more often so that i actually bother paying full attention to him, who doesn't sound like a robot)
but there was something that happened that really turned josh and i off, and we just had to leave the room so as to not see the person's face. i feel that as disciple group leaders, yes it is necessary to guide your disciple in their walk with God, and to encourage them and all. and being a dg leader gives them a SLIGHT authority over their disciples. but really, it will be too much to go overboard. and start ordering them around. the intentions may have been good, but once executed in the wrong way, would be a really huge turn off. if i were in max's place today, i would have just rolled my eyes at my dgl, ask him what his problem is, and just walk off. church and yz is a place to help fellow brothers and sisters grow, and not to order them around like dogs. ah well.
anyway, met jess and headed to dance. my gosh pat is mad, as i always say. it was fast, vigorous, very very tiring, but just fantabulously cool. but at the end of it, i was drenched in perspiration and was just too tired to budge. spent a really long time in the restroom drying myself and cooling off, then i headed to marina square to meet cyn and josh! (: we watched in her shoes! yay yay. i liked the movie quite a bit, and somehow i thought it was really appropriate, cause it helped me sort out quite a bit of my thoughts regarding my relationship. and guys out there! if you wanna know how to be a great bf, go watch these kinda shows! or korean dramas for that matter, if you can be like that, you will really be a catch! hehe.
i like going out with cyn and josh! they make me feel really comfortable. and thank you cyn who has been a great listening ear. (: i guess i'm the sort of person who needs to talk my feeelings out to sort them out and feel better. in fact, i think everyone is like that, it's just that some of them don't know they're like that. it's really important to talk to other people about things that are plaguing your mind. you'll realise that when you say it out, new insights will emerge, and you will somehow feel more relaxed. ladeedoo. and josh is just plain funny, haha. (: should have more of these kinda outings.
well to be honest, i kinda hate school now. i hate the fact that i'm in jc, i hate the long hours, i hate tiring lect-tutorial system, i hate my schedule cause it clashes with dav's, i hate the fact that i'm so unsure if i'm gonna get into the cca i really wanna be in, i hate it that the work seems really hard, i hate the fact that i feel so unintelligent amongst my classmates, i just hate it. but somehow i think i'll get used to it, and it won't be so bad after awhile. and the long hours won't seem so long, and i won't be so tired at the end of the day. but i have a problem, i can't seem to study properly at home. blahh. i'm highly distracted, and i'm either too tired or too restless to sit at the table and read through my notes. the only thing i love is my og and ogls, but now we're all so busy, and we have lesser and lesser time together. ): we need a proper og outing again!
ahh i've been having really nice people by my side to talk to me. and help me answer questions that they can help answer, leaving me with less doubts than ever. sometimes it may seem as though i have really few friends, yet sometimes it seems like i know the whole world. but after all, i think my base friends are there, these people always here to give me a helping hand, to hear me out without expecting anything in return. all just ready to give me their love and concern. unfortunately, i dont think many of them are from school. heh. been talking to jesso, cy, cyn? and they just make me feel happier. (: so thankk youu. it's too bad for me that cy's in the army, and i can only talk to him properly during weekends. but i hate the fact that he's someone i always go to, and he's always mature and honest about everything. let's hope he doesn't read this lest his head gets bigger, but for the the past four years, he's really been there, and i really appreciate it. and i've been emailing kate! whee my best best friend! i miss you so muchh! why are you in some strange place, without me! ): ahh well, i just hope you're doing fine there, please take care of yourself. it's been great talking to you via email though, (: i'll get my webcam and mic soon, my bro just got a lot of cash for his birthday, haha. but i never catch you online, so yeah, how? anyway, i thank God for these great friends of mine, they're really irreplaceable.
yayy long entry for once! (:
gotta go read some lect notes before i die tomorrow. till next time!
we used to harmonise two souls in perfect time
hello. i'm back! really sleepy, but i feel like blogging.
well mainly i think it's cause church today was... special. in the sense that many things stayed in my head. i played for worship today, wl was beejay. and he actually gave a scenario that i thought was rather thought provoking. he told us to imagine one person we really love, could be your mum or dad, or something. and now imagine that person totally disregards your love for him/her, how would you feel? and then think, that's what God's feeling. when we sin against him, and totally disregard His love for us. i've never looked at it this way, and i'm quite determined to do all i can to please Him, and live for Him. so yeahh, i thought it was a good insight bj introduced.
well then intercessory prayer! something i feel that is usually the most mechanical unsincere prayer, and they always force the younger ones up to pray, and they read from a script, totally not meaning whatever that came outta their mouths. but i can't blame them, cause apparently they're encouraged to write it down, in case they get stuck and all. but charles did the prayer today, and i honestly haven't heard a better intercessory prayer. haha. he didn't use a script, thank goodness, and he was so sincere and genuine, and i thought it was just amazing. made me look at him in a different light. so anyway i went by to commend him, and i hope he was encouraged. (and hopefully inspired to do the prayer more often so that i actually bother paying full attention to him, who doesn't sound like a robot)
but there was something that happened that really turned josh and i off, and we just had to leave the room so as to not see the person's face. i feel that as disciple group leaders, yes it is necessary to guide your disciple in their walk with God, and to encourage them and all. and being a dg leader gives them a SLIGHT authority over their disciples. but really, it will be too much to go overboard. and start ordering them around. the intentions may have been good, but once executed in the wrong way, would be a really huge turn off. if i were in max's place today, i would have just rolled my eyes at my dgl, ask him what his problem is, and just walk off. church and yz is a place to help fellow brothers and sisters grow, and not to order them around like dogs. ah well.
anyway, met jess and headed to dance. my gosh pat is mad, as i always say. it was fast, vigorous, very very tiring, but just fantabulously cool. but at the end of it, i was drenched in perspiration and was just too tired to budge. spent a really long time in the restroom drying myself and cooling off, then i headed to marina square to meet cyn and josh! (: we watched in her shoes! yay yay. i liked the movie quite a bit, and somehow i thought it was really appropriate, cause it helped me sort out quite a bit of my thoughts regarding my relationship. and guys out there! if you wanna know how to be a great bf, go watch these kinda shows! or korean dramas for that matter, if you can be like that, you will really be a catch! hehe.
i like going out with cyn and josh! they make me feel really comfortable. and thank you cyn who has been a great listening ear. (: i guess i'm the sort of person who needs to talk my feeelings out to sort them out and feel better. in fact, i think everyone is like that, it's just that some of them don't know they're like that. it's really important to talk to other people about things that are plaguing your mind. you'll realise that when you say it out, new insights will emerge, and you will somehow feel more relaxed. ladeedoo. and josh is just plain funny, haha. (: should have more of these kinda outings.
well to be honest, i kinda hate school now. i hate the fact that i'm in jc, i hate the long hours, i hate tiring lect-tutorial system, i hate my schedule cause it clashes with dav's, i hate the fact that i'm so unsure if i'm gonna get into the cca i really wanna be in, i hate it that the work seems really hard, i hate the fact that i feel so unintelligent amongst my classmates, i just hate it. but somehow i think i'll get used to it, and it won't be so bad after awhile. and the long hours won't seem so long, and i won't be so tired at the end of the day. but i have a problem, i can't seem to study properly at home. blahh. i'm highly distracted, and i'm either too tired or too restless to sit at the table and read through my notes. the only thing i love is my og and ogls, but now we're all so busy, and we have lesser and lesser time together. ): we need a proper og outing again!
ahh i've been having really nice people by my side to talk to me. and help me answer questions that they can help answer, leaving me with less doubts than ever. sometimes it may seem as though i have really few friends, yet sometimes it seems like i know the whole world. but after all, i think my base friends are there, these people always here to give me a helping hand, to hear me out without expecting anything in return. all just ready to give me their love and concern. unfortunately, i dont think many of them are from school. heh. been talking to jesso, cy, cyn? and they just make me feel happier. (: so thankk youu. it's too bad for me that cy's in the army, and i can only talk to him properly during weekends. but i hate the fact that he's someone i always go to, and he's always mature and honest about everything. let's hope he doesn't read this lest his head gets bigger, but for the the past four years, he's really been there, and i really appreciate it. and i've been emailing kate! whee my best best friend! i miss you so muchh! why are you in some strange place, without me! ): ahh well, i just hope you're doing fine there, please take care of yourself. it's been great talking to you via email though, (: i'll get my webcam and mic soon, my bro just got a lot of cash for his birthday, haha. but i never catch you online, so yeah, how? anyway, i thank God for these great friends of mine, they're really irreplaceable.
yayy long entry for once! (:
gotta go read some lect notes before i die tomorrow. till next time!
we used to harmonise two souls in perfect time
you get me high`
4:46 AM
4:46 AM
Friday, January 20
desafinado
second jazz auditions today. really kinda sucked. i think i could've done much better. but i really want to get in, i really like what they're doing there. i really love playing and singing with a jazz band, but i just don't know why i screwed up just now. i wasn't even THAT nervous, unlike the previous audition. bleagh. hopefully God's merciful, and the comm is too. ):
well school's been quite difficult. getting a bit tough trying to understand everything. chemistry, bio, math. blah. gotta go for a proper mdm ong session and clear all my math doubts for once. it's unnerving to have so many questions on math. and i hate the graphic calculators. they're damn troublesome!
blahh. still brooding over my audition.
many bad things have been happening, making me rather moody. but i guess things are getting better, and i willl be happier very soon. (:
anyway i gotta start preparing worship stuff and all. better get going. sorry i haven't been blogging much. too much to say with too little time. and energy. so yeahh. might as well not say, haha. my auditionn. ):
sounds to me like a symphony
second jazz auditions today. really kinda sucked. i think i could've done much better. but i really want to get in, i really like what they're doing there. i really love playing and singing with a jazz band, but i just don't know why i screwed up just now. i wasn't even THAT nervous, unlike the previous audition. bleagh. hopefully God's merciful, and the comm is too. ):
well school's been quite difficult. getting a bit tough trying to understand everything. chemistry, bio, math. blah. gotta go for a proper mdm ong session and clear all my math doubts for once. it's unnerving to have so many questions on math. and i hate the graphic calculators. they're damn troublesome!
blahh. still brooding over my audition.
many bad things have been happening, making me rather moody. but i guess things are getting better, and i willl be happier very soon. (:
anyway i gotta start preparing worship stuff and all. better get going. sorry i haven't been blogging much. too much to say with too little time. and energy. so yeahh. might as well not say, haha. my auditionn. ):
sounds to me like a symphony
you get me high`
3:59 AM
3:59 AM
Monday, January 16
[dream a little dream]
these days haven't been smooth at all. getting myself injured, and having to miss my dance scholarship audtions because of that. tragedy happening within the family. getting scolded incessantly. sighh. but despite all of that, i'm happy. (: i have been happy. since saturday, when everything bad started to happen. but saturday was a great day, that really made me smile. yayyy. but friday was horrible, haven't felt that way for ages. sigh. but nevermind, all's welll. and it's gonna be better, i'm quite sure.
i have baby hamsters! stupid shopkeeper told me the two hamsters i got for my brother were both male! but now we have baby hamsters! and we discovered which one's the mother already. haha, even the hamsters gave my brother a birthday present! haha. (: they're quite adorable i guess, just gets kinda troublesome when they grow up and we gotta separate all of them. rahh.
still freaking out about my auditions. howw.
ah well, i think i'd better head to bed soon. my head's been spinning around like crazy. blahh.
later!
still craving your kiss
these days haven't been smooth at all. getting myself injured, and having to miss my dance scholarship audtions because of that. tragedy happening within the family. getting scolded incessantly. sighh. but despite all of that, i'm happy. (: i have been happy. since saturday, when everything bad started to happen. but saturday was a great day, that really made me smile. yayyy. but friday was horrible, haven't felt that way for ages. sigh. but nevermind, all's welll. and it's gonna be better, i'm quite sure.
i have baby hamsters! stupid shopkeeper told me the two hamsters i got for my brother were both male! but now we have baby hamsters! and we discovered which one's the mother already. haha, even the hamsters gave my brother a birthday present! haha. (: they're quite adorable i guess, just gets kinda troublesome when they grow up and we gotta separate all of them. rahh.
still freaking out about my auditions. howw.
ah well, i think i'd better head to bed soon. my head's been spinning around like crazy. blahh.
later!
still craving your kiss
you get me high`
6:41 AM
6:41 AM
Thursday, January 12
me against the music
ugh this week's been so taxing. there's something wrong with me-i'm awfully tired 24-7. not the school kinda tired, but the type of fatigue that weighs you down even when you get home, and you just haven't any energy to do anything. not even talking for a long period of time. i hope it'd improve soon cause i hate feeling like this. ): and to kate, if you're reading this, sorry i'm quite a few days late for my reply to you. i've been really busy and really tired and it's just killing me. i'll reply soon k?
getting my timetable tomorrow. i really hope it's not jam packed! as it is i'm spending so little time with dada. ): and actually i dont really like just going to town whenever i meet up with him. it's really dry after awhile. like really no life. sigh. and i think we usually have ccas on our short days, so that sucks even more, right? sigh. so damn little time, but it's not like we have a choice. jc sucks. ): i just wished that we could meet more often. hopefully things will start picking up once everything settles down, and the absence now is just temporary. or else i wouldn't know how to continue. blahh.
well introductory lectures have been a real bore, and the lecture seats are so not condusive for studying. but the weather's so cold, it's like a global aircon- a perfect climate to wanna snuggle in bed and get lost in dreamland. it's so cold that when i take naps, i dream that it's snowing. ahhahaha. (LAUGH, you're supposed to LAUGH, haha) okay nevermind, i'm a bit wonked out today. oh but we had KI lectures, and they seemed rather interesting albeit challenging. just hope i'll be able to handle it.
yayy i love my og! i still love them. i realise they're the reason that makes me so psyched about going to school. like being able to hang with them at the z'cove every morning. okay i guess most of the time i either don't talk, or talk too much, but i still love my og! and my ogls! yayy. (:
okay i'd better get to bed soon. dammit it's only 1030, the night's still bloody young. rahh.
i'm damn freaked about jazz auditions lar. someone save meee.
blackblackheart
ugh this week's been so taxing. there's something wrong with me-i'm awfully tired 24-7. not the school kinda tired, but the type of fatigue that weighs you down even when you get home, and you just haven't any energy to do anything. not even talking for a long period of time. i hope it'd improve soon cause i hate feeling like this. ): and to kate, if you're reading this, sorry i'm quite a few days late for my reply to you. i've been really busy and really tired and it's just killing me. i'll reply soon k?
getting my timetable tomorrow. i really hope it's not jam packed! as it is i'm spending so little time with dada. ): and actually i dont really like just going to town whenever i meet up with him. it's really dry after awhile. like really no life. sigh. and i think we usually have ccas on our short days, so that sucks even more, right? sigh. so damn little time, but it's not like we have a choice. jc sucks. ): i just wished that we could meet more often. hopefully things will start picking up once everything settles down, and the absence now is just temporary. or else i wouldn't know how to continue. blahh.
well introductory lectures have been a real bore, and the lecture seats are so not condusive for studying. but the weather's so cold, it's like a global aircon- a perfect climate to wanna snuggle in bed and get lost in dreamland. it's so cold that when i take naps, i dream that it's snowing. ahhahaha. (LAUGH, you're supposed to LAUGH, haha) okay nevermind, i'm a bit wonked out today. oh but we had KI lectures, and they seemed rather interesting albeit challenging. just hope i'll be able to handle it.
yayy i love my og! i still love them. i realise they're the reason that makes me so psyched about going to school. like being able to hang with them at the z'cove every morning. okay i guess most of the time i either don't talk, or talk too much, but i still love my og! and my ogls! yayy. (:
okay i'd better get to bed soon. dammit it's only 1030, the night's still bloody young. rahh.
i'm damn freaked about jazz auditions lar. someone save meee.
blackblackheart
you get me high`
6:08 AM
6:08 AM
Tuesday, January 10
[and i stand in awe of you]
helloo. i've been too lazy to blog. the fatigue's catching up on me. i have mentioned that orientation's over, haven't i? it's just hard to believe. like da said, orientation was like a one week camp, and it still feels like the holidays now. wonder how i'm gonna get used to jc life. at least i have an awesome og to confide in, and just basically have fun with! (: the year started off well with them.
anyway i just finished a prayer and praise session at home. (the reason why i had to rush home just now) the believers in the family gathered to pray for my aunt. and i had to do the piano playing. all went really well though. (: it's a great feeling when under tough circumstances, your family still stays strong. ladeedoo.
it's 2216 now, and my mind tells me that i need to sleep. oh yeah i need to take a shower too. crap, hope i dont catch a cold again.
there's been a lot of things on my mind, but i'm trying to make myeslf feel more secure. and not worry so much, let God take over. but still it doesn't leave my mind. ): i guess sleep would help.
aiight, ciao then.
i'm coming back to the heart of worship
helloo. i've been too lazy to blog. the fatigue's catching up on me. i have mentioned that orientation's over, haven't i? it's just hard to believe. like da said, orientation was like a one week camp, and it still feels like the holidays now. wonder how i'm gonna get used to jc life. at least i have an awesome og to confide in, and just basically have fun with! (: the year started off well with them.
anyway i just finished a prayer and praise session at home. (the reason why i had to rush home just now) the believers in the family gathered to pray for my aunt. and i had to do the piano playing. all went really well though. (: it's a great feeling when under tough circumstances, your family still stays strong. ladeedoo.
it's 2216 now, and my mind tells me that i need to sleep. oh yeah i need to take a shower too. crap, hope i dont catch a cold again.
there's been a lot of things on my mind, but i'm trying to make myeslf feel more secure. and not worry so much, let God take over. but still it doesn't leave my mind. ): i guess sleep would help.
aiight, ciao then.
i'm coming back to the heart of worship
you get me high`
6:05 AM
6:05 AM
Sunday, January 8
come on over
helloo. week 1 of school's over! orientation was quite fun, with my og. other than that, it wasn't that great. not the programme or anything, but more of how people were treating me. but nevertheless, the ogls are really great. they put in so much effort, for the games, storyline, planning to every detail. i think we all really appreciate it. to kayleigh, chinghui, and meiyu, orientation wouldn't have been fun without you guys. (: and to my og! elfarios! we rock! everyone was so sporting throughout, the guys too. and we're good at the batch dance! WHEE. we're good. (:
so orientation's come and gone, and lessons are starting. everything still feels like a dream. school seems temporary to me, i'm just trying to get used to it.
i'm trying to not keep remembering the bad times, not letting it plague my mind. cause it doesn't help anything. but from time to time, when i'm alone, when i've nothing to do, it just comes back. guess time heals all wounds, don't they?(:
lock me in your heart and never let me go
helloo. week 1 of school's over! orientation was quite fun, with my og. other than that, it wasn't that great. not the programme or anything, but more of how people were treating me. but nevertheless, the ogls are really great. they put in so much effort, for the games, storyline, planning to every detail. i think we all really appreciate it. to kayleigh, chinghui, and meiyu, orientation wouldn't have been fun without you guys. (: and to my og! elfarios! we rock! everyone was so sporting throughout, the guys too. and we're good at the batch dance! WHEE. we're good. (:
so orientation's come and gone, and lessons are starting. everything still feels like a dream. school seems temporary to me, i'm just trying to get used to it.
i'm trying to not keep remembering the bad times, not letting it plague my mind. cause it doesn't help anything. but from time to time, when i'm alone, when i've nothing to do, it just comes back. guess time heals all wounds, don't they?(:
lock me in your heart and never let me go
you get me high`
6:03 AM
6:03 AM
Wednesday, January 4
[you tried to cut me so i'd fit]
photos as i promised!
in church!
nye was just cyn mikh jay and i.
this was taken before josh left us.
the 'ah lian' and 'ah beng'!
damn horrible, haha.
picture perfecttttttt!!
first picture of 2006!
and more...
da paid us a visit. (:
beeeeejay!
they look damn nice together!! heh.
too bad it wasn't all of jjemss.
anyway 2006 has begun! j1 just isn't sinking in.
orientation's been pretty fun. silly, but fun.
and it has changed my impression of ri very slightly.
heh.
better go do my stuff now. turra!
photos as i promised!
in church!
nye was just cyn mikh jay and i.
this was taken before josh left us.
the 'ah lian' and 'ah beng'!
damn horrible, haha.
picture perfecttttttt!!
first picture of 2006!
and more...
da paid us a visit. (:
beeeeejay!
they look damn nice together!! heh.
too bad it wasn't all of jjemss.
anyway 2006 has begun! j1 just isn't sinking in.
orientation's been pretty fun. silly, but fun.
and it has changed my impression of ri very slightly.
heh.
better go do my stuff now. turra!
you get me high`
1:53 AM
1:53 AM